About an hour later, Gray's suffering didn't seem to get any better.
"You're depreciating, man," Michael said."He's too old and his body is rejecting mortality," Joey said."Should I bite him?""No, it's not that simple,""Should we summon your parents?" Michael asked Gray."Yes, take me home."* * *Annie was awake again. She was dazed just like before, and wasn't sure if she was awake or dreaming or in a trance. She looked towards the walk-in closet where she'd previously found the gapping door and there was only silence. The doors were also closed as if nothing had happened at all, but she was hearing a sound such as could only come from the shores of a river or sea or ocean.She hadn't noticed before that the house had a beach behind it. She stood from the bed and glided towards one of the French windows. She knew it was still night because the house was dark and the room she was sleeping in was dimly lit. If it was daylight, the windows should have been enough to allow a lot of brightness into the room. But even though it was still dark, the environment around the surging sea was bright as day. The sky was a little cloudy, but yet, it was unmistakably daylight.There were Vessels on the river, some flying boats, some diverse shapes of boats. There were a lot of activities going on. People were walking on a long wooden walk way towards their different boats. Some were arriving, it seemed as if a roll call was being made and people needed to have their documents checked before proceeding either towards the sea or off of it.Annie noticed a middle aged couple who just passed the check point and were heading towards a certain vessel. She was distracted by the sight of three under dressed men rushing towards the now obvious harbor. It was Michael and Joey half carrying and half helping Gray towards the harbor.They called out in the direction of the middle aged couple and they stopped in their track. The couple turned around. At first, they were happy to see the trio, until they noticed the urgency in their movement, their almost nudity except for their shorts and the burden they were carrying."Gray," the mother called out.The two let him go, it seemed as if they'd reached their boundary and couldn't step foot on the wooden walk way.The couple began to walk toward Gray as he applied all his strength into making his way towards them. He was grabbing onto the ropy railing to steady himself.The woman got to him and hugged him. "What happened to you?" She asked with a troubled face."Are you being careless again?" the man asked, as they both helped him towards their vessel.Annie saw them floating away towards the deep sea. She was unexplainably close to the large canoe that was carrying the trio. She'd now understood the couple were Gray's parents. She saw as Gray continued to wreath in pain."He's dying, do something," Gray's mother said urgently to the man."Quick, both of you get into the water," Gray's father commanded. Annie watched in horror, wandering if they could swim, as they obeyed. Gray's mother flipped his now almost unconscious body into the sea and jumped in after him."Drink the salty water," he commanded. Annie watched as they drank, tumbling around in the murky looking water. She saw with horror that Gray couldn't drink anymore, he seemed like he so wanted to die, but death eluded him. As if he wanted to drown but couldn't.She watched as Gray's father jumped out of the canoe, swam towards him and began to guzzle him alive. To her utter dismay, he was tearing off the flesh around the top of his right thigh, chewing and hurriedly swallowing. Annie stared, wide eyed, mouth gaping as he guzzled his son's flesh as if the boy's life depended on it.Gray's father was impatiently eating him. He'd eaten the entire top of his right thigh, the area before the knee and moved to the area around his armpit. He was tearing off huge chunks of flesh and literally swallowing them.The sun suddenly shun through, breaking the gray clouds. Annie watched as Gray instantly began to heal as the sun touched him. His white, flushed, pale skin began to gain some lively colours. The wounds his father had left were rapidly closing and he began to float towards the shore.Annie saw herself standing behind the gapping door again. Gray turned towards her, his eyes were sparkling once again, his immortality was restored and he looked famished."Should I lock the door?" Annie asked impulsively."Yes," he responded reluctantly.Annie shut the door.With quivering hands she slid in the top bolt, sort for the bottom bolt and also slid it in. The room was now painted white, everything was white including the door she'd shut and the bolts she'd locked. And there were no other entrances except the door she'd locked. There were also no other furnishings except the bed she'd arisen from.The door didn't seem strongly closed, it was as if any kind of push could open or at least rattle it. She was shivering as she saw Gray through a small gap between the door and the wall, he wasn't looking aggressive anymore. He was, in fact, fully recovered and was walking about on the corridor, still in his shorts, gathering stuff together and paying no attention to her.* * *Annie fully awoke, or so she thought.She was in Gray's bedroom alright. She looked around and all were as they had been before she went to sleep, except Gray. The pillows were there, but Gray wasn't.She stood up, changed into the dress she'd worn to the party and left the room. She came out of Gray's apartment and approached the stairs that led down to the center of the condominium.As she was coming down the large, curvy staircase, she began to hear the sound of struggling.The sound was coming from somewhere at the foot of the staircase. She hurried down to find two large, aggressive looking beings grabbing onto each other. It seemed as if they were pushing themselves back and forth. One resembled an animal and the other human, with obvious protruding veins and muscles.There was someone lying casually by the end of the other staircase that also led up to the apartments, watching the struggle.Teddy's girlfriend was seating on the last staircase, watching. She gestured to Annie to come and join her."Nothing to worry about," she said."What is going on?" Annie asked."It's a game.""What are they?""Werewolves and vampires." The lady stated, matter-of-factly.One of the werewolves pushed the other down and pinned him on the ground.Annie watched as the animals began to transform into human beings.The man at the foot of the other staircase was Joey, he was a vampire. Michael and Gray had been the ones wrestling. Gray was a werewolf and Michael a vampire."How are you feeling now?" a voice questioned from way beneath the stairs and Annie turned to see Teddy coming out from under the stairs. He was in the midst of transformation himself, he was human from his belly up and wolf from his waist down."Is he still in there?" Gray questioned. He'd stood from the weak body of Michael and was walking towards a door that was facing the center of the two large staircases."Yes, we imprisoned him as soon he got here." Joey said, as Gray touched the door."Don't open it! We're not ready!" Teddy said."Now!" Joey commanded a few seconds later, after Michael got up from the floor.* * *Gray opened the door and went inside.A loud roar was heard coming from the room. Two large werewolves came struggling out of the room.One was holding the other tightly. Teddy transformed in an instant, rushed over and began to help restrict the larger wolf. Joey held him from behind.Annie's foot shook on the floor."What is that?" she questioned with a shaky voice."A visiting Alpha," Teddy's girl responded steadily, as if she wasn't moved by all the happenings."Who is he?""He's your father," she said."What?!""He's here for your head!""My head?""You've been a bad, bad daughter," the girl sang, mockingly.Annie was shocked beyond words. She watched as the two young werewolves finally pinned the larger wolf to the ground. It seemed as though one of his legs was broken and there was blood smeared around his shoulder.The two young wolves transformed back to humans. Gray beat his wrist and began to drip blood into the wolf's mouth, while holding him down. Joey was lying at his head area."Maybe some more blood will make you feel better," he said."Blood? What blood?" the wolf croaked."Human blood," Joey said."No, not human blood," the wolf croaked agonizingly.Teddy walked over to his girlfriend and Annie watched as she beat her wrist and tricked some blood into a small container. There was a small foam at the bottom of the container, shaped like a tongue. There was a deep cut in the center of the tongue. The tongue was soaked with the blood that had gone into it.Teddy gave the small container to Joey."Yes, human blood. It will do you so much good, maybe absorb all your misused immortality and save us all the trouble." Joey mocked.He took the container and pressed a little on the tongue-like foam. His long fingernails mistakenly scratched on the surface of the container's cover, some brownish dust dislodged and sprayed on the blood-wet tongue."Hmmm, some acumen. That will definitely do it." Joey said."Acumen? Nooo," the wolf croaked loudly, as Joey fed him the entire content of the small container.The big gray werewolf stood, laughing mischievously. He slowly levitated, still laughing.He transformed into human. And Annie saw in great horror who he was. He wasn't her father, he was Marlowe - her worse nightmare.The human spread his hands which were now fleshy wings. He laughed even more. Now, he was neither a werewolf nor a vampire. He was a human form, in the shape of a bat, covered with muscles.The young werewolves stood, "now there's no door in this house that can shut him out," Joey cried."How did this happen?" Michael cried.Gray slowly and casually approached Annie. He took her by the arm and began to casually walk up the staircase. He turned towards Teddy's girlfriend."Are you coming or what?"He took the girls through a corridor at the back of his apartment, pushed a door open and shoved them in.The room was similar to the one Annie had seen herself in when Gray had approved for her to lock him out. Only this one had a symbol of love at the top of the door. The heart was built with the same material the door had been made with. It was round with a pointy underside just like a heart, painted white like the rest of the room and very shiny.Annie hurried in and just like she'd locked out Gray, she locked the bolts. The door was also looking weak, as if a gentle push could rattle it.She saw the mutated alpha outside the door, through a crack between the door and the wall. He had arrived a little too late, she felt him bang on the door in frustration, but the door didn't even rattle.He'd been deceived. There was the room that could keep him or any other thing out. Gray couldn't say it out or even think it in his mind cos the mutated Alpha would find out. None of them could.* * *I jumped awake on my bed, gasping for air. Thank God it was all a dream. Vampires or werewolves are not real, are they? I thought, Marlowe is worse than both for sure.When my mother named me Lolita, she thought she was being literary. She didn’t realize she was being tragic. But then, I’m not sure she understood the concept of tragedy, the same way that people who are born into money don’t realize they’re rich, don’t even know there’s another way to live. She thought the name was beautiful, thought it sounded like a flower, knew it was from a famous story - play or novel, she wouldn’t have been able to tell you. I guess I should consider myself lucky, since her other choices were Ophelia and Gypsy Rose. At least Lolita had some dignity.I’m thinking this as I push a cart through the produce aisle of my local supermarket, past rows of gleaming green apples and crisp blooms of lettuce, of fat, shiny oranges and taut, waxy red peppers. The overly familiar man in meats waves at me and gives me what I’m sure he thinks is a winning smile but which only serves to make my skin crawl. “Hi, honey,” he’ll say. Or “Hi, sweetie.” And I’ll wonder what it is abou
It’s as if the sun has dipped behind a thick cloud cover and the sky has gone charcoal. Only they haven’t. It is a bright, unseasonably cool, spring day in Florida. The parking lot is packed, populated by moms and nannies with their kids of all ages on spring break before Easter. I hear laughter, a gull calling; I smell the salt from the Gulf of Mexico. But inside I am quaking. There’s cool black ink in my veins.I slip into my SUV and lock the door, grip the wheel, and try to calm myself. I’ve had these panics before. Usually they are isolated incidents, intense but brief like the summer storms here. In the last few days, though, they’ve come one after another, surprising me with their ferocity. False alarms, Gray calls them. I’ve always thought of them more as an early warning system.This one is deeper, blacker than I’m used to. I am truly afraid, sweating and going pale. My breathing starts to come ragged, and I glance in my re
Gray is late coming home, and Victory is already sound asleep upstairs in her room. I am sitting on a leather sofa I didn’t choose and don’t actually like, watching the high, dancing flames in our fireplace as he walks through the front door. For a second he is just a long shadow in the foyer; he could be anyone. But then he steps into the light and he is my husband, looking strained and tired. He doesn’t know I’m watching him. When he sees me, though, he smiles and looks a little less world-weary.“Hey,” I say, getting up and going to him.“Hey.” His embrace is powerful and I sink into it, hold on to him tightly. There is no softness to him; the muscles on his body are hard and defined. In this place I am moored. The churning of my day comes to calm.“Want a drink?” I ask as I shift away from him. He holds me for a second longer, tries to catch my eyes, then lets me go.“What are you having?&rdquo
He’s quiet for a moment, and I know he heard the lie in my voice. Takes one to know one. I listen to him breathing as he ponders what to say. I remember a lot of heavy silences over long-distance lines with my father, me desperate, him inadequate or unwilling to help. At last I say, “Tell me again, Dad.”“Oh, honey,” he says after a slow exhale. “Come on. I thought you were past this.”I sigh and listen to Victory chatting to her doll in the other room. “You’re so pretty,” she tells it. “On the outside and the inside. And you’re smart and strong.” She’s mimicking the things I’ve told her about herself, and it makes me smile.“Loli, are you there?”My father always thought my name was silly. He calls me “L” or “Loli” or sometimes just “Loli.” As if those aren’t silly things to call someone. I think he used them to
Today something interesting happened. I died. How awful, they’ll say. How tragic. And she was so young, with everything ahead of her. There will be an article in the paper about how I burned too bright and died too young. My funeral will be small…a few weeping friends, some sniffling neighbors and acquaintances. How they’ll clamor to comfort my poor husband, Gray. They’ll promise to be there for our daughter as she grows up without me. So sad, they’ll say to each other. What was she thinking?But after a time this sadness will fade, their lives will resume a normal rhythm, and I’ll become a memory, a memory that makes them just a little sad, that reminds them how quickly it can all come to an end, but one at which they can also smile. Because there were good times. So many good times where we drank too much, where we shared belly laughs and big steaks off the grill.I’ll miss them, too, and remember them well. But not the same way. Because my life with them was a smoke screen, a caref
Esperanza, our maid and nanny, is unloading the dishwasher, putting the plates and bowls and silverware away with her usual quick and quiet efficiency. She’s got the television on, and again there’s that image of the now-dead woman on the screen. It’s as though nothing else is ever on the news. I find myself staring at the victim, her limp hair, her straining collarbone and tired eyes. Something about her expression in that image, maybe an old school portrait, makes her look as though she knew she was going to die badly, that her mutilated body would be found submerged in water. There’s a look of grim hopelessness about her.“Terrible, no?” said Esperanza, when she sees me watching. She taps her temple. “People are sick.”I nod. “Terrible,” I agree. I pull my eyes away from the screen with effort and leave the kitchen; as I climb the stairs, I hear Esperanza humming to herself.Upstairs, V
I’ll never forget our first August in Florida. I didn’t even know it could get that hot; the humidity felt like wet gauze on my skin; it crawled into my lungs and expanded. Violent lightning storms lit the sky for hours, and the rain made rivers out of the street in front of our trailer park. And the palmetto bugs-they made New York City roaches look like ladybugs. The only thing that redeemed Florida for me was how the full moon hung over the swaying palm trees and how the air sometimes smelled of orange blossoms. But generally speaking, it was a hellhole. I hated it, and I hated my mother for moving us there.The Florida I live in now with Gray and Victory is different. This is the wealthy person’s Florida, of shiny convertibles and palatial homes, ocean views and white-sand beaches, margaritas and Jimmy Buffett. This is the Florida of central air and crisp cotton golf shirts over khakis, country-club days and fifty-foot yachts. To be honest, I hate it jus
A couple of months after my mother and I moved to Florida and I had settled reluctantly into my new school, she started to act strangely. Her usual manic highs and despondent lows were replaced with a kind of even keel that felt odd, even a little spooky.The early changes were subtle. The first thing I noticed was that she’d stopped wearing makeup. She was a pretty woman, with good bone structure and long hair, silky and fine. Like her hair, her lashes and brows were blond, invisible without mascara and a brow pencil. When she didn’t wear makeup, she looked tired, washed out. She’d always been meticulous about her appearance. “Beauty is power,” she would tell me, though I’d never seen any evidence of this.We were in the kitchen on a Saturday morning. I was eating cereal and watching cartoons on the small black-and-white set we had sitting on the counter; she was getting ready for the lunch shift at the diner. The ancient air
I suppose it’s possible that, like Ray Harrison, she was a person I met, someone I knew in passing, and that the fuller relationship we shared was something created in my mind, a fantasy established to fulfill some deep need in my psyche.It’s equally possible that she was someone who worked for Drew, someone hired to keep tabs on me; this is what Gray believes, though he has no evidence or knowledge to support his theory. Sometimes I search my memory for clues that might have indicated that my friendship was a fantasy - like the white shock of hair my imaginary Ray Harrison had, or the searing headaches that were the inevitable backdrop to my encounters with him. But there’s nothing like that. Whatever the case, Ella Singer was friend enough that I feel her loss deeply. And that means something in this world. It means a lot.I am less hard on myself these days. I try to treat myself the way I treat my daughter - with patience and understanding. I str
I walk over to the back of the house, look at the ocean and the white sand. The ground beneath me seems soft, unstable.“Annie, what’s this about?”“The night...” I begin, then stop. I was going to say the night you killed Briggs but I don’t want to say those words out loud. “When you said all threats had been neutralized, you meant Briggs.”Gray is behind me, his hands on my shoulders now. “Why are we talking about this?”“Just answer me,” I say quickly.I hear him release a breath. “Yes, that’s what I meant.”I lean against him, my back to his front. “What’s happened?” he whispers.But I can’t bring myself to say the words. I can’t bring myself to tell him about the Ray Harrison I knew. Not now, not when my husband has started to believe in my sanity for maybe the first time.“Annie,” Gray says,
They are grim, intent, uncomfortable. My father is a boy with the stubble of a beard, a cigarette dangling from his lips. He is lithe, muscular, with dark eyes and square jaw. Drew looks like a heavier, less appealing version of my husband - like a young bulldog with a stern brow and mean eyes.“These men, these fathers, all searching for their kids,” says Harrison, drifting over toward the glass doors leading to the deck. “Alan Parker’s daughter murdered by Frank Geary, Teddy March’s daughter held in the thrall of Marlowe Geary, Drew Powers’s son far from the fold, estranged for years. They all had a common purpose, to do right by their kids in the ways that they could.”I think about this, the deviousness and planning, the deception that it took to make all this happen.“And how was it that both you and Melissa fell prey to the Gearys? Coincidence, maybe. Or maybe it was their karma, their bond? I don’t kno
After I’ve been all through the house, I come to stand at the glass doors downstairs and stare at the Gulf until I sense someone behind me. I spin around to see Detective Harrison standing in my living room.“The door was open,” he says apologetically.He looks thin and pale but oddly solid - at peace in a way. I find myself grateful for him and for his wife, and I’m glad to see him now. I want to embrace him, but I don’t. I smile at him instead and hope I don’t seem cool, distant.“Coffee?” I ask.“Please,” he says.I pour him a cup but abstain myself. I’m jittery already from too much caffeine this morning, and I feel a headache coming on. I sit on the couch, but he prefers to stand.“How’s your family?” I ask.“We’re okay, you know?” he says with a nod. “I think we’re going to be okay. I’ve hung out my own shingle
I feel a shutting down of anger, of fear, and I am mercifully blank. But I find I can’t bear the sight of Drew and Vivian anymore. I stand up with Victory in my arms and move away from the table, heading for the door. There are a lot of questions, but I don’t want the answers. Not from Drew and Vivian.“Annie, please try to understand,” says Vivian. I can see that fear again on her face, but I am already gone.“I need to understand what you did, Dad,” I hear Gray say behind me. I can tell he’s trying to keep his tone level. “I need you to tell me the truth.”“Leave it be, son,” answers Drew, his tone as unyielding as a brick wall. I wait in the foyer, listening, rocking back and forth with Victory, who is quiet now.“I can’t do that.”“Yes,” says Drew. “If you know what’s good for your family, you can. Your wife is unwell. In my opinion not w
Now that the engine is off, the ship has started to pitch in the high seas, and my stomach churns. I pause at the bottom of the staircase that leads up to the deck. I can hear the wind and the waves slapping the side of the ship. I strain to hear the sound of voices, but there’s nothing, just my own breathing, ragged and too fast in my ears.I make my way up the stairs, my back pressed against the wall. My palm is so sweaty that I’m afraid I’ll drop my gun. I grab on to it tightly as I step onto the deck. I am struck by the cold and the smell of salt. The sea is a black roil. The deck is empty to the bow and to the stern; the light on the bridge has gone dark, like all the other lights.Suddenly I am paralyzed. I can’t go back to the cabin, but I don’t want to move outside. I don’t know what to do. I close my eyes for a second and will myself to calm, to steady my breath. The water calls to me; I feel its terrible pull.While
She is on me then, clinging and sobbing into my chest in a way she hasn’t since she was a toddler. I hold on to her tightly, bury my face in her hair.“No one’s going to hurt me, Victory,” I whisper into her ear.Gray is looking at his father, his face a mask of confused disappointment. “Dad?” he says. “What have you done?”Drew takes a few deep breaths, seems to steel himself. “I did what I had to do for our family, so that we could all be together like this.”Gray gets to his feet so fast that everything shakes. A piece of stemware falls to the floor and shatters, spraying wine and shards of glass at our ankles. No one moves to pick it up; everyone stays fixed, frozen. Gray’s face is red, a vein throbbing on his throat. I’ve never seen him so angry.“What are you talking about, Dad?” Gray roars.Drew is turning a shade of red to match, but he doesn’t
I reach my cabin and fumble with the lock for a second, then push into my room. A small berth nestles in the far corner. Beneath it is a drawer where I have stowed my things. I kneel and pull out my bag, unzip it, and fish inside until I find what I’m looking for-my gun. A sleek Glock nine-millimeter, flat black and cold. I check the magazine and take another from the bag, slip it into the pocket of my coat. The Glock goes into the waist of my jeans. I’ve drilled the reach-and-draw from that place about a million times; my arm will know what to do even if my brain freezes. Muscle memory.I consider my options. Once again suicide tops the list for its ease and finality. Aggression comes a close second, which would just be a roundabout way toward the first option. Hide and wait comes in third. Make him work for it. Make him fight his way through the people charged with protecting me and then find me on this ship. Then be waiting for him with my gun when he does.
The farce of it all sickens me. Sarah Harrison might as well be seated across from me at the long glass table where we have gathered for dinner. A wide orange sun is dropping toward the blue-pink horizon line over the Gulf. We feast on filet mignon and twice-baked potatoes, fat ears of corn. Drew and Gray knock back Coronas while Vivian and I drink chardonnay. Victory sips her milk from a plastic cup adorned with images of Hello Kitty. Anyone looking at us might feel a twinge of envy, the rich and happy family sharing a meal at their luxury home with a view of the ocean.“Annie,” says Drew, breaking an awkward silence that has settled over the table once vague pleasantries and chatty questions for Victory have been exhausted. “You seem well.”He is smiling at me in a way he never has before. There’s a satisfied benevolence to him, the king surveying his subjects. I thank him because it seems like the right thing to do in this context