Chapter 98 - Helena and Max.

Lacy

It took time, but slowly I started to regain my confidence and myself. I was less protective over our children, which was a huge relief, since I actually felt less protective. The world no longer scared me as much as it did before, and I could give my children the space they needed to grow.

At the same time, I was learning so much about myself in the course that it was almost as though I was getting therapy instead of going to class. I slowly started to find my feet in the world again and worked through the trauma of what happened to me.

I could drive again, although I still didn’t want to go anywhere alone. I could drive without shaking like a leaf. I never realized that what happened to me had affected me that badly. I suspected, but I never realized that so much emotional damage could have been done.

I figured out after one of my classes that while I was in the situation, I didn’t feel the wounds because I was just trying to survive. I didn’t allow myself to feel at all, which