Three weeks had passed and the blood moon will now come out after a month of waiting, time flies so fast, right. It seems like I've just read that book yesterday although it was actually a month since then.
That's why I'm afraid of time, it can change anything and you can never fix it when time doesn't want to, if everyone was afraid of creature like us, then I'm afraid of how time work because you can never turn it back the way you want to, you will just find yourself reminiscing but not going back in time to change everything. I admit that I sometimes wish to turn it back then I'll realize that it's impossible. Now look at me now, waiting for a useless thing.
I was actually waiting for it, the blood moon and I still don't know the reason why, I'm just really curious, though I won't witness the vaewolf with my own eyes since I don't know whom it will be, it could be more amazing if I'll watch that myself but let's just wait, maybe there'll be a sigh or something on wh
Blade came back like nothing happened even though there are many things that he missed including who I truly am, and there is much pain that he failed to stop, pains that can probably change me to life, but I hope not. He promised to protect me from any pain and to not let it go through me again, but where is he? Gone for some fucking reason that who knows what and I also don't want to know it anymore. I know it's not his fault, it's never his fault, but I wanna know why he wasn't here last night. I wanna know why I suffered alone, again. I'll be so inconsiderate if I'll blame him because there's no one to blame but me, it's always me and it has always been me. "Good morning mi Reina! Rise and shine my sunshine... I missed your smiles already, hey, wake up my love" I don't wanna open my eyes even though I ain't asleep. I don't want his smile to vanish just because I have no strength to smile at him back, I don't want him to feel guilty just because I failed to pr
"So, where were you last night?" Did he think that I already forgot about that? Well I didn't, I was actually thinking of that a while ago but I can't find my timing and now I found one. I've heard somewhere that your mate doesn't have any responsibility to inform you anything that he'll do, it's actually ok for me if he's not comfortable answering me as long as he'll not lie to me, I would rather accept him keeping his privacy from me that lying to me, though we don't have privacy if we'll keep both of our mind open.I actually like it to be open if there's something important for us to talk to and not just because we're afraid that there may be something going on because that means we don't trust each other. After all, doubt is winning over trust and I hate that kind of toxic relationship. Though I must admit that I'm sometimes toxic when I know that I'm the one who's right."I-i just, Uhm... My pack needed me last night so I came there" is that it? Then why do
"Aze! Aze! Let me in! oh fuck you all" I heard a familiar voice shouting outside like a pig that is about to give birth. I think I know who has the most annoying voice, my best friend, Carmen. Hell, I miss that bitch! But gosh, I can feel the secondhand shame because of her but she looks like she's not ashamed, what a thick face that she has! Hell, is she really my friend. I can't remember her now, who is she? Just kidding!Can someone please make her stop? Her loud voice is now echoing in the whole forest and she's still not even planning to stop. For goodness' sake! I want to shout at her to stop it already but I can't I might end up laughing my ass off because of her stupidity."If she weren't your friend, I will surely cut his throat open for causing noise in my palace, she has the guts to shout outside an alpha's place? I'm starting to lose my temper with her my Reina, help me" I heard Blade talked beside me, how long has he been there? So he also feel
"She's my best friend blade! She was the one who was there for me during the time that I needed anyone that most and you can't just tell me that I need to avoid her just because of a reason that you can't even tell me! What is your problem, really? She didn't even do something wrong to me for you to react like that! Are you out of your mind? Or are you really jealous of her?" I confront him after we arrived at our room. My breathing ragged while shouting those words at him. I really can't understand his point but he can't even make me understand it! He's such a psycho!"I just don't like her" Anger took over me after hearing his response."JUST BECAUSE OF THAT FUCKING REASON? YOU'RE BEING UNREASONABLE BLADE!" I was almost out of breath, huffing, and don't know how to let go of the anger that I'm feeling. He's so unbelievably, he's not even the same blade that I met a month ago. What happened? Why is he acting like this?"Your mouth Mi Reina" and now he wan
"Carmen? Where are you?" I shouted the moment I entered her house. Blade already permitted me to visit her though I don't need his permission, I will still go here on my own, who told him that I'll let anyone stop me?it was locked but thankfully, the keys that she gave me years ago are still in my possession. I made sure that it'll be with me in case that I'll get back and I really did. The whole place is so unusually quiet, the surrounding was tranquil and it made me more nervous than ever.Where is she? I bet she is not here because if she is, she'll surely welcome me and ran towards me the moment she heard my voice, but I saw no one.I walked up the stairs to check in her room, maybe she's having what she called beauty rest and is lazy to get up, but she's still nowhere to be found. I checked the bathroom, kitchen, and every place that she might be but she's not there.Where did she go? As far as I can remember, she's not going out in time
"Good day milady" a familiar voice greeted me, its Dash. He was wearing his usual grin just like how every playboy is, never thought that werewolves have that kind of man. He was wearing a plain white t-shirt and black shorts.I was taking a walk outside the palace to see how beautiful the surrounding is but he called me and started walking with me. Is he up to blade? Then why did he approached me instead of just walking himself to Blade's place?"Oh, hi. Are you up to Blade? He's not here, he has some important errands to do, but you can just come back later at night, he'll be home hat time" I turned to look at him while speaking but he was looking at the path that we're taking."No, I was just wandering around and saw a gorgeous woman alone, I just assumed if I can join you, you seem so lonely a while ago so I decided to just walk with you. Can I?" he asked politely, there's nothing wrong with it right? Besides I'm so bored in the palace, I don't want to
"It was just a misunderstanding Blade!" Why can't he just open his mind to understand me? He just told me days ago that he won't be mad at me, yet here he is, shouting right in front of my face with his eyes full of anger that can even burn anything or anyone that'll touch it. He's always likes this, why can't he be open to an explanation even just once in his life? Because we always end up like this, fighting over shallow things because our relationship is still not that strong honestly. "FUCK THAT MISUNDERSTANDING! ANSWER ME! WHY. ARE. YOU. FLIRTING. WITH. THAT. JERK!" Flirting? Is that called flirting already when he didn't even saw the whole fucking scene! Does that mean he sees me as a flirt now? It's funny how fast he can jump to a conclusion like he doesn't trust me, it's obvious that he's doubting me. "Flirting? You call that flirting Blade? THEN WHAT AM I TO YOU, HUH? A FLIRT? A PICK ME UP, WOMAN? DAMN IT BLADE! I was just trying to be good at people here be
"Mi Reina..." Blade called me while I'm combing my hair, I just finished taking a bath, so I faced him with both of my eyebrows raised at him puzzled by his sudden call."Yes?""I know you haven't met my parents and I'm sorry about that, I should've let you meet them the moment you stepped here as my mate, I forgot about that," he apologized, we actually never talked about his parents and I never complained that I didn't get the chance to meet them so I was curious why he opened that topic up all of a sudden. I don't have a problem with that, I'm still not ready, I'm afraid if they bite- just kidding, but really, I'm afraid that they might have something to say to me that I won't like."Nah, I'm fine with that, I also know that they're a busy person- I mean werewolf so I understand, they don't need to be here just because of me, I'm not that important," he smiled at me and I don't think I will like what he's going to say next because of his smile."
I just get back home immediately thinking that I was able to wipe them all out but then I found out that there are still those people that I missed out and instead of going back, I called my men to kill them all. I kept on talking to them even though I know that Aze is listening for I can feel her presence just behind the door. She can never hide herself from me because I can feel and hear even her heartbeat. I found her there and just as I expected, she really listening to whoever I'm talking to but to my surprise, I saw her with tears falling down her cheeks and found out that she's jealous because she assumed that I'm pertaining to some woman. How the hell will I even cheat if I'm already head over heels on her? So I did what I can do to make her feel better and that night, everything happened. I marked her as mine- I marked her body as my property and so as confessed my love to her which she answered that she's feeling the same way. &nb
Blade"Daddy! Come on! I want a baby brother already!" Avi kept on saying that to me while posting her lips. She's such a cutie and I know she got that from her mother.I just scratched the back of my head for I don't know how to answer it. I mean she's still my princess and I don't know how to explain her adult things but I also don't wanna lie to her so might as well keep my mouth shut. She's an innocent little princess. I looked at my wife to ask for help for I know that she can explain it to our daughter in a good way but she just rolled her eyes at me like she's telling me that I should deal with this for this is my fault. Oh damn."Sure baby, I can give you a baby brother only if you're mommy will agree," I said while sitting in front of her for our height to be just the same and making her sit on my lap and that way, it'll be Aze who'll need to answer her this time. That's a great idea, right? I'm such
It's been a week since he explained everything to me. At first, it was hard for me to believe him. I mean how will I even believe him if all these years, I thought he just fooled me? He can't even blame me for my trust issues but I guess it was still partly my fault for my trust in him was weak enough for me not to hold on to him on those times where waves and waves of problems are trying how strong our relationship is. It wasn't easy for us, I know that and we should have trusted each other instead of leaving without even letting the other one explain. That's where I was wrong but he should have also told me that part of him. I could have accepted him if he didn't wait for someone to tell it to me in a way where I'll hate and disgust him.I just couldn't contain it anymore because pain already took over me that I don't even have any strength to hear him out. Everything just drained me. I was so exhausted with too much emotion I felt that day that made me
"A-are you planning to kill me?" I asked him again after hearing the door screech and I'm assuming that it's him. Of course, who else will visit me here? Is he checking if this time is the best time to kill me? Pathetic, but I can't even shout at him because I know that if I did, it will be the end of me. I'm expecting that to happen. He can even make me his dartboard just for him to enjoy and that's what terrified me not because I'm afraid of him but because I'm afraid to die if that means I'll leave my daughter alone and he'll surely have a way to get her the moment he found the truth out. He can easily get her the moment I die and my poor baby will just experience hell with him. That will never happen. I will protect my daughter from him because he doesn't deserve her in the first place. I'm glad he still doesn't know a thing about her.I don't want him to know for I know that he'll take my daughter away from me and hurt her just like what he did to me.
I woke up feeling a bit of pain in my temple yet it's still unbearable so I just erase it in my mind and yawn thinking about how good my sleep was but I immediately get up after knowing that I'm in an unknown room and I can hear the wave's tranquil sound that's soothing my ears. But instead of appreciating it, I am bothered. I am at a party last night and then this happened. What the hell! Does that mean I'm with him? Does that mean he again got me? No... This couldn't happen... I don't want this to happen. Why did he take me here and how did he manage to plan all of this when he's not with me and he knows nothing about what's running in my mind? We just saw each other for fuck's sake after years so what is he up to?What the hell is he planning to do with me? I know he has one... It's impossible that he just did this because he saw me and I have a bad feeling about this. And if he managed to manipulate our situation and turn things the other way around, t
I plastered a big smile on my face the moment I entered this familiar place again. This palace... It's been years yet it still brings nostalgia to my whole system like it was just yesterday. I can clearly remember everything I've been through inside it- both happy and worst moments. Nothing changed but the aura surrounding this place- a dark and intimidating one that was actually colorful when I was still here. I guess this palace's true color just showed itself to me.My memories kept on playing over and over again like a broken tape telling me that my life started here. Everything started here, I'm aware of this but it already ended and will never go back to its place because change is the only thing that stays and love isn't included in that. My mind seems to be playing with me, it keeps on reminding me how I've smiled laughed and cried my heart out here but that's already my last because this time, I'm here for an evil plan. A plan that can't be ruined
"Are you sure about this, Aze?" Mom asked me for the nth time today and then again, I just nodded at her as a response. How many times have I heard her ask me this question today? I can't even count it anymore and no matter how many times I'll tell her that my decision is already final, she just kept on sighing deeply, she obviously doesn't want me to leave. She's the one who's stopping me to do this since the day of my training.Yes, I took a training lesson but it's just my brother who teaches me things. I also met someone in the same situation as me- yes, a vaewolf just like me. She teaches me everything she knows. She came from a different pack but she knows almost everything about vaewolves and what we can do. There are still things that she doesn't know but she definitely knows 90% of it and I learned a lot from her.She's a great woman, sadly, both of us experienced different situations but the same pain. She also became a
Time passed so fast just like how fast the wind can pass a place. I can’t still remember hating myself for being pregnant and not wanting to have a baby because I know that he's the father but I didn’t know that it’ll be such a blessing a will save me from everything. I didn't know that this is the one that can complete me and change me into a new Aze who deserves to be called a mother.I was always lost and I didn’t even bother to find myself. I was angry at everyone because I thought they'll all just betray me in the end. I don't even trust myself because I am still capable of hurting myself yet this angel did. This angel found me and save me from my misery. I once thought that being a mother will be hell for me- that I won't be successful in raising a little angel and I'm not capable of doing so but I was wrong. I can’t imagine that I was able to take it- to give birth and raise a child and that’s because of them. Tho
No… This can’t be happening. Oh, God… Please, no. Don’t let our fake love have fruit. Don't let something unwanted happen. I don’t want a memory of him to stay with me for the rest of my life. I can't even imagine looking at a child that reminds me of my heartbreak and betrayal. That will totally be hell for me. That may even seem like the world is punishing me again. Yes, I once wished to have a family with him back then but everything has changed now… Now what? They will give me a child when I already don't want one from him? Goddamn it! Please... Please make this disappear and take this out of my system. I can't... I don't think I'd be able to do this- to become a great mother. I don't want a child hurting just because her mother is hurt. I don't deserve this and I can't handle this now that I already lost everything.I won't be worthy enough to be a mother and I don't know why it is given to me. Is it even a gift