Sobrang nagagalit si Ella. Handa na sana siyang bumalik sa opsina para sampalin ang mukha ni Javier. Pero, nagawa niya pa ring pakalmahin ang sarili niya sa at nang dumating ang oras na naglakad si Javier sa harap niya at magpaalam sa pagtatapos ng araw, nakangiti pa rin si Ella nang pormal na parang walang nangyari. Para bang hindi siya nito ininsulto sa pag-iisip nito na puro mga accountant at tax advisor lang ang lalaking nagiging nobyo niya! Para lang din nitong sinabi na sa sobrang boring niya, puro boring na mga tao lang din ang idini-date niya!
“Ang kapal ng mukha!” sabi ni Ella at binuksan ang pinto para pumasok. “Maghintay ka lang, Javier Summers!” Ipinangako niya sa sarili niya at umupo sa sofa. Kahit si Damon o ang boyfriend nito na si Tanner, okay na sana kay Ella. Gay men could make the very best friends for a woman and she was both glad and grateful to have them both in her life. Bago niya pa nalaman na bakla si Damon noong high school sila, matagal na silang magkaibigan. Mabait si Damon, supportive at palagi siyang ipinagtatanggol. Alam niya na papayag itong samahan siya na pumunta sa party ni Javier.
Napaupo si Ella nang maalala kung anong nangyari. Dalawang beses siyang ininsult ni Javier. Una, noong nagulat ito nang banggitin niya na lalaki ang isasama niya sa party. Iniisip ba nito na puro lang babae ang mga kaibigan niya? Na baka lesbyana siya dahil hindi siya lumuhod sa harap nito? Outrageous! Pangalawa, nang isipin nito na accountant o tax advisor ang isasama niya.
Taking a deep calming breath, Ella said decidedly, "I have to find a new job!"
Buong araw siyang nabagabag dahil dito at at kinailangan niya pa ring tiisin si Javier Summers. Palagi niya itong nakikita na nagpapalit ng nobya na para bang underwear ang mga ito at hindi tao. Baka nga medyo nagseselos si Ella. Kung anuman iyon, kailangan niya na itong ihinto. Lalo na at hindi nahihiya si Javier na insultuhin siya gaya na lang ng ginawa nito kaninang hapon.
Hindi siya makikita ni Javier Summer bilang kahit ano bukod sa pagiging propesyonal na sekretarya nito. Wala pang lalaki na nakapukaw ng pisikal na atraksyon niya, maski si Damon Matthews. Hindi lang pisikal na mga bagay, after all, marami na siyang lalaking nagustuhan na may magagandang katawan, ang iba nga mas maganda pa kaysa kay Javier. Hindi, may kakaiba talaga sa lalaking ito na humihila sa kanya palapit at ikinababaliw niya ito.
She did not like the person she was becoming. Sometimes she felt like she did not really belong to herself anymore. She should move on. And move on she would. Mukhang masyado namang masama kung ibibigay niya ang resignation letter niya rito bukas lalo na at dalawang araw lang ito bago ang birthday nito. Kaya sa Monday na lang siguro, pagkatapos ng party nito sa Sunday.
Mas determindado kaysa rati, Isinulat ni Ella ang resignation letter niya at piniramahan ito. Iaabot niya ito sa Monday at kakalimutan na si Javier Summers. Magmu-move on na siya sa lahat ng ito.
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Makalipas ang dalawang araw…
Buti na lang nasa bahay si Damon nang lumabas ako ng flat ko at pumunta sa kanya. “Ella mia Bella!” bati nito at hinalikan siya sa pisngi. “Ready ka na ba?”
Tinawagan ni Ella si Damon dalawang gabi na ang nakararaan tungkol sa plano niya. Masuwerte siya dahil libre ito ngayong linggo at more than willing na ipahiya si Javier.
"I am born ready," answered Ella with a dazzling smile.
“Ipakita natin sa kanya kung sino ang boss, my love!” Kumislap ang mga mata ni Damon sa galak.
“Suotin mo ‘yong glittery tie na binili ni Tanner sa ‘yo last summer! At dark suit!” sabi ni Ella at pumasok sa flat nina Damon at Tanner. Dagdag niya, “‘Wag mong i-overdo ang look mo. Ayaw kong malaman nila na bakla ka.”
"I am a straight man tonight, I promise!"
Nagbuntong-hininga si Ella para pawiin ang lahat ng pent-up feelings na idinulot sa kanya ni Javier lately. Bukod sa hindi na ito huminto kakaasar sa kanya dahil sa sinabi niyang hot si Damon, sinabi rin nito sa kanya ngayong araw na okay lang kung dumating siyang mag-isa. Nakakainsulto! Para bang sinabi nito na nagsisinungaling lang siya tungkol kay Damon at binibigyan pa siya nito ng out. How dare he?!
“Kailangan ko siyang pagbayarin, Dee. Kailangan ko. Nababaliw na ako!”
Binigyan siya ng naaawang tingin ni Damon na nag-aayos ng suit nito. “Ano na naman ba ‘yon?”
“Pinapalabas niya na gawa-gawa ko lang ang lahat ng ‘to. Na hindi ka naman nag-e-exist at nagsisinungaling lang ako. Sabi niya, okay lang kung mag-isa lang akong pumunta.”
“Aray naman!” Umiling si Damon. “Kailangan talagang hambalusin itong lalaking ‘to, dearest!”
Nang matapos si Damon sa attire niya para ngayong gabi, tumagilid ang ulo nito para tingnan si Ella. “Hmm, sa tingin ko mali ‘tong dress mo.”
"What do you mean?"
“Naalala mo ba ‘yong red dress na binili ko para sa ‘yo pero ‘di mo man lang sinuot kahit isang beses?” Nag-angat ng kilay si Damon. "Go make me happy and wear that one."
Alam agad ni Ella ang dress na tinutukoy nito. “No way! Masyadong sexy ang damit na iyon para sa akin!”
“Diyan ka nagkakamali. Ang sexiness ay attitude. Noong suot mo ‘yong dress na ‘yon, confident ka. Nakita ko noong sinukat mo ‘yon. Wear it and bring sexy back!”
"Yes, ma'am!" Ella laughed. "I honestly doubt he will notice, Dee."
“Mapapansin niya. Trust me. Unless bulag siya o bobo, for sure, oo.” Damon wiggled his eyebrows in a teasing manner. “At hindi ko lang ‘yon sinasabi kasi kaibigan mo ako.”
“Okay, you got me. Ipapasa ko naman na ang resignation letter ko sa Lunes kaya bahala na!” Tumawa ulit si Ella. “Maglalagay lang ako ng makeup.”
“Huwag mong kalimutan ‘yong smokey eyes!” utos ni Damon na tinawanan ni Ella. “Magdadala ang ng glass ng wine para ‘di ka naman ganoon ka-tense, darling.”
Habang nakatitig si Ella sa salamin, hindi niya mapigilan ang pakiramdam na umakto ng kakaiba. Nakikita niya na appeal nito. Bibigyan niya si Javier ng isang gabi na hindi nito makakalimutan. Hindi na mahalaga kung magagalit ito dahil kaya niya maging relaxed kasama si Damon, after all, magreresign na siya bukas kaya dapat lang na iwan niya ito at ang kumpanya nang walang pagsisisi.
The CEO’s POVLate si Ella. Hindi maitatanggi na late talaga si Ella Stanford.Hindi mapigilan ni Javier ang sarili na silipin ang Rolex niyang relo at ang entrance minu-minuto. Pagkalipas ng sampung minuto, lahat ng nag-e-enjoy ng cocktails at light snacks sa foyer ay lilipat na sa dining hall. Pero heto siya, nakatayo sa balkonahe, nakatitig sa mga tao sa babae at hinahanap ang sekretarya niya."Where on earth is she?" he growled to himself. His buoyant anticipation had slid through a heap of frustration at her lack of appearance before it turned to a nagging worry. Naaksidente kaya ito?“Babe, anong ginagawa mo rito?” tanong ng isang senswal na boses kasunod ng mga kamay na yumakap sa balakang niya. Inilagay ni London Star ang ulo nito sa balikat ni Javier, at idinampi ang labi sa leeg ni Javier. “Lahat ng kaibigan mo nasa baba. Bakit hindi tayo bumaba saka mangamusta?”"Ten more minutes," he replie
The Secretary POVNanginginig si Eilla habang hinihintay niya ang entrance niya. Dapat siguro hindi niya hinayaan si Damon at Jackie na kumbinsihin siya na gawin ito. Nevertheless, nandoon na siya sa labas ng malaking pinto tungo sa dining hall. May nagbibigay ng speech sa loob at pagkatapos ng speech, siya na ang papasok. Cheers followed with applause had erupted, indicating that it was her time now.Binigyan siya ni Jackie ng mabilis na yakap at bumulong si Damon sa kanya ng encouraging words.Okay. Ang kailangan niya lang gawin ay pumunta roon at kumanta para sa kanya. How hard could that possibly be?The CEO POVLumilinga-linga pa rin si Javier sa paligid. Wala pa rin si Ella. Gusto niya itong tawagan ulit pero madadagdagan lang ang missed calls na makikita nito sa cellphone."Damn it," he cursed under his breath, not paying attention to what his brother, Thornton, had been saying on the po
The CEO POVSabay na magkapareho at magkaiba sa itsura ni Ella noon at ngayon. May kakaiba sa paraan ng galaw nito, the way her hips swayed. At nang tingnan si Ella ni Javier, napansin niya ang senswal na hugis ng labi ng babae habang nakatitig ito sa kanya at binabati siya ng happy birthday.“Come on, babe, hipan mo na ‘yong kandila,” pilit ni London sa tabi niya at yinakap ang kanyang braso.Saglit na tiningnan ni Javier si Ella bago hinipan ang kandila. Nagsigawan ang mga tao at nagsimula na ang mga bisita na batiin siya. Maya-maya ay iniwan ni Javier ang mga bisita para puntahan ang mga kapatid niya. Dalawa lang sa pito niyang mga kapatid ang pumunta sa kaarawan niya. Wala rin silang pinsan dahil parehong solong anak ang nanay at tatay nila.“Hindi pa rin naman alam
The CEO POV Hindi ito nagugustuhan ni Javier. Not even one bit. Ito nga yata ang pinakamasahol niyang birthday. Hindi iyon dahil sa pagkain. Masarap iyon at inihanda ng pinakamagagaling na mga chef sa U.S. Hindi rin kasalan ng decor dahil sakto iyon sa kagustuhan niya: elegante at high class. Ang banda rin na nagpapatugtog ngayon ay ibinibigay ang kanilang best performance kaya wala rin siyang nakikitang mali rito. Ang pinakanakapagpapairita sa kanya ay ang sekretarya na nagdesisyong kumilos nang kakaiba ngayon. Mabuti sana kung ginawa ito ni Ella nang mag-isa, pero may kasama itong gwapong lalaki na handang i-please siya at malamang ay hindi rin nakapaghihintay sa mainit na gabi na pagsasaluhan nila sa. Kailangan ni Javier ng oras para pakalmahin ang sarili niya o baka hilain niya si Ella tungo sa pinakamalapit na kwarto para patinuin ito. At gawin ang ano? Umiling si Javier para pawiin ang maruming kaisipan. Nakababaliw na isipin na may gus
The Secretary POVNagsimula na ulit na tumugtog ang banda. Pero ngayon, ang kanta ay may mas mabagal na tempo na mas bagay sa isang slow dance. Kababalik lang ni Ella sa lamesa nila nang makita niya si Javier at London Star. Ang tanging salvation niya lang ay si Damon na katabi niya. Palaging mas okay na may kasamang kaibigan kaysa sa harapin ang gabing ito nang mag-isa.Kumislap ang mga mata ni London at tumayo ito. “Damon, I love this song. Tara, isayaw mo ako.” Lumingkis ito kay Damon at idiniin ang malulusog nitong dibdib sa braso nito. “Okay lang naman sa ‘yo kung hiramin ko siya ng isang sayaw ‘di ba, Ella?”“Ayaw ko siyang iwang mag-isa,” sagot ni Damon at inilayo ang braso mula kay London na hindi naman siya pinakawalan.Bago pa makapagsalita si Ella, a low husky voice had answered on her behalf. “Hindi siya maiiwang mag-isa. Sasamahan ko siya.” Naramdaman ni Ella ang pag
The CEO POVTinitigan ni Ella ang boss niya, at saglit siyang nakaramdam ng galit. Ang sabi niya, banyo ang hanap niya, saang lupalop naisip ng boss niya na dalhin siya sa kwarto nito? Bumalik ang kanyang naisip kanina tungkol sa hiling nito na makuha siya bilang isa sa mga babae nito.Umigting ang panga ni Ella at pilit na pinakalma ang sarili. Kapag may gawin sa kanya si Javier, puwede niya naman itong tuhurin sa bayag nito saka tumakbo nang mabilis. Kaya nang buksan niya ang bibig, she was quite proud of herself for sounding calm and reasonable. “Bakit mo ako dinala rito?”Nang ‘di nagsasalita, kinuha nito ang kamay niya at hihilain na sana siya ngunit hindi siya nagpaanod. “What on earth are you doing, sir?” Talagang sinabi niya ang ‘sir’ sa dulo sa pag-asang hindi niya makakalimutan na boss niya sa Javier at may hindi tama rito.“‘Di ba sabi mo pupunta ka sa banyo?” nagtatak
The Secretary POV “Hinalikan ka niya, ‘no?” tanong ni Damon kay Ella nang makarating sila sa parking lot. Napakurap si Ella bago namula ang mukha. “Nakita mo ba?” Alam niyang may maliit na chance na nakita iyon ni Damon dahil nasa kwarto sila ni Javier ng halikan siya ng boss niya, pero wala siyang ibang dahilan na maisip kung paano nito alam. “Nope, but I wish I did.” Damon wiggled his eyebrows, teasing her. “Kitang-kita sa mukha mo, babe. Namumula ka pagkagaling mo sa banyo at ang weird ng kilos mo.” Huminto si Damon and lumukot ang mukha. He clapped his hands. “Oh, at hindi ka makapaghintay na umuwi. ‘Yon ang pinaka-weird.” “Pagod lang ako,” sabi ni Ella. Hindi naman talaga ‘yon kasinungalingan. Emotionally tired na siya mula sa pagpapanggap na hindi apektado sa mga ikinikilos ni Javier. “Pagod ka dahil sa kiss?” asar ni Damon at siniko naman ito ni Ella. “Ow, ‘di mo naman ako kailangan i-harass. Pero seryoso, girl, ganoon
Isang ngiti ang nasa labi ni Javier nang dumating siya sa opisina kinabukasan. Habang nagkakape at kumakain ng almusal na inihanda ng kasambahay niyang si Leigh, nag-isip siya ng plano kung paano aakitin ang sekretarya niyang si Miss Ella Stanford. A lively sense of anticipation tingled through his body as he swung the door open, fully expecting Ella to be at her table. Pero agad iyong nawala nang makita na wala ito. Wala ang brown coat nito sa hanger at malinis ang desk, parehong-pareho ang itsura nang huli niya itong makita noong Friday.Nasaan siya? O baka naman dahil sa excitement ay mas maaga siyang dumating.Tiningnan niya ang relo sa braso. Labing-limang minuto pagkalipas ng alas-nuebe. Hindi siya maaga, si Ella ang late! Ni minsan ay ‘di pa siya nauna rito. Palagi itong on-time. Sobrang nakakainis ngayong araw na hindi ganoon, lalo na’t nag-
C H A P T E R 3 0 : H I S P R I N C I P L E E L L A S T A N F O R D “I want you, Ella. Damn.” She heard the hoarse sound he made. He pulled her head back and lowered his own, their mouths clinging, filled with a driving physical need that beat through her veins like fire, turning her body into helpless fluidity. Javier held her body between his roving hands and she made no effort to stop him, shuddering with pleasure under the kiss which seemed to last endlessly, as though in itself it were an act of possession. And that was when she realized in the distant recess of her mind that she was in love with him. That she had always been. She had always been more aware of his presence in a room than she had dared admit. He had gradually filled every corner of her heart without her either being able to stop it or admit it. Her driving need to give herself to him, to throw away years of firm principle, was the ultimate expression of a love which, like an unwanted weed, had thrived on
“You have no idea how I have been waiting all evening for this.”They kissed desperately, her arms closing around the back of his head to pull him nearer. Her half-naked body was trembling in his arms. It had been so long, the kisses were a hot rush across her flesh, an overload to her senses that woke up all those lonely places inside her that she had ignored for god knows how long. He touched his tongue to the seam of her lips, and her chest got tight and achy and her knees threatened to buckle. She raised her hands to his shoulders to keep from falling and tilted her head to the side. Her lips parted, and the slick touch and warm glide of his tongue was like dropping a lit match on a pool of gasoline and she went up in flames. She wanted to burn and make him burn along with her. He tasted like beer and liquid sex and she wanted to eat him up. A low moan escaped her chest, her breasts grew heavy, and her nipples tightened into hard points of pleasure. All of her defenses had weakened
Giving him a little smile, she discreetly moved his hand back to his lap. “None, unfortunately. I do not have any.”“No way, I do not believe that.” He narrowed his eyes, giving it a thought, and then his lips formed a mischievous smile. “How about modeling? Could you strike a pose?”“Not really though,” Ella giggled as she suddenly remembered what Damon had always made her do whenever they had gone shopping. “My friend, Damon, he always asks me to try out the clothes we bought and pose.”“Then I am sure he sees your talent there.” His green eyes danced. “Are you free tomorrow?”Ella glanced at Javier for one split second before answering, “I am sorry but my schedule depends on my boss.”“Would you come over and pose for me? I will put your beauty into canvas,” promised Roberto with a smile. “What do you say?”“I am afraid I have to say no.”“Oh, come on.” He turned to Javier. “Can I borrow her for a few hours tomorrow?”Javier shrugged and then took a drink of his red wine. “That is r
C H A P T E R 2 7 : B R E A T H L E S S E L L A S T A N F O R D Ella closed her door, searched through her purse to make sure she had her key, trying to stop the aching in the pit of her stomach as Javier took her arm and she felt the power of those strong fingers around her. They were walking in silence and after she could make sure that her heartbeat was steady and she was no longer out of breath, Ella pointed it out again, “You said you brought me to Sicily to help you persuade him to join us.” Close to her ear, Javier said softly, “I want to sign him up, not strangle him, love.” She felt a confused sensation of excitement and alarm, her ears drumming. Somehow she walked along the corridor beside him to the lift, trying to force her breathing to slow. In the lift she stood a foot away from him, her eyes lowered. They walked through the foyer to the car park in silence. Javier opened the door and she quickly slid into the passenger seat before he could touch her to assist her.
Ella felt her body grew tensed the second she had heard his voice and Roberto must have felt it too as he let go of her hair and gave Javier a nod. “I was just chatting with your beautiful secretary,” he said. “How was your flight here?”She turned around and caught the stony look on her boss’s face. His eyes lingered on her for several seconds before they moved to Roberto’s as he replied, “It was fine.”“I am guessing it was or else your brother will probaby hear your complaints as soon as the plane lands or perhaps even before.” Roberto chuckled.Javier gave what might seem as a polite smile but Ella noticed the icy look on his blue eyes. He did not think that joke was funny. “Holden always makes sure the service for all of his customers are great and up to standards.”“Of course,” Roberto nodded. “Maybe one day I will get to buy an airplane from your brother. You will help me get a sizeable discount, right?”“I will see what I can do,” said Javier, not giving any promises yet the ot
Ella was not sure what had possessed her but she responded to every kiss, every touch, and her body burned with hot, tingling desire. A power boat was speeding towards them from the misty reaches of the sea instantly awoke her from the trance in which his lovemaking had held her. Her eyes flew open and she gave a low shivering cry. Javier lifted his head, silently taking in her horrified, shamed expression, then a wry smile flickered over his face.Without a word he flung himself over on to his back, breathing hard, staring up at the halcyon blue of the sky that had almost the same color as his eyes. Sick, humiliated, burning with self-contempt, Ella sat up and dived into the sea. Without thinking she swam back towards the beach. The last few moments had been a revelation to her. She had always been secretly aware that she was attracted to him and now she had to face the fact that he had a power over her senses which made her despise herself.As she walked back towards the changing boo
E L L A S T A N F O R DJavier went to get his swimming trunks, beach towel, and other stuff. Ella was waiting at the hotel’s lobby. While he was away, she was trying to rethink again her decision of spending time with him. It would be ridiculous and quite childish of her to object it on the last minutes. And before she could think of another reason to make her objection valid, he had returned.The hotel had a private section of sand and its own changing cabins. Half an hour later, she emerged from the tiny cabin to find Javier standing at the edge of the water in black trunks, staring out across the blue sea. Unlike herself, he was bronzed by the sun, the hard lean body fit and athletic, his broad shoulders and smooth-skinned back tapering to slim hips and long, muscled, thighs. Reluctantly she walked towards him, conscious of the glances she was getting from some of the young men playing beach-ball over a fixed net a few yards away. One of them gave a low whistle, calling something
C H A P T E R 2 3 : H E R D E S I R E E L L A S T A N F O R D His hands came around her, enclosing her, his palms laid flat against her back, one long thumb beginning to move in sensual massage along the exposed skin above her edge of her blouse. Ella suddenly felt breathless, she was unable to pull herself away. The moment elongated, leaving her curiously weak and intensely conscious of the firm muscles of his thighs against her legs. A sick sensation came up into her throat and she pulled herself together and managed to move away from him, her eyes lowered in self-disgust, shuddering as she realised how she had felt from merely a touch. Previously, Javier had been apt to make one of his barbed comments on such occasions, finding things to mock about her yet he made no remark on what had happened and this left her puzzled and surprised. He then shock her even further by half turning away from her as the lift came to a halt. It caused her to wonder whether he was completely
After Washington D.C. intermittent sunshine and rain, Trapani, Sicily looked so unreal and beautiful — just like a coloured postcard. The streets lined with palm trees whose leaves were green and lustrous, the hotels dazzling white and glinting in the sun, the layered rows of houses softly washed in pastel colours, over all of the town the brilliant azure sky making it look more like a film set than anything Ella could remember.They drove from the airport in a hired car which she had booked from Rome. Javier knew the route well from previous visits, his long hands capable on the wheel, his hard profile abstracted in thought.“Your older brother lives here, doesn’t he?” asked Ella. Oddly enough, she felt slightly irritated by his apparent unawareness of her presence beside him in the car.He turned his head, the dark hair brushing against the collar of the dark brown shirt he wore. “Yes. Piers, my second older brother,” he answered with a slight nod. The piercing blue eyes skimmed over