I want to apologize to all my readers for the delay in updates. it's been a busy two months for me. on top of that I hit a bit of writer's block so I took a little break, got some inspiration, and am trying to move forward with the story.I am sorry for letting you all down for so long. I have more chapters written, and will be updating as often as I can. Thank you for your patience with me on this journey. I will do my best not to let all of you down again. I hope you enjoy the newest chapters I just posted.
***Chastity*** I had truly enjoyed my time spent with Rowen, and Colby. It had been nice to have Rowen meet my friends, and help us even though he didn’t have to. I had been shocked that even as an Alpha he had rolled up his sleeves to help lower rank wolves move. He had been attentive, kind, and good with everyone the whole visit. It had been hard to watch him leave. One thing that did surprise me was that I had not jumped when he touched me, nor did I feel fear at his touch. Holding his hand had felt so natural. Every touch from him had. I didn’t know what to make of it. The first couple of days after his visit I carried those good feelings with me. Even during my session with Dee-Dee on Tuesday all I talked about was his visit. She didn’t say much, just listened. She smiled when I did, and seemed genuinely pleased to hear all I had to say about the visit. I did keep the kiss we shared a secret. That was private. Now it was Wednesday, and I was in the middle of self defense class
***Chastity*** When I woke up the next morning I was exhausted. I hadn’t slept well at all. I didn’t have nightmares, I just didn’t sleep well. I was also very depressed. The thought of pushing Rowen and Lexi together had plagued my mind all night. He would be better off matched with her. I didn’t understand why the Moon Goddess would punish him by leaving him stuck with me. “He is not stuck with you Chastity. We are perfect for our mate.” Leila growled at me. “But….” I started. “No. Enough! He is ours Chastity! He loves us! Lexi is NOT right for him. We are! We always have been. Besides Lexi is our friend. She would never take our mate from us. She would be mad if we tried to give him to her.” “But she is. She already knows how to be a good Luna. She understands him, and his responsibilities. She is prettier, and more poised than I am. She’s not broken.” “Chastity, you’re so wrong. Does she know those things? Yes. But it doesn’t make her right for him. We are right for him.” “B
***Rowen*** All day Thursday I was worried about Chastity. It had taken all I had not to drive to Dark Moon Wednesday night, but I wasn’t able to get a visitors pass to be at the school so late in the day, and unfortunately I couldn’t go Thursday either. I had tried texting and calling her most of day. She didn’t finally answer until that evening. She was with Lexi, and Norm when I did get her. At their coaxing she had told me about her session with Dee-Dee. To hear the things she said shattered my heart. It was only made worse by the fact that I couldn’t be there to hold her as she was falling apart. Her telling me she had to be talked out of rejecting me gutted me, but a part of me wasn’t surprised by her thoughts. I was thankful that she was talked out of it. I would have to figure out ways to show her we were right for each other. Unfortunately I wasn’t going to be able to do that this weekend. I had to go to another pack for the weekend with my dad, Dimitri, and Jax for the ren
***Rowen*** The next morning I woke up to Jax sneaking out of my room, as we had agreed. I heard him have a whispered conversation with the warrior we agreed to place at my door, and with me at all times. After a few minutes I got out of bed, sent a text message to Chastity saying good morning then took a shower. I had just finished dressing when there was a knock at my door then it opened slightly. I looked up from grabbing my laptop, and some files I wanted to bring to the meeting with me. The warrior, Blake had stuck his head in the door, and looked concerned. “Yes Blake?” I questioned. “Umm. Miss Bianca is here to escort to you to breakfast.” He informed me. “LUNA BIANCA!” I heard Bianca screech. “I’m sorry Miss. I didn’t realize you were mated to Alpha Marvin. I am sorry for the disrespect.” Blake responded respectfully. “EWW! Don’t be gross. That is my father.” “I’ll be right there Blake.” I said with a smile. “Just move you over grown oaf!” Bianca growled, and I shook m
***Chastity*** So far my weekend had turned out a lot better than I expected. Originally I thought I would spend it alone. Norm, and Marcus were going to see Norm’s family Saturday morning then to meet Lexi at that pack house for her brother Darren’s birthday party. Lexi was going over earlier the help her mom set up for the party. The only plans I had was my meeting with Luna Clair, which I had expected to be canceled due the to party. I was really surprised when Lexi invited me to go help set up, then attend the party, as a guest not a server or anything like that. Of course that invitation, extended to me Friday morning, instigated Norm’s need to shop as we all had to have the perfect outfits. Friday following Anatomy class we spent in the department store searching for just the right thing. We butted heads a few times when he tried to get me into a short skirt, halter top, and 4 inch heels. That was NOT happening. We finally settled on a dark blue, thick strap lace embellished to
***Chastity*** The next several weeks flew by for me. The new classes were hard, but I enjoyed them, very much. My instructors were also impressed with me as I did very well on every assignment, and was prepared for every question they asked me. They were also impressed with the fact that I took the time to read ahead, so I was properly prepared. My sessions with Dee-Dee had also been going well. We talked a lot about what had happened the day Rowen, Jax, and Dimitri had visited. She did a really good job of talking to me about what I had been feeling, and why I was feeling what I was that day. She really helped me understand it all. We had spent the rest of my sessions discussing what I had been through. We focused a lot on trying to change the way I thought of those of higher rank than me. I only had one meeting with Luna Clair due to her having some things to do, and I had school work to do any way. I didn’t get to see Norm, and Lexi as much as I usually did as we only had one cl
***Chastity*** When we walked into the dining room I looked around. There was a big sign hanging on the wall that said Welcome Home, and there balloons tied to little weights in several corners. The table was set beautifully with a purple table cloth, and some of our best china. It all looked beautiful. Everyone was standing behind chairs, waiting on me. What I noticed next was that Alpha Joseph was not standing behind his usual seat. He was standing behind the one next to Dimitri, at the foot of the table. Rowen was standing next to the one next to the seat at the head of the table. I crinkled my brow in confusion. “The guest of honor takes the seat of honor tonight.” Alpha Joseph said with a smile. “Oh. But….” I started. “We are here to celebrate you being home with us, and we should all be able to see you.” “Oh…um…OK.” I slowly moved to the head of the table, Lexi right behind me. I was surprised to see the seat to my left was also empty, but Rowen quickly told me it was for
Thank you all of my fans, and readers. Thank you for you time, patience, and support as I worked to write, as well as publish my first book. I really do appreciate your patience when I struggled to move the story forward. I also appreciate your continued support. Thank you for walking this journey with Chastity, Rowen, and me. I don't know if I'll ever write another story, but I did enjoy this one. Again, thank you. I can't tell you how much it means to me that you stuck by me through this, and that even though I wasn't sure anyone would like my story, you all did.
20 years later ***Rowen*** Some times it’s hard to believe it’s been 20 years since I almost lost my mate, my sweet girl, my Chastity. First because of my own stupidity. Second because of a horrible, manipulative female. I can’t even imagine what life would have been like if things had gone differently in any way that day, or any day after that. Sometimes I still kick myself for my own foolishness, and then I am thankful that I got the chance to make it right in every way. Life since then has been as close to perfect as one can get. Dad, Dimitri, and Uncle Peter retired when Jax, Ross, and I stepped into our roles. To say they loved it would be an understatement. They stepped into the grandparent role like no body’s business. Dad, and Dimitri never did look for second chance mates. Dad didn’t want to feel like he was replacing mom. Dimitri never completely trusted his own judgement again so they filled their lives with their grand pups, babysitting all of them everyday, and there ar
***Rowen***I woke up early the day after Chastity’s graduation. I know the reason was because I was beyond excited. Chastity was coming home, permanently. Today was the last time we would leave here together. She was coming home. She had gotten her degree, and was one step closer to living her dream. I was so proud of her. Thinking back to the day I found out she was my mate, to today, my sweet girl has come so far.There were times when I wish I could forget that day. Just erase it all from my memory. To erase the fact that I rejected her, and she almost died from my memory, and our past. I sometimes wished that had never been her life. That she never experienced the things she did, that she had never had to struggle as she did, but at the same time…She wouldn’t be where she is right now. She may not be the person she is if those things hadn’t happened. If I had accepted her immediately instead of being an idiot, the abuse she suffered may not have stopped. It may have
***Chastity*** The next morning I woke up to Rowen’s fingers buried inside me. I did enjoy the mornings he woke me up that way. It always started my day with a smile. His smile was pretty great too. Together we went down to have breakfast with Lexi, Colby, Norm, Marcus, Jessie, and Ace. These last few meals with them were bittersweet as they really were the last few with all of us together. I was going to really miss seeing Norm, and Marcus every day. I was also going to miss Colby, and Lexi, but they would be home in a few months. As soon as Colby finished at Denu. “We’re all supposed to be at the pack house at 4:00 today guys. Don’t forget.” Lexi stated. “Why do we need to be there?” Ace asked. “To celebrate.” Lexi answered. “Party!” Norm squealed making us all laugh. “Yes it will be a small party.” Lexi agreed. The graduation was going to be pretty small with just 6 midwives, and 10 nurses. Due to that it would be held in the main auditorium of the school. The graduates had t
***Chastity*** Once I started working in the hospital the months seemed to fly by. I loved every second of it. I learned so much in such a short time. Being able to apply what I had learned in the classroom made me feel very accomplished. My instructors also said they were very impressed with me. That made me feel wonderful. I still had my weekends free, thankfully. Two weekends a month I would either go home, or Rowen would come to Cloverland. If he could get a week away he would come stay for the week. I loved those weeks, but also felt bad about them. I loved them because of the time we got to spend together. I also got to fall asleep in his arms, as well as wake up in his arms. I felt bad about them because of the amount of time he spent alone due to me being in class. He didn’t complain once though, and always talked about how proud he was of me for doing what I was doing. My emotional, and mental struggles had become almost a thing of the past. Yes I still had moments here, an
***Chastity*** Spending 4 days at home had been a nice little break between semesters. As soon as I got back to school orientation, and class prep began. Lexi, Jessie, and I hit the ground running as soon as classes started back up. Norm was lucky because this semester all of his classes were still in the classroom. The three of us only spent a few weeks in the classroom before we moved into being in the hospital. That was where the real work began. Our class schedule was less, but due to the nature of the classes that was necessary. We were now only taking 4 actually classes, but they were all equally important, and put us in different sections of the maternity ward during the class week. The 6 midwives in training were divided into 3 groups of 2 between the 3 midwives that were all instructors. Lexi, and I both got a laugh out of the fact that the midwife we would be working with was Beth’s midwife. We found that out our first week on the ward when Beth, and Robert came in a pre-na
***Chastity***Sunday morning Rowen had a lot of last minute things to do to prepare for Alpha Theo’s arrival so I decided to spend the morning with my dad, Braxton, and Jax. I missed having Colby there too, but I enjoyed spending time with my family. Dad ended up deciding to give Braxton, and I both a driving lesson. He also spent time helping us review the Driver’s handbook. Braxton was 16 now, and it was time for him to get his license as well.After we were done with our lesson, dad, Jax, Braxton, and I went to the deli in town for lunch. I was glad we decided to go there instead of the diner again. As much as I enjoyed the food there, I was not in the mood to deal with Rachel again. I also wanted a deli sandwich. Once we ordered our food we jumped right into conversation.“How do you think you did this semester Chas?” Braxton asked.“I think I did pretty well. I know I got good grades on all my assignments, and stuff. My final grades will be out by the time I get back.
I wanted to let everyone know ahead of time that I'm not sure if there will bd an update this weekend. I've been struggling a bit, and have been unable to write the next chapters. I'm still working on it, but if there is no update this week that would be why. I'm hoping I can get some thing I am happy with written this weekend. I'm really sorry to let you all down, and I'm hopeful I can get more chapters out next week. Thank you for your patience, and support through this journey. I've enjoyed reading your comments.
***Rowen***I was so glad Chastity found a way to come home this weekend otherwise it was going to be several weeks until I got to see her again. I did feel bad that I wouldn’t be able to spend her entire visit with her, but unfortunately I had responsibilities. I was really surprised when Chastity offered to join me while I did the final walk through with Alpha Theo. She said she wanted to see first hand what I was trying to accomplish. Saturday morning I didn’t let Chastity out of bed for several hours. We probably would have stayed there too, but we both wanted to let our wolves go for a run, and do whatever it is they felt like doing. It was nice to let them have their time as well. They deserved it as much as we did. This whole situation was much harder on them because while Chastity, and I some how managed to spend as much time as possible together, it wasn’t always easy to shift, and just let them go due to time constraints.After Duke, and Leila had their time toge