“This few days were very refreshing, I may say…” I said to Hannah as we were driving to school. Mike and Peter didn't stayed for the night, so Hannah and I stayed up all night talking how our lives changed rapidly.Hannah was a person with a dark side, he never cared of what other people think, and to see her in love? Oh you must be really good to take her heart. She didn't had very happy and calm childhood so she doesn't trust other people. She is a little bit of darker, emo something, never too cheerful and the thing I love the most about her, very super sarcastic! Now? Since she met George, she fully changed! Her closet has a few bright colors now and she even has a T-shirt with a small flowers on it! George changed her but in a good way. She is a human now. Most of the times when she doesn't eat hamburger and drive at the same time like now!“Seriously Hannah, you will get us killed one day!” I exclaimed as I quickly grabbed my seat bell and repair it a bi
“Hi John, what happened?” I asked him quietly after I called him from the toilet. “Are you ok?” I asked once more since I haven't heard his voice.“Jessica… My…” He started sobbing. I really got upset since I never heard John crying. He was always macho, never let anyone to see him like that.“Your what John? Tell me what happened!” I said walking up and down frustrated.“Jessica, my dad died.” John said barely audible and my eyes instantly filled with tears. “John…” I said closing my eyes. “I am so sorry…” I said barely audible. His dad, Jason, was a bit of drinker. But John is so attached to him, you never saw something like that. When we lived in Detroit, John was always worried about him even if we went in a bar a few feet away. His mother left him when he was little so Jason was all he had. “I need you…” He whispered. My tears started flowing. “Where are you?” I asked, sobbing.“In my apartment in
"John, I can't..." I whispered after John started kissing my neck so sexy and passionately I almost fell down. My knees were like jelly and my heart was beating very loud."You want this..." He whispered back, making me even weaker. There's something hot and irresistible when a man has that deep, husky and sexy voice when they whisper. No one could stay cold to that!"John..." I moaned and pressed his head stronger on my chest. I didn't want this to stop, but I know I had to!"I want you Jessica." John stopped kissing me as he looked me straight into my eyes. I moaned as I closed my eyes. I sighed deeply and opened them. He was still looking at me with desire, with a fire in his eyes, so bright I never saw this before.Mike.I am with Mike, I can't do this, no!I am not that kind of girl!"I want you too..." I said barely audible as I closed my eyes again."Mike." John said backing off. My whole body was ea
"Here. Black dress, black leather jacket and black high heels. Go." Hannah threw this outfit on me while I was laying in bed. I was still sobbing because I had a fight with John in the worst possible time and I haven't heard from Mike since the day before yesterday. I feel that all I do im the past sic months is sobbing."No. I'm not going. Fuck this." I said angrily, throwing that dress down on the floor."I just don't get you." Hannah said shaking her head. I shrugged my shoulders and sighed deeply."I don't get myself either." I covered my face with my hand. "Look baby..." Hannah lay down beside me. "You know he wants you there right?" She looked at me sadly but I was still looking at a ceiling. "I don't know..." I shrugged my shoulders again."Both of you are stupid you know?" Hannah rolled her eyes. I smiled a little."Well, that's the only thing I know." I said weakly. Hannah smiled widely, and I returned th
"I missed you..." I said to myself as I was driving the streets of Detroit. Mike was right. Detroit is empty, City of ghosts. Only ruins remained. My memories started going up when I was driving by 12th street, where my favorite bookstore was, but now? There's nothing. Now there's some Rosa Park Boulevard. After that, my eyes started filling up as I turned for 8 mile road. My home.I was thinking... Will people there know me? Will they remember that small blonde who was always playing outside her house with a soccer ball? Or they remember me as a little hooligan who was running the streets with a few black friends and some punks from Salem's lot? Maybe they don't remember me at all. Who knows?"Hell-o?" My voice trembled as I answered my phone. I cough and repeated again. "Hello?""Jess? Are you ok?" Hannah sounded worried."I'm fine just... You know... I haven't been here for so long... Everything is different..." I said with tears in my eye
“Thank you for coming…” John said weakly when we broke our hug.“Always…” I said as I smiled weakly, caressing his strong shoulder."I am sorry about the other day I-""You weren't yourself." I Interrupted him. He didn't say anything back, he just adjusted his posture, as well as I.I stood beside him as people came to voice their condolence. Each and every one of them looked at me first, gave hand and a small weak smile, and then repeated their gesture when they looked at John. They probably think we are still together. Perhaps, they are asking themselves do we have babies. Well, if John wasn't an idiot, by now, we would have two or three small babies running around our big front yard in our suburban neighborhood. Why are you even thinking about this?“What's wrong?” John whispered so people won't hear us. He is probably thinking about why I'm shaking my head. Oh my if he knew I was thinking about us married.
"Hello?" I said weakly as my phone rang.Just to make things clear, John said he loves me. He wants me to admit I love him back.But what should I say?On the one side, John was my first love, my first everything. I gave him all I had. He was my entire life. But he ruined all that with his cheating. Above all that, I had a best time with him. We were perfect together. From kinder garden, throughout high school, until college, we had just one fight. And that was because of that waitress he hooked up with. I couldn't convince myself to move on, to stop loving him.Mike on the other hand, in this year since we are together, he lied to me so many times! Those lies were huge! If I knew he was married, I wouldn't start with him, not in a million years! I can't lie, Mike is the type of a guy every girl would kill to have. Classy, macho, gentleman, smart, sexy, you would be taken care of for the rest of your life, and he has everything. I love t
*JOHN'S P.O.V.*She is going to be ok right?!” I asked one small nurse who was cleaning me from Mike's claws.“Don't worry about her, she is in the safest hands.” That small nurse smiled widely to me, making me feel brave.After that selfish, stupid jerk burst into miss. Franklin's house, I thought he will knock the shit out of me. Unfortunately, he didn't. He could, but I have muscles too!Anyway, I think Jessica was too soft and too weak to watch us fight so she fainted. Oh Jessica… My Jessica…While I waited for that nurse to come clean the rest of my wounds, I remembered that time when I first saw her.I met her outside my house, she was perfect as my best toy I had that times! She was wearing pure white dress with small flowers on it. She was always in those ponytails on both sides, with messy yet classy blond, long hair. Gorgeous. I think we were 5, maybe 6 years
"What the hell?" Hannah repeated herself because we ignored her the first time."What are you doing here?" I asked him, narrowing my eyes, still ignoring Hannah."Well, since you're not answering me, I came to make sure my girlfriend is still alive." Mike said coldly, clenching his jaw."As you see, I am so..." Filled with anger, I rolled my eyes."Can we talk?" He asked, slowly yet strongly grabbing my arm. I flinched, feeling pain. Hannah was just standing there, confused as she can be."Not a place or time Mike." I said firmly but I was visibly scared and that annoyed me. I shouldn't be afraid of him, I don't have a reason for that. Right?"Something happened?" He asked me, now looking genuinely concerned and confused. Then it hit me. He doesn't have a clue that I overheard his conversation. How could I be so stupid and let my emotions get the best of me?"We will talk later okay?" I said as my face softened. He looked at me, one eyebrow up, still mad. He growled under his voice an
"Sleepyhead..." I heard a soft voice near me. Air smelled like our toothpaste and mix of herbs from Hannah's shampoo. Although I smiled lightly, knowing it was her, I still didn't want to wake up."Nooo..." I whined and turned on the other side. Hannah smiled and leaned on me, sighing deeply."When did you even got home last night?" She asked, still on my body. I moaned, not happy with that. "I know what will make you got up." She said, slowly getting up. I moaned again, feeling lighter and relieved that I can just roll over on the other side of my bed, completely ignoring her. Realizing it wasn't the smartest move as she grabbed my legs and started pulling me out, I started laughing."Stoooop, leave me in peace!" I managed to mumble as she continued to pull me up. I tried to budge but I couldn't. How the hell is she so strong?!"I got engaged!" Hannah exclaimed, finally letting me go."What?!" I lifted my head so rapidly, the whole room started spinning! She was screaming and jumping
My head was at the verge of blowing up like the ones in cartoons. There was too much information I needed to cope, too deafening sounds, everything was spinning. Me, the room, everything! I felt numb and over-touched, cranky, mad, all feelings you could think of and none of them in the same time. I didn't even knew until now that that's possible.My shift ended vaguely, honestly I'm happy I didn't kill anybody! All I could think is how I will eventually go home and tell Hannah everything what was heavy on my crazy noggin.Darla didn't say anything for the rest of our shift. I could only imagine what's in her head now, poor girl...I got a text from Hannah asking if I'm ready for our date night. I was more then ready but I wanted to do one more thing before I head home."Hi you..." John's head lifted up when he saw me entering his room. "Did I woke you up?" I asked, carefully closing the door. I stood by them as my legs wouldn't let me come closer to him for some reason."I won't bite
"What the hell is going on?!" I yelled a little bit louder than I expected. Few doctors that was passing by with patients looked at me concerned. I brushed it off. Soon enough, my mom will hear about this, but I can't deal with this now."Dr.Miller." Veronica called my name in so calming voice, my anger vanished in thin air. I slowly turned around. She looked at me, smiling acidly, slightly tilting her head."I'm sorry." I said to her. She didn't say anything, she just shrugged her shoulders and smiled. I felt bad for not knowing how to control. "Let's continue this in my office, shall we?" I asked, faking a smile and politeness so we don't draw any more attention. I felt eyes all over me as patients and hospital staff were suddenly walking slowly, trying to catch a glimpse of our conversation. Miller's daughter causing the drama. Big news. Darla and Delia both started walking behind me as I tried to go into my office as soon as possible. My head was spinning really fast and I felt l
"She is fine!" Mr.Bhat said after he stopped hugging us. "She is fine thanks to you doctor Miller and you doctor Care." He said, closing his palms and bowing to us. Ann's surname is Care? Why does that sounds familiar? I quickly brushed off that for now, I can't be dealing with that too. I smiled politely to Mr.Bhat, bowing to him, as he did to us."You don't have to thank us for that Mr.Bhat, we did our best." I said firmly. I was so proud of myself, so fulfilled, so good about myself! We saved that girl's life! "She is sleeping now." Mr.Bhat said, approaching Ada's bed. He slowly and gently caressed her hair and smiled. He looked peaceful. "You don't need to wake her up, we will just do a little checkup." I said as I grabbed a pen out of my uniform. I checked her temperature, it was 36.6 Celsius which is quite normal. Excellent."She may feel dizzy or groggy as she come around from general anaesthetic." I said to him, caressing her hand. "We will check her blood pressure regularly.
"I'm sorry I'm late." Darla quickly came beside me after Dr.Stepford and me started walking towards Nina's room. I rolled my eyes when I looked at her but I didn't want to say anything."Dr.Miller?" Dr.Stepford raised his glasses while we walked and looked me dead serious. "Are you going to let your intern be late?" He smirked. "I want 20 pages on AIDS research. By tomorrow morning." I stated seriously. Dr.Stepford chuckle a bit, sounding like a teenage girl. I bet he was amused by this as he probably remembered some of my mom's situation again and how much I do look like her. I smiled to myself and I was proud how I quickly got an idea for Darla's punishment but I put on my straight face instantly. Darla didn't say anything, she was probably too scared.I promise I won't be so hard on her once she toughen up a bit. She can't be soft, not on Pediatric, let alone Pediatric surgery. In Africa, I had a resident who was so strict, my hair would go up when I remember her. But she was fair
We kept walking until she stopped us in front of the door, right next to John's room. What is her plan? We will easdrop? I hope not! Hannah looked at both directions and slowly opened the door in front of us. I was confused."What are you doing?" I whispered to Hannah, hoping she will hear me. She just smiled and continue with her plan. We entered a patient's room, an old lady seemed to be sleeping. I looked puzzled as I was looking around her room, trying to figure out Hannah's thoughts. Hannah turned over to me and rolled her eyes."This is Elenore. She is in a coma. Come." She said that bluntly, like we do that on our daily basis, like this, whatever this is is normal."Hannah." I exclaimed quietly, yet strongly enough for her to stop. She looked at me again, now confused like I'm the one who's crazy. I couldn't help but smile."She won't hear us, what?!" She asked, opening her arms towards me in isn't-it-obvious way. I shook my head and smiled. I might just let go all my question
I went to the park. I managed to stay calm and cool long enough so I can walk and sit ona n empty bench. I felt exhausted. I felt really worned out for some reason like all my energy went somewhere else. I started feeling nauseated. Why? I don't even know what I heard! Did Mike and his Gorilla killed someone? At least tried to?! I shook my head in disbelief because I just knew, all of this sounds so ridiculous and unreal. I tried to comprehend all of that information. That can't be right, I heard something wrong and I made some scenario in my head, I surely misheard."You are being stupid, Jess." I said barely audible to myself. I was looking around me as I tried to calm my nerves. There was just a few people in the park but the weather was nice. Small, sweet breeze was calmly blowing making leaves do a little song of their own. That calmed my mind a little. I noticed small children and I heard their giggles while they run towards their parents. That made me smile! I started feeling
I did it again. I gave in. I have managed to disappoint me one more time. How can I be so weak, just how many times I have to hurt myself with what is so wrong yet it feels so damn good?"Sex isn't supposed to be an answer." I said after I buttoned up the last button on my shirt. He was already done."I know." He simply said, repairing his Rolex."So why are we doing that?" I asked, sitting down. "Do what? I want you. Isn't that enough?" He looked at me puzzled. I was stunned by the fact that he doesn't seem to see the real problem is. "No, Mike. Sometimes it's not." I said standing up. Why am I suddenly feel angry? I am to blame here, I let him manipulate me one more time. He just used that so well! "What is your problem Jessica?" He exclaimed. I backed off a little. "What do you want?" He raised his voice. I narrowed my eyes and sighed deeply. To be honest, I don't know what I want. "I want you. But not just sex. I want the whole package! Conversation, going on a trip, go to par