I definitely feel like a mother right now with Ava. Tonight, her father is late and because his phone has been switched off, I couldn't find it in me to leave Ava alone. Well, not that she would be alone because Kelly and the others would be here, but it just felt right if I do stay.
Besides, Ava wanted me to stay.
I had the opportunity to see how Ava was during the evening, whether she gets cranky or not when sleepy by this time of night. Surprisingly, she wasn't difficult at all or maybe it's because she was tired. I fed and bathed her and before I knew it, I was seated on the rocking chair with her on my lap, pretty much reading a story to her.
This felt nice, to have her head resting against my chest. A smile makes its way onto my face when I feel her snuggle into my chest and a small sigh releases from her lips. My heart surely flutters because to me, this says that she is content and she has found comfort in my arms.
If I had to be granted one wish, it would be that I don't see Mr Cullen ever again, but I know that it's near impossible because he's Ava's uncle and he's basically family, so it's unlikely he'd stay away.Quitting wouldn't be as easier as I had initially thought, I mean I signed a contract and I'd have to give my notice, not to mention that I'd have to look for another job.Gosh, job hunting is exhausting seriously, but necessary. The most important part that is holding me firm from even thinking about quitting, is little Ava. It's just hard to even think about leaving and never seeing her again. She has become a part of my life just like I have in hers.In such a short time, I've grown familiar to being around that little girl, so that's why I can't leave. Though I'm not saying I never will, because Mr Cullen is just doing everything he can to push me towards that decision, Ava always seems to come to mind and every o
To think that the mention of my father wanting to see me, would surprise me but it didn't. I think I've outgrown waiting for him to make contact.It's been years since we've spoken and I can't help but wonder what the real reason behind him wanting to see me, might be. I mean we've never lasted days of being around each other when he actually came to see me, he's always been busy and now that I am, he makes contact.Back then, I had thought of confronting him on his actions towards me and how he broke his promises each time, but then I'd thought better of it. This time if ever the time allowed me to see him again, maybe I might just tell him how I've felt all these years.I ended last night's call with my mother, having not given her a definite answer about meeting him, I really feel undecided about this. It's a little confusing on why this time, he actually bothered mom if he wanted to talk to me so badly.
The only time I believe my eyes truly connected with his hazel ones, was the time I was in surrender to him. His eyes had been sincere and held truth with hints of desire in them, but right now, as I stare into the very same eyes that have shown indifference, intimidation and always a scary warning, tonight everything in them is different.Different in the sense that he is looking at me differently. Something familiar sparks in them, he's not looking at me as a stranger but as someone he knows. This makes my heart to pick up and I pull my arm back, taking a step back and creating space between us.My lips part in surprise of his next move, when he takes a step forward with intended intention to close the already open gap.' What is this man doing? - Why is he trying to come close to me?' I'm already an emotional mess and this man's actions are not helping the situation, not to mention that the ra
" You should take a little break sweetheart." Mom says, entering the living room." I'm almost done mom." That's all I say, not tearing my eyes away from the news paper.A tray full of food is placed ontop of the newspaper, now blocking my view of the section that I was just reading.I sigh and lean back, finally looking at her." I need a job mom."" I know you do, but you also need a break. Go out and get some fresh air, think less and just forget for a little while, about everything else."' You have no idea by what everything means to me right now.' My thoughts answer her but I continue looking at her.She sighs, now taking a seat next to me. She takes my hand and places it on her lap before speaking, " Skylar, I want to ask you something and I want you to be honest with me."Why am I afraid to even tell her to go ahead?
I see his smile waver when I keep on staring at him, not a word coming from me." Skylar, say something." " What do you want me to say?"" Anything, no, you know what, eat your ice cream first." " Does mom know?" This time it's him who looks away from me." You didn't tell her did you?" " I did, she was the first one I told." " And what did you say exactly, how did you break the news to her?" " How does that matter?" He turns to me, now frowning." Actually it does because first of all, she is my mother, secondly, you two have always been close and she has been nothing but supportive to you, even after you left. So I want to know -" " I think what I discuss with your mother is between her and me." He says, narrowing his eyes at me." Well not this time dad and yo
" How did you find me?"" You never answered my question."Who does he think he is? - I don't owe him anything." I think that's my business, now you answer mine."" I'm well connected Miss Grey, I know how to get what I want."Wow, isn't he confident, cocky....The brute." Mr Cullen, I have respected the wish of your family, I stayed away didn't I?...So what is this, why are you here?" I ask frowning." Space is what was asked of you Miss Grey, not for you to resign. You missed the point."" Which is?" I raise my brow." Ava is the most important to the family and if she is harmed in anyway, the family is in distress."" And I can understand that, truly I can. This is why I took a step back and gave the family space."" And resigning?"" My own per
" Excuse me?" I stutter, feeling my heart racing by the sound of his words.No, he didn't say what I think he said." You've shown me the door twice now Miss Grey, here we are now and I want you, to hear my piece." Relief washes over me by the sound of his words.They sound different from what I initially thought they were." You looked pale there for a moment Miss Grey, what did you think I was saying?"" Nothing, nothing that would make sense to me." I mumble, avoiding eye contact.I feel him look at me, this making me curious enough to look back at him again." Look Mr Cullen, I'm quite busy -"" Looking for a new job." He finishes." That is my business and no." I lie." You're lying." He points out, making me frown." I'm not." I retort." Yes you are, in your bag is
I turn to him, frowning at what he's just said. I watch him step closer and take out his black card to pay, that's when I notice the bluetooth earpiece in his ear, relief washes over me then. Oh, he's busy on a call, that's such a relief.I feel relaxed by this fact and I can't help but smile in relief. Mr Cullen glances to me and him wearing a confused look on his face, makes my smile to drop. I quickly turn my back to him and face forward again. Before I can say anything to give a better answer to the cashier, unfortunately I do it too late when we're already done.I leave it at that and take the stuff." Why were you smiling just now?" Mr Cullen asks me on our way out." I wasn't smiling." I deny." You're lying again." He says, standing infront of me." I'm not." " Sure you're not." He says sarcastically.
4 Years later.... " Mommy!" I turn around at the sound of that sweet voice. I watch in anticipation as she runs to me, her long hair falling behind her. The moment I capture her in my arms, I bury my face in her hair, loving her sweet smell. " Hello my cutie pie." I say, double pecking her cheeks. Kissing her cheeks is still one of my favorite things to do. " Hi Mommy, look what I got." I place her back down on her feet, crouching down to her level, so we can look at what she has in hand together. " Oh, a gold star!" I gasp, widening my eyes in a surprised manner. " Ms Martin said my drawing is pretty." " I agree, it is so pretty. So tell me, who did you draw?" " My family." " Ooh, I see mommy, daddy, daddy C, granny and grandp
" Mrs Cullen." He says, pulling me close." Mr Cullen." I smile at him." My breathtakingly beautiful bride." He says, touching his forehead with mine.He leans back with a smile, his eyes expressing so much love for me, that it causes my heart to do weird flips.A laugh bubbles out of me, when he twirls me around and ends with a dip, bringing me back up and not giving me a chance to breathe, when he whispers those three beautiful words, that never fail to make me blush like crazy." I love you."My breath catches in my throat, when he kisses me behind my ear." I can't wait for us to be alone." He says." You know, I didn't think you'd last for these couple of months." I say teasingly." I'm glad I did, now I can rub it in your face that I'm a man of my word."" Careful Mr Cullen, or I might think I'm not
I either must be naive or stupid, for even giving him the go ahead, for him to even talk to her.She is a really attractive woman, I'll give her that, but she, showing up here announced and not to mention the fact that she found a way, to get information of where Reece is, now that does not sit well with me.I can't say I am sitting calmly right now, because I've been biting on my nails and glancing at the door, for the last 5 minutes or so. It hasn't been long since he stepped out to talk to her.It had not been a simple agreement, for them to talk, but Reece actually asked if I was okay with it, and I said yes.Oh gosh, I was totally lying.I could only think of him as I said yes, I wanted him to finally face her and not have to continue living with what ifs. I know that the present has been good on us so far, our family and our engagement, but it's only fair for him, to finally say his
" You look so happy." My mother says." Do I?"" Yes, and I love seeing this look on you. It's been a long time, since I've seen it." She says, touching my hair." I must look good then, huh?" I wiggle my brows, making her smile.My own smile wavers and it is replaced by a frown , where I worry about what I see." I think someone isn't as happy, as you say I do." I comment, gesturing to the sight of both my dad and Reece, who look too serious in conversation, from a distance." I've been talking to your dad, and from what I have observed, I can tell that he is opening up. He understands that Reece will always be in your life, because Ava is what bonds you two, together."" I hear you mom and thank you for talking to him." I say, glancing at her.She nods, with a small smile." I think if I hesitated for too long, we wouldn
I'm not one to watch people like a creep, but this morning, I find myself doing it with Reece. He's sleeping so soundly and looking so handsomely boyish, it's cute.He looks like someone with no heavy burdens on his shoulders, and the sight of him sleeping so soundly, tempts me to plant kisses on his face.I realize while watching him, that my heart is speaking. It's even making notes and claiming him as mine.The beautiful man before me is mine and that keeps my heart, skipping beats, in acknowledgment. As I watch him sleep, images of us being together even in the future, with years gone by, play beauty in a slide show. I see a future with this man and I see happiness, with my family.After all that we have been through, the past is just a dim light, that can't overthrow us, but the future looks ever bright and something to have strong faith in.I've had a taste of many circles, hurdles,
WEEKS LATER....' Custody, will be granted to the biological mother, Skylar Grey, as of today.' These are the words that have brought a smile onto my face, for the past weeks.Hearing it being declared and being made official, that Ava is supposed to be with me, as her mother. So much worry had gripped me, standing there and waiting for the verdict.I had worried that because I was in contact with an adoption agency, and that financially, I'm not in the level of the Cullen family, it would be used against me, and would be the main factor, which would make me lose the possibility of having custody of Ava, but no.Custody has been granted to me and she has been with me, ever since.With her being so young, the solution came from the discussion that happened, between me, Reece and Colton, one time, on the days approaching the day for court. The solu
" Thank you for bringing her over." I say to Jane." Anytime you need me to bring her to you, just call me."I nod." Hopefully, I won't need to do that anymore, soon." I say, looking at Ava.I'd asked Jane to bring Ava, so I could spend the whole afternoon with her. Two days have passed, since I last saw everyone, except Ava of course.At first, I'd asked Kelly to bring her over but then, I later considered asking Jane, since I didnt want to be the cause for a disturbance, at her workplace." How have you been holding up?" She asks me, after some minutes of silence between us, passes." Better than the last time you saw me."" That's good. At least, you've had some time to yourself, and some time to think."" Not enough, unfortunately. All that keeps coming back, is Ava, and the time I lost out with her."
I've been having a hard time, taking my eyes off of her. I know that we have spent time together, but it feels like the first time, now that I know who Ava is in my life.Oh gosh, she is my daughter.My own daughter, who I carried in my womb for nine months.With it being late, we decided to return back to Colton's home and I won't lie, and say that I didn't wish to take her back to my place immediately.I had to remind myself that this was not just about me, but Ava, and the changes, that would befall her as time goes.There is so much that will need for us to adjust to, and as difficult as some things may be, but Ava is the most important.I'm a mother, and as a mother, I have to put my daughter first.Gosh, my daughter, it hasn't sunk in totally. It's like a dream, that I wish to not wake up from.Being seated on the rug, against the so
" Do you ever think about the future?" He asks me." Sometimes, why?" I say.He doesn't answer for a few seconds as we are walking, until at some point, he does." I haven't been able to think of me alone in the future. It's not possible anymore." He glances to me and days, " I see you in it."My heart skips a beat, when I hear this coming from him." I think about you a lot."" Does this mean, there's a possibility of seeing me in your future?"I smile at him.Pulling his arm around my shoulders, I wrap my own arm around his middle and we continue on.When we finally reach my apartment complex, we turn to each other." Well, this is me." I say.He reaches out his hand, to gently push back my hair behind my ear." I want to take you away, for a while."" Y