EUDORA. Déjà Vu. It hit me even harder than the pelting rain as we ran through the forest. The feeling of familiarity came from knowing I’ve been in this same situation before with the rain serving as the only variable. The hand gripping mine tightly and pulling me, my racing heart as I followed him into the unknown while trying to keep the same pace, and the imminent threat to both our lives which was not far behind us as we ran—I’ve seen it all before. It was just like the first day I met him(well, a different version of him but I didn’t even know that then and now that I do, I couldn’t stop my brain from replaying the previous scene in my head), and he practically ran away with me while I was still wearing the dress that signified my innocence that would have been punctured by Alpha Tauren if Alpha Rex hadn’t showed up. It was the day my fate changed upon meeting him and so it was a given that even in this dangerous moment, it was all I could think about. That and the way my he
ALPHA REX.“Are…we lost?” We’ve been silent since we found shelter under the huge rock, staring into the stark darkness ahead of us and listening to nothing but the rhythmic sound of the rain and the occasional thunder that rocked the forest. This wasn’t exactly how I planned the day to go yet here I was, in the middle of a deep forest with a girl whose existence has only ever bothered me since I met her. I’ve been walking the paths of this forest for seven years, ever since that night I regained my freedom and returned to the place I used to call home but this was the first time I’ve gone off course because I had felt the urge to protect someone even though it wasn’t who I was expecting to see. Right now, that someone was curled up beside me, shivering and I can smell her apprehension. I peered into her questioning brown eyes and they almost stopped me from saying the words forming at the tip of my tongue but I let them out anyway. “What do you think?” I snapped at her and she re
EUDORA.I was falling down a cliff. It was an endless fall, one that made me think I would float in the air forever and I was prepared for the outcome, to feel pain the moment my back hits the ground, to let the darkness take over my vision and finally get plunged into that abyss that has been a long time coming but suddenly, an unknown face appeared above the cliff and for some reason, I didn’t want to keep falling anymore.I reached out, desperate. They reached down. But it was too late. I hit the ground the same moment I woke up with a horrified gasp and realized it was just a dream. At least part of it. I tried to remember where I was and the last thing I remembered was someone holding unto me as I slipped and then my vision turned dark. I must have passed out from the shock of the fall down the cliff. On instinct, I sat up and my hands roamed my body. A sigh of relief escaped my lips upon realizing I wasn’t hurt or bleeding anywhere. I was fine, but how? My vision was still
EUDORA.I was freaking out, anyone would If they saw the same thing I was seeing right now. It took slapping my cheeks a few times to be sure I wasn’t the problem and this wasn’t a dream even though I wished it was. Did I hear him right or did he just say he was an Omega? “What sort of rubbish are you blabbering?” I snapped, “Did you hurt your head?” He shook his head, blinking his eyes rapidly and pouting his lips. “My head is fine. Is there a reason why it shouldn’t be?” I shifted closer to him, refusing to believe the fall didn’t mess with his head. Him being his alter ego, I could take but confusing his identity with one that wasn’t his? No. I dug my hand through his hair, letting my fingers scratch through his full head of black and brown, trying to see if he shattered his skull or something. “What are you doing?” He protested, “Stop!”I didn’t back down and even proceeded to grab his entire face so I could have a better look. He struggled with me and pushed me off him. I lan
EUDORA.The silence in the car as he drove back home was deafening. The ride back home felt even longer than the one to the forest with Alpha Rex especially with Logan's eyes that kept looking at the rearview mirror. I pretended like I didn’t know he was looking at me but I was very much aware of the way his eyes bore holes into me from the rearview mirror. His gaze was questioning and it shifted from me to the overly curious man seated beside me in the backseat of the car. Alpha Rex’s alter ego was looking outside the window of the car, seemingly intrigued by every single thing that he saw along the way. It would be even strange if Logan didn’t look disturbed by the way his Alpha was currently behaving. However, I wasn’t ready to answer whatever questions he may have for me because I didn’t even know where to start from but seeing both our disheveled state, he seemed to refrain from asking questions and I was grateful for that. “Is he…badly hurt?”He finally broke the silence in t
EUDORA. I created the problem we had at hand and it was only right that I be the one to find a solution to it. Besides, it seemed like everyone else was too stunned to even find it believable and needed time to come to terms with the fact that their Alpha wasn’t right in the head. Everyone aside, Zena, who even hours after I broke the news still couldn’t stop laughing. I avoided everyone else by saying I needed to bring him to his room to treat the deep cut on his side and I pulled him away with me without as much as a protest from him, if anything, he seemed to be glad he was finally getting away from the inquisitive eyes of everyone. Finding a solution to the problem is what had me in Alpha Rex’s room right now, with the version of him that wasn’t unhinged but rather…strange. He was looking around the room, his eyes scanning the place where he had slept and woke up many times yet the obsidian eyes had not a glint of familiarity in them. He looked around and I looked at him. Only
EUDORA.“Wha—what are you doing?” I stuttered, snapping my head away quickly before I got any more view of his body.“What? You asked me to take my shirt off.” He sounded perplexed.I did say so but I didn’t expect him to take it off just like that either. I might not have thought it through but he should know better, shouldn’t he? We were alone and he was blatantly exposing his chest to me and seeing his reaction, he didn’t even sound like he found anything wrong with it. I cleared my throat, still looking away from him. My cheeks flamed hot and trying to convince myself that this wasn’t the time and place for me to feel things, didn’t work. Especially the time. This wasn’t the time to feel things when the man I was feeling it for wasn’t exactly in his right senses. “Yes, I did say so but I didn’t…well, I didn’t think you’d suddenly take it off like that.” I managed to say while still looking away from him. “I should put it back on then.”Before I knew it, he was already shruggi
EUDORA.I was also exhausted and needed to shut my heavy eyes. I had planned to meet Zena after I was done with taking care of Alpha Rex’s alter ego but I was too tired to do that anymore. Or maybe I was trying to avoid talking about it for now and me being tired was an excuse, either way, I retired into my own room and just slumped on my bed, not even bothered enough to take a shower. As I laid on the bed, my back on it and my face to the ceiling, like a tape was being rewinded, my mind drifted back to everything that has happened in just a span of two days and what it now means for me.Lillian never said anything about how to make Alpha Rex return if he somehow becomes someone else. I remembered clearly everything she said about Alpha Rex, especially how no one has ever met his alter ego. It can only mean that now, I have to figure out a way to make him return to his true self. What if I am never able to do that?What if Alpha Rex never returns?What if he is stuck as his Omega alt
EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran