Chapter 101

I wake in the middle of the day, disorientated and cold. The window is wide open, letting a freezing breeze in. I get up and close the window, looking down at my soaked shirt. My breasts are rock hard, and sharp needles of pain shoot through them. I have to feed Deimos.

I look around the room for my baby and remember where I am. The sorrow and the aching need for him crash over me, and I sink to the bed, crying. Abbadon gave me a choice. I can go back. I can be with my child. ~ But he’ll want us back here eventually, ~ my wolf says, ~ and he will kill me. ~

* If we stay he’ll kill you sooner. *

~ Which is why we have to kill him first. ~

God. If I found Abbadon five months ago, I’d have been ecstatic at the idea of getting rid of my wolf, now the thought alone horrifies me. I can’t imagine what my life would be like without her. * I won’t let him do that. *

I go to the small bathroom that’s attached to my room, and leaning over the sink, I sta