Edwina's POV...I glared out my window, it was a brand new day and the air felt lighter, but I didn't feel lighter; I just knew I was free from one of my heart-felt turmoil and about to start one more, I was going to marry a man I don't love, to save a sister who never showed me any kindness as she did before yesterday.I was overwhelmed with the despair of my current situation, I was always one who wanted to marry for love and nothing more. Not for money, not for appearance but just for love. Thinking about marrying a disabled man I don't love was another struggle in my head. How was I going to cope with that and not lose my mind in the process?"Stay still," Becca commanded me as she inserted another pin into my headgear."Ouch," I cried out as she mistakenly pierced into my skin."Sorry," she apologized, "Please stay still so I don't pierce your head again," she instructed and I sighed then nodded my head.She was trying to make me over to prepare me for the official ceremony of th
Xander's POV...Getting back from the fucking ritual of annulling the marriage of my mate to be; sometimes I wonder about the fundamental significance of some of these norms and frivolous shenanigans. They were sometimes lengthy and quite frankly unnecessary. Why can't I just annul a freaking marriage? Why do I have to go dip myself twenty times in the river?A lot of unanswered questions.When we walked into the jail to pick up Benedict, he glared at me miserably, I couldn't recognize him, he wasn't even the shadow of the man I knew, he looked weak and unstable. Before then, he used to look muscular and in control, he used to be my right-hand man, but not anymore.Growing up as the Alpha's son, I knew it was my destiny to become the Alpha and so did Benedict. He also knew it was his destiny to become the Beta wolf, so we would always be forced to go hunting together as kids. Gradually, we developed a mutual friendship that was built upon the better good of the night howler’s pack. We
Edwina's POV...The ceremony took way more time than I had anticipated. There were a lot of dipping hands in water and immersing one's leg in a green slimy-looking sticky substance.When we were done with the ritual, there was a brief celebration. My heart was in no mood for celebration; I had nothing to celebrate because all I had known to be true about marriage had failed.I always thought of marrying for love and when I thought I did, my marriage failed, I got a cheating husband and now I am getting married to a man I didn't love to save my sister and Benedict.I wondered how he felt when they approached him with the marriage news. Was he angry, or did he feel betrayed?I don't know why I should give a fuck or care about how he feels when truly he was the one who broke us, he cheated on me with my sister."I have this whole new perspective of the tradition surrounding marriages," Alpha Xander whispered to me, I don't know why I was still so formal around him but maybe it's because
Alexander's POV...I can see how tense she is and somehow, I find it amusing. I won't lie, she tickles my fancy a lot. After all, it's not every time a woman gets to capture my attention.She is walking around the room, touching things, observing, and carefully scrutinizing.I love how she is so keen to take in all the details of this room or was it her way of avoiding a conversation with me about what we would be doing all night?I am not sure I know what I am supposed to do either.Ever since I got paralyzed, Sonia had deprived me of having sex with her. I once overheard her telling her handmaid that she found it disgusting to have sex with a crippled man.So, when I found out she was pregnant and for the amount of time the child had been conceived, it was easy to know that the child wasn't mine.Even when I got better and still pretended to be paralyzed, I had not had sex either. It had been a struggle and this night would be a much bigger struggle for me too; having sex without mo
Edwina's POV...He let out a soft moan. He was trying not to, but the harder I sucked into his hard length, the more he moaned. I must say that when I entered the bathroom, I told myself that I was not going to have sex with him today. I had always had this romanticized visual about sex; it had to be done for love and nothing more.Then I remembered all the experiences I had with Benedict; he was the first and only man I had ever been with. He loved to fuck, hard and fast, and we had two different views about what sex should be like. I wanted to make love to him, and he wanted nothing other than to bang sex. He took me everywhere; in the kitchen, couch, bedroom, car, and sometimes in public areas.I didn't feel like his wife, but more like his fuck buddy by the amount of time, we had sex and also by the absence of emotions from him whenever we had intercourse. It was not my ideal marriage or sex, and whenever I raised my concern about how my sexual needs were not being met, he would a
Alexander's POV...Watching her sleep so innocently and peacefully would definitely be the best part of my day. Still, she had already wished not to be in the same room with me. Was the sex that bad? I honestly thought it was good. I could even say it was great, and that would be somewhat innocuous.But after sex, she decided she didn't want to sleep in the same room with me, only to continue with her duties as my Luna, which was confusing for me to comprehend.I decided to take advantage of the fact that she was sleeping and stretch my legs a bit. Sitting in this wheelchair can be so tiring and restrictive at the same time.I didn't want to wake her up, so I moved to the inner room where I would do a few workouts and afterwards moved to shower; she was still sleeping. I wonder if she sleeps this heavily or if it was because of last night.When I wheeled out of my chair, I saw her yawning and stretching her hands."Good morning," she greeted."Good morning," I simply replied."You hav
Edwina's POV…I woke up feeling like a different person, like a woman who had just cheated on her husband and actually enjoyed it, I felt disgusted by my actions, and I never wanted to enjoy sex with a man who was more like a stranger to me than my husband, I felt like I had betrayed the love I had for him and not just him, but my sister. So when I woke up and Alexander was trying to make a conversation with me, that was where my head was at."Ma'am, would you be taking your shower now, or do you want to later?" Becca asked, interfering in my guilty thoughts."Becca, you can just call me Edwina. No need for all the formality", I replied, quite tired of her politeness and cautiousness around me.I stood up from the bed and wrapped the robe around my body, and sat on the long red cushion in the room."The moon goddess forbids ma'am, you are now the Luna and I dare not disrespect you,"I sighed. What is it with all these people and the so-called moon goddess and her influence on their ch
I detest going to prison. There is a certain type of chill it gives me, maybe because I am claustrophobic and have a weird reaction to being confined in an enclosed space, or maybe because I feel the system is flawed and most people here don't really deserve to be here.The night howlers prison was not really different from any conventional prison.There was truly no joy in such a place as this; as everyone was either angry, scowling, or remorseful, it was all negative feelings, and we all know negativity is contagious."Luna Edwina," the guard greeted, the name sounded so weird, and I couldn't imagine what would happen if Sonia found out. That used to be her title. When I was first informed about the Alpha wanting me to be his mate and requesting my presence, I was excited and happy; overwhelmed was the word. I told myself that the world would finally take me seriously, and I would no longer be considered deficient.But when I was informed he had chosen my sister instead of me, I bro
Authors POV...Becca searched around the kitchen uncomfortably, trying not to meet Caleb's eyes. It was just as Ramona had said; he looked terrible. His eyes obviously were sleep deprived. She had been trying her best to avoid him all week, and it worked. Becca didn't get to see him, just as she had wished.Watching her every move, Caleb walked towards the kitchen island, taking Ramona's seat. He sighed in exhaustion."Until when would you keep doing this?" He asked, holding his head together with his hands.She gulped hard, toying with her fingers. "did you know about Ramona coming?""How was I supposed to know? I haven't spoken to her in weeks. I was surprised myself to see her here."Searching his eyes for any form of lie or pretence, Becca saw the naivety in his eyes. It was obvious Caleb had no idea of Ramona's coming. She inhaled and exhaled at the same time, trying to steady her breath.It wasn't worth brooding on too much; Becca herself was tired of being so far away from him.
Authors POV...Ramona searched around the crowd, trying to see if she would get a hold of Becca, but she seemed to disappear at every chance she got to approach her. One thing about the gathering of night howlers is how merry they all become and how they know how to party till the day ends. Especially since the alpha had finally gotten back to his feet. Annoyed at how hard it was becoming, Ramona made her way towards the podium area to ask a guard where Becca was. The guard directed her to the kitchen.Her heels clattered against the hallways as she manoeuvred her way around the pack house. Getting into the kitchen, Becca was there as she had been told. Standing at the edge of the kitchen was Becca, who seemed so lost in her thoughts. Ramona bit her lip really hard; she felt so guilty.For the past three weeks, Ramona had forced her way into Caleb's home to have him bend to her wheel. Unfortunately, Caleb seems to be much more determined than she was to not give in to her advances.Ev
Edwina's POV...For what seemed like a lifetime, he didn't say a word. I was getting bothered, and my standing didn't feel good, considering my position. I would like to think that Xander reads my mind. Almost in a split second, he had dusted a chair that sprouted out from among the piles of antiques in the space and had me seated on it.I gulped nervously, feeling bad for thinking ill of him. "Xander..."He held a hand up, "please let me finish." He pleaded."Okay." I let out in a whisper.Still standing, Xander had his back turned to me, obviously trying to hide the tears in his eyes. "over the years, as I grew, I leaned on Ben as he was the only person really close to me. I felt safe trusting him with all of me. Also, the idea of family grew within me so much. I couldn't wait to have a Luna. When I did come of age, I pleaded hard with the moon goddess to show me my desired mate. When she showed you to me, I was too greedy and thought I was doing it for the sake of the pack. Eventua
Edwina's POV...I stomped my foot through the hallway in annoyance, indecisive as to why my emotions were spluttering all over the place. I could blame it on pregnancy, knowing quite well it wasn't just about that.Tears laced my eyes as I bounced off the walls. Seeing him stand in all of his glory, like the Greek god most books describe, was overwhelming. In all truth, Xander is a good-looking man. Every of his body structure, from the chiselled jawline to his legs, made my clit ache.I was wet beyond measure, and if he slipped right inside me this minute, I was sure to orgasm right on the spot. I feel angry at myself for having such thoughts, considering how much he had disregarded me. But what to do when I miss him so much? I ache for his touch every night, and my urges had mounted since I got pregnant.Probably, just maybe, I would have held back on my sexually consumed thoughts if he wasn't looking so much like a snack. It's been a month, and I must say every day is more than ten
Alexander's POV...I shifted uncomfortably in the wheelchair, eager to stand up and not have to deal with the facade I had been living in anymore. Glancing to my side, I tried to keep eye contact with Edwina. It was obvious she was doing everything she could to avoid my ears. A week after she found out about my true disabled state, I tried to get on her good book, but she never paid me any mind.I had thought coming out to the pack members would be easy, as I had informed Caleb to arrange the process after a week when I might have gotten back with Edwina. To my disappointment, three weeks went by with myself and Caleb wallowing in self-pity and none of our women paying us any mind. For myself and Edwina, we have been going back and forth on her forgiving me.But she had been really adamant about not wanting to talk to me. The last time I tried to reach out to her, she had told me it would take her a very long time to accept the new me, as she had put it. Sounds frustrating, right? I m
Edwina's POV...I rolled to the side of the bed, trying to find a comfortable side of the bed to rest in, but I couldn't. I had been awake since about seven am, but I couldn't find myself standing up from the bed. I just wanted to remain there, most especially to avoid seeing Xander. At the same time, I was aching badly for food and a nice cup of tea. My baby and I had awoken with a craving for food.Turning around to get a hold of my phone, I attempted to dial Becca when there came a knock on the door. As I got off the bed reluctantly to open it, I hoped it wouldn't be Xander. Nothing has prepared me for such a discussion this morning.Opening it, I found Becca by the door with a platter of food. "Oh my goodness, Becca! You are godsent." I muttered, opening the door widely.My eyes glazed at the sumptuous sight of the breakfast of bacon, toast, scrambled egg, sausage, some freshly made juice, and a cup of tea to cap it all."How in the world did you do this? Do you live in my mind?"
Authors POV...Caleb scoffed in irritation as he threw daggers at Ramona with his eyes. It had been hard for him to get over how low she had stooped to get back at him. Having her appear in his home looking all relaxed made him boil terribly. He had just taken a pill to suppress the headache threatening to split his head. The moment his eyes landed on Ramona, it seemed to be coming back with full force."Answer the fucking question. Why are you here?" Caleb blurted again, his eyes catching sight of Xander wheeling himself towards his room.Ramona sat with gait, staring at Caleb with a straight face. She had no intention of backing away from fighting for his attention. She had known the kind of ruckus the video and document she had sent to Becca would cause. However, she was less bothered about it and couldn't care less about what anyone thought of her. She wants a home with Caleb and being Ramona, there is no way she would let it go that easily without a fight.Becca was way older tha
Alexander's POV...Eyeballing his ass out, I turned my back to him, trying to wash up the used cups. One thing I loved to do was handle my chores. Before I got confined to the wheelchair, I used to swing by Ben's place to crash after a long day at work. We end up cooking and washing up ourselves. They were sweet memorable moments. I wanted to distract myself from responding to Caleb, or should I say, I was trying to gather my thoughts."Why aren't you saying anything?" He pressed on, raising his head fully now."Can you not." I inhaled deeply, scratching the back of my head. "I hope you haven't taken my advice of keeping something from your woman because I think that has cost me my small family."Caleb snorted, mumbling under his breath. "guess that's too late. But tell me, what happened?""Edwina saw me on my feet," I told him.He started with a perplexed look on his face, "Saw you on your feet? How did that happen?"I rolled my eyes, sitting my butt on a stool. I sighed, "so, yester
Alexander's POV...Woke up to a cold side of the bed. The bags underneath my eyes were enough to act as an airbag during an accident. They were so heavy it felt like my eyes were under pressure.I had waited up for Edwina to return to the room, but it was obvious that wouldn't be happening. I was surprised to find out when I drifted off to sleep, though.My mind wobbled, and all I wanted was to stick to the bed and never have to come out of the room. Different emotions flowed through me. Now that Edwina knows my truth, I feel compelled to let the pack members know too. Truth is, judging by Edwina's reaction, I'm really scared the pack members, too, would be disappointed.I groaned inwardly while pulling at my hair. I can't believe this shit is happening right now; I thought everything was falling into place, and I would show myself to my woman at the right time. I can tell she hates me now and compares me to that fucking Ben. Now I have stooped so low to cursing the dead. I might go b