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Author: Joy Apens
last update Last Updated: 2022-04-22 22:21:19

Liyah's POV

I wasn't completely sure why my head was aching so much. I knew I had been tired and overwhelmed more times than I could count, but it felt different this time. It felt... worse. After everything that had happened in the car, I had begun to see things differently, understand things I didn't before. It all made sense now. Why Drew was still so protective of him although they had become distant, why Nikolai was always so bitter. It didn't change the fact that I was still hurt, but it did make me see things from a different perspective.

I hated the fact that I understood now. I didn't want to, I wanted to blame someone for everything that happened to me. I wanted to feel that pure hatred when I looked at him, and revel in it. But now... I couldn't even identify what exactly I was feeling. Sadness, anger, pity, confusion, all jumbled up in my heart. It was so overwhelming I th
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Grace C
She is a really good person that’s why she is showing kindness to u -_-
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jadeshamrock
Ugh! So she apologised to him first! Yours too nice Liyah
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Alexa
Yep, exactly my thought. He should be the one on his knees begging and apologizing for what he did to her and the fact that he KNEW she was his mate, didn’t even made him pause .........
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