I slowly blink my eyes open and see morning sunlight flickering through the windows of the villa. It is brightening the whole place. I intend to rise up but then something stops me, something behind my back. I turn my head slightly and see an arm around me. This makes me open my eyes fully. I look at the front again and see Rafe's face, so close to me. Mouth parting in astonishment, I inspect my surroundings. I'm half-lying on the couch. Rafe is sleeping in the same position beside me with his head loosely leaning on the couch's wall. His one arm is holding me from my back and the other arm is on his thigh. My own arm is on his belly and my head is on his chest.I enlarge my pupils at our awkward position. Why are we sleeping here on the couch and not in our rooms? I quickly move aside my arm and try to get away from him, but his arm on my back keeps me still. God, this is awkward. Embarrassed, I slowly touch his wrist to put it down, wanting to untwine myself from him before he wak
Rafe left the house in the late morning without telling me anything about his whereabouts. It felt odd that he left all of a sudden. He himself suggested that we should keep the office off today, still he went somewhere in a hurry as if he's going for work. He didn't comment on anything about us sleeping together on the couch. This is contrary to my expectations. I was expecting some reaction. Anyways, I left too afterwards, decided to see Luke and ask how he's doing. I haven't been able to meet him after that incident at our construction site. I thought I should go today as I have a free day. When I called him in the morning, he asked me to meet at the cafe because he also hasn't gone to the office today because of the same weather condition. Now I'm on my way to the cafe which he chose. The rain has stopped for now and currently the sky is clear while the sun is shining with its full potential. It appears that it won't rain again, but I'm not sure because I haven't checked today's
My anxious state kept me on edge the entire day. I didn't go home last night and I didn't pick up any of Freya's calls.I'm not going to talk to her. I'm not going to even look at her. I'm embarrassed, man.Currently, I'm in my office room, sitting on my desk and staring at my dead phone. It's early in the morning. No one has come to the office yet. I'm sure I am alone right now. I've hidden myself here since last night because I have no other place to go. I can't go home yet until I sort out what's really going on with me. The words I said to Freya the other night have been pestering me so much. I'm thankful that she didn't hear me, but I can't believe I actually emit those words from my mouth. It is a strange realization. I can't fall in love with her. It is forbidden. It is impossible. I can't think of her like this in the first place. It is making me perturbed, flustered, scared and surprised. All at the same time, surrounding me in great havoc. I don't understand since when did
Just at around 2 o'clock in the afternoon, I amble out of my office room and go into the direction of the conference room. My phone is now fully charged. I switch it on and check my messages. Freya has sent me some messages in which she has asked about where I am and when will I come home. Then I also see messages from her sister Mia. She has sent me her latest assignment questions. It has become regular. She sends me her questions and I answer her whenever I get time. I smile as I read her messages. I remembered the favour she unknowingly gave me. If she wouldn't have told me about Freya and Ben, I would have remained in oblivion forever. Freya seems to have no plan of telling me. Deciding to respond to Mia later on, I pocket my phone and continue walking towards the conference room. In the midway, I see Freya coming from the other side. She sees me too. She increases her speed when she sees me. I become jumpy.I stop walking and quickly turn to my side so that I can follow my pla
The discussion begins among the employees and I force myself to participate before anyone finds out about my distracted state. However, during the whole session, I refrain from looking at Freya directly so that I won't lose my track. I just hear her voice everytime she speaks. The meeting continued for a whole hour then I conclude it and allow the employees to dismiss. They start leaving one by one. Freya though remained seated at her place, buried herself into the papers spread across her on the table. I also decide to assess the information I've got through this meeting and jot down the main points. I've to report them to Father later on. I get busied, opening one file after another. Freya and I are the only left in the room now. She's sitting three chairs away from me. One corner of my lips lifts up as I see her engrossed in work. It still surprises me seeing her serious about office work. It seems like yesterday when she used to get annoyed or looked for ways to escape from her f
"What will you do afterwards if our marriage ends?" Rafe questions.It gives me shivers. I stiffen, close the file in my hand and look at him. It reminds me of our divorce papers which are soon going to be issued."Like, will you marry someone else...or date?""I don't know." My voice comes out weak. When my perturbation begins overflowing, I decide to escape before he will figure it out. I assemble the files and papers scattered on the table. Maybe I should tell Rafe about it beforehand. Mom and Dad are coming too. I'm scared how I will handle everyone's reaction altogether. "Do you like someone currently?"My face contorts in confusion as I hear his weird question. I stop my work midway and give him a glance. He's sitting there with a solemn expression. "No." I say truthfully. I can't contemplate why he's asking this question all of sudden. It is out of context."I'll just stay free and away from men for some time and might be for years." I answer him anyway. I continue gathering
I knock on the door twice. Mona pulls open the door after a minute and appears before me. She looks at me with a straight face, doesn't get surprised or angry at my arrival. Which is according to my expectation. I knew she would not close the door on my face.She's wearing an old printed off-shoulder dress. Her hairs are loosely rolled up on the top of her head. After a few seconds, She fully opens her door, clears the passage for me to enter her room. She goes inside and I silently follow her. There is a heavy burden on my chest, akin to some massive stone, pressing down my chest-wall. I decided to go to the hotel where Mona is staying after the office and talk to her. I knew she was not going to contact me on her own after the last fight we had so I had to take the first move. Besides, I've came here with a firm goal in my mind. She sits down on the edge of her bed, now forms an scowl on her face. She plays with her long nails, "I'm going back to New York. You're not interested in
As the days are passing, my heart is weakening. Because it reminds me that I'm approaching the day when my marriage will end. Rafe and I will be free from the knot that is tying us together. I've contacted the lawyer and she said our divorce application is in process. It will be issued in few days. It's hard to imagine how my life would be after Rafe. I'm used to this lifestyle, seeing Rafe around me always. And now we've even settled our differences. So I don't have any grudge against him in fact I like his presence around me. I'm habitual of hearing his voice daily. I'm habitual of having him on my side. I come back home after a tiring day. I toss my purse and phone on the bed and go straight towards the closet to find my night outfits. While going through my clothes, my eyes fall on the lingeries Mom sent. They are stuffed in one corner. I stand still and stare at them. I haven't thrown them out of the closet yet. I couldn't because of their expensive costs. Pulling them out, I