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For years I'd been convincing myself that I was asexual. That I didn't need sex to feel whole. That I didn't need intimacy with another human being to feel like a normal person.
At first I thought, being celibate and staying single would be a good way to avoid unwanted anxiety. In my case, it often resulted in depression or anxiety attacks from time to time.
But now with Miles being intimate with me again, my senses just barred any other sensation except the familiar warmth of his soft mouth leaving gentle kisses on my neck. He kept licking and kissing me. Like my skin was his evening snack, or something.
Some nervousness and concern disrupted my thoughts for a moment, but he wouldn't hurt me. He was always caref
◆ MILES ◆These fucking cockblockers...What else do I gotta do just to get laid tonight? I sighed and glanced at my phone, minding my bodyguard's lax gait as we approached Ricchar's office.Niccolo kept my guitar solo ringtone blasting through my phone's speakers as I stepped into my cousin's private study room. The distinct scent of dusty old books and some vanilla-smelling bourbon filled the room. I declined Niccolo's call just to make my phone shut up.Behind the hardwood desk crowded with paperwork, Ricchar sat back in his black swivel chair with his headset snug in his ear. A scowl wrinkled his lips. He looked busy talking to someone on the phone. The deep furrow in his dark brows and his unusually peremptory tone told me he wasn't in a better mood at all.I stood by the door while Alessio sat in one of the c
◆ MILES ◆"Così avrà l'immunità davanti alla legge."[So he will have legal immunity.]"Sono abbastanza certo che sia impossibile, Lorenzio."[I’m pretty sure it’s impossible, Lorenzio.]I squinted at the guy sitting in front of us, doubting his words, my patience thinning out. Besides the mother of all bitching headaches ending my long day on a shitty note, now I had to put up with an intruder that threatened to make my day even shittier. What he brought with him also posed a threat to my dwindling peace of mind and my plan of having at least six hours of sleep tonight. With Mykaela beside me. As I stayed put beside Ricchar, his full attention centered on the guy sitting in front of his desk and rocking restlessly in the chair opposite mine. Our prolonged si
◇ KEL ◇ Enzo's here. In the estate. Coincidence? Perhaps. There should be a significant reason behind Enzo driving all the way out here tonight. Miles didn't specify why. He just said Enzo had "some family issues" to sort out. Hence the guy hanging out alone in Ricchar's patio at this hour, drinking himself to oblivion. Not a pretty sight. And not the first time I'd seen him enjoying a bottle of strong wine all by himself. I'd figured a while ago that he only drank this much whenever he was under extreme pressure and stress. Cold, hugging myself and ready to confront the guy, I stepped out of the mansion through the sliding door. The noise startled him. Enzo fidgeted in his seat, and then sat up straight before I could get near. He cleared his throat after glancing at me, then quickly combed his wavy hair away from his face. "Hi." Hi? After ignoring all my texts, calls, and emails, that's all he's got to say? Something in me felt weird, knowing he wasn't even going to give me a h
◇ KEL ◇Fine. I gave up. If he didn't want to talk to me anymore, so be it. No more questions. No more begging.It's crystal clear Enzo would rather go to bed than spend another minute with me. Disappointed and at a loss, I retreated to the windy patio where Miles sat quietly.He settled in one of the chairs under the dim and yellowish lamplight. A meaningful smirk slanted his cute lips, and his squinting eyes told me he caught the awkward tension before Enzo walked out on me.A quick "catch up with you later" was Enzo's last words before dashing out of our sight. Allergic much? He didn't even bother to glance at me one last time before he shut the sliding door behind him.Well, at least he had the common sense to stay the night. Driving back to Florence would take him hours. Four if his driver wasn't careful
◇ KEL ◇ The scream we heard sounded a lot like it was Mrs. Falco. Did someone harm Miles' mother? The ominous thought formed goosebumps onto my arms. The hairs on my nape probably stood up now. It seemed impossible that someone would dare hurt her. Like Mr. Falco, she had bodyguards tailing her everyday. Gun-carrying security staff surrounded the estate day in day out. Who in their right mind would dare touch the Falcos in their own territory? As my brain tried to come up with a couple of flimsy guesses, Mr. Falco directed his steadfast gaze at his nephew and only son. "Charr, Maxim, cortile sul retro. Va' a dare un'occhiata." His lowered voice sounded imperative again. [Charr, Maxim, backyard. Go take a look.] "Pappa—" "Faccia come le dico!" Mr. Falco shouted and glared at Miles. The boss kept hi
◇ KEL ◇"What do you want me to do?""Talk to him. Ask him what he wants."I narrowed my eyes at the phone near my face. It was mine, the new one Miles gave me weeks ago. The second "secure" phone he gave me. It was a tracker, basically. He didn't need to tell me so.Mr. Falco took the phone from me earlier while his men tortured Niccolo with sucker punches and some kicks to his legs. So far, Nicco remained conscious beside me, weak but looking stable enough.The smell of his sweat had mixed with the scent of blood that trickled from his nose down to this chest. I helped him stop the bleeding earlier while Mr. Falco watched and kept himself busy in the corner with his own phone. Hopefully Nicco wouldn't pass out from severe dehydration or from his injuries."Talk to him?" I asked when I took the pho
× WARNING × Content below intended for mature readers. × ◆ MILES ◆ Shoot the bastard? Watch the guy murder his own brother? Or shoot the bastard after watching him murder his own brother? As I weighed the pros and cons, my mother paced behind me, barely containing her panic. Not her fault. We all came here to spend time with family, not watch this display of unrestrained violence right in the middle of my cousin's pristine dining room. Where in the flying fuck's Ricchar? Leandro, the last person we expected to show up here in the estate, threw another couple of punches at his victim. This drug-dealing psycho just didn't give a shit. Everything looked so out of place. The stream of profanities. Loud grunts of palpable fury. Cries of terror and pain. Stoic, tense-jawed armed guards surrounding the scene... Were they enjoying it? The fuck's wrong with these people? I gripped the gun but stayed put. My best guess: Lorenzio was catching up with Mamma here in the dining room, cluel
× WARNING! ×× GRAPHIC CONTENT BELOW NOT INTENDED FOR YOUNG READERS ×◇ KEL ◇It should be all over now. This eventful night dragged on long enough. My tolerance for all this mafia bullcrap was running out. Pretty much stretched to its limits.Pure exhaustion consumed me, depleting what's left of my energy, thinning out the little patience I had left. "Just please let this long, stressful night be over..." I repeatedly prayed in my head the past hour.As I sat on the bed alone, the lights stayed off and the room remained quiet and tense. Or it could just be me and my dear friend Anxiety again. Where the heck's Miles? Alessio pretty much dragged me back into this guest room after Mr. Falco left us in that cold basement. I already made sure Niccolo wasn't in serious trouble after the torture h
◇ KEL ◇ [ A year later ] "Recombinant, mRNA, or viral vector?" "Viral vector. Or stick with recombinant subunit, but with a better adjuvant." "Sure. That works, too." Partly covered by a towel, Enzo walked out of the bathroom with a scrunched up nose and knitted brows. "But why not mRNA?" Why not go for the messenger-RNA type? If his CSO was doing his job, then the big boss should no longer ask me these questions weeks before their clinical efficacy trials. I sat beside the pillow and looked up from my phone, trying not to frown at the half-naked guy making the floor wet. The new mop I bought should be desert-dry by now. I'd left it near the pool. The weather had been friendly all morning. Like my hormones. And thank heavens for both. "If the board is now aiming for distribution on a global scale, your teams should opt for the one that's not gonna be a logistics nightmare." "Yeah. We should," he mumbled with a restrained sigh. "And they definitely want to scale up." "So go for
◇ KEL ◇ He must be thinking it was a sick joke. An elaborate prank. Or perhaps he thought I was gradually going insane? And delusional. Making up ludicrous stories that had festered in my head. Yet he didn't laugh at the things I'd said. Not even once. Enzo didn't even crack a grin. The look on his face when I mentioned "vampirars" and "dhampiricas" only varied between a deep scowl and a skeptical squint. He sat still beside me as I recounted everything I witnessed in Umbria. When I explained how I found out the Falcos supposedly became cursed with a genetic disease, he only stared at me, as if words were too difficult to muster up. "I know. I know how it sounds. But, it happened." I sighed. "And whenever I have questions, I call up Cloe. Or I ask Miles sometimes." "They're all.
◇ KEL ◇ "What're you reading now?" "Pathogenesis of lung injury. Receptor-binding domains and mutations." "Sounds dangerous. And intriguing." I smiled at the guy sauntering into the room, his grin showing off his adorable dimples partly hidden by his 5 o'clock shadow. "Fun workout?" "Mostly." "Your team heard of the newest outbreak in China?" "Yeah. We discussed it last week." Enzo flung a white towel over his shoulder as he approached me, his flat tone and expression quite serious. "Remember that five-hour meeting with Graham and the board?" "Yeah." I nodded. Graham was their chief scientist who headed Zione Bio's team of medical and pharmaceutical researchers. "Are they looking into it? The infected patients exhibit flu-like symptoms. Well, the hospitalized ones, definit
◆ MILES ◆[ Mariangela, Umbria ] Salvato 75Z. Tough steel. Heavy. Minimal recoil. Accurate. Durable. Reliable, most importantly. The cold and smooth barrel glistened as I put my finger on the curved trigger, beaming and staring back at me. Just waiting for my patience to run out. I'd never used this to kill someone. But that might change today. The selfish bastard gave me this when I finally decided to join SF Shipping and ruin my fate...to his satisfaction. "Just a little present," he'd said. Well, it was more like an unacknowledged bribe. He seemed glad with my decision, but of course he wasn't as proud as Mamma. To him, working for the family business was my only means of paying off a longstanding debt. A debt I incurred just for being his only heir. "Boss." "What?" I glanced behind. With a l
◇ KEL ◇ "Success?" "Finally." Enzo grinned lopsidedly and took off his black shirt. "A nice, solid dump." He flung the shirt over his shoulder, then sat next to me on the poolside recliner as the sun hurt my eyes. Like the weather, his brand new L-shaped pool looked too beautiful to ignore. "It was the okra, alugbati, and chia seeds."I smiled at him, quite proud of my culinary skills. "Yeah." "I'll make you chicken adobo later." "With eggs?" Enzo smiled wider. "Thanks for cooking again." He touched my chin and pressed a noisy kiss on my cheek. His hands smelled of apple-scented sanitizer. "Mommy's asking if you just got back from Florence." He scratched his forehead, his warm thigh touching mine on the recliner. "They'
◆ MILES ◆ He fell asleep on the couch. Again. The third time this week. His laptops sat on my mother's favorite coffee table, both left open and running, the cords and empty coffee cups scattered on the varnished oak. Plus some wrinkled candy wrappers. What a mess. Maybe he worked till sunrise. Besides tracking down my fugitive father, I wasn't sure what else Nicco had been working on. I left him out here past midnight after we had a few drinks. Mostly non-alcoholic for me. My new shrink might shove me back in that wretched facility if she heard I went on another bender. "Allora?"[What now?] I looked up from my phone. My left hand gripped a loaded handgun just waiting to feel useful. It was fairly new. Expensive. A nice birthday gift from someone whose neck I still wanted to slit open. Nicco yawned and lazily sat up on t
◇ KEL ◇ Oh no. Crap. I didn't just say that out loud. My eyes and throat ached now. I even stuttered. My voice was starting to tremble, too. Shucks. Not now. I didn't want to cry in front of him. Especially not in public. Ugh. His bodyguards must be enjoying the show right now. Frowning again, Enzo stopped touching my face and backed off. He didn't get rid of his confused look, as if my words didn't make any lick of sense. Or was he surprised that I mentioned his ex again? "Because I can't keep hanging out with you without constantly reminding myself not to take you to bed and make you forget he exists." He looked away, shaking his head weakly. "But you think I'm still with Olivia? And what happened that night was nothing?" "Just take me back to the apartment." "No." I sighed when he held my arm before I could walk
◇ KEL ◇ "Why did you send me money again?" "Why did you ignore my calls and texts?" Great. Time to unpack all of it. He drove us all the way out here just to have this conversation. I held in a sigh and looked out the window, the seat belt almost choking me now, wrinkling my plain cotton dress which I didn't bother to iron. I didn't even want to go out. I just wanted to hole up in my room and focus on my to-do lists. But like most of the time, he dropped by my place and disturbed my peace, taking me away from my little comfortable nest. And now we were parked right outside a fancy restaurant whose name I couldn't even read or say properly. "I'm going to Rome this Thursday." Enzo sighed beside me, his left hand clutching the steering wheel. The engine stayed running. With my purse on my lap, I sat still in his Audi's passenger seat, exhausted and just not in the mood to be extra nice
× WARNING! GRAPHIC CONTENT BELOW NOT INTENDED FOR YOUNG READERS AND MAY BE TRIGGERING TO SOME (DESCRIPTIONS OF S.A.) × ◇ KEL ◇ ... Tall. Dark. Raven-black hair. Muscular all over. A looming presence. My intakes of breaths wouldn't reach my lungs. I backed off. My hands and legs turned numb. Why? Why wouldn't he stop staring at me? Deliberately intimidating. Now he's towering over me with a full glass of wine and a crooked grin stretching his pale lips and dark beard. Leandro sipped his drink. "Thanks for helping my brother." "You're welcome. I was just trying to help." "You know he's got a thing for your type?" He chuckled. "Humor me. Why are you with him?" My type? "We're just friends, Signore." I faked a smile at his natural talent for giving shade. I'd rather walk out of here now, but it would be rude. "Really good friends." Leandro grinned when I fell silent. He stepped dangerously close to me that I could smell the alcohol on his tongue. Should I shove him? Run? Shit. W