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Chapter 45: HATE THIS FEELINGS

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last update Last Updated: 2023-02-03 05:15:50

Zebastian's pov

I quickly turned my back on Raven. I knew she was looking at me as I took my steps away from her, but I didn't look back. That was the main thing I had to keep in mind. I want her to feel that once I leave, there is no turning back. How I wish she would have called my name and asked me to stop, but fortunately she didn't. She just watched me leave her alone, and she doesn't know how much it hurts.

That kiss was so meaningful. She keeps on telling me that it was nothing, that she doesn't love me anymore, that she loves her husband, and that she will choose him over him. It was all a lie. Yes, I am sure about it.

I could feel her kiss on mine. It is sweet and tasty, passionate, and full of love.

I slammed the table in my room upon reaching it.

I promised myself not to let my emotions bring me down, but what was happening now? I am one step closer to possible pain.. pain that I don't know if I can still bear..

After a few moments, someone knocked at my door.

I opened it,
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