Three years ago.
Jace's POV.My Mom has never liked any of my friends, that includes Diego. She thinks my friends are a bad influence and that they make me do stuff that a person my age is not supposed to be doing.But here's the thing, my friends are just idiots, the only thing that they've ever influenced me into was doing drugs, and I honestly think that we influenced each other, the rest was all me.I know my mum thinks Olivia is just like the rest of my friends, I haven't been around the girl long enough to know what her personality is like but it's not rocket science, It's pretty obvious that she's nothing like any of my friends.Olivia brought a side dish to this dinner, she helped my mum set the table and she offered to say grace before we started eating.My friends are assholes, they would never.We're all eating in silence which is a first for my family.I have three siblings, Aaron, Marianna and Luna. Aaron and Marianna are sixteen year old twins while Luna is only five and together they make a loud bunch.Not tonight though.I keep glancing at Olivia from now and then since she's sitting next to me, she hasn't looked at me once, maybe it's because she's having a small chat with my sister Marianna or maybe it's because she's uncomfortable but either way, it's making my head cloud with questions cause for the first time in my life, I really don't know what a girl thinks of me."This salad is amazing." Says Aaron with his mouth full while looking at Olivia and pointing down at his plate with a fork."Thanks." She smiles at him."What'd you do, Force your mom to make it?" He asks playfully."No, I made it." She says."Oh, wow, that's impressive," Says Marianna from across the table."Thank you." She smiles again."Maybe you can teach Marianna how to hold a cooking stick." Mum speaks for the first time since we sat down."Hey!" Marianna pipes, choking on her food, Aaron laughs."So, Olivia, you live with your parents?" Asks Mum."Um, yeah but they're not around right now, my Dad's in Europe for his art exhibition and my mom's in Los Angeles, she's a movie producer." She informs.I notice that she curled her fists on her lap while saying those words, like it was some kind of a nervous reaction or something."Oh, that sounds good, who's home with you then?" She fires another question."No one, just me and my dog, our neighbor Mrs Johnson used to look after me before but I'm old enough to look after myself now." She's now scratching the inside of her palm."Meanwhile, our Mom won't even leave us alone with Jace, who claims to be a big brother and an adult." Aaron jokes, they all laugh, including Olivia.The laugh eases up her nerves, she leans her arms on the table and gleam flashes in her eyes."Well, Jace only ever thinks about partying, he doesn't sound as mature as she does." Mum looks at me pointedly.I just know the comparison that's gonna be happening from now on is gonna be so fucking annoying."I love your hair, it's so dark and shinny." Marianna compliments Olivia, Olivia touches a piece of her hair and examines it."I was actually thinking of cutting it." She mutters underneath her tone."Are you JJ's girlfriend?" Asks little Luna in a high pitched tone.The question makes Olivia physically uncomfortable."Wouldn't that be a miracle." Aaron breathes out a laugh, I kick him underneath the table, he whines in silence."No, pumpkin, she's not my girlfriend." I shake my head at Luna, she looks between Olivia and I and asks, "Why not?""He's still dating that mean girl, remember?" Marianna ruffles Luna's hair."We broke up, actually." I stare down at my plate."And you forgot to tell us? Dude! We would have celebrated." Marianna exclaims."Well, I'm telling you now." I point out, "I broke up with Sandra and doctor Williams said I can't play football anymore so I quit." I finally inform them.They all pause and the gasp that leaves Marianna's mouth explains everyone's shock.I roll my eyes."But you love football." Aaron states the obvious."Loved, past tense." I act like I'm over it.I'm so not over it."So what do you love now if not football?" Asks Marianna."You better not say riding that bike." Mum points at me with a fork."Can we not talk about me?" I ask nicely, "Please?" I look at all of them.They all go quiet and that's how the rest of the dinner goes, with everyone eating in silence.Olivia checks her phone and glances at me."I have to go." She whispers, "Thanks for the lovely dinner, Mrs Rodriguez, it was delicious." She says to Mum as she withdraws from her seat."You're welcome, sweetheart." Mum stands from her chair and strides towards Olivia, engulfing her into a hug, Aaron and Marianna both look at me, I shrug. "Come by any time, okay?" She rests her hands on Olivia's shoulders."Okay." Olivia nods.Mum sends me a look before sitting back down, I sigh, knowing exactly what that look is saying.Jace, I know you used this innocent girl for your own selfish satisfactions cause there's just no way you have a decent friend like her.Yeah, yeah.I bring myself to my feet so I can escort Olivia out of the house, she waves and says goodnight to my siblings, they all wave back at the same time while I shake my head at their 'good' behavior.I smile at the white Toyota Fortuner legender parked in my driveway."Let me guess, that's your Dad's car, the one that's never moved from your driveway." I stare at the car."Correct." She also stares at the car as we stand on the porch."I can't believe you live right across the street from Diego, he and I used to skate right by your house every day before we discovered girls and parties." I chuckle."I know, I watched you guys sometimes." She says, I turn my head to look at her, she's staring into the dark night."You did?" I ask suspiciously, she snaps her head to me and widens her eyes."Not in a creepy way, just in admiration, I admired how other kids could just go outside and ride their bikes or skate or sell lemonade." She explains in a hurried tone."Why couldn't you?" I curiously narrow my eyes at her, shoving my hands in my pockets.She looks down at her feet, scratching her cheek then gliding her fingers through her hair, pushing it away from her face which gives me a clear view.Damn.I swallow."I used to have a hard time socializing." She tells me, "Still do." She adds, meeting my eyes.For the first time since we met, we stare into each other's eyes for more than a minute.I don't know what she's thinking at this moment but I'm not thinking of anything at all, I'm just here, living in the moment.Whatever this moment is."Diego and I would have taught you how to skate." The words come out as a whisper."I would have loved that." She responds in the same tone, her blue eyes wildly searching mine.God, I've never wanted to kiss someone so bad.I break eye contact as soon as the thought crosses my mind.I shut my eyes, gripping the back of my neck and twitching my jaw."Thanks for coming to this dinner, sorry about all the unnecessary questions they asked you." I say."No problem, I like your family, they're fun." She grins.I have a feeling she means that."So when am I being summoned for the posing?" I ask."I don't know, when will you be free?""I'm not doing anything this week, infact, I'm gonna be bored out of my mind.""Okay.." She pulls out her phone and extends it to me, I raise a brow, "So I can text you my address." She clarifies."I already know where you live?" I take her phone either way, she facepalms."Let's just pretend that you don't." She says with embarrassment, I smile at her while typing my number in her phone."I like you, Olivia Conner." I pass her phone back, she slowly takes it from me with her brows raised."Uh..." She trails, taken back by my words."Fuck, not like that, I meant as a person, not as..... Shit, I'm shutting up now." I run a frustrated hand on the side of my face."Still, we barely know each other." Her fingers fumble with the hem of her sweater."I know, it's just that you're natural, everything about you is simple. I like that." I say honestly.We stare at each other again, this time, I feel it.The attraction, the magnet, pulling me to her, heating up my veins, jump starting something in my chest.It's weird.She releases a shaky breath, her chest heaving. That's how I know she feels it too."Okay, I, uh, I'll see you later then?" She quickly descends the steps."Tomorrow, yeah, sure, definitely." I respond awkwardly, scratching my head."Okay, goodnight." She says before opening the car door and hopping in."Night." I give a little wave then regret it immediately.Great, Jace, just great.She pulls out of the driveway and drives off, Dad's car pulls up and parks on the spot where Olivia's car was a second ago."Who was that?" He asks in Spanish as soon as he gets out of the car."That was Olivia Conner." I respond."New girlfriend?" He walks up to me."No, just a new friend." I answer."Is she now?" He asks, patting my shoulder when he reaches where I'm standing."Why'd you say it like that?" I smile at him."Like what?" He walks passed me, entering the house.Three years ago.Jace's POV.Turns out, getting suspended is worse than getting arrested. I always get bailed out the next day after getting arrested but this suspension gets me stuck at home, with my mum who doesn't want me to lock myself in my room and smoke weed all day, she wants me to help her out at the Pizza restaurant and smile while I'm at it.I spend the whole day glancing at the clock, waiting for the time everyone gets off school.I don't know why I'm nervous and anxious at the same time, it's not like I'm going on a date with her.But then again she said that her parents are away and that painting someone takes hours. That means we'll be alone in her house for hours.I've had three encounters with this girl, and I've wanted to kiss her twice during those encounters.The clock hits five and I sneak out the back without notifying my mother, she objects to everything.I hop on my bike, turning on the engine and taking off.I'm used to facing the consequences of my actions,
Three years ago.Jace's POV.She walks into the kitchen wearing a black sundress that stops right above her knees, denim jacket and flat shoes.She looks like a church girl."Do you go to church, Livy?" I ask, sliding off the seat."Every Sunday." She smiles.Of course."Well, I don't." I say as we head towards the front door."Why not?" She asks, pulling the door open."Because I don't believe in God." I answer honestly.She gasps, she literally gasps at my response like not believing in God is some sort of illegal act."What? You go to church every Sunday but you've never heard of nonbelievers?" I lean my shoulder against the wall as she locks the door."I've just never met one before." She shrugs."Well, here I am, in the flesh." We walk down the steps."I feel uncomfortable being around you now, what if you worship the devil or something?" She says playfully."See? That's why I don't believe, Christians are so judgemental." I shake my head."I'm inviting you to church this Sunday.
Present Day.Olivia's POV.There are some days I wake up feeling depressed, I don't wanna get out of bed early, I don't wanna talk to anyone and I definitely don't wanna answer my phone or get the door.My Mum told me that we all go through that at some point, that it's the circle of life.We're happy today, we're sad tomorrow.I hate this feeling, it makes me think about myself way too much, it crowds my mind with curious thoughts and then it goes, like for instance, today, I woke up thinking that maybe, just maybe, Olivia Conner one flipped the car on purpose, maybe it was a suicide mission.I don't know how I would feel about that one, I don't even know why I've been thinking about that accident a lot lately.Anyway, moving along, my new roommate Izzy from Britain moved in a week ago and lucky for me, she's not a bitch, we actually have so much in common, it's almost like we've known each other our entire lives.I spend the day in my painting room, painting my thoughts away while l
Three years ago.Jace's POV.Our almost kiss made things more awkward between us, we walk back to her house in total silence.She looks like I made her very uncomfortable, which is understandable."Can I pick it up later? After I check on Diego?" I ask, pointing at my bike when we reach her driveway."Yeah, sure." She interlocks her fingers behind her, barely looking at me.Yeah, so, remember when I said I didn't wanna fuck it up?I fucked it up."Goodnight, Olivia." I start walking backwards, gazing at her."Goodnight, Jace." She responds in a low tone, I turn around and I squeeze my eyes shut, groaning in frustration.Fuck fuck fuck.That went awful.Diego's car is in the driveway, I don't know if he drove it to the party or maybe he also walked, I notice that his Mum's car isn't in the driveway which means she's not home.I ring his doorbell repeated until he opens the door and almost snaps at me."Well, shit, I thought you got arrested.""Nah." I let myself inside his house."What
Three years ago.Jace's POV.Diego and Blair insist we go somewhere more fun but I'm not in the mood and Cassandra's mum keeps ringing her phone so we both end up declining. They both go ahead without us, taking Diego's car. Cassandra offers me a ride back to Olivia's house, where I left my bike.She's headed in that direction anyway since the Richardson mansion is right after Diego's neighborhood. I've never crossed the Richardson's gates but Diego and I used to ride our bikes right passed the estate when we were younger and every time, we'd stop to stare at the mansion, it just made me feel like my parents were doing something wrong with their lives.Weirdly, I feel like that right now.Cassandra Richardson looks like money, hell, she even smells like money. Her hair is golden silk, she's wearing diamond stud earrings, I know her matching outfit was designed by some expensive designer and she's wearing sneakers but even they look fucking expensive.Why did I ever think that I'd ge
Three years ago.Jace's POV.My eyes flutter open, squinting at the natural light spilling into the room.The first thing that comes crumbling into my brain is that kiss and how it ended.Shit.It's way too early for this.I rub my eyes, sitting up on the edge of the bed, running a hand on my face and tugging my hair at the roots.Shit. Shit. Shit.Why does it feel like that kiss mattered, like those lips were the only lips I'd crave for for the rest of my life.Reminder, you met this girl last Friday.She shouldn't even be occupying my mind right now.I groan, picking up my t-shirt from the floor, slipping into it and marching out of the room.I hear her calling her dog from the kitchen and I halt on the staircase.Shit.I stare at the front door straight ahead, thinking about walking out of it without having any awkward conversations with her.Dick move.I descend the stairs, standing in the doorway to the kitchen, leaning my shoulder against the frame and watching her put food for
Three years ago.Jace's POV.I know I wasn't supposed to but I enjoyed my one week suspension.Everyone would leave the house in the morning and I'd have it all to myself.There's not a lot to do at home but I made myself busy with important stuff like smoking weed, working on my bike, watching porn, eating every snack in the kitchen and finally checking out Game Of Thrones, which was fire.Time goes by fast when you're missing class, my week of paradise is now over and I'm back in hell.Diego and I have a free period and we're spending it in music class since no one's using the room.He's telling me about his night with Blair while I'm zoned out, gazing at the spot where Olivia and I had our first conversation.I didn't think about her during my week of paradise, I didn't think of anyone or anything really, I just had time to myself for the first time in a long time and I let myself live in the moment.It was like having a vacation I didn't know I needed.But now I'm back to reality
Present Day.Olivia's POV.Izzy and Myra dragged me to a club.Usually, I'm the one forcing people to go out and have fun but I've been feeling bummed lately.I just wanna stay in bed and watch movies cause things don't make sense anymore.But I didn't do that, they wouldn't let me do that.I'm glad they didn't cause partying is how I escape myself and how I keep my mind off things that I'm supposed to be thinking.Like solving the biggest mystery of your life.Fuck that.I take another shot of vodka, squeezing my eyes shut and humming when the drink flows through my body with a warm buzz.Izzy and Myra went upstairs cause that's where all the hard drugs are found, I didn't feel like tagging along because I'm not a fan of hard drugs.My eyes scan the dance floor, searching for a possible snack for the night.I probably shouldn't be calling men snacks but trust me, I have a type and snack is the only name you can use to describe them."Hey." A blond guy leans his arms on the counter be
Present Day.Olivia's POV.His side of the story is worse than I imagined.I feel like throwing up.I feel like getting out of here, of this entire apartment building, I feel like running on that sidewalk until my legs give out.I haven't cried, I don't know why I haven't cried but my insides are bottling up with all kinds of emotions.I love this guy, there was a part of me that said it was just lust but right now, I know for sure that it's love cause only love can make me hurt the way I'm hurting right now.But the question is, is this guy real? The Jace from three years ago was nothing like this Jace. This Jace is perfect and he makes me feel safe but what if he was just doing all those things because of what he did to me? What if it was all an act? What if I'm in love with someone who doesn't exist?I decide to snap out of my head and listen to what he's rambling about."Liv, please, I know I fucked up but I'm here now, I'm here for you," he pleads, stalking closer to me.I pin h
Three years ago.Jace's POV.I don't even know what I'm doing at this point.I'm supposed to be staying away from her and starting my brand new chapter but here I am, driving her home.I glance over to her and I catch her hand wiping her cheeks as she stares out the window.Shit."Are you crying? What'd I say?" I ask as I shift my eyes back to the dark road."Nothing, I'm not crying, I have something in my eye," her voice is hoarse like she's been crying a while."Hey, what'd I say?" I touch her shoulder."Nothing, I just realized that our relationship was just so... not meant to be, you know?" "Yeah. freaky, right?" I tighten my grip on the steeling wheel."Hurtful." She says softly."Hurtful." I repeat in a whisper."Guess you should have this back," her hands reach behind her neck to take off the star necklace I gave her."No, Liv, you don't have to-""I know but I can't keep it, Jace, it'll never let me let you go," she takes it off and holds it out for me.I know I have no choic
Three years ago.Jace's POV.Dunkin's cabin makes this party feel important, I mean, it is important, we just graduated high school and we'll be leaving our parents's houses in a few months and we'll be all alone in the real world.It's a little bit scary but it sounds ecstatic."Where are you going for the summer?" I ask Cass, passing her the joint that we came out here to smoke."New York," she takes it from my fingers, "I signed with a really good agency and I think it's time to give modeling my full attention," she says with a lot of certainty."What about College?" I shove my hands in my pockets."College who?" She places the joint between her lips and sucks in her cheeks."Seriously?" I chuckle at her response."Nah," she laughs, "I'll take online classes," she tells me."You have it all figured out, huh?" I sigh, looking up at the sky that rumbles with thunder."No one has it all figured out, plans change all the time," she breaths out a puff of smoke, "And you? Where are you g
Present Day.Olivia's POV.This is insane.I've never even been to New York city, I've never even dreamed about visiting the city but here I am.Cassandra sent me a ticket and she had someone pick me up from the airport, as promised, I spent the entire ride admiring the city, it's pretty crowded and everyone looks so busy but I think I like it, can't say I can imagine myself living here but a girl can't help but dream.Cassandra lives in a penthouse and it's freaking insane, it has floor to ceiling windows that make me feel nauseous, the furniture around me looks luxurious and I could die in peace on the leather sofa I'm sitting on.I've been sitting here for five minutes and she still hasn't come out of the shower that her assistant told me she was having. I'm getting anxious and impatient and my heart won't stop aching.Can't say it's because I'm meeting a celebrity.Whatever it is that Jace and his friend did to me, it's so important a celebrity sent me a ticket just to tell it to
Three years ago.Jace's POV.The drama.The fights.The scolding.The hard training.The excitement.The laughter.The meaningless relationships.It's all over in just one day.As I watch all the seniors run wild with excitement, ripping pages out of their notebooks and littering them around because whatever is on there has officially become useless to all of us, my thought is, what was the point? What was the point of high school?"School's out forever, bitches!" Matt screams in my ear and his girlfriend Daisy squeals after him.I push his face away from my personal space."Fucking finally!" Diego responds to Matt with the same energy."Did you guys hear about the last party ever?" Whispers Daisy as she wraps her hands around Matt's arm."What party?" Diego sounds just as lost as I am."Dunkin dumbass Dickinson is throwing a graduation party at his cabin tomorrow night," Says Matt with an eye roll."Yooo, his fucking cabin is sick!" Diego slaps my chest with the back of his hand."Ye
Present Day.Olivia's POV.A part of me doesn't want to but it has to be done.I have to find out what Jace is hiding. Now or never.The plan was to text Cassandra on social media but Myra suggested something easier.If Jace dated Cassandra in highschool and is still hung up on her then he probably still has her number, Jace trusts Myra with his devices so she's the right girl for the job.The new plan is for me to distract Jace while Myra "borrows" his phone and steals her phone number.Easy. I think.The only problem is that Jace has been nothing but sweet to me for these past few weeks, he takes me out on dates, photographs me because I'm the prettiest girl he's ever seen, he texts me first thing in the morning even though we only live a few feet from each other and he supports me and makes me feel beautiful.I don't know about Olivia one but no one's ever made me feel like that before, he makes me happy.But then again, deep down, I feel like it's too good to be true.Whatever it
Three years ago.Jace's POV."Hey, hey, hey, take it easy" Tyler yanks the bottle from my hand."I just can't stop picturing them having sex in his car while my mind was filled with stuff like where I was going to take her for our second date, I mean, I suck at those things but for her, I was willing to try," I rub my clammy hands against my jeans."What was so special about this girl anyway?" He wrinkles his face at me."She made me feel like I was ready to change, you know? Like I was ready to be a better version of me," I slur thoughtfully."And what do you feel right now?" He asks."I feel like staying single for a very long time, I don't want anyone else to make me feel this fucked up again," my chest heaves and I swallow the heavy lump in my throat."Yeah, the life of the party is the easiest thing there is," he pats my shoulder."Do you have any pills?" I bring my shaking hand to my neck, feeling the lump grow stronger and stronger."I'm not giving you any pills," he sounds det
Three years ago.Jace's POV.Today, I won the race because Olivia's parents are finally out of town and I'm finally free to see her at her house whenever I want.I can't stop thinking about getting the hell out of here and spending the rest of my night cuddling and kissing her.Yeah, I'm a walking cliche, I know."Holy mother of abs," Blair stands in front of my bike and dramatically widens her eyes at my chest."You like?" I playfully smooth a hand down my sweaty chest."Uh-huh," she nods and takes out her phone to take a picture of me."No, Blair, come on," I lift my hand to my face as an attempt to hide it from the camera."Relax, it's not for me, this is Cassandra's phone, imagine her face when she finds this picture in her phone," She laughs and I drop my hand, grinning at her."There we go," she takes the picture."Wait, Cass is here?" I look around the crowded place for the blonde."Yep, had to drag her out of bed and everything," she says as her thumbs fractionally type on Cas
Three Years ago.Jace's POV.Growing up, my mum made Milkshakes a solution to everyone's sadness, other parents would take their kids out for ice cream but she always thought milkshakes were better than ice cream.I'm not exactly sad, but I'm also not not sad. It's been two weeks since Olivia's parents showed up in town, two weeks since she and I had a fight over her moving around with her ex, two weeks since she assured me that he was nothing and I meant everything.I left it alone and we moved on but I barely see her, she calls me and we text all night but it's not enough. I wanna hear her laugh and kiss her while she's smiling at me.Anyway....I haven't been to Shake n' Sip since.... I don't even remember, well, I guess since Reign graduated, she brought the fun and humor to the place and I just couldn't see myself walking into the shop and not hearing a sarcastic remark from her.And yet here I am, drinking milkshakes on the counter, kinda like the same way a grown man with probl