***Chastity*** When I woke up the next morning I realized Rowen was no longer beside me. I felt disappointed that he didn’t stay the night, but what else could I expect. He is an Alpha, he is too important to spend the whole night holding a lowly Omega like me. I decided not to let my disappointment ruin the day. Today was my day. It was the day I took the first step toward realizing my dream. I slid to a sitting position on the bed, and breathed deep. I was brimming with excitement. I had hoped, and dreamed of this day for years. This was one of the things I had always wanted, and finally I was doing it. I was nervous, and scared to death, but the excitement overrode all of that. I was pulled from my thoughts when Rowen opened my door, and came into the room holding a thin, wrapped box. “Good morning beautiful.” He said as he smiled at me. “Good morning. How long have you been awake?” I asked. “I’ve been awake for about an hour. I watched you sleep for awhile then got up to finis
***Chastity*** The drive to Cloverland was a 4 hour trip. I had thought we would stop for lunch during the drive, but Molly had thought ahead and packed sandwiches, snacks, and drinks. Chatter during the drive was pretty much light, upbeat, and fun. Colby cracked a lot of jokes, and had us all laughing constantly. Braxton talked about some of the things he had been doing with friends recently. Molly excitedly talked about how she was going to set her classroom up before elementary school was back in session in a few months. The drive seemed to go quicker than I expected. Before I knew it, we were pulling up to the entrance of Dark Moon pack. Dmitri stopped next to what I guess was a security building. I never knew packs had those. Moonlight pack didn’t. “Dark Moon is the second largest pack in the country. They also have several higher education programs here so they have to take security very seriously. They have a lot of non-pack members coming, and going.” Dimitri explained as he
***Rowen*** Today had been one of the harder ones in my life. Right up there close to losing my mom. Leaving Chastity was a misery I never expected. My heart was heavy with sadness, and Duke was whimpering in my head. It was going to be a long, hard three years. I wasn’t looking forward to it, but I had to let her go to do this. She needed it. After everything she had been through in her short 18 years of life, she deserved this. Thankfully everyone left me alone during the drive back. I sat all the way in the back by myself. I wasn’t fit for conversation at the moment. I was too busy remembering every single moment I have had with Chastity over the last several weeks. I marveled at her strength, and courage. Her smile made me smile. Her drive, and determination were beyond compare. I couldn’t figure out how I had been so lucky for the Moon Goddess to pair me with such an amazing female. I still couldn’t believe that at one time I thought she wasn’t worthy of me. When the truth was I
***Chastity*** I was thankful that I had gotten my school supplies, and books together the night before my first class. I hadn’t slept well. Until I pulled out Rowen’s hoodie, and wrapped it around myself, I had been plagued with nightmares again. For the first time in two weeks. I guess it had been him that kept my nightmares at bay. I was glad I was going to be meeting with a therapist the following afternoon. I needed help moving away from my past. I needed it to stop haunting me. I had mistakenly believed I had gotten over the worst of it. I was disappointed that I was wrong. I also discovered it was going to be an adjustment to being alone again. At one point in the night, after wrapping myself in Rowen’s hoodie, I found myself staring at the pictures on my nightstand sobbing. I had spent so many years alone, but in a few short weeks the group of people in the pictures I was looking at came to mean so much to me. I missed them terribly. I even considered going home, but shook t
***Chastity*** The next morning I woke up more tired then the day before. I didn’t have any nightmares, but I certainly didn’t sleep well. I couldn’t get the thought of Rowen rejecting me again out of my head. I know he says he wants only me, and his actions the last few weeks show that, but it’s only been a few weeks. Maybe I should believe him, but trust is not something I am good at. Yes I have built some trust with Molly, Jax, and Melissa, but they have never hurt me, or rejected me. Jax was always good to me when we were children, and even though I thought he would not be the same way when he returned, he proved to me that he had not changed in his love for me. Molly, and Melissa have been good to me since the day I met them. Do I trust them not to one day start hurting me? Not completely, but I am trying. Everyone else has hurt me in one way or another. Yes I love them, but I certainly don’t trust them not to revert back to their old ways. After laying in my bed for awhile I f
***Chastity*** “This is our mental health ward. When trauma survivors are brought in for medical treatment, they are brought to this floor so we can also start working with them immediately to move forward from the trauma they suffer. We also keep the ward open to those that are struggling badly, and need a secure place to come until they can return to their life. We don’t keep anyone here by force. Once their medical treatment is complete they are free to leave, or remain until they feel they are ready to go home or move on with their life. We also keep the playground up here so those here or who need to come here for a visit, can spend time with the support animals if they don’t want to take one home. That happens more than we like, but there are times when a trauma survivor’s living situation is not conducive to having a pet.” Dee-Dee explained as I followed her to a large room surrounded by glass. The room, or rooms were huge, and seemed to take up an entire section of the floor.
***Chastity*** When I reached the self defense classroom Lexi, and Norm were already there, but sitting away from each other. I didn’t like the idea of not being able to hang out with both of my new friends at the same time. I had to find away to bring them together so I didn’t feel divided between them. I had a feeling Norm would be the easier one to bring to Lexi. I also thought I might know why there were issues between the two. Their entire pack knew about what happened between her, and her ex-boyfriend. She probably felt humiliated in front of her own pack, and she probably thought they judged her for it. I doubt she ever actually talked to any one in her pack about what had happened. I doubted Norm judged her for what happened. At the same time, this may not work, but I had to try. I walked toward Norm, as he waved and smiled at me. I saw Lexi from the corner of my eye. She looked to me sad, and dejectedly. Hopefully I could change that. We had about 10 minutes to change thing
***Chastity*** The rest of the week flew by. Norm, Lexi, and I started sitting together the second day of our Anatomy glass, we stuck close during self defense class even though most of what we were doing was exercising. We had all our meals together. At the end of the day after dinner we would go back to my room to hang out. We hung out in my room because according to them mine was the cleanest. They also said they were helping Lilac get used to other people, and wolves. They also joined me for video chats with my friends, and family back home. They met Braxton, and Gina first when they video chatted me to brag about finishing school for the year. Lexi swore Gina, and Braxton are mates. I wasn’t sure, but the two seemed to be getting closer. They even had a group hang out with all of their friends planned for the end of our video chat. I also had a video chat with Jax, Molly, Colby, and Dimitri. Jax recognized Lexi immediately. They chatted for a minute or two about politics before
Thank you all of my fans, and readers. Thank you for you time, patience, and support as I worked to write, as well as publish my first book. I really do appreciate your patience when I struggled to move the story forward. I also appreciate your continued support. Thank you for walking this journey with Chastity, Rowen, and me. I don't know if I'll ever write another story, but I did enjoy this one. Again, thank you. I can't tell you how much it means to me that you stuck by me through this, and that even though I wasn't sure anyone would like my story, you all did.
20 years later ***Rowen*** Some times it’s hard to believe it’s been 20 years since I almost lost my mate, my sweet girl, my Chastity. First because of my own stupidity. Second because of a horrible, manipulative female. I can’t even imagine what life would have been like if things had gone differently in any way that day, or any day after that. Sometimes I still kick myself for my own foolishness, and then I am thankful that I got the chance to make it right in every way. Life since then has been as close to perfect as one can get. Dad, Dimitri, and Uncle Peter retired when Jax, Ross, and I stepped into our roles. To say they loved it would be an understatement. They stepped into the grandparent role like no body’s business. Dad, and Dimitri never did look for second chance mates. Dad didn’t want to feel like he was replacing mom. Dimitri never completely trusted his own judgement again so they filled their lives with their grand pups, babysitting all of them everyday, and there ar
***Rowen***I woke up early the day after Chastity’s graduation. I know the reason was because I was beyond excited. Chastity was coming home, permanently. Today was the last time we would leave here together. She was coming home. She had gotten her degree, and was one step closer to living her dream. I was so proud of her. Thinking back to the day I found out she was my mate, to today, my sweet girl has come so far.There were times when I wish I could forget that day. Just erase it all from my memory. To erase the fact that I rejected her, and she almost died from my memory, and our past. I sometimes wished that had never been her life. That she never experienced the things she did, that she had never had to struggle as she did, but at the same time…She wouldn’t be where she is right now. She may not be the person she is if those things hadn’t happened. If I had accepted her immediately instead of being an idiot, the abuse she suffered may not have stopped. It may have
***Chastity*** The next morning I woke up to Rowen’s fingers buried inside me. I did enjoy the mornings he woke me up that way. It always started my day with a smile. His smile was pretty great too. Together we went down to have breakfast with Lexi, Colby, Norm, Marcus, Jessie, and Ace. These last few meals with them were bittersweet as they really were the last few with all of us together. I was going to really miss seeing Norm, and Marcus every day. I was also going to miss Colby, and Lexi, but they would be home in a few months. As soon as Colby finished at Denu. “We’re all supposed to be at the pack house at 4:00 today guys. Don’t forget.” Lexi stated. “Why do we need to be there?” Ace asked. “To celebrate.” Lexi answered. “Party!” Norm squealed making us all laugh. “Yes it will be a small party.” Lexi agreed. The graduation was going to be pretty small with just 6 midwives, and 10 nurses. Due to that it would be held in the main auditorium of the school. The graduates had t
***Chastity*** Once I started working in the hospital the months seemed to fly by. I loved every second of it. I learned so much in such a short time. Being able to apply what I had learned in the classroom made me feel very accomplished. My instructors also said they were very impressed with me. That made me feel wonderful. I still had my weekends free, thankfully. Two weekends a month I would either go home, or Rowen would come to Cloverland. If he could get a week away he would come stay for the week. I loved those weeks, but also felt bad about them. I loved them because of the time we got to spend together. I also got to fall asleep in his arms, as well as wake up in his arms. I felt bad about them because of the amount of time he spent alone due to me being in class. He didn’t complain once though, and always talked about how proud he was of me for doing what I was doing. My emotional, and mental struggles had become almost a thing of the past. Yes I still had moments here, an
***Chastity*** Spending 4 days at home had been a nice little break between semesters. As soon as I got back to school orientation, and class prep began. Lexi, Jessie, and I hit the ground running as soon as classes started back up. Norm was lucky because this semester all of his classes were still in the classroom. The three of us only spent a few weeks in the classroom before we moved into being in the hospital. That was where the real work began. Our class schedule was less, but due to the nature of the classes that was necessary. We were now only taking 4 actually classes, but they were all equally important, and put us in different sections of the maternity ward during the class week. The 6 midwives in training were divided into 3 groups of 2 between the 3 midwives that were all instructors. Lexi, and I both got a laugh out of the fact that the midwife we would be working with was Beth’s midwife. We found that out our first week on the ward when Beth, and Robert came in a pre-na
***Chastity***Sunday morning Rowen had a lot of last minute things to do to prepare for Alpha Theo’s arrival so I decided to spend the morning with my dad, Braxton, and Jax. I missed having Colby there too, but I enjoyed spending time with my family. Dad ended up deciding to give Braxton, and I both a driving lesson. He also spent time helping us review the Driver’s handbook. Braxton was 16 now, and it was time for him to get his license as well.After we were done with our lesson, dad, Jax, Braxton, and I went to the deli in town for lunch. I was glad we decided to go there instead of the diner again. As much as I enjoyed the food there, I was not in the mood to deal with Rachel again. I also wanted a deli sandwich. Once we ordered our food we jumped right into conversation.“How do you think you did this semester Chas?” Braxton asked.“I think I did pretty well. I know I got good grades on all my assignments, and stuff. My final grades will be out by the time I get back.
I wanted to let everyone know ahead of time that I'm not sure if there will bd an update this weekend. I've been struggling a bit, and have been unable to write the next chapters. I'm still working on it, but if there is no update this week that would be why. I'm hoping I can get some thing I am happy with written this weekend. I'm really sorry to let you all down, and I'm hopeful I can get more chapters out next week. Thank you for your patience, and support through this journey. I've enjoyed reading your comments.
***Rowen***I was so glad Chastity found a way to come home this weekend otherwise it was going to be several weeks until I got to see her again. I did feel bad that I wouldn’t be able to spend her entire visit with her, but unfortunately I had responsibilities. I was really surprised when Chastity offered to join me while I did the final walk through with Alpha Theo. She said she wanted to see first hand what I was trying to accomplish. Saturday morning I didn’t let Chastity out of bed for several hours. We probably would have stayed there too, but we both wanted to let our wolves go for a run, and do whatever it is they felt like doing. It was nice to let them have their time as well. They deserved it as much as we did. This whole situation was much harder on them because while Chastity, and I some how managed to spend as much time as possible together, it wasn’t always easy to shift, and just let them go due to time constraints.After Duke, and Leila had their time toge