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149–Entry 007<The Journal>
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Littlest WriterHello everyone! We’re back🎉💃🏽 Thank you all for your heartfelt wishes about my exams. I wrote my last paper a long time ago it waiting for the results to show up made me too anxious to write and I am sorry I kept you all waiting. Well, the results came out a few days ago and I aced it!💃🏽 So guess who’s pumped up to write?😅😌 Anyhoo, I really do hope you all are still interested in seeing how my book ends! Thank you so much for sticking around! Update continues and don’t panic, the book will be completed soon which means every new chapter gets us closer to the end and I hope you enjoy them as much as I am going to enjoy writing them. Happy reading!
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ZENA. There’s only one means for comfort in my messed up life and I clutched it tightly to my chest as I laid on my bed. My eyes were tightly shut. I see nothing but darkness everyday of my life but closing my eyes like that helps feel like I’m just like everyone else. Like I was normal. With my mother’s picture held tightly to my chest, I tried to search for the good memories amidst the dark one that keeps rearing its ugly head like a venomous snake. I tried so hard to keep it from rising to the surface but no matter how hard I tried, it wouldn’t budge. It’s been that way since Rex said those words to me. I’ve only ever had a single memory of my parents' death. Even in my dreams, it was always the same. I’ve had the same dream over and over again for me to know I didn’t see wrong. It was always the same. The blood soaking the lush white rug of my father’s room. My father’s eyes wide open and lifeless. My mother beside him, her neck twisted to the other side. And Rex standing ove
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The Alpha's Caregiver 180-A Bigger Destiny
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The Alpha's Caregiver 178-The Greater Hell
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The Alpha's Caregiver 177-One of the Omegas
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The Alpha's Caregiver 176-The Confession.
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran
