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Author: JP Sina
last update Last Updated: 2022-12-16 03:51:16
“Female?” I scoffed.

“Tell me the truth,” he growled. Angry glowing eyes peered back at me. I don’t know whether to be scared or to be angry. Who does he think he is? I don’t have to tell him anything. He’s not my alpha and I don’t need to answer any of his questions. I don’t even know who he is.

“I had sex with my boyfriend, Alpha. I don’t see why I would have to explain that to you,” I said. It came out more aggressive than I meant to, but dammit, my fight or flight mode had been activated. Instead of running, I lifted my chin, squared my shoulders and looked him in the eyes. His nostrils flared and his eyes flashed as Andrius tried to take the reigns. “I don’t even know you,” I said.

“Kai.”

“What?” I asked.

“My. name. is. Kai,” he said. He inhales deeply, his chest expanding and it took every ounce of willpower I had not to drop my eyes and stare. He closed his eyes and cracked his neck. When he opened his eyes again, Kai was gone, and Andrius was back.

“These bruises don’t sa
JP Sina

This chapter was hard for me to write. The original story went a different way, but as I re-read over it I felt that Amia would be honest with herself. It may not be the right time, but when is the right time to face reality? Thank you for your patience! Since coming back from vacation life has been a whirlwind of change. Thank you for your support!

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YAILYN
I love this chapter, Amia's thoughts and struggles, the diffivulty of voicing the reality of what happened and then the realisation of it all. I really like this book, I'm glad you didn't give up on it and I hope to get more from it.
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Jeanthale (talia)
It a good step in the right direction at least she can admit that what dylan did is not right. She is not okay, she need to want better to be better
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