"Do you want something to eat?" Via asked me in a low tone and calm voice. It's been a day since I knew that I'm bearing my child- me and Blade's child, but Blade was still nowhere to be found, even his shadow seems to vanish with him, I actually heard him talking last night, I think he came and just go away, but I guess it's just a dream because if he has been here, he would've checked on me, he would've placed a kiss on my temple and ask me how I'm doing but no, I didn't even felt him because if I did, then my heart could've beat fast and loud like how it is when he's near me.
"No, I'm ok. I just want to rest" I answered and gave her a timid smile with my lifeless eyes but she seems like she's not convinced, I am not hungry, why can't anyone understand me? Fuck it! I don't want my frustration to come out through words because that'll literally strike them like a knife made to kill all of them. I don't want anyone disturbing me when I'm not in the mood or hell will pay. Just
It's been a week, but guess what, he just arrived in here- Yes, he finally arrived but I don't seem to know him anymore, I was walking to have a little exercise while Via was accompanying me for me to be safe, were walking around the palace but he suddenly appeared like a fucking mushroom.He just showed up like nothing happened, but he seems like in a hurry, he didn't even try to look at me nor greet me so I blocked his way, making him stop on his way upstairs. Is he trying to avoid my questions for him not to explain? Well, he can never do that. I deserve to know everything for I am his mate and he's the father of the child that I'm bearing. Just don't stress me or hell will pay, my dear mate."Where have you been?" I asked with traces of seriousness and bereavement in my voice, I can't help but have that tone for my patience is already drained on waiting for him for a week! That's a long fucking week and there is no day that I forgot to be worried sick of him. I wan
A knock on the door woke my sleeping soul up, it was so loud that it's already hurting my ears, it seems like the one who's knocking is in a hurry. I was actually resting to erase every stress in my mind but this loud knock woke me up, I was about to shout to whoever he is but then it stopped, who was that? Both of us were here because there are two beds in this room. So it's not Via... Is it Blade? Because if that's the doctor, then that'll knock calmly unlike this one. Who the fuck has the guts to disturb me? Everyone knows what happened to me and why I should be always resting.Me and Via looked at each other, puzzled who might that be. I don't think it's Blade, he won't come here, I know that, unless he wants another argument between the two of us because if that's the reason, then might as well leave this house or else he'll be the one to kill my baby with his attitude. I'd rather live alone in a simple and small house than in a palace that will never do good to my situa
"I'm sorry to interrupt you milord, but you both need to hear me out first" he cut the two of us off so I turned my attention on him and that's when I remembered what happened. I almost forgot, damn it!"How's my baby?" I asked and I saw how Blade's mouth turned open, isn't he still aware? Does that mean that he just arrived or they just don't want him to know what's going on? Oh, I think he will be so happy, I know that for he always wants to have a family with me and her it is. We can always start again and forgot everything for this little angel, I want to give her a normal life that's far from misery and way far from this cruel world. I don't want her to witness how this world works, I want her to be an innocent yet a fighter woman and not like me. She'll never suffer for we will protect her and kill anyone who'll try to hurt her. Mark my words.I gave him a smile but he still can't move a muscle. Oh, what a cute man, I know he'll be this surprised, if this didn't
I woke up with my body curled into foetal position, with pillows above my face covering it and my eyes were swollen from crying all night. I look like an insane woman who just arrived at a mental hospital, suffering from pain that no sickness can be compared to. This hellish world is making me sick and I'm so tired of living in it. If I can just kill myself, then I'll fucking do that just for everything to stop. This is already enough! I don't have any reason to live anymore. It's like I just live for the world to see how far I'll go, to prove that I'm a coward and I'm weak enough to give up on every challenge that they gave me.Can this still be called life? It feels like I'm already in hell though I still am alive. Is that cool? Because for me, it isn't.I was so tired of crying that I don't even have the strength to get up to do my usual routine, I don't even know how to start another day with the same pain that I'm suffering from, it'll just be a cycle, wake
Blade's POV~Flashback~"Why are you doing this Dash? Why do you keep on ruining the both of us? I don't want to fucking kill you but I don't think I still can handle myself after all of this!" I yelled from the of my lungs while clenching my fist and gritting my teeth out of anger.I was so pissed at this fucktard but I can't kill him, I can never kill him because he's my adopted brother and we've been together for years now. He's a family of mine and I don't kill my family, I'm not that evil, I know my limitations and I know that I should obey every rule because I am an alpha, I should know how to obey for my pack to believe in me.Yes you've read it right, he is my adopted brother, my parents adopted him when he was five years of age, but now, he wants to be independent that's why he's living alone, he doesn't want to accept my parent's support anymore but he still love them, he had this house of him all by himself but his position is because he's my bro
I woke up with my whole body tied by a rope, I can smell some dead animals around and I can somehow see it even though the whole room is dark. I see, this has been a room for creatures that are meant to be killed. The smell of werewolves and vampires didn't even get away from my sense. Is that what he's planning to do with me? Because if it is, then I won't just die without fighting him. He's such a coward for finding an opponent and locking me at the end for him to be able to win.I just let out a frustrated sigh with my furrowed eyebrows.If I am in a normal situation, I can always unleash this fucking rope in me, but I still am weak because I'm still tied in this house where my abilities can't be used, it'll just make me weaker and weaker and I feel so helpless right now. How can I be called an alpha when this house itself already defeated me. But I didn't say I'd stop fighting, did I? I won't give that motherfucker the satisfaction of seeing me this weak. I may not
"Now that I want to avenge for myself, you are judging me without knowing what I've been through? Fucktards! Fuck you all! And you two, you're going to regret making me like this! You'll all regret that I'm still alive regardless of all the misery you caused me! It's your fault! If you have checked if I'm still alive, you could've spared yourself from such problems!" He pointed at my parents with his furious expression. He isn't even getting out of breath for those lines of him. Damn him!. I saw him faced me. "Tell me Blade, if this happens to you, would you do the same as me or you would rather stay silent and weak for the rest of your life? I was given a chance to avenge. Of course, I will fucking do so!" He asked me and that question literally made me froze.I looked at my parents, wanting them to confirm everything in front of me but they just avoided my eyes looking in the opposite direction where I'm tied as if telling me that this bastard is saying the truth. Did they
Blade's POV.Now I'm here, trying so hard to make her feel better but I can never tell her that everything will be alright, I can't whisper her the words 'i'll protect you' because I'll just fail myself and her. How can I tell her that it'll all be fine if I'm also broken? How can I assure her that if I'm just pretending to be strong but deep inside I'm slowly melting because of the fire that is desperately wanting me to fall on the ground and break out? Damn this hell! All of them think that I'm the strongest yet I can't even support my mate and help her gain her glow once again. Bullshits! Argh! I wanna take a deep breath over and over again but that'll just make her feel down more.She seems so regretful just by hearing my words. I didn't mean to, I was just so tired, my whole body was so tired that I didn't realize that I was already telling her how hurt I am and hit her conscience. I don't want her to feel that, it'll just add to the misery that she's feeling. Why
I just get back home immediately thinking that I was able to wipe them all out but then I found out that there are still those people that I missed out and instead of going back, I called my men to kill them all. I kept on talking to them even though I know that Aze is listening for I can feel her presence just behind the door. She can never hide herself from me because I can feel and hear even her heartbeat. I found her there and just as I expected, she really listening to whoever I'm talking to but to my surprise, I saw her with tears falling down her cheeks and found out that she's jealous because she assumed that I'm pertaining to some woman. How the hell will I even cheat if I'm already head over heels on her? So I did what I can do to make her feel better and that night, everything happened. I marked her as mine- I marked her body as my property and so as confessed my love to her which she answered that she's feeling the same way. &nb
Blade"Daddy! Come on! I want a baby brother already!" Avi kept on saying that to me while posting her lips. She's such a cutie and I know she got that from her mother.I just scratched the back of my head for I don't know how to answer it. I mean she's still my princess and I don't know how to explain her adult things but I also don't wanna lie to her so might as well keep my mouth shut. She's an innocent little princess. I looked at my wife to ask for help for I know that she can explain it to our daughter in a good way but she just rolled her eyes at me like she's telling me that I should deal with this for this is my fault. Oh damn."Sure baby, I can give you a baby brother only if you're mommy will agree," I said while sitting in front of her for our height to be just the same and making her sit on my lap and that way, it'll be Aze who'll need to answer her this time. That's a great idea, right? I'm such
It's been a week since he explained everything to me. At first, it was hard for me to believe him. I mean how will I even believe him if all these years, I thought he just fooled me? He can't even blame me for my trust issues but I guess it was still partly my fault for my trust in him was weak enough for me not to hold on to him on those times where waves and waves of problems are trying how strong our relationship is. It wasn't easy for us, I know that and we should have trusted each other instead of leaving without even letting the other one explain. That's where I was wrong but he should have also told me that part of him. I could have accepted him if he didn't wait for someone to tell it to me in a way where I'll hate and disgust him.I just couldn't contain it anymore because pain already took over me that I don't even have any strength to hear him out. Everything just drained me. I was so exhausted with too much emotion I felt that day that made me
"A-are you planning to kill me?" I asked him again after hearing the door screech and I'm assuming that it's him. Of course, who else will visit me here? Is he checking if this time is the best time to kill me? Pathetic, but I can't even shout at him because I know that if I did, it will be the end of me. I'm expecting that to happen. He can even make me his dartboard just for him to enjoy and that's what terrified me not because I'm afraid of him but because I'm afraid to die if that means I'll leave my daughter alone and he'll surely have a way to get her the moment he found the truth out. He can easily get her the moment I die and my poor baby will just experience hell with him. That will never happen. I will protect my daughter from him because he doesn't deserve her in the first place. I'm glad he still doesn't know a thing about her.I don't want him to know for I know that he'll take my daughter away from me and hurt her just like what he did to me.
I woke up feeling a bit of pain in my temple yet it's still unbearable so I just erase it in my mind and yawn thinking about how good my sleep was but I immediately get up after knowing that I'm in an unknown room and I can hear the wave's tranquil sound that's soothing my ears. But instead of appreciating it, I am bothered. I am at a party last night and then this happened. What the hell! Does that mean I'm with him? Does that mean he again got me? No... This couldn't happen... I don't want this to happen. Why did he take me here and how did he manage to plan all of this when he's not with me and he knows nothing about what's running in my mind? We just saw each other for fuck's sake after years so what is he up to?What the hell is he planning to do with me? I know he has one... It's impossible that he just did this because he saw me and I have a bad feeling about this. And if he managed to manipulate our situation and turn things the other way around, t
I plastered a big smile on my face the moment I entered this familiar place again. This palace... It's been years yet it still brings nostalgia to my whole system like it was just yesterday. I can clearly remember everything I've been through inside it- both happy and worst moments. Nothing changed but the aura surrounding this place- a dark and intimidating one that was actually colorful when I was still here. I guess this palace's true color just showed itself to me.My memories kept on playing over and over again like a broken tape telling me that my life started here. Everything started here, I'm aware of this but it already ended and will never go back to its place because change is the only thing that stays and love isn't included in that. My mind seems to be playing with me, it keeps on reminding me how I've smiled laughed and cried my heart out here but that's already my last because this time, I'm here for an evil plan. A plan that can't be ruined
"Are you sure about this, Aze?" Mom asked me for the nth time today and then again, I just nodded at her as a response. How many times have I heard her ask me this question today? I can't even count it anymore and no matter how many times I'll tell her that my decision is already final, she just kept on sighing deeply, she obviously doesn't want me to leave. She's the one who's stopping me to do this since the day of my training.Yes, I took a training lesson but it's just my brother who teaches me things. I also met someone in the same situation as me- yes, a vaewolf just like me. She teaches me everything she knows. She came from a different pack but she knows almost everything about vaewolves and what we can do. There are still things that she doesn't know but she definitely knows 90% of it and I learned a lot from her.She's a great woman, sadly, both of us experienced different situations but the same pain. She also became a
Time passed so fast just like how fast the wind can pass a place. I can’t still remember hating myself for being pregnant and not wanting to have a baby because I know that he's the father but I didn’t know that it’ll be such a blessing a will save me from everything. I didn't know that this is the one that can complete me and change me into a new Aze who deserves to be called a mother.I was always lost and I didn’t even bother to find myself. I was angry at everyone because I thought they'll all just betray me in the end. I don't even trust myself because I am still capable of hurting myself yet this angel did. This angel found me and save me from my misery. I once thought that being a mother will be hell for me- that I won't be successful in raising a little angel and I'm not capable of doing so but I was wrong. I can’t imagine that I was able to take it- to give birth and raise a child and that’s because of them. Tho
No… This can’t be happening. Oh, God… Please, no. Don’t let our fake love have fruit. Don't let something unwanted happen. I don’t want a memory of him to stay with me for the rest of my life. I can't even imagine looking at a child that reminds me of my heartbreak and betrayal. That will totally be hell for me. That may even seem like the world is punishing me again. Yes, I once wished to have a family with him back then but everything has changed now… Now what? They will give me a child when I already don't want one from him? Goddamn it! Please... Please make this disappear and take this out of my system. I can't... I don't think I'd be able to do this- to become a great mother. I don't want a child hurting just because her mother is hurt. I don't deserve this and I can't handle this now that I already lost everything.I won't be worthy enough to be a mother and I don't know why it is given to me. Is it even a gift