RAINIAt moments like this, I was confused about what to do , it was moments like this that left me scared most of the time.I was trying all I could to take the whole situation of things that was happening in.All we did was drive in silence, even as the rain showered down upon us, and the windshield of the car.As we did I pondered on what I was going to do about the whole situation, the whole talk about being traced and being followed was still at the back of my mind.Perhaps, River was right going back to Zavier.That looked to be the last thing on my mind, at least not after two months of trying to get him off my mind.Soon we were driving in the main highway,as the streetlights blurred beyond the drips of rain running down the glass.I wanted to look out into the darkness and let all my thoughts and worry slide away into the shadows.While worry and doubts were heavy on my mind, The sky was dark, pretending to be night even as we made our way back home."What are you thinking
RAINII Stood for what seemed like a long minute, and I could have sworn that my heart was almost out of my chest.She was definitely the last person I was expecting to see at the moment, what was it months?It was hard to get my mind around the fact of everything that was happening, I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. It was almost Like I was in a kind of trance and the only thing that could take me back to reality was a snap of a finger.I did hear a snap.I got one from the woman at the door who by the way had her eyes on me all that long moment, I kept my gaze on her wondering what in the hell she was doing there.I was so Shocked that I had forgotten that I had hardly said a word."Trinity?"It was the first word I found myself saying even as I looked right there in her face.She had a smirk on her face, a questioning smirk that had so many questions unanswered.All I could bring myself to do was stand close to the door as it looked as though nothing was moving, not even my h
RAINIMy throat thickened, and I wanted to swallow, but I couldn’t.How could I, when my heart was heavy with thoughts…I was standing there regardless, watching each and every move.Trinity didn't say anything else for that moment as she was busy with her phone flipping through something I couldn't see.All I did was stand there and just stared, paralyzed, wondering why she was acting as though she was trying to hide something from me —Could it be that she was trying to hide the fact that she was jealous, I tried to weigh the thoughts in my mind before coming down to the fact that there was nothing for her to be jealous about.Has she always been like this?As we ate breakfast together, l leaned back in my heavy armchair, nearly shrouded by the darkness that was slowly descending upon the room and the shadows of the trees overhead.I looked out of the window at the rain, which looked to be heavy in the clouds.One of my hand rested on the table round the cup and the other reached to
ZAVIERRaini.I hadn’t seen her in months, but the pull was everywhere, especially in the crevice of my heart, that looked to be colonized by the thought of her.She was everywhere. In the pictures she left behind and I still kept around his house, in her scent that still drifted into the hallway from her old bedroom…She might not be here, but the thought of her still filled everywhere."Zavier!"I blinked, jerking my head to the left, hearing Bianca call my name.She walked out of the crowd, her hair freshly cut and plaited complimenting herdark eyes looking impatient, and her stride determined came over to where I was."I was starting to think you weren’t coming again, I arrived three hours before you."I hesitated, feeling my heart tighten as though I could sense Bianca watching me.I thought about what to say , but I couldn't think of any as I forced a smile as shestepped up to me, taking my bag."Two hours." I corrected it.She slipped a hand around the right side of my wai
RAINI.As usual River drove.It was just three months of carrying a Zavier child but I was already straining with the pregnancy already, it was almost as if I was trying all I could not to keep myself sane.The mere thought of him being around gave my body goose bumps as I was trying all I could to take away what Bianca said from the back of my mind while trying to hide the fact I was unsettled from my sister.The short trip to the hospital was uneventful, aside from the fact that I was trying all I could to stop myself from crying, I was doing all that was within my power and strength, but the more I thought about it the harder it was for me to think or even do anything.There was no will to stop myself any longer…Why is everything happening?I felt bitter as I thought to myself about the whole situation again and again, this time the tears did fall from my eyes unrelentingly.It took a while for her to notice, but she eventually did, turning to look at me square in the face.In-be
ZAVIER Was it normal to feel so illusional, I felt exactly that way as I tried to make my way out of this madness I was feeling at the back of mind.In the back of my mind, I could picture myself back in the woods somewhere far away.I hurried to my feet, in a way right there at the back of my mind I could hear the sound of leaves as it unrealistically crunched beneath my feet, the tall trees and shrubs that were a mere blur across my optical gaze and heart raced past.Walking toward the door and peeping outside, I could hear the sound of humans in the farthest distance.For the sheer love of it— I enjoyed the look on the woman's face when she had seen my x-ray.Her eyes constantly scanned the picture before looking at me again…"Fuck!" I muttered as I bumped into a trolley causing a bit of noise that must have alerted someone.I waited to see if anyone was around or had heard it before quickly adjusting my path and pace to suit the hallway.At the same time, I was aware of the
ZAVIERAs I watched the door close, I could swear that my heart was beating heavily from where it stood. It was frustrating…That brief moment of silence that existed between time and the periodic breathing that came after closing my eyes.In my life, regrets were easy to come by.The manner at which it came by was in such a way that they piled up, each one upon another until it was as though nothing was left in me than this feeling as though, weakening a man’s resolve.I didn’t regret much, and up until recently I had only felt guilt and pain,each one that followed me around ever since she left.Yet right at this moment, seeing her again… I regretted letting her leave.The regrets and everything I felt was heavy on my mind and even as I tried getting rid of it, it just wouldn't leave.It was as though, I was still married to herMy heart wanted to cleft close to her, I wanted her more than I had ever wanted anything and it hurt my heart to see that I was leaving me with a frustrating
RAINII Had always taken my sanity for granted, but at that moment I wished I could feel every bit of it , and the fact was was I did.I even pinched myself to be certain it wasn't a dream.Of all ways I had probably thought about seeing this man,this was definitely the most unscripted,I had never imagined that I would see him this way or or this manner.It was the twist in a drama, and I was the starting character only that I didn't read this part of the script as my lips was agape."What is going on!" My mind screamed.Could it be? No, it can’t be and I was probably hallucinating.It felt so surreal, it all had taken place so fast that I couldn't process a word before he stormed off out of the room again and for a minute it looked like he hadn't been there in the first place, it was like …I sighed.Several thoughts ran through my mind as I sat up on the bed that I was laying on still looking at the door way.“Are you okay?” the doctor asked, confused. My face expressed shock but co