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154. To Lose You

Author: Kiki Jones
last update Last Updated: 2025-03-26 19:50:18

HAYLEE

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No.

That wasn't my intention. Hurting him or seeing him in pain as he struggled to back against the tree wasn't my intention.

But it did feel good.

It felt good to see what I could do, even though anger triggered the power. It felt good that I could somehow defend myself after living my entire life in fear.

Yet my heart ached for Xalen as he groaned again, and my anger melted, leaving me with a trembling body and a guilt-stricken heart because I knew I had gone too far.

“Did you go too far?” A voice in my subconscious filled me. It wasn't Liya. It was more like the evil voice that was hidden in everyone. “I would say it's exactly what you need. He did hurt you. Why not hurt him back? You have the power now, Nerina.”

No.

That one word started as a thought, but when the thoughts wouldn't stop flooding my mind, I held my head and exhaled, “No!”

“Calm down, Haylee.” Liya’s serene voice washed over the toxic one. “You have to control your power, or it will poison your mind. Cor
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