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Chapter 80

Author: Bella Silva
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I pay Bethany what I owe her, and she’s a dear for not asking me what’s wrong because I definitely look like I’ve been crying and have no way of hiding it.

Thankfully, Victor is asleep, so I won’t have to face him while looking like a mess. The first place I go after closing the door is the bathroom. I peel my clothes off and get in the shower. The water is scalding hot, but it helps me feel like I’m actually getting clean.

I’m so damn ashamed of myself. I went my whole life thinking I was a good person, but then I go ahead and do this. Anthony was right to be mad at me, and speaking of which, after I get out of the shower, I’ll call him. I need his words of wisdom right now, and I’ll listen to everything he says because he’s never wrong.

I was. I am.

I wash Evan off me as quickly as I can, but I end up staying in the shower for about an hour. My skin is completely pink by the time I step out of it, but at least I don’t smell like him anymore.

I stare at my reflection in the mirr
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