There was no doubt that he was that bad person that my scanty memories made me think. It was evident that the guilt was justified because he had treated me very badly, but, it was also true that I had used tactics to get closer to him.
However, I could not simply pay for what I had done by giving him my body as payment for that dirty move, because his words said that if I took a step this time, there was no way back."I don't like you, Helmut" I whisper as I try to pull away from him."You are a very bad liar.""It's you who can't handle the truth" I whisper as I try to think wisely."When a woman is close to the person she likes, her hormones show up with more intensity, if she is close to someone she dislikes, her hormones give off a scent that makes you stay away from the person or you would suffer greatly in your health.>> With you, I have experienced both ways, when I married you and almost killed you, you gave off the fear hormones. WIt was completely crazy what I had accepted because of pressure, because I knew it wasn't the right thing to do. Accepting him was showing that I was crazy because I had recently yelled at him for what I remembered him doing to me and now I was accepting him as my partner.It was complete madness that I didn't know how it was going to be taken. So, I had to hurry up and figure out what I should do after agreeing to something crazy just because of pressure.However, before I even spoke, the man who had been kneeling, ran up to me and placing one hand on the back of my neck and one on my waist, pressed me to his body and kissed me in such a way that my breath had been stolen from me.The people who had been watching I don't know since when, applauded excitedly and that was what made Helmut pull away from me and smile looking at the audience while I wanted to hit him."Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Baumann!" they all say and I cover my eyes embarrassed and kno
Helmut narratesI couldn't understand how it was possible for Aitana to tell me that. It was surprising to me that things were twisted this way when I thought it was all over. But, it was Aitana and with her things never go the way I thought they would."Aitana... Damn..." she mumbled unable to understand what it was she really wanted."I understand that you possibly believed that we are going back as if nothing had happened...""It's not like it didn't happen, what I had in mind was for us to get back together, remembering our mistakes so we wouldn't make them again. But, I didn't think you had thought otherwise." I complained."I accepted that you wouldn't leave the house, nor that I would. I agreed to let us get along, while I try to process everything, because the yelling and arguing wasn't doing anyone any good, but, I did not agree to marry you.>> A lot has happened and running into your arms because of an ultimatum, was not something I had
What I had to emphasize about Albert was that he thought a lot of his mother and sister, he really acted like a man. Like the man in the family who should always protect the women.The only problem was that he wanted to protect them from me when I didn't do them any harm and that slowed down my progress with him. Because when it was about living with him and being part of his tastes, everything was good, but, when it was related to his mother, things changed and a lot."Albert, I don't want to steal your mother, if that's what you think" I say remembering something my psychologist told me.What I say, surprises Albert who opens his eyes too wide and then, averts his gaze as if he had said just what he thought. So, I smile."I didn't approach her because I wish to hurt her or steal your love. Actually, if I am using them a little because she loves them too much even if she doesn't remember that she is your mother. So, she will always seek to do what is best for yo
The night went by and I couldn't stop thinking about all the activities we could do as a family. I felt that I had so many ideas that I could accomplish so many things.So, in the silence of my room, I began to make plans for trips to beaches, rivers, museums, plazas, theme parks, amusement parks and other things I had never visited as a child.I wanted to be a good father and husband, even if she didn't see me as her husband and I could no longer hold on to the idea that we were married. I had turned that page where we were supposed to be husband and wife and although I wished we were, things like that are no longer important when what I want is to enjoy being with my family.I would love to be her husband again, but, whether we are or not, it doesn't change the fun time we as a family will undoubtedly experience. So, I schedule everything and first thing in the morning I call my men to discuss very important issues."Not only do I need their security to b
Narrated AitanaI knew what Helmut was trying to do by talking about Albert's departure and I didn't want it to happen. If they really are my children, I don't want my health problem to affect their education."They're not going to drop out of school, woman. They're just going to get their lessons through a tutor." Helmut says and I deny."It's good that it's not all at home. They have to relate and for that reason, it's best if they are in a regular school" I say firmly and Albert looks at both of us as if trying to process something."Is there something we don't know yet?" asks Albert and I immediately, deny."It's not that. I just don't want you to miss such a good opportunity, just to walk around for a year. It's no good" I say and Albert stares at me."Actually, I was thinking of postponing that. A year isn't going to set me back if the tutor is related to the education I'll get when I leave. That, will help me adjust to the education process and g
After Helmut and his daughter talk about being in a convent, we finish breakfast and leave to get ready to enjoy the first day of vacation we will experience as a family."I don't understand why we didn't do this sooner" says Helmut and I watch the man smiling as he enjoys the view the sea gives us.We hadn't gone anywhere else and I know we have all seen the sea on the island. But, this time, I saw it so magical that I couldn't relate. The children enjoy some beach time with each other and the few children with their families enjoying the beach."The view is beautiful. Seeing our kids having fun without them being in some kind of danger, it's nice" says Helmut and I nod."Maybe that's why, that's why everything looks better" I whisper in understanding."What are you talking about?" asks Helmut."I've always loved those little ones, even when I was just waking up with my memory loss. But, now that my body and mind accept that there is a possibility that
AmsterdamSeven months laterWe were smiling walking through the streets of a rural, but, beautiful town in Amsterdam. We had spent many months as globetrotters where we had all kinds of memories of every place we had been.Our journey had started in Latin America and we were about to confirm that we had already visited every continent. New Zealand, Thailand, Russia and even, we had been to Australia, enjoying every beautiful place in these places.We had traveled the sky by plane, helicopter, hot air balloon and also, with a lot of fear, we had climbed many extreme sports in the air. The four of us, no one but us had experienced it all.Our phones, were full of pictures of the four or each of us in each of the activities we were a part of.There were many crafts we had brought back as souvenirs from each country and even, Ariana and I had a bracelet with charms from each place we had been, while the men just kept their charms on a chain they didn
Helmut narratesI wanted to hug her, kiss her, and tell her that everything would be all right, but, it wasn't. I couldn't promise that when I couldn't deliver. That's why he wanted so much to be at least that support she needed to move forward.I hadn't been that during her sick times when she was little and orphaned, and I hadn't been that when she had our children. So, I had to do it now, but, it was so hard.I wanted to feel her pain, I wanted so much to be able to enter her mind and with a power to disappear that damned tumor that kept me away from her, but, it was not possible. Only a miracle could save her and I didn't have good experiences with miracles."I'm serious, you are an amazing ex-husband" says Aitana and I can't help hugging her."You can also take me as a lover, I think that's my specialty if it's about you" I say and she slaps the side of my body, so, I smile knowing that's what I had imagined she would do to me."Stop talking
Fifteen years laterThe world continued its course, my pack had been consolidated thanks to Ariana's contributions. Albert, today he was returning home after fourteen years studying at the academy. Although he always saw for special dates or the anniversary of his mother's death, this time his return was different, because he saw to stay.Ariana gave orders to her people, while I had become a gardener who kept the garden where Aitana rests beautiful. Although to be honest there is little I have to do, because the islanders take turns every few hours to take care of the flowers and bring new ones in honor of the woman who fought to the end.So, I am almost all the time exercising, answering Ariana's tough questions so my brain doesn't rust and going to medical checkups at the insistence of my children.But, today, I would not be the boring man in his monotonous routine, today I would see my son. That one who had succeeded in that academy that now had t
Everyone on the island begins to show their respect for Aitana, while I watch as everything we experience here passes like a few seconds in a trailer. Remembering how I despised her and she wanted to leave here, throwing herself out of a window, makes me realize how much we have changed.Because it is in this place where she wanted to escape from, where she now wants to be forever. One by one they leave, leaving only Cleotilde's family and my closest men, those who knew our story.The night arrives and the castles are illuminated, at Aitana's request, we enter the one that was my castle, where the memories of my mistakes slap me so hard that I find it complicated to continue, however, a warm hand is placed on my hand and invites me to continue."Collect all the pain in here, I want to take it with me." Aitana says and I swallow hard."Aitana...""I am an expert in bearing pain, let me pick up all that pain clinging to those memories, I will take them with me
Six months laterWe had spent the time the doctors had given Aitana and although I wish that was the sign that they had made a mistake with the diagnosis, that was not the case. She had gotten much worse. So much that it hurt.There were times when she didn't remember who she was, others, where she didn't know how to move and at some, she would become so violent as she screamed for them to end her life. She would vomit, many times she would soil herself because she couldn't even warn them.Other times, she would wake up not knowing how to talk and with each step, her brain cancer would take over so much that we had to put the videos and photos we had taken on each walk, because many times she was suspicious even of the children.Today, for example, she did not speak, she did not move, it seemed that she was in a vegetable state, but, it was because her brain was barely functioning, being invaded by a tumor that looked like something full of spikes that were even
We had to let go and I was glad that even remembering all that we had lived and not remembering how well we had spent these months traveling, she decided to move forward. I couldn't say that I decided without knowing what I was doing, because Aitana knew it and I was glad she didn't hold a grudge."I want to leave here. I want us to resume our family trip today" Aitana says and I try to process what's going on."I understand, we will be leaving today" I say trying to get up."Although I don't remember what happened these past few months, there are pictures that give me an idea of it. Also, a few days ago, I had started to write down my thoughts of what I had experienced and although I left a general idea of what I had experienced, I know that I have enjoyed it. That we have been happy" says Aitana and I nod."We really have been. Even though we have measured time, we've spent time being happy the four of us." I murmur and she holds out her hand, which I take.
I could not understand what was going on. The woman who had been hostile when I asked her to come back, was now kissing me. I didn't understand what was going on and although I wanted to kiss her, I pulled away feeling that I was taking advantage of her confusion."Is something wrong?" asks Aitana and I stick closer to the back of my seat, to be away from her."I don't want you because of your mental confusion to feel like I'm taking advantage of you by kissing you" I say and she smiles."I'm the one who started the kiss.""But, I have my memories and I know you didn't agree to come back with me before the surgery or after you didn't have all your memories of the past like you do now." I murmur and she smiles."You are so cautious now. You don't look like the man who kissed me on our wedding day, just because I had another man's scent near me" she murmurs.I immediately, blush for having been so bold knowing I had a curse that could have killed he
The following dayWe had not been able to leave Amsterdam as we had planned, because Aitana was still not awake. Fortunately, the doctors said it was exhaustion that had her sleeping and not something serious.Exhausted from almost no sleep, thinking that she would wake up, I go out to have some coffee and with the computer working on the door of her room, I wait for the hours to pass. However, I have barely managed to sit up in the chair, when I hear a groan.Fearing that something bad has happened in my absence, I open the door to the room, which makes my legs weaken. The woman, who had not woken up, moans slightly as she tries to get up."I'll help you" I say running to her.Gingerly, I help her to sit up and I stand watching her, waiting for a scolding for allowing her to fall, an apology for scaring us or anything. I don't care if it's an insult, what matters to me, is that she speaks.That she tells my mind that she's alive. Because just seeing he
After the words he had said, the boys tried to be strong, but, again they walked away and in front of the pulpit they cried begging for strength to face this, I felt the same way.In silence I cried and when we ran out of energy, we looked at each other and I felt it, the connection of father and sons had been formed, there was no way for anyone in the world to deny or doubt that they were my sons, because this calamity, had consolidated the attempts of connection that in the past had been tried to be made.Something good had happened among so much suffering, but, I did not like the way it had happened. It was painful, we were united, but, it was painful to see my children suffer and me not being able to do something to be able to alleviate their pain."What should we do now?" asks Albert"Show strength to their mother. She suffers a lot, but, she keeps it quiet because she doesn't want you to realize what is happening. But, she didn't want to do that
The hours pass and we are finally allowed to see Aitana after several tests were done and confirmed that she was out of danger. Relief overcomes us and the boys thank God audibly as they wait to see their mother.Happy that my children are not violent like me, we advance to the room where the woman is still not awake. The doctor watches me and I understand that the time to know everything is now.So, I nod for the doctor to come to us and help me to tell what is happening with Aitana. Because I know that alone I can't and I can't disturb more Aitana who tries to look strong, although she suffers a lot."Guys..." I say calling their attention, after they both take their mother's hand, to then kiss this or her forehead."Is something wrong?" asks Albert when he sees that the doctor doesn't leave."I want you to hear your mother's health report. But, before that, I want you to tell me something, are you guys tough guys?" I ask and they look at each other"
I felt that the hourglass that showed me that I had little time left with Aitana, had run out of time from one moment to the next and it was all someone's fault. So, I run towards the people trying to run away from me.Seeing how they run, the desire to hunt takes over me and I run transforming myself into the wolf that never loses a prey. The beast that appeared when the curse caused me to only see my prey to kill it.I run after my prey and many people present scream when they see me turn into an animal, but, I don't care about that. My wife had been hurt and they had to pay for it. Without any fear that the man would die on the spot. I throw myself at him and he falls down with his face looking up at me."S-sir, please. Don't hurt me" the man says in a whisper, while in his gaze there is a fear I can't describe, the only thing that surprises me is that he didn't wet his pants because of the fear he feels.He knew how to do it. Just one bite, one scratch and hi