We had taken a picture, the three of us. Reece, Ava and me, and today of all days, after so many have passed, I've stared at the picture more than I would liked to. It's like something in me, has been tempted to do it each time.
I haven't seen them since that day and it's hitting differently, because I've been thinking too much about them, especially Reece's words. He told me that he cares about me and I chose to believe him that day, even today, that belief has not withered.
He's staying away, like I asked him to. We haven't seen each other for so many days, and his words of respecting my wish and giving me space, has come into mind as a reminder. He listened and I should be happy, right?
Then why doesn't it feel right to be happy right now?
" So something did happen, besides the obvious."
I look up from the picture and I meet Lucia's eyes.
" How did you find me?" I can't
I had asked him about what we are doing, and he had answered with words along the line of us, just feeling. I had done nothing else but feel at that moment, where I was in his arms.In all honesty, I can't deny that something within me fluttered, I didn't admit it but I think my response to him, proved everything to him. What has taken me aback, is that throughout the days passed, since I last saw him, I haven't felt any regret.I am still trying to figure out my own feelings, and what it is, that always pushes me to cross his path. It's like something pushes for us to meet somehow and I don't want to say it out loud, that soon, I might get used to it, which is not good.Especially now, since I still need to figure things out, to maybe put a name to whatever it is, that is happening between us. One thing I thought I'd end up doing, in these passed 5 days, is overthinking and going crazy, trying to make sense of my thoug
" What are you thinking about?" I'm knocked out of my thoughts by the sound of his voice.I turn to look at him, where he lays on his side close to me, with his arm wrapped around my middle while I lay on my back.The longer we stare at each other, something shifts in his eyes and he frowns at me." No, don't do that. You're over thinking again." He says, hiding his face in the crook of my neck." No, it's just that....." I let out a sigh, before starting again. " What did you say to my parents?"I feel him tense up next to me. He pulls his head back, so he can look down at me, resting his head on his propped up arm." Let's not talk about it."" Why not? They are my parents." I say, now frowning at him.He shifts on the bed and sits up now." Let's not, okay? Talking about this will only make you upset and will give you a
" I think I'm sold on those spicy noodles." Reece comments, as he returns from the kitchen." I kinda suspected that you'd be a goner, when you even wanted seconds."" I'm usually not big on spicy food but there's something about them." He says, joining me on the couch and covering both of us with a blanket." Maybe I'm more convincing."" Maybe that's it." He says, smirking at me.I try to suppress a smile but a shy one comes out." Did you ever think of showing up at my place, in the past couple of days?"" Many times, but I had to hold myself back."" And that's when you decided to become a stalker."" Again, I was simply keeping an eye on you, I wanted to make sure that you were safe."" Are you trying to divert me from calling what you did creepy?"" No, I just think that taking extra precautions in making sure that you are safe, wont ever hurt anyone."
I am woken up by the feeling of eyes on me, someone is watching me.My eyes flutter open and I blink a couple of times, to adjust to my surroundings, but the gaze on me, forces me to stop and to look up. My heart stops for a few seconds, when I meet blue eyes, staring down at me.My own widen, when it sinks in mind that Reece Cullen has been watching me sleep. I quickly cover my head, trying to hide away from his eyes.My comfort only lasts for a few seconds before the cover is snatched away from me, and my head is uncovered. I close my eyes shut, not even wanting to see his face as a blush of embarrassment hits me.Tingles touch my spine, when I feel his breath touch my skin." This is what I had missed the last time, when you ran." He says close to my ear, before I feel him lean back.My eyes flutter open and I look at him again." Don't try to hide away
I haven't found the words to speak, after overhearing my parents conversation, concerning Reece. My dad believes that now that he is involved, he will be able to protect and keep me away from Reece. He believes that he can serve as that wall, that will draw Reece back.The words seem to fall short, in how I can convince them to see that I don't share, the same mindset as them. I don't wish to be far away from Reece anymore, but I want to be near him.I want to explore more of what is happening between us, because I can't avoid him. He is Reece, that I want to get to know." Skylar, you've been really quiet, since you came out of your room." Dad points out." Don't you like the food?" Mom asks." The food is nice mom, I'm just not really hungry."" You have to eat Skylar, I'm pretty sure that you didn't eat this morning."" I did, actually."" Will you finally tell us, where you were last night?" Mom asks, maki
I can't begin to fathom, what he must have been dreaming of, for his hand to rest against my stomach. Weird feelings spread out within me, in unwanted thoughts, regarding 2 years ago.I found myself questioning about how different things, would have turned out, had he been involved. Had things not turned out the way they did between us, maybe, just maybe......Gosh, I cant even finish the thought, because it's crazy to think about.As I stand in the kitchen, thinking over his hand, that was resting so comfortably against my stomach, my eyes flutter close for a few seconds before I open them again. I let out a sigh as I continue with making some spicy noodles.Yes, you heard right, I'm craving these babies.I just can't believe that I was able to find the noodles, in his kitchen. I thought that he was joking, when he said that he had bought quite a lot for me, sensing how much I like them a
TWO MONTHS LATER.....Reece Cullen is certainly not only a man, that I have come to know, little by little, during these past two months, but he is the man I have deep feelings for.It may seem way too fast, according to some people, but in my opinion, I don't think it is. He has found a way, to make me think about him, more than I have, in the last two years, he makes me smile and I like being around him.There is just something about that man, that makes it so good, be around him. He's been good to me, though I must say, that I've noticed, that in some parts of our conversations, he's witheld or rather, been reserved. I think he's found himself to being careful at times, about things that he thinks may offend me, but I want him to be completely free.I desire for both of us, to be entirely truthful about how we feel, even if, the other may get hurt. At the end of the day, it is still the
" You're so lucky." Penny says, as we come out of our workplace. She has a reason to say this, and he is standing across the street, looking dashing in casual attire, as he waits for me by his car. Reece Cullen is back, he's not here on business, but he's here for me. My heart jumps, when he stands up straight, having noticed me. " Bye guys." That's all I manage to say, before walking away. As if he wants to make it clear, that he is with me, he crosses the street and tucks me under his arm. We cross the road together and he leads me, to the passenger seat, before going over to his side. " You couldn't even wait for me to cross the street?" I say with a raised brow, once he joins me. " Nope. Come here." He gently pulls my face closer and kisses me. I sigh against him, feeling good about having his lips against mine. " Hi." He whispers against my lips. " Hi." I respond, leaning back. " You l
4 Years later.... " Mommy!" I turn around at the sound of that sweet voice. I watch in anticipation as she runs to me, her long hair falling behind her. The moment I capture her in my arms, I bury my face in her hair, loving her sweet smell. " Hello my cutie pie." I say, double pecking her cheeks. Kissing her cheeks is still one of my favorite things to do. " Hi Mommy, look what I got." I place her back down on her feet, crouching down to her level, so we can look at what she has in hand together. " Oh, a gold star!" I gasp, widening my eyes in a surprised manner. " Ms Martin said my drawing is pretty." " I agree, it is so pretty. So tell me, who did you draw?" " My family." " Ooh, I see mommy, daddy, daddy C, granny and grandp
" Mrs Cullen." He says, pulling me close." Mr Cullen." I smile at him." My breathtakingly beautiful bride." He says, touching his forehead with mine.He leans back with a smile, his eyes expressing so much love for me, that it causes my heart to do weird flips.A laugh bubbles out of me, when he twirls me around and ends with a dip, bringing me back up and not giving me a chance to breathe, when he whispers those three beautiful words, that never fail to make me blush like crazy." I love you."My breath catches in my throat, when he kisses me behind my ear." I can't wait for us to be alone." He says." You know, I didn't think you'd last for these couple of months." I say teasingly." I'm glad I did, now I can rub it in your face that I'm a man of my word."" Careful Mr Cullen, or I might think I'm not
I either must be naive or stupid, for even giving him the go ahead, for him to even talk to her.She is a really attractive woman, I'll give her that, but she, showing up here announced and not to mention the fact that she found a way, to get information of where Reece is, now that does not sit well with me.I can't say I am sitting calmly right now, because I've been biting on my nails and glancing at the door, for the last 5 minutes or so. It hasn't been long since he stepped out to talk to her.It had not been a simple agreement, for them to talk, but Reece actually asked if I was okay with it, and I said yes.Oh gosh, I was totally lying.I could only think of him as I said yes, I wanted him to finally face her and not have to continue living with what ifs. I know that the present has been good on us so far, our family and our engagement, but it's only fair for him, to finally say his
" You look so happy." My mother says." Do I?"" Yes, and I love seeing this look on you. It's been a long time, since I've seen it." She says, touching my hair." I must look good then, huh?" I wiggle my brows, making her smile.My own smile wavers and it is replaced by a frown , where I worry about what I see." I think someone isn't as happy, as you say I do." I comment, gesturing to the sight of both my dad and Reece, who look too serious in conversation, from a distance." I've been talking to your dad, and from what I have observed, I can tell that he is opening up. He understands that Reece will always be in your life, because Ava is what bonds you two, together."" I hear you mom and thank you for talking to him." I say, glancing at her.She nods, with a small smile." I think if I hesitated for too long, we wouldn
I'm not one to watch people like a creep, but this morning, I find myself doing it with Reece. He's sleeping so soundly and looking so handsomely boyish, it's cute.He looks like someone with no heavy burdens on his shoulders, and the sight of him sleeping so soundly, tempts me to plant kisses on his face.I realize while watching him, that my heart is speaking. It's even making notes and claiming him as mine.The beautiful man before me is mine and that keeps my heart, skipping beats, in acknowledgment. As I watch him sleep, images of us being together even in the future, with years gone by, play beauty in a slide show. I see a future with this man and I see happiness, with my family.After all that we have been through, the past is just a dim light, that can't overthrow us, but the future looks ever bright and something to have strong faith in.I've had a taste of many circles, hurdles,
WEEKS LATER....' Custody, will be granted to the biological mother, Skylar Grey, as of today.' These are the words that have brought a smile onto my face, for the past weeks.Hearing it being declared and being made official, that Ava is supposed to be with me, as her mother. So much worry had gripped me, standing there and waiting for the verdict.I had worried that because I was in contact with an adoption agency, and that financially, I'm not in the level of the Cullen family, it would be used against me, and would be the main factor, which would make me lose the possibility of having custody of Ava, but no.Custody has been granted to me and she has been with me, ever since.With her being so young, the solution came from the discussion that happened, between me, Reece and Colton, one time, on the days approaching the day for court. The solu
" Thank you for bringing her over." I say to Jane." Anytime you need me to bring her to you, just call me."I nod." Hopefully, I won't need to do that anymore, soon." I say, looking at Ava.I'd asked Jane to bring Ava, so I could spend the whole afternoon with her. Two days have passed, since I last saw everyone, except Ava of course.At first, I'd asked Kelly to bring her over but then, I later considered asking Jane, since I didnt want to be the cause for a disturbance, at her workplace." How have you been holding up?" She asks me, after some minutes of silence between us, passes." Better than the last time you saw me."" That's good. At least, you've had some time to yourself, and some time to think."" Not enough, unfortunately. All that keeps coming back, is Ava, and the time I lost out with her."
I've been having a hard time, taking my eyes off of her. I know that we have spent time together, but it feels like the first time, now that I know who Ava is in my life.Oh gosh, she is my daughter.My own daughter, who I carried in my womb for nine months.With it being late, we decided to return back to Colton's home and I won't lie, and say that I didn't wish to take her back to my place immediately.I had to remind myself that this was not just about me, but Ava, and the changes, that would befall her as time goes.There is so much that will need for us to adjust to, and as difficult as some things may be, but Ava is the most important.I'm a mother, and as a mother, I have to put my daughter first.Gosh, my daughter, it hasn't sunk in totally. It's like a dream, that I wish to not wake up from.Being seated on the rug, against the so
" Do you ever think about the future?" He asks me." Sometimes, why?" I say.He doesn't answer for a few seconds as we are walking, until at some point, he does." I haven't been able to think of me alone in the future. It's not possible anymore." He glances to me and days, " I see you in it."My heart skips a beat, when I hear this coming from him." I think about you a lot."" Does this mean, there's a possibility of seeing me in your future?"I smile at him.Pulling his arm around my shoulders, I wrap my own arm around his middle and we continue on.When we finally reach my apartment complex, we turn to each other." Well, this is me." I say.He reaches out his hand, to gently push back my hair behind my ear." I want to take you away, for a while."" Y