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Chapter 50

Author: Cassandra M
last update Last Updated: 2024-07-24 02:56:07
XANDER.

How do you stand still and show no emotions when the only female you love is being verbally abused and physically assaulted?

I had told so many lies in my life to protect other people, but none of them crushed my whole being as they did today.

Nadine looked helpless and lost.

It made me wish I was a better shifter. It made me wish I hadn’t refused when my grandfather asked if I wanted to live with them to learn the ways of the wolves. Maybe if I did, I would have the power to challenge Maddox and save her.

But I had nothing. And I had no one.

The only ally I thought I had also betrayed me, and yet I was still here trying to protect her.

My wolf was suffering inside me. He couldn’t understand why I was not doing anything. I wish I could, but with Maddox and the people with him, I am powerless.

So, I played my part well. I had nothing to lose. I knew Nadine would never end up being mine, but I didn’t want her to die either.

If this pack was what she wanted, then she could ha
Cassandra M

Here's for today/tonight. To new readers asking for an Update Schedule, I do update daily as much as I can and will take a one-day break in a week without any notice. But this is just a guide. I'm human, and there are days that I don't have the energy and inspiration to write, but rest assured, I never abandon my books. 💛 Thank you for all the comments and gems. Please keep them coming. #InCassandraWeTrust #TrustTheProcess 💛 P.S: We will see Mindy soon 

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Martha Kirkpatrick
Many of them were loyal to the Montrell.
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Martha Kirkpatrick
Totally agree!
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Minnie
I hate Maddox...he's a monster! I can't wait for the cavalry to arrive and rescue Nadine! Let's face it she can't beat Maddox all by herself...
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