No wonder ganong ang naiisip nya sa kinalakihang ugali ni Astria because they're not a like at all, nasaan ang match made by heaven doon? He was free and she's not. He was adventurous but she was calm. He's playful but she's well behaved. A complete opposite of each other. Wala talagang patutunguhan pa kung magsasama sila, mas lalo lang maglalaman ang halos 20 years nilang pagkakaibigan. Pero kasi ang ikinakasama lamang ng loob ni Astria ay ang pagpapahiya ni Cian sakanya sa madaming tao. He know damn well how sensitive Astria is and yet… He do that shit infront of many people. He yell infront of her parents, his dad and other strangers that She's boring, no fun, killjoy and no personality at all. He even tell everybody that he didn't like her. And that's ok with her pero ang hindi ok ay ipahiya nya sya sa harap ng madaming tao. Maybe, he did that on purpose. Alam nya kasi kung gaano ako masasaktan pag-napapahiya. Maybe it was his so-called form or revenge that he alway
She can't fight back to Roy, so she tosses all her rage and anger to the Young Astria, because as a child Astria likes to cling on her mom at sya at sya ang nakikita ni Astella ng mga taon na iyon. She kept telling her na mas ok pa kung yung anak na lalake nalang nila ang nabuhay. It's better that Astria disappeared along with her brother. Or na sana ay lalaki na lang si Astria. One time ay malalang napagalitan nya si Astria nang tumulong eto na dalhin sakanya ang isang fertility soup na pilit pinapainom sakanya ni Roy dahil sa kagustuhang magkaanak ulit. And Astria accidentally drops it because of her being a weak child. She was in rage. The bowl Shattered on the floor at halos ang mainit na soup ay tumapon sa mga binti ng anak ngunit sa halip na tulungan ay pinagalitan nya pa ang anak. “What did you do!? Do you know what that soup is for!?” inis na asik nya. Tulong-luha namang umiiling si Astria, she was scared because her mom is mad and as the same-time ay sobrang
Kahit naman napakataas ng temperatura ni Astria dahil sa lagnat ay tila ba nanlalamig sya sa nga nalalaman. What if… just what if they can't payback dahil hindi nya gustong pakasalan si Cian??? Do… she really needs to sacrifice just for them??? Talaga bang matutulungan sila ng mga Funtaveriá? Kakayanin nya bang tumanggi knowing na ganto na ang financial situation nila? Why didn things turn out like this? “Paano na mom… if kinuha na ng bank yung bahay? saan na tayo titira nyan?” nag aalangang taong nya, natatakot sya sa magiging sagot ng ina. Mukhang di rin alam ni Astella ang mangyayari o talagang ayaw nya na lamang isipin. “hays… ewan ko ba. Hindi ko narin alam, Star sa totoo lang ay ayoko na ring isipin” tila ba hopeless na saad ni Astella sa anak. After their almost heart-to-heart conversations, Astria lost her appetite kaya naman napagpasyahan na ni Astella na iwan ang anak upang makapagpahinga. Binalot na ng katahimikan ang buong kwarto, nakatulala lang si Astria sa kis
Hindi naman agad nakapagreact si Astria matapos mabasa ang chat ng binata, her muscles become stiff for a while…Maya-maya ay mukhang nakakuha naman na ng lakas ng loob ang dalaga at dali-daling nagtipa.“Are you… still angry at me?” text na tanong ni Astria at agad rin namang sumagot si Cairan nang tanging “?” lamang.As if he doesn't know what she's pointing at.“That time… I drove you away kahit na hindi kapa magaling…” she answered.“Ohh, it's alright. I'm used to it” reply naman ni Cairan.Para namang may kung anong bagay ang tumama sa puso ni Astria at sumakit ito nang mabasa nya ang reply ng binata.Napatulala na lamang sya at maya-maya’y kumurap.Hanggang sa napa asik na lamang si Astria.She didn't like what he said, pero maybe it's true dahil narin sa mga naging experience ng binata ay baka nga nakasanayan na nya ang ganito.But she thought that no one is deserving to get used on such indifference, neglect and isolation.Out of nowhere, she started to type the word ‘ I'm sor
Nagbaba lang si Astria ng tingin kay Cian habang ang binata naman ay nagtaas ng tingin sakanya.“Tito Roy, pwede bang lumabas kami ni Star? dyan lang sa village maglalakad lakad lang para makapagusap” pagpapaalam ni Cian na agad na ikina-ngiti ni Roy.Ano naman kaya ang gusto ng binatang? she thought he didn't like her so what is this drama?Bago pa makapagsalita si Astria ay ngiting asong sumagot naman si Roy sa binata.“Oh ganon ba! ok lang naman, maganda yung ganyan nakakapagbonding kayo ni Star bago kayo maengage. It will strengthen your relationship with each other” ngiting saan nya kay Cian not minding what Astria's opinion about this.“Go, Star! change your clothes, samahan mo si Cian nang makapagbonding kayo” dagdag pa neto at minamandohan si Astria.Napasama naman ang mukha ng dalaga dahil sa naging galaw ng ama, she didn't want to go with him or be with him.Galit parin sya.“No. I can't, may sinat parin ako at masakit ang ulo ko” she firmly decline his invitation dahilan up
May hindi naman maipaliwanag na tingin si Cian sa dalaga. Ilang beses na syang pumapasok sa kwarto neto kaya halos kabisado na nya ang atmosphere dito ngunit ngayon lang nya naramdaman ang ganitong hostility mula sa may-ari ng kwarto, as if he's a theft or what.Isinarado muna ni Cian ang pinto at tumayo lamang rito “I just want to say something” he uttered.Hindi naman nagustuhan ng dalaga ang sagot neto, masama ang aura neto at blangko ang ekspresyon. This is the first time he saw Astria like this kaya napastep back sya.“Get out, I don't want to hear or talk to you right now” dagdag pa neto at masama syang tinitigan matapos umayos ng upo sa kama neto.“I don't want to lis—” Cian cut her off by saying “Gusto mo pala akong mapakasalan?” Napataas kilay na lamang si Astria at kunot noo, delulu promax?“What the— is that? Nababaliw ka na ba? buksan mo nga mga mata and look at me, saang parte sa buong pagkatao ko ang gusto kang pakasalan?” inis na asik ni Astria sa binata.Where the he
Pag frustrated sya, galit, o malungkot he always come over here sa kwarto ni Astria…. this is where he can breathe.But now, everything has changed, a lot of things changed.The room owner didn't welcomed him anymore and ang worse pa, pinagtatabuyan pa sya neto.“What? Hurry, baka umalis yon!” dala ng galit, hindi na nakapagisip pa ng matino si Astria at nagsimulang maglakad papalapit sa pinto.She opened it and pull Cian's sleeves with a great force dahilan para mabalik sa realidad si Cian.Nagulat naman si Cian sa ginawa ni Astria and out of survival instinct. Cian suddenly forcely grab Astria's hand, turned around and pushed Astria against the door dahilan upang magsara ulit eto.Napasigaw naman si Astria ng indahin ang malakas na pagtama ng likod ni Astria sa pintuan.She was about ro curse and look up sa kaharap nya ngunit napahinto sya.Masyadong malapit si Cian sakanya at damang dama nya ang mga hininga neto.She suddenly became nervous, she's so uncomfortable at gustong humana
“Ahem.. I— just think about it tito, your only daughter will enter a loveless marriage, papayag ka ba non? You're her father so I know na uunahin mo ang kasiyahan ng anak mo” dagdag pa ni Cian rito, matapos non ay nagsimula ng maglakad ai Cian.Iniwan tulala si Roy sa sala dahil sa mga pangangaral nya.Matapos makaalis sa bahay ng mga Equilla, dumiretso na si Cian sa bahay nila dahil wala naman syang ibang mapupuntahan pa dahil sa mga nakabuntot na body guard sakanya.Not to protect him but to guard him and spy on him.Nakakatawa lang talaga dahil kahit anong pangbabastos at pagkarude ni Astria sakanya ay nagawa nya pang pagsabihan si Roy para sa kalagayan ni Astria.Why is she not grateful for all he did for her?Hindi alam ni Cian ang sagot.Sa kabilang banda, si Astria naman ay napakapit sa cabinet sa tabi nya upang kumuha ng lakas. Kakalabas lang ni Cian sa kwarto nya— halos mga ilang minuto lamang ang lumipas.Masyado syang kinabahan kanina sa engkwentro nila ng binata, akala ny
Hindi na nakapagpigil pa si Astella, she broke down and rushed towards Roy para paghahampasin eto, she didn't even care kung gaganti si Roy sakanya. Ang bawat hampas ni Astella ay talagang tumatama kay Roy, magaan lang ang kamay neto ngunit ang mga kuko ni Astella ay sumabit sa balat ni Roy dahilan upang magkasugat at magdugo."You! how dare you uttered those words! hindi lang ikaw ang nawalan Roy, ako rin. Anak ko rin yon! Wala kang konsensya! Hindi ikaw ang pinaka nasaktan rito, ako yon Roy, ako! I carried that baby for Eight months! Pero ano bang alam mo!? eh bobo ka naman. You kept looking down on Us women pero tingnan mo yang sarili mo ngayon Roy, samin ka umaasa— kaming ng anak mong babae, umaasa na isasalba namin ang kumpanya mo! then whose the useless here? You're relying on woman for everything now. Sinong mas walang kwenta satin?" puno ng galit ang mga kataga ni Astella at patuloy na hinahampas at kinakalmot si Roy.Nagulat naman si Roy sa inaasta ni Astella, she looks like
"Hindi naman, sabi nang doctor ay baka daw binubog sya because of her bruises and pasa sa mga katawan nya kanina nang icheck sya ng mga doctor, her face is swollen. Kaya naman may mga nainfect at namaga na mga sugat that cause her fever right now" Saad ni Cia at mariing napapikit, hindi sya makapaniwala na kaya ng tito Roy nyang magawa ang ganong bagay.Hindi naman makapaniwala si Astria.Don't tell me.... binugbog ni Roy ang mommy nya!? Hindi sya nakapaniwala, naaawa sya sa kanyang mommy...Wala na syang pake."Send me the location kung saan sya nakaadmit ngayon" tanging sambit na lamang ni Astria.Cian took this as an opportunity for her to unblocked him."Unblocked me first, isheshare location ko sayo" seryosong saad pa ni Cian.Napakunot noo na lamang si Astria, she knew that Cian is taking this happening as an opportunity to be unblocked, pero wala syang magagawa. She needs to go kung nasaan ang monmy nya."Okay" saad ni Astria at ibinaba ang tawag.Si Astella naman ay nasa isa
He really achieved a lot kaya proud na proud si Astria, ilang taon lang ang tanda sakanya ni Cairan pero napromote na eto bilang isang director."Got slam? what does it mean?" seryosong tanong ni Cairan at nakakunot pa ang noo.So cute, he's so clueless. Pigil ngiti na lamang si Astria dahil sa cuteness ng binata. Bahala sya mag-isip."You're a techy, Use your 4g Internet" pigil tawang saad ni Astria."I use 5g" sagot naman neto at napaseryoso, hindi ba tuloy nakapagpigil pa si Cairan at napatawa na lamang dahil sa binata.Gulong gulo naman si Cairan at hindi alam ang nangyayari sa kasintahan.Matapos pa ang ilang minuto ay huminto rin si Astria sa kakatawa "Sige na, baka malate ka pa sa pasok mo" pagpapaalala ni Astria at kinuha ang coat nya na nakasabit sa stand."Ah, oo nga pala" Cairan completely forgot na aalis pala sya dahil sa kasintahan.Kaya naman sinuot na ng binata ang coat nya at pumasok sa study upang kumuha ng ilang papeles na inuwi nya pati ang laptop ay kinuha nya rin
Astria woke up in her man's arm, napatitig nalang sya sa maamo netong mukha. After their talk na halos mag-iisang linggo narin ang nakalipas, their life began to be peace. It seems that they really communicate so well, ngayon ay halos malaya na sila, they even communicate when things get hard such as everytime na tinatawagan ng Psychiatric si Cairan because of his mom. Every time he go, sinasabi na nya sa dalaga... but still hindi pa sya neto sinasama and Astria understand why. He didn't want to shock her.And she respect that at hinayaang maging ready ang binata, she didn't rushed him.Anyway, simula din ng araw na iyon ay halos magkatabi na silang matulog dalawa gabi-gabi. Maybe their fight brings them closure to each other, kagabi kasi ay halos nagkwentuhan lang sila nang mga bagay bagay hanggang sa tuluyan na silang nakatulog."Done staring yet?" nagulat si Astria dahil lumingat lang sya para sana tingnan ang oras nang biglang magsalita ang binata at nagmulat ng mata.What!? he
He lift her up at dinala na kama.Kumalma naman sya ng ibinaba sya ng binata sa kama.Niyakap naman sya ng binata, hinalika ang kanyang noo, tungko ng ilong, at ang kanyang mga pisnge nang ilang beses ang ulit.Astria just stretched out her hands and touched the man's chest, dahil nga sa init kanina ay pinagpawisan silang pareho. Cairan's skin is kinda sticky from sweat but she didn't feel disgusted at all.It was the result of their burning love.She even leaned deeper unto his arms. Hanggang sa napahinto sya at tahimik na dumistansya papalayo sa katawan ng binata.He didn't seems to calm down yet.She's lost in thoughts ng magsalita si Cairan "You didn't belive me?" he uttered."No..." nag-aalangang saad naman ni Astria. She even bit her lips and for a moment, hindi na napigilan pa ang sarili at napatanong "Hindi ba uncomfortable pag ganyan?" pointing out about Cairans bonér."A little bit, but It's ok" sagot ni Cairan at ipinulupot sa dalaga ang kamay nya upang yakapin eto "Stop be
"It's done" he uttered at dahan-dahang nalakad papunta sa likod ni Astria "Ano bang sasabihin mo?"There was a rustling sound behind her earlier, as if a man was putting on clothes. Kaya naman nakahinga na sya ng maluwag. She concluded that the man is now dressed up, and was about to turn around.She was stunned.Cairan fooled her, hindi pa sya nakadamit at nananatiling topless... and ang worse ay ilang dangkal na lamang ang layo ng binata sakanya.Sobrang lapit... she can even feel his breathing!One deep breathe at amoy na amoy ni Astria ang binata, he's signature cool and woody scent is lingering into her nose."H-hoy! I-ikaw!" she stuttered so much, hindi nagpaprocess ang utak ni Astria dahil sa hiya, as if her brain stopped working.After lot's of courage, she finally turn around para tumalikod ulit sa binata at akmang bubuksan na ang pinto para makatakas sya sa napakadaring na posisyon nila ng nobyo...However, Cairan was fast. Nanotice nya ang balak gawin ng dalaga kaya naman a
Halos naiiyak ang mga mata ni Astria after realizing their miscommunication, she realized that both of them are really novice when it comes to dating. They have been walking on a thin ice and very very careful not to hurt each other... but those moves brings a miscommunication to them.They should have talked to that like what they're doing right now."You can always be here, I told you that already. My door is always open for you" he quickly said at lumapit sa kasintahan.He cupped her both cheeks at gamit ang hinlalaki nya ay pinunasan neto ang mga luhang tumatakas mula sa mata ni Astria."You can live here, Whenever you want, even if it's forever. No it's better if Forever nga" he uttered and softly planted kisses on her face "Well, kung ayaw mo naman rito sa hotel. We can buy a house?" suggest pa ni Cairan, napatango-tango nalang si Astria na puno nang luha ang nga mata.She's relieved that they fixed their conflict.Maybe in future, they will have a home together.After their he
But he can't do that, it will be their problem kung pipilitin nya ang dalagang dumipende sakanya. Tama si Astria, it was their first time being in love and things might get messy, even how to get along in intimacy might be new to them. they need to take their time to adjust for those foreign things. Matapos ang ilang minuto, nagsalita na si Cairan. "I don't think that you're useless or pabigat ok? All I need is you here with me, that's all enough" seryosong saad ni Cairan sa dalaga. He's always been alone sa halos di na nya mabilang na taon, he often feels lonely kahit na nasa madami syang tao o kahit nasa circle of friends nya sya. Those people na akala nya ang magiging closest persons or family nya ay sila pa talaga ang nanakit sakanya. For him, not leaving, abandonubg or giving up is already precious to him. Parang naiintindihan narin ni Astria ang lahat, on why he's cold earlier and now saying na all he needs is her with him. He's ok with everything hanggat magkasama sila.
Dahilan upang mapahinto si Cairan. She walked papalapit sa binata na ngayo'y tahimik. Astria took a deep breath tila ba naghahanap ng lakas ng loob. And then, She reached him and hug him out of nowhere.Nagulat naman si Cairan sa ginawa ni Astria, kaya naman ibinaba nya ang ulo nya and this time he spoke in a lower tone "What's wrong?"Astria just hug him tighter, her ears are against in his chest and she could clearly hear his heartbeat."I-I just want to hug you" she uttered in a soft voice, bihira lang kay Astria ang maglakas-loob at mag-initiate nang daring na bagay such us kisses or even hugs kaya naman hindi eto inaasahan ni Cairan at hindi agad nakareact.She felt very uneasy ngayon dahil sa mga pagbabago sa binata and she really want to do something to comfort him kaso ang problema lang talaga ay hindi nya alam kung papaano.Only hugging ang tanging naiisip ni Astria kaya naman, she hugged him tight so that she can make him feel better.Tahimik lang si Cairan nang halos ilan