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CXXXVI. I don't need to be the Obedient Astria anymore
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2024-11-15 23:06:02
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Take my Hand and Choose me CXXXVII. His patience are limited.
"AM I being so sensitive?""Am I being to affected by their wordings? Why am I the only one who suffer here?"She kept uttering those words, lasing na siya.The alcohol on her body kept her nerves numb, or maybe yung mga sinabi ni Roy ang nagpanigas ng buong kalamnan niya kaya naman kung ano anong nang pinagsasabi niya ngayon.Ano pabang point ng reputasyon iniingatan niya ng matagal na? her being a good and well mannered girl? anong use non when kahit anong gawin niya ay hindi niya ma please ang tatay niya? Keeping that Reputation can't gain her anything more than pain, deceptions, betrayals and many more disadvantageous to her.Kaya naman ngayon, kahit ngayon lang she must do something she really wants, she picked for herself and made decision by herself.Not from her dad.Mom.Funtaveriá's.or even Cian.Luminga naman si Cairan sa dalaga ng mapansing tahimik na eto, nakatulog na ba siya dahil sa kalasingan?"Astria" he sweetly uttered her name."Are you awake?" tanong pa neto sa da
Huling Na-update : 2024-11-16Take my Hand and Choose me CXXXVIII. Where did her boldness go?
“H-HEY! W-WHAT are you doing!?” Halos natatarantang tanong ni Astria habang hindi mapakaling nakatitig sa lalaking nasa ibabaw nya ngayon.Damang-dama ni Astria ang init ng kanyang mga pisnge dahil sa ginawa ng binata, she can hardly breathe because of that.Hindi naman sumagot sakanya si Cairan at tanging nakatitig lang sakanya nang may kakaibang tingin.The atmosphere in the room was so tense and sobrang init na may di maipaliwanag na feeling na pinapadama sakanila.Their posture was so ambiguous.Him being at her top, looking at her deeply and seductively panting too, his Adam's apple rolled up and down.While her…Kitang kita ni Astria eto dahil sa posisyon nila.Siya na nasa ilalim ng binata habang saklop saklop ng binata ang dalawa niyang kamay..Napalunok siya sa di malamang dahilan at napatitig sa mga basang labi ni Cairan unconsciously.“What are you looking at? Want to kiss me again?” He mischievously asked and then smirked.Sasagot na sana si Astria upang depensahan ang sari
Huling Na-update : 2024-11-26Take my Hand and Choose me CXXXIX. She will surely lose herself if that happens.
MATAPOS MAKAALIS ng binata sa ibabaw ni Astria ay wala ng sinayang na oras si Astria at naupo na, sumiksik sa gilid ng sofa na tila ba dumisistansya sa binata.Inayos nya rin ang inayos ng binata na tshirt nya at pinagpagan eto, maya maya ay tahimik na napasilip sa binata.Now, he's drinking the last can of beer.As if they didn't do that ambiguous thing, as if nothing happened.Wow.He look so calm pero siya, ang dalaga. Halos hindi na maitago ang bilis at lakas ng tibok ng puso, hindi pa siya kumakalma. Dali dali naman na siyang nag iwas ng tingin.Hindi nya alam ang mararamdam, alam niyang dapat siyang magalit or mainis sa ginawa ng binata pero may parte sakanya na hindi manlang galit o inis.All she can think of is that she was very very nervous.She was so shy to the point na hindi manlang siya makatingin sa binata ng diretso.Pero teka lang.She know that only people in relationships can kiss, so…Why did they kiss? Naalala niya tuloy bigla yung sinabi ng tatay nya.Be slutty,
Huling Na-update : 2024-11-27Take my Hand and Choose me CXL. Astria feels uncomfy and want to know why.
THAT LEAVES Astria speechless, dali dali nalang siyang papunta sa pintong pinaglabasan ng binata at mariing napasandal rito. Tila ba nangangambang babalik ulit ang binata. She finally came back to her senses. Hays! Suddenly, she wants to beat him up and make him suffer for stealing her first kiss. But… She really didn't feel like being forced or violated by those things. Infact, she really likes it. She just caught off guard. Matapos masiguradong locked na ang pinto ay dali-dali na siyang tumungo sa kwarto ni Yuniña at doon pabagsak na dumapa saka isinubsob ang mukha sa unan. Matapos ay nagsimulang magsisipa at malilikot. It's over. Hindi na siya makapagisip ng matino, tanging ang nangyaring paghalik lamang sakanya ni Cairan ang pumapasok sa isip nya. Para etong sirang plaka na paulit-ulit na naglalaro sa utak niya. How can he be… “GRAAAAAAAGH” she scream while tinatakpan ang mukha nya gamit ang unan upang hindi makagawa ng ingay. She was so flustered righ
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BIGLAAN NYA nalang inalis ang kanyang kumot na nakatalukbong sakanya at malakas na napabigas ang mga katagang “Why are you looking at hi—” she paused and didn't finished her words dahil narealize nya ang kanyang tinuran. Napatakip nalang siya ng bibig. Mukhang narinig naman eto ni Yuniña dahilan upang mapangisi etong tumingin kay Astria. ARGHHH! Why did she say that!? She sounds like a jealous girlfriend. “Ho, ho, ho… Don't worry, Star my bestie. Boss pogi is all yours. I have my lovely Uno with me. Napopogian lang talaga ako kay Boss Pogi, you know that I'm weak to handsome men” natatawang tugon ni Yuniña. Nagtalukbong nalang ulit ng kumot ang dalaga at nagsimulang isubsob ang sarili. Sobrang nakakahiya! She even wants to dig a hole just to bury herself my god. Why did she blurt it out so loud!? “Maybe you're confused right now, Astria. Kasi nga halos andami at ang bilis ng pangyayari but still, you should think about it carefully and considered Boss Pogi. Sure ako, I saw it,
Huling Na-update : 2024-11-29Take my Hand and Choose me CXLII. An apple in his eye.
Napaiktad nalang si Astria nang may lumapat na mainit na palad sa mga balikat nya. “H-ha?A-ano?” She blurted out of shock. Masyadong lumipad ang utak nya at di napansin ang paligid. “The door is open, are you ok? Tulala ka” he casually said at inalis ang mga palad neto sa balikat nya. Tinapik pala siya ng binata. “Ohh, sorry” awkward na tugon ni Astria at lumabas na ng elevator. My God, napatagal pala ang pagdeday-dream nya! Nakakahiya naman baka nagmukha na siyang tanga. Nagmamadali nalang tuloy siyang maglakad kahit na Hindi alam ang paruroonan. Nang biglang may humawak sa pulsuhan nya dahilan upang mapalinga siya. It was Cairan. Buti naman, kinabahan siya dahil akala nya si Cian eto lalo na at nasa lobby sila. “Where are you going? Hindi dyan ang parking lot” takang tanong ni Cairan “Are you really determined to run away?” Dagdag pa neto dahilan upang mapaiktadang dalaga. “No, no, it's just… I didn't know na sa parking lot tayo pupunta” pagdadahilan ni Astria kahit alam
Huling Na-update : 2024-11-30Take my Hand and Choose me CXLIII. Is he sincere?
“NANDITO NA pala tayo, you can stop here na” saad ng dalaga nang magising sa sinabi ni Cairan. Nandito na pala sila… It will be troublesome for her kung ihahatid pa sya ng binata papasok sa loob mismo ng village. Someone might see them and tell her parents, sure siyang di magugustuhan ni Roy eto or worse even the Funtaveriá's will make a fuss. Ayaw na nya ng gulo. Cairan seems to see her thoughts, she still didn't want others to see them together. Suddenly, he felt so annoyed. “Alright, I'll stop here” malamig na tugon ni Cairan matapos imaobra ang manibela paliko sa gilid ng kalsada. She's acting weird right now and it's really annoying for him, una umiiwas ng iwas ang dalaga sa kanya. She even wants to run away earlier, buti nalang talaga ay expected na to ng binata kaya maaga rin siyang bumaba incase na tumakas eto. How can she be more lovely and daring when she's drunk but at the same time when she's sober… she easily crushed his hopes and annoyed him… Her so
Huling Na-update : 2024-11-30Take my Hand and Choose me CLXIV. Childhood Engagement Arrangement
HE JUST stares at her and later on starts to say “Who sent you back?” It's just a 4 words but it makes Astria's heart beats so fast, naglalamig narin siya dahil sa pagkakaba. She didn't know what to say… It's disadvantageous to her if she say it was Cairan… “Is it Cairan?” he uttered that makes Astria flinched “Nakita ko siyang inabot sayo yung maleta mo kanina” dagdag pa nang matanda. It leaves Astria no choice, nakita pala sila ng matanda. “Ah… Yes po Lo, siya nga po yun… may work po kasi siya sa resort at pauwi narin kaya nakisabay nalang ako sakanya dahil urgent din meeting namin and mahirap humanap ng transpo sa resort” mahabang pagpapaliwanag ni Astria trying hard na wag ipahalatang kabado siya. “Really?” tanong ng matanda na tila ba hindi naniniwala sa mga sinabi nya “Alright, let it be. But still, Star, You should distance yourself with Cairan. You and Cian, his half brother's are engaged even if it's just a childhood engagement arrangement and sooner we want both
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“I just want to remind you na kailangan mo paring uminom ng gamot sa tamang oras kahit na wala kanang lagnat” he uttered at palipat lipat ang tingin kung saan saan, tila ba iniiwasan ang dalaga. “But I didn't know your cloth—” parang nang aasar na tugon neto ngunit sumingit agad si Astria upang ipagtanggol ang sarili. “No! It wasn't mine! kay Yuniña to” pagdadahilan nya sa binata at ngayo’y nahihiya na. Did he see it?! sana hindi, cause if yes baka ibaon na talaga nya ang sarili. “Hiniram ko lang to kay Yuniña, I didn't know na kulang botones neto!” dagdag na dahilan nya pa rito. Hindi naman umiimik si Cairan at tila ba nasa ibang lupalop ang utak. seeing that Cairan didn't react, na-misunderstood eto ng dalaga na akala nya hindi eto naniniwala. “I-Im not lying!” she anxiously said. What if he would think na sineseduce nya nanaman ang binata!? nakakainis talaga. Why did Yuniña lend her pajamas like this? How can she defend herself now? After minutes of silent, Cairan just
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“Per—” Cael cut his son's words with his sharp stares. “That’s final, Sangayon ako sa gusto ni Dad. As soon as possible, dapat ma-engage na kayo ni Astria” maririing tugon ni Cael. Hindi naman makapaniwala si Cian sa naririnig “Dad naman! why!?” inis na asik neto sa ama. “Let’s see if Roxie can take herself being a mistress of yours, kung maaatim nya ang ganitong sitwasyon kung ipagpapatuloy nya ang ugnayan sayo” mariing asik ni Cael. Hindi makapaniwala si Cian sa naririnig, how can he do that!? Gusto nyang umangal, gusto nyang magsalita ngunit tumalikod na to mula sakanya. “I'll go outside for a while, may mga kailangan akong tawagan. Thanks to someone, I can't go to work, You know how many things needs to be done sa kumpanya pero dahil sayo ngayon naospital ang lolo mo and I can't leave him here kaya ayan! hindi ako nakapasok. Buti nalang at matutulungan ako ni Cairan at nang secretary ko para maayos lahat ng kailangan tapusin. Habang ikaw, the proudheaded-so-called Legitimate
