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The Alpha's Caregiver 112–Entry 003<The Journal>
L’s POV*APRIL 11**A week after Mason’s Birthday*•••I haven’t seen my mother or Mason after that day that my entire life changed. I wasn’t just snatched out of my home and into another reality, I was dragged right through it, literally. I put up a fight at first, refusing to be taken away to whatever place that twisted Alpha had in mind but it seemed my struggle for freedom pleased and angered him all at once because he ordered for me to be dragged out while I screamed and called for my mother. As an Omega, I was powerless against the muscles that dragged me through the floor and bruised my delicate skin.As I got bundled onto the back of the truck, with tears blinding my eyes, a single plea was all that I left my lips in whispers that only I could hear. That no matter what, Mason doesn’t come out. That no matter what, my brother remains safe and unfound. He was an Omega male and there was hardly any need for them than to become slaves and laborers to other powerful werewolves. Ju
The Alpha's Caregiver 113-A dead Alpha.
ALPHA REX. I haven’t felt this disturbed in a long time. Like the world was closing in on me and breathing now became too hard. I was going to give it up, Heaven knew. I was going to stop going after something that seemed too impossible to be true but it was different now that someone was dead and not just dead, killed and dumped at my doorstep as a warning to me. I couldn’t stop thinking about the way Alpha Tauren wound up dead at my borders. As merciless and brutal as people claim I was, I could have never killed anyone the way Alpha Tauren was killed. It showed just how much I have undermined the Rogue who was going around packs and promising a new world order. He’s dangerous-whoever he is. He was a threat and was unlike anybody I have ever met. He knew more about me than he was letting on and I know people like that. They are like rabid dogs who will not let go of a prey that they have sunk their teeth into and now he has bitten me and he won’t let go until he has taken everyt
The Alpha's Caregiver 114-The harshest reality.
EUDORA.A world more bearable than mine? What a joke. What in heaven’s name did I just read? If the words weren’t written with bold ink but instead printed, I would have argued to death that it was all fiction. That it was just another book of woes where the hero or heroine suffers half of the book and the author only allows them little happiness on page 338 of pages 340. But no, I held it and it was real. It felt so real that it made goosebumps decorate my skin like a piece of art. The first thing I did was close the book and throw it back under the bed like it burned my hands and then I just sat on my bed for seconds longer than I was able to count and just…stared. Stared into blank space. I should have stopped reading from the second entry. Should have taken the warning of the last two lines from that entry but I couldn’t stop myself from being sucked into the pages and had to move on to the third and now I wish I never did. It was both cruel and shocking. She lost everythin
The Alpha's Caregiver 115–The Suicide Mission.
EUDORA. I knew exactly when the clock struck nine. I knew because my eyes followed the hands of the clock right from when it was 7 pm when Zena told me to go wait in my room. According to her, he leaves the house sometime around nine at night and I need to be in his car before then. I was sure I was ready to do it. Certain that it was going to be okay, that all I needed to do was follow him, see where he goes and then inform Zena when I return but as the time got closer for me to actually do it, I became a bundle of nerves, sweating away on my bed as I waited. When a minute passed and Zena still didn’t show up and even Alpha Rex wasn’t home yet, I hoped she already gave it up. I couldn’t go to her and tell her I was too scared to do it anymore but at least I could pretend to be surprised if she told me not to go anymore. When my door burst open, my heart sank and I wanted to cry. The expression on Zena’s face wasn’t that of someone who was coming to tell me that I didn’t have to
The Alpha's Caregiver 116-A Rough Ride.
EUDORA. He drove for hours. On rough roads and smooth ones. On the smooth ones, I of course had a smooth experience, even dozing off a few times when my fear wasn’t too big enough to keep me from resting my eyes. On the rough ones, I regretted ever getting into the car. I regretted agreeing to do this in the first place and wished I could turn back the hands of time. My head banged against the upper part of the trunk each time he took a really rough path and since I was squeezed a little tight into it, it only made me even more uncomfortable. We spent more time on the rough roads than the smooth ones and after a while, it was all rough and I had to hold myself back from making a sound each time. It didn’t help that it was pitch black in here too and light only flooded the trunk briefly each time he passed what I assumed were street lights. The state of the car didn’t help matters either. It was rickety and spluttered smoke like it was going to break down at any point and now I ha
The Alpha's Caregiver 117-Déjá Vu?
EUDORA. Déjà Vu. It hit me even harder than the pelting rain as we ran through the forest. The feeling of familiarity came from knowing I’ve been in this same situation before with the rain serving as the only variable. The hand gripping mine tightly and pulling me, my racing heart as I followed him into the unknown while trying to keep the same pace, and the imminent threat to both our lives which was not far behind us as we ran—I’ve seen it all before. It was just like the first day I met him(well, a different version of him but I didn’t even know that then and now that I do, I couldn’t stop my brain from replaying the previous scene in my head), and he practically ran away with me while I was still wearing the dress that signified my innocence that would have been punctured by Alpha Tauren if Alpha Rex hadn’t showed up. It was the day my fate changed upon meeting him and so it was a given that even in this dangerous moment, it was all I could think about. That and the way my he
The Alpha's Caregiver 118–An Omega’s Pain.
ALPHA REX.“Are…we lost?” We’ve been silent since we found shelter under the huge rock, staring into the stark darkness ahead of us and listening to nothing but the rhythmic sound of the rain and the occasional thunder that rocked the forest. This wasn’t exactly how I planned the day to go yet here I was, in the middle of a deep forest with a girl whose existence has only ever bothered me since I met her. I’ve been walking the paths of this forest for seven years, ever since that night I regained my freedom and returned to the place I used to call home but this was the first time I’ve gone off course because I had felt the urge to protect someone even though it wasn’t who I was expecting to see. Right now, that someone was curled up beside me, shivering and I can smell her apprehension. I peered into her questioning brown eyes and they almost stopped me from saying the words forming at the tip of my tongue but I let them out anyway. “What do you think?” I snapped at her and she re
The Alpha's Caregiver 119-The other Him.
EUDORA.I was falling down a cliff. It was an endless fall, one that made me think I would float in the air forever and I was prepared for the outcome, to feel pain the moment my back hits the ground, to let the darkness take over my vision and finally get plunged into that abyss that has been a long time coming but suddenly, an unknown face appeared above the cliff and for some reason, I didn’t want to keep falling anymore.I reached out, desperate. They reached down. But it was too late. I hit the ground the same moment I woke up with a horrified gasp and realized it was just a dream. At least part of it. I tried to remember where I was and the last thing I remembered was someone holding unto me as I slipped and then my vision turned dark. I must have passed out from the shock of the fall down the cliff. On instinct, I sat up and my hands roamed my body. A sigh of relief escaped my lips upon realizing I wasn’t hurt or bleeding anywhere. I was fine, but how? My vision was still
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EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
The Alpha's Caregiver 183-The first Pure Blood
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
The Alpha's Caregiver 182-At all Costs.
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
The Alpha's Caregiver 181-The Whining of a Weakling
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
The Alpha's Caregiver 180-A Bigger Destiny
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
The Alpha's Caregiver 179-A Crazy Turn
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
The Alpha's Caregiver 178-The Greater Hell
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
The Alpha's Caregiver 177-One of the Omegas
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
The Alpha's Caregiver 176-The Confession.
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran
