"What are you doing here?" I asked. I felt him sat beside me but I didn't dare to watch him. I suddenly felt uneasy because of his presence, so I secretly pinched my hand which was starting to tremble.
I really couldn’t understand myself every time he is near. I feel like I will be having a fever and I can't find proper words to say.
"I'm sorry."
"About what?" I couldn't help but face him who was now staring at me. I gulped and ignored his stare giving creeps to my vitalities.
His defined jaw, thin lips, puffy eyes, and his sharp nose brought out his perfect face. The light coming from the moon further delineates him and molds seriousness. He seems to fit into this place where only the moon shows his very perfect face.
"Earlier... Uh."
I laughed and scratched my forehead because of the awkward atmosphere. "Why are you sorry? It's okay for my name to be
A month has passed and a lot has also changed. For a month now, I have been avoiding staring at him and avoiding colliding. My cousin had also returned to Manhattan and days from now, Dienvel will be going back to New Zealand for Christmas, and I had no choice but to stay at home, sometimes occasionally hang out with Aisie.After that day, I decided to forget everything. Forget that I met Xalent because nothing will happen to me when it keeps feeling like it. I might just go crazy because of him."Lushiane!" I turned to Aisie as she gasped as she approached me. It was as if the serial killer was chasing her because of her behavior."Why?""Help me. I will clean the comfort room! My goodness."My eyebrows rose. "Then? Why should I help you? I will just support you cleaning, you should not drag me to your hobby because you won't die cleaning the comfort room."
"Bye, bro!" I said to Dienvel and then waved as if he was too far away from me.I'm here at the airport to watch my best friend leave our country. I don’t know if I will cry or laugh because of the way he looks. He looks crazy because he is wearing the mint green sunglasses I gave him. I feel like he looks gay with it! Imagine, a muscular like him wearing a light color. He's so cute, and I want to pinch his cheeks until they turned red. Damn!"Come on! Hug me," he said frowning, I just laughed and shook my head because of his behavior.Sometimes he's acting like a boy, like now.I just hugged him and gave him a peck on his cheek, then we heard the announcement that passengers that will fly to New Zealand should check in now, so he finally said goodbye to me and left. I also left the airport and went straight to school. It's busy now, it's a good thing that the man's flight is at five in the mor
My sight travels along with his whole image in front of me. And suddenly, I felt my cheeks burn when I realized that his physique is improving, he becomes gorgeous as hell, and his hair is a little bit messy. What the hell! Maybe it is very unusual for me to see him this close, that is why my heart is throbbing.Relax, Lushiane. Don’t worry too much because you might be ignored."A-ah... Hi!" I stuttered in greeting because of his smirk.I was suddenly felt the urged to slap no mouth because it's starting to tremble."Bye," he said goodbye and ran away. I felt that he's ignoring me, looking like he doesn't know me.What's up with him? Is he mad at me? But why? I like to thank him for what he did. But I was really embarrassed and had nothing to say when we were face to face. What should I do?"Gosh! Xalent looks gorgeous as hell!" I was bewildered by wha
"What do you want?" I asked and withdrew my elbow he was holding.Even though I look calm, I still can't change the fact that I'm feeling so nervous right now. It was as if my heart was the only thing I could hear at these moments. You are giving me the highest intensity of yourself, Xalent. I'm going crazy because of you and I don't know how to regain myself back from being a normal being.He licked his lips. "You," he said and leaned over to my side."You're kidding me, right?"Instead of answering, he just kept his eyes on nothingness, looking so serious, but when I started to walk, he followed. I heave a sigh at what he did because I could not understand him. He was so vague and seemed like he was just playing with me because of what he was doing."Look... I'm sorry.""Huh? Why are you apologizing to me?" I gripped the strap of my bag tightly. "Than
Today is Friday and I didn’t come out of the classroom yesterday even though I was so hungry, I endured everything just so I couldn’t see him and couldn’t remember again the embarrassment that happened because of my shameless post. But now... Now I won't hide anymore.Why should I hide? And who am I hiding from? I shook my head because of my question that seemed like I was just fooling myself.Aisie teased me yesterday because of my post and what Xalent said and I'm really irritated, I don't know if it's because I'm just annoyed or embarrassed, maybe it's the same. I was about to hit Aisie in the face with my bag so that she stopped talking, and will regain back myself. Also, I didn't felt the presence of Xalent yesterday so it was really good, I was able to breathe easily because of it.But one of my concerns is the upcoming Sunday because I will finally meet again my mom, but can I do it? Maybe, when
The next day, Aisie came to me early and reminded me that we were leaving at three o'clock to the shop of a well-known designer of gowns. I was sleepy when she arrived here at six in the morning, and she really disturbed sleep. I didn't want to face her, but she sprinkled water in my face that makes me so irritated that is why I just woke up even though I wanted to hit her with my lampshade.She said that she was tired of waiting for the time at their house, and she didn't have anyone to talk to there so she just decided to come here. I just rolled my eyes because of what she was saying, she just didn't want to admit that she's too excited.I bring her out of my room and told her to just wait in the living room because I was going to take a bath and she had nothing else to do in my room. It's better that she's just downstairs and watched, she's also used to it, sometimes she doesn't get my permission for her to watch Netflix downstairs.
"Are you ready?" Daddy asked when we got in the car.I don't know if I'm ready, I don’t know if I will be able to smile at my mom thinking about the pain she caused leaving us. I don't know... If I could."I think so..." I just looked out the window when the car commenced.Today, we are going to meet my mom. And dad still wants me to talk to mommy, like the old times mommy is my favorite to talk to, the one who I want to sleep next to, and the one who I want to be informed about my dilemmas. My favorite person in my whole life, but she's the first one who broke my heart. The one who left me just to be with the other family.Sometimes I thought that she didn't like me so she left and looked for someone else. Sometimes I also doubt her love. If she really loved me, me, and daddy, or did she really consider me a child. Lots of questions, but I don’t know if I’ll get the right answers.
The next day, I informed dad that I'm going to sleep here at Aisie's house. I also sent him a message that I will spend the night later because there was an event at school, and I am glad that he still let me to, even if I make him disappointed because of my actions. I thought daddy wouldn't reply to me but he replied, saying 'take care' and 'I love you'. I just smiled and realized that he still cares for me even though I did that, I lost my respect for her.I woke up at ten o'clock and the gown was delivered here at Aisie's house, exactly nine o'clock, she said. That girl is full of positivity and always thinking that she might be the chosen Mrs. Claus and maybe Mr. Claus is said to be her lifetime partner. I just rolled my eyes because of her exaggeration.Aisie's imagination is really something.I’m also grateful to be here with Aisie. She knew I had a problem and she had witnessed my destruction yesterday, but
I blinked several times because of the closeness of our faces. I can even smell his manly perfume, which I seemingly thought he had bathed himself in the perfume because of the fragrance."Ehem." In an instant, I was estranged from Xalent because of my good friend. Goodness!"I-I'm sorry," I said, and I didn't know if I was going to walk or not, as if I was glued to where I stood because of his presence. Shit!He smiled and held out his hand. "May I?"I just reached out his hand, and he hung my hand on his arm. I can still see Aisie on the side, smiling like a fool. Furthermore, I, on the other hand, was anxious because of the impulsive beats of my heart, as if I was going to have a heart attack because of the extreme nervousness I was feeling.Shit! Am I doing it right? Maybe, I look like a fool.When we entered, I was amazed at how well they designed the ve
The next day, I informed dad that I'm going to sleep here at Aisie's house. I also sent him a message that I will spend the night later because there was an event at school, and I am glad that he still let me to, even if I make him disappointed because of my actions. I thought daddy wouldn't reply to me but he replied, saying 'take care' and 'I love you'. I just smiled and realized that he still cares for me even though I did that, I lost my respect for her.I woke up at ten o'clock and the gown was delivered here at Aisie's house, exactly nine o'clock, she said. That girl is full of positivity and always thinking that she might be the chosen Mrs. Claus and maybe Mr. Claus is said to be her lifetime partner. I just rolled my eyes because of her exaggeration.Aisie's imagination is really something.I’m also grateful to be here with Aisie. She knew I had a problem and she had witnessed my destruction yesterday, but
"Are you ready?" Daddy asked when we got in the car.I don't know if I'm ready, I don’t know if I will be able to smile at my mom thinking about the pain she caused leaving us. I don't know... If I could."I think so..." I just looked out the window when the car commenced.Today, we are going to meet my mom. And dad still wants me to talk to mommy, like the old times mommy is my favorite to talk to, the one who I want to sleep next to, and the one who I want to be informed about my dilemmas. My favorite person in my whole life, but she's the first one who broke my heart. The one who left me just to be with the other family.Sometimes I thought that she didn't like me so she left and looked for someone else. Sometimes I also doubt her love. If she really loved me, me, and daddy, or did she really consider me a child. Lots of questions, but I don’t know if I’ll get the right answers.
The next day, Aisie came to me early and reminded me that we were leaving at three o'clock to the shop of a well-known designer of gowns. I was sleepy when she arrived here at six in the morning, and she really disturbed sleep. I didn't want to face her, but she sprinkled water in my face that makes me so irritated that is why I just woke up even though I wanted to hit her with my lampshade.She said that she was tired of waiting for the time at their house, and she didn't have anyone to talk to there so she just decided to come here. I just rolled my eyes because of what she was saying, she just didn't want to admit that she's too excited.I bring her out of my room and told her to just wait in the living room because I was going to take a bath and she had nothing else to do in my room. It's better that she's just downstairs and watched, she's also used to it, sometimes she doesn't get my permission for her to watch Netflix downstairs.
Today is Friday and I didn’t come out of the classroom yesterday even though I was so hungry, I endured everything just so I couldn’t see him and couldn’t remember again the embarrassment that happened because of my shameless post. But now... Now I won't hide anymore.Why should I hide? And who am I hiding from? I shook my head because of my question that seemed like I was just fooling myself.Aisie teased me yesterday because of my post and what Xalent said and I'm really irritated, I don't know if it's because I'm just annoyed or embarrassed, maybe it's the same. I was about to hit Aisie in the face with my bag so that she stopped talking, and will regain back myself. Also, I didn't felt the presence of Xalent yesterday so it was really good, I was able to breathe easily because of it.But one of my concerns is the upcoming Sunday because I will finally meet again my mom, but can I do it? Maybe, when
"What do you want?" I asked and withdrew my elbow he was holding.Even though I look calm, I still can't change the fact that I'm feeling so nervous right now. It was as if my heart was the only thing I could hear at these moments. You are giving me the highest intensity of yourself, Xalent. I'm going crazy because of you and I don't know how to regain myself back from being a normal being.He licked his lips. "You," he said and leaned over to my side."You're kidding me, right?"Instead of answering, he just kept his eyes on nothingness, looking so serious, but when I started to walk, he followed. I heave a sigh at what he did because I could not understand him. He was so vague and seemed like he was just playing with me because of what he was doing."Look... I'm sorry.""Huh? Why are you apologizing to me?" I gripped the strap of my bag tightly. "Than
My sight travels along with his whole image in front of me. And suddenly, I felt my cheeks burn when I realized that his physique is improving, he becomes gorgeous as hell, and his hair is a little bit messy. What the hell! Maybe it is very unusual for me to see him this close, that is why my heart is throbbing.Relax, Lushiane. Don’t worry too much because you might be ignored."A-ah... Hi!" I stuttered in greeting because of his smirk.I was suddenly felt the urged to slap no mouth because it's starting to tremble."Bye," he said goodbye and ran away. I felt that he's ignoring me, looking like he doesn't know me.What's up with him? Is he mad at me? But why? I like to thank him for what he did. But I was really embarrassed and had nothing to say when we were face to face. What should I do?"Gosh! Xalent looks gorgeous as hell!" I was bewildered by wha
"Bye, bro!" I said to Dienvel and then waved as if he was too far away from me.I'm here at the airport to watch my best friend leave our country. I don’t know if I will cry or laugh because of the way he looks. He looks crazy because he is wearing the mint green sunglasses I gave him. I feel like he looks gay with it! Imagine, a muscular like him wearing a light color. He's so cute, and I want to pinch his cheeks until they turned red. Damn!"Come on! Hug me," he said frowning, I just laughed and shook my head because of his behavior.Sometimes he's acting like a boy, like now.I just hugged him and gave him a peck on his cheek, then we heard the announcement that passengers that will fly to New Zealand should check in now, so he finally said goodbye to me and left. I also left the airport and went straight to school. It's busy now, it's a good thing that the man's flight is at five in the mor
A month has passed and a lot has also changed. For a month now, I have been avoiding staring at him and avoiding colliding. My cousin had also returned to Manhattan and days from now, Dienvel will be going back to New Zealand for Christmas, and I had no choice but to stay at home, sometimes occasionally hang out with Aisie.After that day, I decided to forget everything. Forget that I met Xalent because nothing will happen to me when it keeps feeling like it. I might just go crazy because of him."Lushiane!" I turned to Aisie as she gasped as she approached me. It was as if the serial killer was chasing her because of her behavior."Why?""Help me. I will clean the comfort room! My goodness."My eyebrows rose. "Then? Why should I help you? I will just support you cleaning, you should not drag me to your hobby because you won't die cleaning the comfort room."