BEATRICE:Why are you thinking about him? Do you think he is a child that needs his mother to follow him up? He is a freaking adult already, Beatrice. Stop thinking about him and go to sleep. I rolled to my side while looking out the window. If I just stood and looked outside, I would see him on the shore. What was he thinking right now? What else? He might be embarrassed facing you since you turned him down. If you only allowed him to kiss you, then you would not be worrying about him right now. I'm not worried at all! He could take all of his time and stare at the waves. Or maybe, he is secretly meeting Heather right now. Do you know? Have sex with him since you refused him. I gritted my teeth. I don't care if they made love in the sand under the moonlight. I don't fucking care. Closing my eyes, I forced myself to sleep, refusing to imagine what the two might be doing right now. Why don't you look out the window and see for yourself if the two are having sex? I chastised
BEATRICE:All through my life, I believed that my ex-husband's family did not care about me. I thought that they hated me for not being able to give a child to their son. I thought they hated me because I did not do my best to stop my ex-husband from divorcing me.Some people were like that. They would blame you and question your worth just because you had a failed marriage. How many instances did I witness that the victim was put into shame when something happened to her? And then I would know that I was wrong? That nothing happened between him and Heather? How could he keep me in the dark when it comes to his family? Even if we never had the best relationship to date, I was still looking forward to the bright future ahead. Your mind is already elsewhere, Beatrice. Focus.Where was I again? Ah, right. It was him not telling his family that we already got divorced. Gritting between teeth, I asked, "Explain your statement, Drake before I will think what I should do with you. Why ha
BEATRICE:I shook my head. The chapter of me and Drake’s lives were already closed. I should not let my emotions get over me."I will eat if I get hungry. But not now."He shrugged off his shoulders. "If that's what you wish. Will you wash yourself or will we go now?"Sniffing my clothes, there was no smell on it. Which means I could still use this until we arrived home."We will start going home," I answered. “I will go upstairs and get our bags.”“There is no need for that. I already put them on the car while you were sleeping.”He did that without being told? Who would have thought that Drake had some sense of volunteerism? He was not like this in the past. He never cared if I was still alive or not. “Why did you do that?”He looked at me with a confused expression on his face. “Oh. I did not know that you would be angry about it. My apologies, Beatrice. I should have asked you about it.”It was not like that.But who cares if he misinterpreted my words?“Where is Heather, by the
BEATRICE:My chest felt like there were a ton of rocks inside it. What a freaking bastard. How could he hide that very important thing to me? What if I allowed him to kiss that night? That would make me a mistress! I did not have any plans to compete with any woman at all!What if Christina was not here to tell me about that? What if I was blindly believing all my ex-husband words? "How could you, Drake?" My voice shook at the end due to his betrayal. "Beatrice. Let me explain. I will try to make you understand. That woman…I will tell you the whole story. Please allow me to talk to you."I did not know if I had the heart to listen to him after holding that important information from me. I did not know I was the only one who was left in the dark. When I was suffering, he was in the arms of the woman whom he truly loved. Christina scoffed while my chest felt like it was being ripped into a million pieces. When I was slowly trying to open myself to him, then I had to discover his be
73BEATRICE:I stared at the ceiling, while sleep had been elusive. No matter how many times I tossed in bed, I just could not find the right position to be sleeping now.My body was tired, but it refused to sleep.Until now, I was thinking of Drake's secret.How could he hide it from me? Was it because he was scared that if I found out, I would hide Grayson away from him? After what he did, how could I not do it? If he keeps on lying to me like that, how could I trust him?You don't have to trust him. Make him totally disappear from your life, the evil part of my mind said. That man always causes you pain and headaches. Isn't it the right time for you to remove him from your life? Well, that could be true...But how? No matter how much I think about it, Drake was not the type who would easily let go especially Grayson was at stake. My phone had been ringing nonstop and even if I did not check who it was, I had an idea that it was Drake. Maybe he wanted to explain himself on how the
BEATRICE:Am I turning him down? If that was what it looked it was, maybe I was doing it. I did not know anymore. My heart was tired from everything. If I give Josh a chance, what was my assurance that he will not betray me like what my ex-husband did? "I...I'm sorry if that's what it looked like, Josh. I...don't have the time to entertain men as of the moment. I want to focus on my son, first. I hope you will understand me, Josh." He was a good man, but I did not think I would be able to be fair to him. I was not fully healed on the scars my ex-husband had inflicted. "Is this about your ex-husband?" he whispered. "Perhaps, do you have feelings for him?" My knuckles turned white as I stared at my son's sleeping form. "I never said anything about that, if you're only listening to me." I would be a fool if I continue to cling on those fucking feelings. That man was not worth it at all. "Little One, I don't have to hear those words from you. Your actions said everything. I know a
BEATRICE:"Beatrice. What's wrong?" Drake asked on the other side of the line. "Why did you suddenly go silent?"The hair of my back stood as my heart raced wildly against my ribcage.What if a thief was able to enter the house? "N-Nothing," I retorted, but I was not able to hide the fear in my voice which my ex-husband was able to detect."I don't think it's nothing, Beatrice. Tell me if there's something wrong."Tiptoeing, I silently checked the doors if they were locked. They were as well as the windows of the room."N-Nothing.""I swear, Beatrice. If you don't answer me right now, I will go there and see for myself what's wrong."I craned my neck to check if there were some noises, but found none. Maybe I was only imagining things? What if there was no burglar here? Perhaps I was only paranoid after all the stress that I felt this week?"Beatrice. You're testing my patience.""I...I think someone trespassed the house. But worry not. Maybe I am only imagining it, okay? You don't h
BEATRICE:I may hate my ex-husband right now, but as of the moment, I just wanted him to come here and save me from whoever was trying to enter. My heart was screaming for his presence and not anyone else.What about his woman?I closed my eyes momentarily and opened them again, wanting to forget about that woman. Not now. “Beatrice. I’m going there. You have to hang on, okay?” I could hear his panic on the other side of the line. Who would have thought that the calmest person I knew would panic like this? And who would have thought that his voice would be this soothing which I usually found irritating on some special occasions? I tasted bile on my throat as I waited for the burglar to enter the room while preparing myself for the worst thing to happen. Whatever happens, no matter what will happen to me, I will protect my son."Beatrice. Are you still in there?" he asked, his voice already coated with panic. "Damn it. You have to speak if you don’t want me to tell the driver to ma