I'm nervous. Very nervous. Stop being nervous."Fuck!" I poked my eye with my new mascara! Why can't I do make up like every other girl?!"You dead?" Hannah jumped into my bathroom. I turned myself to her, and she smiled when she saw my one black eye. "Ugh, didn't anyone teach you how to use mascara?" She sighed and took mascara from my hand."Not in the eye, on the eyelashes, I got it, I got it..." I rolled my eyes but soon as I felt content of mascara in one of them, I almost cried. "Fuck!" I sighed."You are trying too much." She lifted my head and start cleaning my eye with small cotton wool. She was very gentle, so I looked puzzled."Why aren't you freaked out?" I asked when she cleaned the whole eye, and I looked myself in the mirror. She took a breath but didn't breath out as she was making sure she took away all the mascara leftovers."Hmmm, let me think..." She put her finger to her l
First, let me tell you something.I am so happy and flattered that you're reading my book. I know I have many mistakes, spelling or other but I am trying my best to make this special. I received messages like "Your book is like Gray's Anatomy." No it's not -.- It just has a story with doctors and Seattle. Big deal. But yes, the GA is my favorite show so yes, I did get inspired by it. I assure you, it is NOT nor WILL BE like GA. I do not copy anything. I'm done for now :P Thanks again for reading and prepare for much drama then you expected. ;)Yours, TJ xoxo---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I woke up in a room with a white ceiling and walls. Just a couple of simple pictures on them, and a huge window with the most beautiful look. I realized, my mom pulled some relations since I am feeling like I'm in the five star hotel, not a ho
"You're awake..." I heard a soft, familiar beautiful voice talking to me while stroking my hair."Mike..." I said peacfully, still not opening my eyes. I knew that's him. I heard a small giggle and my heart wanted to explode. How can I be so into this guy?"How are you feeling?" He was still talking to with his soft voice which was making my body melt. He stopped stroking my hair and I finally opened my eyes and sat up."I am okay but my ribs hurt." I said weakly. He kissed me on my cheek barely touching my face, just that I can feel his fresh breath on my skin. Fresh mint. His breath always smells like fresh mint."I missed you on our date." He said playfully, letting me go, and looking straight in my eyes. His eyes were shiny and wattery, it looked like he is genuinely worried."Oh stop it." I said shyly covering my face with hands. I heard he chuckled."So, what the doctor said? I mean, your mom?" He smiled widely from ea
"You okay?" Hannah asked me after meeting ended. In that moment, I didn't care about the fact that my internship is accepted here as well as Hannah's, George's and some two other students. All I could think of that gorgeous woman named Ann Dupont. Who is she?"Yea..." I said quietly and walked away."Jessica, wait!" Hannah started following me but then George came."I'll wait for you in my room." I turned to Hannah. "George, listen, and try to understand." I turned to George. They both nodded and I sighed. I turned away and start walking towards my room. Sister, my ass!I said in my head. There's no way she is his sister. That beautiful? And did anybody noticed that big diamond ring on her finger? But then again, I didn't saw any ring on Mike... Well, he will explain, and this will all be a huge misunderstanding. I think."Baby!" Mike jumped off my bed and hugged me. I was shocked. I never saw him in that light before. "Wh
I think I cried out all of my tears. After Mike went, I just snapped. I can't control while he's here next to me, and sure as hell is harder to control when he's not here.It is yet hard to say that this is a true love... I mean, I know the guy like a week or two. But every time I see him, my heart wants to jump out of my chest and my body has a zero strength. I just can't stop thinking of him, not even now, when I know he is a married man, and has the most stunning wife in the world.I know he lied to me... I do. And when me and Hannah used to watch some romantic or chick flick movies, there always was a married man, cheating. And I hate those kind of men. Why aren't guys just satisfied with one woman? My ex cheated on me, I dumped him. But Mike? I need him, even though he can't be mine. I just know that I need him."Jess?" Hannah entered my room slowly. She interrupted me in my day dream and I sat up on my bed. I quickly tried to wipe my tears
Mike's P.O.V.Damn Ann! I told her like a million times, that's the last time! One more fight and we're over! I can't stand her no more! Constant fighting, she is always in such a bad move and I am really trying! Between my company work being a CEO of Dupont, helping my friend in University so I can feel in for Latin, it's hard to combine family life. But I can't do IT alone!Then again, we are married and I did said -In a better or worse- and I'm not someone who can brake a promise. I think I'm not...But then I saw her. That beautiful, gorgeous woman with her blond, long hair with most perfect smile I've ever seen. I saw her there at a bar, looking like she's on the edge, done with school and everything. I've been there, I know that feeling.I can't go there and just say something. What will I say to this perfect girl without blowing my chances? Ann and I are done for a long time, we just bicker and pull each other nerves every time we talk
"I can do this!""You can do this!" Hannah repeated my words. She was full of enthusiasm and smiled to me very encouraging. I returned the smile to her and nodded.After a week in this hospital and full sighting of my mother and that little, perfect bitch who has the same last name as my, whatever he is now, I've had enough. I was ready to go home, lay on my couch, and eat my chips. Read some Cosmo if I have to...Well, we better hurry then.I smiled widely when my inner voice spoke to me."Aghh!" I moaned after I took one big step towards my life-saving exit. Mom, I mean, Dr.Miller suggested I don't strain too much or walk because I'm risking of cracking sutures and bleeding to death. Yes, she enjoyed telling me that. Now, all I can do is walk to the bathroom which is a few steps further away from my room and that's it. Yea, as If I will survive without checking my fridge every few minutes.My pain is still fresh. Every mov
"Wake up... Someone wants to see you." Hannah gently shook my shoulder. I just moaned and didn't even bother to open my eyes. Whatever is going on, it can wait until I woke up. Suddenly, I felt familiar sound of cologne mixed with aftershave. Mike!My inner voice spoke to me. My heart started beating fast and all of a sudden, I felt a big wave of heat going through my body. I still couldn't open my eyes."I wouldn't let him in, but he brought food so..." I heard Hannah's voice. I slapped my forehead. Damn Hannah, and damn Mike! Everyone knows she can't resist food! I heard his giggle. I couldn't help it but smile a little too."Evening, sleeping beauty." I felt his strong mint fresh breath on my cheek. I stopped breathing when I felt his lips on my skin. As I felt a strong tingling sensation going from my cheek to my toe, I opened my eyes and I saw him. He backed off from me, standing straight in front of my co
"What the hell?" Hannah repeated herself because we ignored her the first time."What are you doing here?" I asked him, narrowing my eyes, still ignoring Hannah."Well, since you're not answering me, I came to make sure my girlfriend is still alive." Mike said coldly, clenching his jaw."As you see, I am so..." Filled with anger, I rolled my eyes."Can we talk?" He asked, slowly yet strongly grabbing my arm. I flinched, feeling pain. Hannah was just standing there, confused as she can be."Not a place or time Mike." I said firmly but I was visibly scared and that annoyed me. I shouldn't be afraid of him, I don't have a reason for that. Right?"Something happened?" He asked me, now looking genuinely concerned and confused. Then it hit me. He doesn't have a clue that I overheard his conversation. How could I be so stupid and let my emotions get the best of me?"We will talk later okay?" I said as my face softened. He looked at me, one eyebrow up, still mad. He growled under his voice an
"Sleepyhead..." I heard a soft voice near me. Air smelled like our toothpaste and mix of herbs from Hannah's shampoo. Although I smiled lightly, knowing it was her, I still didn't want to wake up."Nooo..." I whined and turned on the other side. Hannah smiled and leaned on me, sighing deeply."When did you even got home last night?" She asked, still on my body. I moaned, not happy with that. "I know what will make you got up." She said, slowly getting up. I moaned again, feeling lighter and relieved that I can just roll over on the other side of my bed, completely ignoring her. Realizing it wasn't the smartest move as she grabbed my legs and started pulling me out, I started laughing."Stoooop, leave me in peace!" I managed to mumble as she continued to pull me up. I tried to budge but I couldn't. How the hell is she so strong?!"I got engaged!" Hannah exclaimed, finally letting me go."What?!" I lifted my head so rapidly, the whole room started spinning! She was screaming and jumping
My head was at the verge of blowing up like the ones in cartoons. There was too much information I needed to cope, too deafening sounds, everything was spinning. Me, the room, everything! I felt numb and over-touched, cranky, mad, all feelings you could think of and none of them in the same time. I didn't even knew until now that that's possible.My shift ended vaguely, honestly I'm happy I didn't kill anybody! All I could think is how I will eventually go home and tell Hannah everything what was heavy on my crazy noggin.Darla didn't say anything for the rest of our shift. I could only imagine what's in her head now, poor girl...I got a text from Hannah asking if I'm ready for our date night. I was more then ready but I wanted to do one more thing before I head home."Hi you..." John's head lifted up when he saw me entering his room. "Did I woke you up?" I asked, carefully closing the door. I stood by them as my legs wouldn't let me come closer to him for some reason."I won't bite
"What the hell is going on?!" I yelled a little bit louder than I expected. Few doctors that was passing by with patients looked at me concerned. I brushed it off. Soon enough, my mom will hear about this, but I can't deal with this now."Dr.Miller." Veronica called my name in so calming voice, my anger vanished in thin air. I slowly turned around. She looked at me, smiling acidly, slightly tilting her head."I'm sorry." I said to her. She didn't say anything, she just shrugged her shoulders and smiled. I felt bad for not knowing how to control. "Let's continue this in my office, shall we?" I asked, faking a smile and politeness so we don't draw any more attention. I felt eyes all over me as patients and hospital staff were suddenly walking slowly, trying to catch a glimpse of our conversation. Miller's daughter causing the drama. Big news. Darla and Delia both started walking behind me as I tried to go into my office as soon as possible. My head was spinning really fast and I felt l
"She is fine!" Mr.Bhat said after he stopped hugging us. "She is fine thanks to you doctor Miller and you doctor Care." He said, closing his palms and bowing to us. Ann's surname is Care? Why does that sounds familiar? I quickly brushed off that for now, I can't be dealing with that too. I smiled politely to Mr.Bhat, bowing to him, as he did to us."You don't have to thank us for that Mr.Bhat, we did our best." I said firmly. I was so proud of myself, so fulfilled, so good about myself! We saved that girl's life! "She is sleeping now." Mr.Bhat said, approaching Ada's bed. He slowly and gently caressed her hair and smiled. He looked peaceful. "You don't need to wake her up, we will just do a little checkup." I said as I grabbed a pen out of my uniform. I checked her temperature, it was 36.6 Celsius which is quite normal. Excellent."She may feel dizzy or groggy as she come around from general anaesthetic." I said to him, caressing her hand. "We will check her blood pressure regularly.
"I'm sorry I'm late." Darla quickly came beside me after Dr.Stepford and me started walking towards Nina's room. I rolled my eyes when I looked at her but I didn't want to say anything."Dr.Miller?" Dr.Stepford raised his glasses while we walked and looked me dead serious. "Are you going to let your intern be late?" He smirked. "I want 20 pages on AIDS research. By tomorrow morning." I stated seriously. Dr.Stepford chuckle a bit, sounding like a teenage girl. I bet he was amused by this as he probably remembered some of my mom's situation again and how much I do look like her. I smiled to myself and I was proud how I quickly got an idea for Darla's punishment but I put on my straight face instantly. Darla didn't say anything, she was probably too scared.I promise I won't be so hard on her once she toughen up a bit. She can't be soft, not on Pediatric, let alone Pediatric surgery. In Africa, I had a resident who was so strict, my hair would go up when I remember her. But she was fair
We kept walking until she stopped us in front of the door, right next to John's room. What is her plan? We will easdrop? I hope not! Hannah looked at both directions and slowly opened the door in front of us. I was confused."What are you doing?" I whispered to Hannah, hoping she will hear me. She just smiled and continue with her plan. We entered a patient's room, an old lady seemed to be sleeping. I looked puzzled as I was looking around her room, trying to figure out Hannah's thoughts. Hannah turned over to me and rolled her eyes."This is Elenore. She is in a coma. Come." She said that bluntly, like we do that on our daily basis, like this, whatever this is is normal."Hannah." I exclaimed quietly, yet strongly enough for her to stop. She looked at me again, now confused like I'm the one who's crazy. I couldn't help but smile."She won't hear us, what?!" She asked, opening her arms towards me in isn't-it-obvious way. I shook my head and smiled. I might just let go all my question
I went to the park. I managed to stay calm and cool long enough so I can walk and sit ona n empty bench. I felt exhausted. I felt really worned out for some reason like all my energy went somewhere else. I started feeling nauseated. Why? I don't even know what I heard! Did Mike and his Gorilla killed someone? At least tried to?! I shook my head in disbelief because I just knew, all of this sounds so ridiculous and unreal. I tried to comprehend all of that information. That can't be right, I heard something wrong and I made some scenario in my head, I surely misheard."You are being stupid, Jess." I said barely audible to myself. I was looking around me as I tried to calm my nerves. There was just a few people in the park but the weather was nice. Small, sweet breeze was calmly blowing making leaves do a little song of their own. That calmed my mind a little. I noticed small children and I heard their giggles while they run towards their parents. That made me smile! I started feeling
I did it again. I gave in. I have managed to disappoint me one more time. How can I be so weak, just how many times I have to hurt myself with what is so wrong yet it feels so damn good?"Sex isn't supposed to be an answer." I said after I buttoned up the last button on my shirt. He was already done."I know." He simply said, repairing his Rolex."So why are we doing that?" I asked, sitting down. "Do what? I want you. Isn't that enough?" He looked at me puzzled. I was stunned by the fact that he doesn't seem to see the real problem is. "No, Mike. Sometimes it's not." I said standing up. Why am I suddenly feel angry? I am to blame here, I let him manipulate me one more time. He just used that so well! "What is your problem Jessica?" He exclaimed. I backed off a little. "What do you want?" He raised his voice. I narrowed my eyes and sighed deeply. To be honest, I don't know what I want. "I want you. But not just sex. I want the whole package! Conversation, going on a trip, go to par