HAERA. I gave Alan my back, shielding my face away from him because I didn't want to let whatever emotion I was feeling show. Letting him see me however I was at that moment would make me vulnerable even to myself because of how I've promised myself not to think of my mate and anything related to him. I had been successful at doing that. I was busy with a lot of things to do and learn as an Alpha princess, enough for me to forget about him for days and worry about my lessons. I even got myself a distraction in the person of Basil,had conflicting emotions and then ended up kissing him before I could stop myself. Leave out the embarrassment I felt after the kiss and my attempts to avoid Basil, and you have yourself a woman who did a very good job at letting go of Zachary and focusing on myself and my new life. But of course, it didn't last. I didn't expect it to. I didn't expect my new found peace and quiet to last. I knew Alpha Zachary enough to deduce that he wasn't the patient type a
HAERA "What if that is the case?" Reasoning with Dezra became hopeless so I chose to leave her to whatever ideas she had been fantasizing about in her wolfy head. I didn't want her to get to me. "Then I'll be disappointed in you. You left our mate because you couldn't bear the pain of what he did with Ilvira but are you any different?" Dezra growled at me. If I wasn't determined to stay adamant, I would have coiled up somewhere to cry my eyeballs out. How could she be so insensitive to my feelings when we are meant to be pals no matter what the problem may be. "How can you love someone who isn't our mate!" Dezra barked furiously. "How can you side with him when you are my wolf!" My response was quick and harsh. Two can play the game. I felt betrayed. I felt alone. No one was listening to me or how I felt even my damn wolf was fighting me for his sake. "You know I'm watching out for you, Hae-" "That isn't what you are doing. You're turning a blind eye to me and my feelings because you
HAERA. The Imperial pack. That's where I was bound for early the next morning after sorting things out at my pack. I was riding back in the same carriage that carried me out of the Imperial pack as a maid and then to my pack as a princess. Honestly, it's hard to tell what feelings I left with or the reason I even left in the first place. Was it because of my discussion with Basil? Or my argument with my wolf who I haven't even fully made up with yet? Or maybe the late night discussion I had with my parents after the discussion with Basil. It had really taken a lot for me to go back to my parents to tender an apology for reacting that way to them. I literally dragged my legs over to their chambers. My mother's face hadn't held any form of surprise when she saw me by the door of their chambers. She had welcomed me with a big smile and a hug as if she had expected me to come to her. "It's okay my dear daughter. I really understand how you feel, believe me, I'd be mad too if I was the one
HAERA All of my plans were long forgotten or should I say neglected? Not that I wanted to let go of my previous decisions but I had to and my hopes of seeing my mate awake had been crushed. Although I had accepted the fact that I wouldn't be able to just see him and return to my parent's pack, I didn't expect the days to gradually turn into a week. A week even became weeks yet Zachary didn't regain his consciousness. I was beginning to forget my reasons for being mad at him as the days passed. My heart had even begun to ache because of his motionless state and I had to see him like that every day. After all, I tended to him. It was another morning again. The beginning of a be a day that might appear beautiful and bright to others but to me, it was just another day to continue the heartbreaking responsibilities that I had been made to shoulder. "I've brought the Alpha's bathing water and towel, Prin- Luna." One of the numerous servant girls informed me as she entered Alpha Zachary's c
HAERAI raced off to the place that has been the main course for my feet every single day with my heart pounding from both the distance I covered in less than a minute and from the fear of what I was going to encounter when I get to my mate. As I continued to cover the distance between my previous position and the Alpha's chambers, my mind whirled with thoughts as to what might be wrong and why it was enough for someone to come running to call me. My mind thought of both the positive and the negative meanings that could be behind such a sudden and distressed call. He must have woken up. His eyes must have finally come open. He has returned to me. The moon goddess has returned him to me. What other positive thoughts could cloud my mind if not these ones? I have waited patiently and expectantly for something like that. Several times, I have even imagined it in different versions and different ways. On some days, I imagined myself being by his bedside, speaking to him and then he speaks
"Mom..." That was the first word he said after he opened his eyes miraculously. Those orbs that I had missed so bad glinted with unshed tears as he stared at me like I was his long lost trophy. I had thought he was probably still lost in his head when he voiced out that short endearment but my conclusion changed when he called out with longing. "Mom!" Zachary cried as he struggled to stretch his hands like he was trying to reach out to someone. Mom? Was he seeing things? Illusions maybe? I turned slowly to look behind me if someone was actually there but Alpha Zachary's mom wasn't there... in fact, there was no one except him and me in his chambers at that moment. He couldn't be referring to me as his mom, could he? Of course not. That's absurd. Turning my face back to him, I knew I had to say something to bring him out of whatever daze he was in. It was tough enough that I had to suffer for weeks because he was unconscious not to mention his near death experience. I doubted if I was
HAERA How does one describe hell? Of course, it's an endless pit that everyone attributed to fire and a world that comes after the one we are currently living in. It's the norm. It is what we knew growing up. It's what's meant to be! But somehow, over the years of living as an immortal creature with more years to live out, that particular meaning has lost its touch if it ever even had any. Hell just wasn't something you go through in another life for telling a few lies and taking a few lives. The world we are now has a living hell of its own. And I, being my usual unlucky self, have gone through various forms of that hell, enough to last the lifetime that I still had ahead of me. But of all the hells I've gone through, none could be this worse. None could match my mate acting like a fucking ten year old and me having to baby him around like a real mother when I knew absolutely nothing about parenting. My life suddenly being reduced from longing and yearning to me trying to keep a ten
HAERA Nothing has changed! The damn situation was draining me but it still hasn't changed for weeks now. To be sincere, I had lost track of days. I hardly have a few minutes to myself these days. Most of the time it would be grown-ass-but-baby-mind Zachary creating problems for me and whenever I finally got saved from him by sleep, the pack matters arose to strangle me. Somehow, I missed my days of being a chef. It has been ages since I created a new dish. Argh! Who was going to save me? No one! But I was starting to hate cooking because of "my son's" constant requests. I could only pray to the goddess that she should restore Alpha Zachary's memories because I was losing my mind. Different things come up everyday! My mate must have decided to punish me for leaving him before and his mind chose the perfect way to deal with me by making me his mom. I already accepted my fate but like I said, Zachary always brings new requests to my table every damn day but what happened today was unexp
EPILOGUE. HAERA.(A year later)Where in the world is he?I paced the length of the room with frantic and erratic steps. Up...down.Up...down. Just like that. My covered feet made tapping sounds on the ground with how I took more than a step in a second out of worry and fear that something might be terribly wrong somewhere.Opaline was behind me and probably looking at me with more worry than I felt now. In her arms, was my days old baby boy whose traditional naming ceremony as a new pup born into the werewolf clan was today. My little son came as a bouncing little blessing to me and my mate. It was just what we needed to complete our perfect family and our perfect life. Life over the past year has been nothing short of that for the both of us and even the people of the pack at large–perfect. With Tybalt gone and the peace of the pack restored, all I and my mate had to focus on was our duties as the leaders of the pack. I was officially the Luna and I never imagined the acceptance
ALPHA ZACHARYThat kiss was different.To be candid, everything was different when I was doing it with my destined mate.The marking process, the ritual, the coronation ane every damn thing in between was special.But the kiss was different in a good way.Why wouldn't it be when it was our first kiss. The very first kiss we shared as destined mate.It was our first even though it wasn't my first.Saying I regretted every moment I spent with Ilvira would be an understatement and even though I was at fault too, I couldn't stop myself from hating her and her biological mother for coming in between Haera and I.They came into my life to ruin this.I should have been enjoying this bliss ever since I became Alpha but Gennora just had to ruin it.I decided it was time to stop thinking about my past and what I had missed with Haera when she moaned into my mouth during that heated kiss. A kiss that left me hungry for my mate.For my Amanisa.I loved her new names but it was Amanisa for me and
HAERAThis kind of news was great but at the same time unbelievable. Before the arrival of the news, Basil had been complaining and whining about how he felt useless by staying with me."I thought he was jealous of our relationship. Why entrust your safety with me?"Basil had complained as he termed "protecting me" as "babysitting me". I kept hitting him on his back to shut him up but what harm could my fragile hands do to him?"He doesn't like you but he trusts you to protect me."I had tried to clarify but Basil gave me a silly response regardless, earning himself another slap on his back."Will you feel safer when you kill me, your supposed protector?"Basil had barked at me and I was close to hitting him again but Alan's arrival saved him from me. I wasted no time showing my worry and also asked Alan about the situation."Everything is under control, Princess Haera."Alan responded without a hint of what actually happened. His face was void of emotions which made it difficult for
ALPHA ZACHARY. That feeling was clear and certain. I sat in front of the mirror, looking at myself and my features, the changes and the parts that didn't change as well in the past few days. I was reminded of this moment by that feeling that tells you you have been in a place before with only a few things being different in the situation of things. The last time I sat in front of a mirror like this; with that somber expression on my face, was the day of the duel months ago. The very day that changed my life and my fate. I recognized the look on my face that day as that of a man who wasn't willing to fight. I didn't need anyone to tell me and I didn't need my wolf to remind me even if he took it upon himself to do so. I remembered how the maids prepped me up and prepared me like I was attending some ball and not a battle that would determine my faith. I was simply like a ram that was being taken to the slaughter; fattened and all dressed up for my blood to be spilled. All the feel
HAERAWe were stuck in the wilderness and in time as well.This place is the perfect definition of timeless and unchanging. Except for the usual nightfall and daybreak, there was nothing that signifies the time of the day. It was morning again and to be honest, I have lost track of time.The first few days were traceable but I got tired of keeping tabs on the number of days and nights that we had spent in this strange place when there were other things to worry about.Perhaps it was the thought of how Alpha Zachary and I would escape this open prison that made me forget how many days we had spent walking, searching for a new way out, going around in circles, and being each other's strength.Or perhaps it was as a result of the growing bond between my mate and me. Either way, it was all Tybalt's fault.I must commend his quick thinking though. He found a way to make sure Alpha Zachary and I never get out of here alive if we manage to survive the fall like the other time.My mate had b
HAERAThe anger boiling inside of me as I yelled at Zachary was one whose reason was unknown to me;not entirely unknown but just strange because I was angry about a lot of things yet relieved at the same time. It was dangerous for him to have followed me and then try to save me by jumping in. It was stupid and even though it reminded me of my own self, it didn't make me less angry. He never listens to me and does things his own way, that's the only reason he could have tailed me all the way to the cliff. How the hell did he even do it? My relief was only from the fact that he was right there, in front of me, safe and looking confused as hell. I had thought of the worst after Tybalt drugged me and had me brought down here but seeing him out of danger and safe was what made me feel relieved. But I wasn't near done yet. His presence might bring me relief but still, it was dangerous for him to have followed me. "Why the hell did you come all the way here with me?huh? You never listen! You
ALPHA ZACHARY The light but severe weight on my head was crushing my skull painfully. I wasn't fully conscious of my environment but I could bitterly sense my discomfort in every part of my body. My eyes were clenched tight as I groaned out in pain due to everything that felt painfully out of place. Naturally, I tried to reach for my wolf as I rubbed my head but I couldn't feel Serge like I was supposed to. My mind was blank of every other emotion that wasn't pain and uncertainty. I wanted to keep my eyes closed and remain in the same position but I was uncomfortable due to the rocks that were pricking my back. I changed my position slowly but without gritting my teeth in pain. The process was slow but thankfully, I was able to control my arms which had been laying limply beside me. I used my hand to reposition myself into a sitting posture as I fluttered my eyelids with caution. All of my other senses as an Alpha seemed to be failing me because I was unable to sense the scent of my
HAERAI pried my eyes open but it was still dark all around me like I still had eyes tightly closed and like I was still back in that darkness that consumed me when I fell to the floor and the one I've been in for longer than I can remember. I knew I was knocked out for a long time because of how weak and rigid my body felt. I closed and opened my eyes a few times, trying to assure myself that I was really out of the blackout moment which time frame I had no idea about. It was all the same, no matter the number of times I opened and closed my eyes. Nothing changed and I was convinced that it had nothing to do with my eyes. It has to be where I was huddled at. The thought of it brought about my next question. Where was I? The memories of my last moments before now haunted me and echoed in my head, making a sharp pain that I had paid less attention to, sear through my head. It made me wince and try to sit back but I couldn't even move a muscle. Not because I was weak and tired but becau
HAERA Shouldn't it be a crime for news to affect living creatures' emotions? The annoying part is that the word "news" has been subdivided into good and bad which are usually out of our control. As much as I understand that some things just have to happen, I still didn't like the news I received a few seconds ago. Why couldn't we always get those things we wanted? Everyone knew that the best news that I wanted to hear at this moment was about my mate regaining his memories but that didn't happen. I was standing in front of my Papa, forcing myself not to show him how much his information affected me even though I wanted to act like a child...his child. "Are you with me?" My papa questioned when I didn't react to his announcement. He just told me that he has to return home because something urgent came up even though I still needed him here...with me. He was an Alpha after all and Alphas shouldn't stay away from their pack longer than necessary. "Yes, Papa but do you have to leave toda