STYRELL POV
As I watch her go to school I know that she can feel my presence. That shows that she has senses. I watch her go to school every day to make sure she makes it. I wait for her to come home to a place she hates. I want to take her away from all of it but where I can take her is no better.
Today is the day I talk to her grandparents to see if they are willing to get rid of her early. The human council agreed to it since she may shift at 16 and create quite a scene for the humans. A Wolves first shift is the worst of them all. She will need to be under the care of her own kind. So that we can make sure she doesn't create any havick.
We are at peace with the humans for the most part we stick to ours, and they stick to there's. I am not sure what she has been told about her own kind. That's why she has so much to learn about whom she really is. I know that it will be hard for her to adjust, but she has no choice.
I hate to put it that way, but she truly doesn't. She has never had a choice since she was born. All her choices have always been made for her, unfortunately. The life that she leads isn't for hers, and it never will be.
As I approach her grandparents house it feels cold. They are not the kindest people. I knock on the door and wait for them to answer. I can smell their irritation and fear.
"What the hell are you doing here? It is not time yet."
I smile at his irritation not caring
that I am not welcomed. "I am here for the girl, it is time for her to be with her own kind."
"She is not of age to be taken yet."
"Do you really want to be held responsible for the havoc that she will create from shifting."
"Is possible that she is not your kind, that she is in fact human."
"Do you really want to take the chance that you will be blamed? For all that she does the humans will look down on you is that what you want."
"What I want is for you to go to hell but go ahead take your mutt. She was never wanted here in the first place. We only kept her to show her misery."
I want to rip out their throats to keep them from ever speaking again. Knowing what they put my sweet Chloe and my daughter through. I need to fight through all the emotion I feel that is starting to fill with rage. Not wanting to kill them and cause problems with the humans.
"You will not see her again. I will get her from school. She is no longer yours she now belongs to me, I will do as I please you are free."
"Good heavens now get the fuck off my property."
I gladly leave as I get into my car and tell the driver to take me to Kimmel High where I will be picking up my treasure. I feel so awful that I had to leave her with those horrible people. Hoping she understands I was only protecting her. Once I get there it goes smoother than what I imagined. Once she gets into the car I can tell she is angry and scared. I want to comfort her, but I stay silent instead.
So many thoughts going through my mind I'm not sure what to do or how to act. I look over beside me, I then notice that she has fallen asleep. I want to tell her so much, but I don't know where to start. How do I tell her the truth that I left her to be abused. Even though I only wanted to protect her I figured the abuse would be better than death. I didn't want to endanger her like I did her mother.
I can't believe how much she looks like her mother. It was like I was looking at Chloe. How I miss her so much I would do anything to change what happened to her. Losing her was the worst pain that I have ever felt. I hate knowing I am the reason that she was killed. If it wasn't for me falling in love with her, she would still be alive.
They didn't know about Stella's birth so we hid it the best we could. They only found out about Stella because of their son the prince being her mate which is the other reason they allowed her to live she was promised to their son the prince her true mate. Thankfully she doesn't marry until she is 18 years of age.
When Zake found out about her. He became angry even though she was indeed his mate. I wish that Zealand wouldn't have seen Stella in passing. All of this could have been avoided. I hate that she is mated to the son of the person that killed her mother. It makes me full of rage just thinking about it.
I wanted to kill her grandparents for all the pain that they cost her. I don't think I have ever seen her without pain in her eyes. She has suffered so much because of others I tried to get her out of this marriage knowing their son has been with the same she-wolf for years. That he will not want Stella, and he will make sure she knows it everyday. I'm afraid of the torture that he might do to her.
The only thing is that on her 18th birthday will be her wedding day and the breeding process will have to start that night no matter what. Zealand is 5 years older than her, I'm just hoping that he doesn't take years of anger out on her. He never wanted a mate, especially one that was born by a human.
I can't protect her the way I want to. I can't ever feel the pain I felt when losing her mother. I need to stay as far away from her as I possibly can. I'm nothing to her, we only have one thing in common and that is the blood we share. She will never find out that I am her father. I want nothing to do with her. I only brought her to my pack to train and prepare her for the life that she will soon endure. To keep her alive and so both packs can join together I used her as a treaty.
This plan of Zealand marrying Stella has been in place for a while once he found she was his; the plan had been set up for years. There is no getting her out of it. But maybe training her will help her to protect herself if she needs to.
I gathered the best people to train her and prepare her for all that she is about to go through. Especially with her first shift it is going to be a pain that she has never felt. I can tell that she is strong, so I am not so worried. I know she will be able to deal with it but will she be able to accept it?
STELLA'S POVAs the car is coming to a stop I look outside and I see the house that is soon to be my new home. It's a mansion I have never seen a house so big in my life. I am nervous to get out. I am not sure what is about to happen. Knowing no matter what, I'm not a stranger to horrible things.As the door opens I see the man that brought me here not even realizing he got out of the car in the first place. As he looks at me with a Stern face "get out of the car." I look up to him hating that my life has always been about commands of others. I watch as he rolls his eyes and speaks again "I don't like to ask twice get out of the car."I sit and stare wondering how long it will take him to lose his patience. Needing to figure him out. I'm not surprised when it takes no time at all as He then loses his patience as he grabs a hold of my arm and yanks my body out of the car like I'm a rag doll. Surprised by his strength realizing what pain he could cause if I disobey him. As he walks to
As I'm waking up I love how comfy my new bed feels. I have been here for 2 weeks and today is my birthday. I dreaded this day for so long it's hard to believe that it is here. I'm not sure what is going to happen from here since I was already chosen. I hear a knock at the door and I jump up as it opens.It's Mrs. Davis she is as cold as the breeze she let in. She looks at me disgustedly and says Get up, it's time for breakfast. '' Sir wants you to come as you are so get up and let's go."She comes over and grabs my arm and pulls me out of bed. As I stumble "Mrs. Davis, please stop, I'm coming."I feel a sharp pain across my face "you need to listen girl, or you will never survive this life."I put my hand on my cheek and I can feel the warmth from her slap. I stay silent not wanting to upset anyone. Knowing that this is not going to be any better than living with my grandparents. I walk at a fast pace to keep up with her hoping I don't anger her.As we start to approach the dining roo
As the hours passed, I didn't realize that it was time to get ready until I heard a knock at the door. I see Mrs. Davis as she walks in. Alright dear, it's time to start getting ready for the ball. I have selected some dresses for you to choose from.As I look through the dresses, they are beautiful. I have never seen clothing that was so pretty. I try to picture my body in those dresses without showing the scars from my past. The punishments that my grandparents pursued on me have left scars that I've hidden from everyone. My body is full of imperfections and I don't want the world to see it.“Mrs. Davis, do you have anything that covers more? I would like to show as little as possible.”Mrs. Davis glances at me oddly. “Why Stella? You have a beautiful body, you have nothing to be ashamed of.”I become nervous, I have never undressed in front of someone. I have always hidden all that has been done to me. As Mrs. Davis comes over with a dress, she glances at me, “come Stella, take off
It's like a herd of cattle coming running towards all of us. If they choose one, they don't get to choose another. So, there are more wolves than ladies. I watch as the ladies begin to cry. One by one taken away. As I see Zeeland approach, I become scared, not wanting him to touch me, he puts his hand out for me to grab, but I don't move. He then grips on my hand and yanks forward.I fall forward into him as my hands touch his chest. He then pushes my hands off me. “Don't you ever fucking touch me.”“I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.”He then slaps me, “Don't you speak unless I tell you too fucken speak, you half-breed.”I just stay quiet as he pulls me along behind him. I'm trying so hard not to fall, these heels are so uncomfortable. I wish I could take them off. When we reach a room, I am thinking it is his room. He slams the door. He then lets go of my hand and begins to walk closer to me. I want to step away from him, but I am afraid of what he may do to me if I don't listen.My body
As I lay on the floor, I feel so overheated, like I am on fire, sweat just pours off my body. I am not scared of what is happening. I just want to get it over with. My father said that most wolves train for this day, so they are prepared for what is about to come.As my body's bones begin to break I get on all fours. I scream out in agony as I watch my claws coming from my fingertips. I arch my back in the air. It helps to ease some of the pain. Not for long, as I then feel like there are thousands of blades going into my back as it's getting harder and harder to tolerate. I'm no stranger to pain, but I feel like I'm going to faint. I then fall to my knees and collapse on the floor. I just lie motionless on the floor of the basement. I close my eyes as I feel like it's time for me to go to sleep. I pray that maybe, just maybe, I will never wake back up. It would make everyone else's life better if I just disappeared. As I lay with my eyes closed, ready to give up. I then smell him, m
I then start to feel the warmth of the sun on my cheeks. As I open my eyes from my sleep, I look around. I'm in my room. At some point in the night they must have come and got me and brought me to my bed. I am not sure how I did not wake up. I'm not that much of a heavy sleeper. I'm not used to people doing things for me. I find it odd that they even care.I then hear a knock at the door, and it opens. They don't wait for me to say come in, they just do as they please. It just shows how much control I truly don't have. I don't want to move, I just want to lay here and walla. But to be honest, I know it's not going to do anything. So, what is the point of lying in despair? I listen as my stomach growls from the smell of the delicious food on the cart that is being wheeled into my room. Would it really hurt anything if I ate it?I hurry to sit in my bed as I'm watching Ms. Davis brings my breakfast, but when I see her facial expression, I see looks of petty. I go to say something, but t
Not even sure how to act, I have never done this before. As he's getting closer to me, I don't mean to, but it comes out. “What do you want me to do?”He forcefully grabs a hold of my throat and puts me up against the wall. I don't struggle, I just let the pain take over, hoping maybe I will just pass out before anything takes place. But I'm not so lucky. As he pulls my head close to him, he then whispers in my ear, “Take off your clothes and lay on the bed on your stomach, so your face doesn't make me sick.”I go to turn around so my back is facing him and I don't feel fully exposed. “Turn around now. Put on a show.”I turned around, not understanding what he means about putting on a show. I start to unbutton my pants. When I look up at him, I can see his eye become black. He gets up from the chair. I'm not sure how to react, he doesn't give me anytime to react to what is about to take place.He then throws me on to the bed and rips my jeans completely off, exposing me. I stay silent
It's been a month since my world has been shattered. I never thought that I would have ever felt so empty. It's like the days are blurry; there's no reason to be alive. I do what I'm told To get through the day. Ms. Davis has been trying to bring me back, But I'm just trying to get through today.I see that the sun is rising as daylight is coming in through my windows. Sadness overcomes me that I have made it through another night. My body still hurts from the trauma. They tell me to accept my wolf that she will help me heal, but I refuse to become one of them.My back is healing on its own, even though it was agony for weeks, but it's finally starting to ease. The only thing I have left is the determination of not becoming what they are, a wolf. They said I will shift regardless on a full moon. That the pain will get worse each time. But it's worth not becoming what I hate the most.My father hasn't looked at me since that night. I gave myself to a monster thin
I have been running for days and I couldn't feel any better than what I do right now. I am so full of energy, not understanding why Because I have not rested. I have passed people but have not stopped trying to get as far away as I possibly can. I move so fast that they don't even notice that I am around. Which I find amusing.As I got further away, my surroundings became nicer. Where Zealand ruled, there was so much suffering, all you felt was dread. That is why I can understand why the humans attacked the wolves, they were so cruel to the humans. I want to find a place where everyone is equal.Phoenix has been quiet since we left our mates. I can feel her heartbreak. I just hope she forgives me, but it was what needed to be done. I would do it again. I have no regrets about leaving. This is what we needed to do to be free. I know that she knows we did what we had to do.I start to slow down as I see something so beautiful. I shift back to my human and I walk to the glimpse of light
We are almost where we need to be, he says. For some reason, everything just looks familiar. I started to become nervous. Why do I know this place? As we got up from the hill, I saw the house. I then know exactly where I'm at.I stopped dead in my tracks, and I looked at, “Axel, why are we here?”“Your father wanted me to bring you home.”“Zealand will find me here. I can't stay here.”“Stella, your father has a plan we can't keep running. We need to rest. Why not hear what your father's plans are? Then we will go from there.”“What if Zeeland comes? What are we going to do then.”“He does not know that we are. We will hide, and if we need to, we will fight.”I look at him with concern on my face. I'm not sure what to say to him. I want to run away from this place as far as I can get. I don't want to take any chance of Zealand finding me. I don't want to go back with him. My father never stopped him from taking me before. Why will this time be any different? I can't take the chance of
I barely got any rest, I was too nervous to fall into a deep sleep, scared that something would happen to Axel while I was asleep. I know that I need the rest, but it's impossible. Last night things were so quiet, and it made me more nervous than ever.Usually, the nights are full of screams and cries. I'm not sure what is happening, it's just too quiet, but I know that we need to get moving. Just in case something bad is about to take place. My entire body is hurting, but there is no time to rest any longer. I need to get out of this tree. I go to crawl down the tree, but my foot slips. My body slams against the tree as the bark tears through my flesh. I try to catch myself, but all the branches I grab a hold of break. Knowing I'm not going to be able to stop myself from falling out of the tree. I just hope that I don't break anything. I just close my eyes at this point and wait for the ground.I try not to tense and prepare for pain, but instead of feeling pain I feel strong arms w
We have been walking for days, Axel has a friend that he can trust that has a safe place. I don't know how I feel about leaving so many behind. But knowing there's nothing I can do just yet. I try so hard not to look around, so I don't see all the suffering around me. I try to walk off the path, but Axel leads us right back on.My body is so exhausted, I'm not sure how much more I can take. I need to rest if I don't get sleep soon. I might just start to sleepwalk. “Axel, I'm exhausted. I need to rest, please can we find a place to sleep."“Stella there is no time to rest, we need to keep moving to get to where we are going.”“Axel, I'm not going to be able to continue very much longer. We need to find a place to set camp for the night.”“Fine, we will go over in the wooded area, so we are somewhat hidden. We will slowly steer ourselves away.”I watch as we are walking, I follow as he heads to the woods. Trying not to have too many to notice us heading to the woods. It is hard not to b
I have never known what happiness was until now. Phoenix has wanted me to shift to go for a run. I just don't know how, as she tries to help but nothing works. Phoenix says that I won't shift on my own until I want it. I feel that I want it, but I guess it's not enough.Axel has been so wonderful, he makes me go crazy. I try so hard to resist him, but it is so hard to stay away. He doesn't want to leave this place. The fear of him losing me is too great. Especially when I'm unable to shift just yet. But I can't help but think about my father and wonder if he is ok. I know things have been odd between my father and me. But a part of me still wants to get to know more about him. The mate bond is strong, but I can't let it control the choices I make. I need to make sure that my father is okay. So, I need to tell Axel that it is time to go find him.I don't want to upset Axel, but I need to be honest with him. He needs to know how I'm feeling. I don't ever want to blame him for anything.
I can't believe what I did, it was like I had no control, I couldn't help myself. The whole point of being a werewolf was for me to gain control. “Stella, that is what is supposed to happen between mates, usually both consistent. It was just harder for you to control yourself just yet, but you will with time.” It has been hours, why hasn't he woken up? What if he never wakes up? Oh my God, what if I killed him? “Stella stop, you are going to make yourself crazy, why don't we go for a run to help calm your nerves.” No, I want to be here when he wakes up, I don't want him to wake up alone. I need to explain what happened, I hope that he doesn't hate me.” He's not going to hate you, he will be pleased that he gained your mark.” I hear a loud gasp for air, when I turn around, I see Axel sitting straight up in bed. I'm So happy to see that he is awake. I run over to him, wanting to jump into his arms, but I'm scared that he is going to hurt me because of what I did to him. So, I stop at
I'm so confused about what just happened. Why wouldn't he want me to give him pleasure? Why would he want nothing in return? I want to understand him. He is so different from anyone I have ever met before. I just look away from him, not wanting him To see my confusion. As I hear the floor creaking, I look just to watch him walk out of the bedroom. I get out of bed and head to the bathroom. I shut the bathroom door. I then turn to the shower, open the curtain and turn on the water letting the water warm. As I turn around, I see a mirror. I look into the mirror, I don't see any bruises, my lips aren't swollen. All I see is me, I can see the person that's looking back at me. I am no longer broken. I am strong but am I. I know that I need to find my father. I need to make sure he's OK. But am I strong enough to reach him? Then I hear a faint voice, You are strong enough, especially when we're together. We can do anything, I promise you. I look around the room wondering where Axel is bu
As I'm waking up, a smile comes across my face, I'm happy. I sit up in bed so fast that it makes me dizzy. Not even realizing that Axel is lying right beside me. I freeze, not wanting to wake him. I slowly lay back down on my side.I can't help but stare at him. He is so sexy even when he is sleeping. I can feel myself wanting him, but knowing I need not let him know how I feel. I don't want him to think that I'm so easy to fall for someone so fast.He begins to move as his arms wraps around me. He pushes me into his chest and holds me. I don't know what to do. My body relaxes and I want nothing more than to be wrapped in his arms. I'm frozen, I have never felt this good before.No one has ever held me the way that he is holding me. I could just get lost in this feeling. But knowing he is going to wake up and let me go. I don't want him to let go of me, I want this feeling to last forever. Is this the bond that I have been told about between mates? Or is this feeling actually coming
I look at him with a stern face, wanting him to take me seriously. But when I saw his brown eyes looking into mine, I began to smirk. He then smiles at me, “what are your terms?”I cough to clear my throat and begin to speak, “I want to have total control over myself, I don't want to be controlled at all. Your advice is always welcomed, but only I make all the choices that involve me.”“No putting your hands on me unless I want them on me.”“Also, I need us to go check on my father and let him know what is happening, so he knows that I'm okay and that I have escaped Zealand for good.”“I can do the first 2 but the last one I won't be able to do the. It's too dangerous to go back there right now, but maybe in a couple of weeks when things slow down we can.”“I need to make sure that they are okay. When Zealand sees I'm gone, he will go after them.”“Zealand won't be going after anyone, he is hiding like the coward he is.”“Wait, he is the king, he is supposed to fight for his kind and