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Chapter 68

Author: Bella Silva
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Evan's POV

I feel like the dumbest fuck in the world.

I never would have guessed that things would lead me to this point. I'm standing behind a tree in Thomas' backyard, and the worst part is that I think Leo might have seen me.

I just can't seem to let this go, for some reason. I should be moving on. I should be going after Phillippa and trying to reconcile with her. She left and this time, I don't even know why or care. I've reached my limit with her, and what little love I've had for her has run out.

But Leo. Dammit, Leo. She's the one who's on my mind now. It's like the past has finally caught up to me, and I can't get her out of my system. She's my mate, dammit, and I can't forget it regardless of how hard I try.

I've been trying to push it down; suppressing those feelings hasn't helped, and she's been on my mind too frequently. Half the time, I'm thinking about her, and then Thomas steps into the picture and I lose my mind with rage.

This has to be a punishment, and that's f
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