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Littlest WriterSigh. Looks like there’s going to be a part four for this entry…or not.
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The Alpha's Caregiver 130-Entry 004<The Journal>PART 4
L’s POV***I thought things couldn’t get any worse after that. I didn’t think any other misfortune could beat being deceived by the very first person I opened my heart to or having to satisfy him that night knowing my body would betray me and love every second of it. Knowing that my heart could hate him but my body would welcome him willingly not just because he evokes strong emotions inside of me but because he was also my mate and going by the spark I felt when I realized what we were to each other, I couldn’t resist him even if I tried. I thought all of that was the worst that could happen to me but I’ve never been more wrong. ***There was a deadly silence, following the last words of Maximilian. His hand still hung in the air where he held up the one of the Alpha who had almost hit me. It was like time seized for a second and every single person in the hall was trying to figure out just how much his words weigh. Until his father broke the silence. “Maximilian, what are you
The Alpha's Caregiver 131–Moving on.
EUDORA.After a week of nursing a literal man-child, nothing was weird anymore, in fact, me not getting used to everything that was going on would be the only strange thing as it seemed everyone has gotten used to it pretty fast. By everyone, I mean Zena. She took pleasure in torturing the nameless personality of her brother. It was as if she was taking all the years of Alpha Rex doing the same thing to her, out on him. They looked more of siblings now than ever with the constant bickering and banters about the most trivial things and of the both of them, the one who couldn’t take the heat was obvious and each time, he would use me as a shield while trying to avoid getting beat up by Zena for something he said. There are times that he couldn’t avoid her wrath. He either got hurt or got punished in ways that made me question who was older. Using her dominance as an Alpha blood, she would command him to do chores like clean her already tidy room, arrange the books on her shelf or read
The Alpha's Caregiver 132.One Chance At Freedom.
EUDORA. He couldn’t be serious. “You can’t be serious.” I blurted. He stopped rummaging, only for a second to look at me as he held up a neon colored sock. It distracted me a bit, surprised that the Alpha actually has something of color in his closet.“And I won’t be going through Rex’s closet looking for an outfit if I wasn’t serious.” He continued searching. “Aha.” He exclaimed loudly, taking out a deep blue t-shirt and a black one. “This or this?” He said, stretching them forward, wiggling thick his brows playfully. I couldn’t help the scoff that left my lips. He must be insane to think he was really going anywhere on my watch. I snatched both shirts away from him and tossed them onto the bed.“None! You’re not going anywhere.” His expression fell. “Now, clean up your mess. I’m going to ask Zena what all of this is about.” I turned away from him and left the room. They’ve been up to a lot of things all week but this one has to be the craziest. It was already hard enough to
The Alpha's Caregiver 133–Of freedom and Rebellions.
EUDORA We were doing it—rebelling. And it was ironic that the one person who would have stopped us was the most excited about ‘finally leaving the house and touching grass’. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t excited too. The thought of having a fun night without restraints or fear that I didn’t deserve such luxury, made me so giddy that I couldn’t sleep the night Zena told me. But I’d also be lying if I said there wasn’t a part of me that still had that niggling fear but as I watched myself in the mirror after Zena was done with my makeup the night of our “rebellion”, it was buried to the very depth of my mind, never to resurface. “All done. What do you think?”“Wow.” I whispered breathlessly. It was the best I could do because I couldn’t believe the girl in the mirror was me. “You’re gonna have to give me more than that because hello? Blind witch?” I suppressed a laugh at the nickname he gave her. Although that was one of the things that made me marvel at the wonder she had j
The Alpha's Caregiver 134–Of Dances and New Names 1
EUDORAThe neon light sign of the club was the object of nightmares and you’d think staring at it long and hard will make it go dim or make me forget my experience there. “I am not going in there.” I lost count of how many times I said that to Zena as we stood at a distance close to the long line of people that were filing into the club. At the entrance, the two huge men I recognized from the last time I came here, were checking for passes that I didn’t even know we had until Zena handed one out to each of us. The long queue was thinning and soon, it would be our turn to go in there. “I told you it’s not going to be like last time.” I have also lost count of the number of times she has said that. “You could have told me!” I hissed, trying so hard to not let all the conflicting emotions get the better of me. I just wanted to get out of here, go back home and into the safety of my room where there were no rogues. Maybe rebelling wasn’t really a good idea and Alpha Rex was right to m
The Alpha's Caregiver 135-Of Dances and New Names 2
EUDORA.There was something about the way he was crouched down in front of me and holding out his hand. Something about the way his lips stretched into the most genuine smile as he waited for me to take his hand and something about his voice and the way it instantly soothed me and clamped down on my anxiety of being around so many people.Maybe it was the way he showed up out of nowhere when I was in distress after suddenly disappearing on us. It made me torn between slapping some sense into him or taking his hand and getting off the floor. I couldn’t do either. Everything faded into the background—the people and the ear-splitting music—and it was just us and the twirling lights above us as our eyes remained locked in an emotion filled gaze. By emotions, I meant mine. They suddenly went from ‘I want the ground to open up and swallow me whole’ to ‘I’m confused, why do I want to remain like this for eternity?’ His smile made it all fade away and he made me feel like I was a main char
The Alpha's Caregiver 136–Friends and Secrets.
EUDORA. Her harsh tone lashed at me like a whip laced with venom. I didn’t care for her words as vulgar as they were but instead the way her face hardened like I had done something abominable. Maybe I had really done thatI had almost kissed her brother in the heat of the moment knowing how every relationship surrounding him was complicated. “No, why would you even say that?” I finally found my voice. “I dunno! Maybe because you were all over him.” She retorted. “You don’t even know that!” I wanted to know how she knew what had almost happened between us. Not that I was counting on this being some sort of prank just because I didn’t want her to feel betrayed and ruin what we have as friends. Whatever reason it was I asked, it didn’t go the way I planned because she scoffed and snickered like she couldn’t believe what was happening. “Because I’m blind?” If she was angry before, she is enraged now.I moved closer, “You know I didn’t mean it that way.”“It damn well sounded like you
The Alpha's Caregiver 137–Blind Beauty 1
ZENA Rage. Despair. Pain. Those were the feelings that sum up the entire twenty years of my life. I have never gone a full day without feeling either one of them. It was like a stage, one I ascended to or descended down from. I was more familiar with rage because it was the only way I could express how I felt without feeling weak. Without being looked down on like a mere child with confused hormones, throwing tantrums. I would rather rave and tear the whole world down than let them see through me. And then when I am alone, I descend into despair. My loss becomes more apparent and the feeling of hopelessness creeps in. The feeling that nothing would change no matter what I do. That my life would forever remain the same. That I would never really know what happened to my parents and why they had to die like that. The pain brings tears. It makes me curl into myself at night. It wakes me up in the middle of the night and it hits me like the waves of a stormy ocean. And then I wake
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EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
The Alpha's Caregiver 183-The first Pure Blood
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
The Alpha's Caregiver 182-At all Costs.
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
The Alpha's Caregiver 181-The Whining of a Weakling
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
The Alpha's Caregiver 180-A Bigger Destiny
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
The Alpha's Caregiver 179-A Crazy Turn
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
The Alpha's Caregiver 178-The Greater Hell
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
The Alpha's Caregiver 177-One of the Omegas
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
The Alpha's Caregiver 176-The Confession.
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran
