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2024-10-29 19:42:56Destiny's POV
LOVE.
LUST.
OBSESSION.
INFATUATION.
As time passed it was harder for me to tell the difference, well that was until it came to an end, an end that now seemed inevitable for all my romantic relationships. The moment we drifted things became clear, feelings defined themselves, and the nature of what I really felt came out of hiding, it was as if the loss of constant communication and intimate moments suppressed my heart enough for my logic to step in and reveal that I at the age of 28 had never felt actual LOVE, but I have felt LUST, I have been OBSESSED, I have been INFATUATED.
I was seemingly always the constant with all these failed attempts of feeling something that could hold a soul more than regret could ever fathom.
The meaningless flirting was something I did to occupy my passionate heart but it never kept my soul, mind and spirit fed, it only revealed just how lost I was on my journey to feel something real, and the multiple time I convinced myself that I had a crush on someone because I was bored voiced how desperate I had become.
Even with this knowledge I still repeated my previous actions seemingly hoping for a different outcome. My need for validation left me in situations that a fool would know to avoid, and the failed relationship with my family especially my father just added another weight to my already well-burdened shoulders.
I leaned forward stretching my aching back as I tried to keep myself together long enough to get through the workday.
It was rather draining having to be perfect on the outside when on the inside you held more imperfections than a crumbled piece of paper that was left in the rain all day.
My phone rang and I glanced over at my phone to see a call from my half-sister.
"Hello," I announced the moment I placed the device to my ear.
"Hey Destiny, it's Jazmine," she voiced
"I know," I replied leaning back a hint of sadness filling me as my mind drifted to all the years we lost out on as sisters due to our father never telling her about me, or me about her and her family until two months ago when he got out of prison.
I had gone to meet her shortly after finding out on my own since she didn't care to see the man, her relationship with him being more damaged than the relationship I had with him.
"I heard you moved into town," she voiced and I nodded before my mind quickly reminded me that she couldn't see the confirming gesture.
"Yeah, last week,"
"And you didn't tell me," she replied earning a small smile from me.
"It slipped my mind, I've been busy with work you know I just bought the club on 23rd right?" I questioned.
"Yeah, that's how I found out you moved here, John the guy you bought it from we were talking yesterday and he brought up that he sold the club and asked to who an-"
"And he told you," I voiced remembering placing the knowledge that I had recently moved here to the man the last time we spoke.
"Yeah," she replied chuckling.
"Where are you?"
"I'm on my way to the gym, also Britt and I are having a small get together at the house Saturday,"
"I'm going to be there,"
"Alright Imma call tomorrow," she voiced and I replied with a small okay allowing her to end the call before returning to my draining and overthinking mind.
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Mesi's POV
Sweat ran down my beautifully melanated skin as I walked towards the bench leaving her to collect the drinks we ordered since my exhausted body was in desperate need of some rest.
I sat down slowly ignoring the slight ache in my legs, my gaze enjoying the greeny that I was surrounded by each piece of nature calming my busy mind that was still occupied with work.
"You trying to run another mile?" Jazmine asked and I followed her voice to meet her outstretched hand that held my fruit smoothie.
"I'm trying to go home," I voiced earning a small laugh as she sat down and I quickly lifted my drink taking down some.
"How is the wedding planning going?" I asked knowing her and her soon to be wife Brittany had finally begun preparations for the big day. It was something she deserved since all the years I knew the woman she gave more than received to her partners, it was nice to see someone return the love she gave out.
"It's going," she replied making me laugh as I lifted my small towel wiping my face.
"That bad?"
"It isn't bad, it's just..stressful," she voiced smiling.
"How so?"
"Britt is a perfectionist," she confessed before taking a sip of her smoothie leaving me to fill in the blanks.
"Well at least she's finally started the whole wedding planning thing," I pointed out and she smiled leaning back before tilting her head in my direction.
"I love how happy she is when she's planning everything, it's like the same amount of excitement Aria has when she watches Princess and the frog for the 100th time," She confided grinning and I sat there appreciating the love in her eyes.
"Are you coming by the house Saturday?" she questioned as I took another sip of my smoothie.
"The get-together thing?"
"Yeah,"
"Who all gonna be there?" I asked curiously.
"The usual guests, and my sister,"
"Sarah coming?"
"No Destiny, the one I told you I recently found out about," she explained and I nodded.
"Spain and I been wanting to meet her," I replied truthfully as her phone began ringing and she said a small excuse attending to it, the smile on her face letting me know it was Britt.
"Imma head out," I mouthed and she nodded allowing me to leave.
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