BEATRICE:Does Drake have to ask that? I've been wanting him to do that so that we will be peaceful once again."You're the one who always doesn't want to do it," I said. "If what you claim is true, then give it to me. Disappear from our lives."That would be the most wonderful thing that he would be able to give us. Some kind of peace. If Grayson would ask about his Dad, then I would think of some alibis of where his Dad could be.Do you think it's enough? What if your son will know the truth? Will he not hate you in the end?I will try to make him understand. I will make sure of that.He heaved a long sigh and threw his gaze at the shore."That's a difficult thing to do. Ask me anything else as long as it does not involve leaving you two again, Beatrice. How would I show you that I changed? I'm sorry, Beatrice, but I could not do that. I don't want my son to hate me."Shifting my gaze at the water, I said, "What am I doing? Asking you to leave us? What's my assurance that you honor
BEATRICE:I no longer understand what I was feeling right now as my ex-husband held him in his arms. It felt strange on my part that this felt like it was the most ordinary thing to do. The kiss, I meant.My ex-husband wants to kiss me? Why? That was out of the blue and I did not understand him at first. Or maybe my mind refused to understand what was happening. Everything was becoming confusing. A certain part of me definitely wanted to be kissed and to taste a man's lips. How long has it been since I last kissed? Five years ago? And this man was the only one who managed to see my naked body and touch them.I sucked in a breath as I struggled to keep those memories at the back of my head where they should belong. Those dangerous memories will only awaken those sinful thoughts that were trying to resurface for my ex-husband. Drake was the only one whom I wanted. My body ached for a touch where only a man could satisfy. Where only Drake could satisfy. "Beatrice? May I?" he asked
BEATRICE:Why are you thinking about him? Do you think he is a child that needs his mother to follow him up? He is a freaking adult already, Beatrice. Stop thinking about him and go to sleep. I rolled to my side while looking out the window. If I just stood and looked outside, I would see him on the shore. What was he thinking right now? What else? He might be embarrassed facing you since you turned him down. If you only allowed him to kiss you, then you would not be worrying about him right now. I'm not worried at all! He could take all of his time and stare at the waves. Or maybe, he is secretly meeting Heather right now. Do you know? Have sex with him since you refused him. I gritted my teeth. I don't care if they made love in the sand under the moonlight. I don't fucking care. Closing my eyes, I forced myself to sleep, refusing to imagine what the two might be doing right now. Why don't you look out the window and see for yourself if the two are having sex? I chastised
BEATRICE:All through my life, I believed that my ex-husband's family did not care about me. I thought that they hated me for not being able to give a child to their son. I thought they hated me because I did not do my best to stop my ex-husband from divorcing me.Some people were like that. They would blame you and question your worth just because you had a failed marriage. How many instances did I witness that the victim was put into shame when something happened to her? And then I would know that I was wrong? That nothing happened between him and Heather? How could he keep me in the dark when it comes to his family? Even if we never had the best relationship to date, I was still looking forward to the bright future ahead. Your mind is already elsewhere, Beatrice. Focus.Where was I again? Ah, right. It was him not telling his family that we already got divorced. Gritting between teeth, I asked, "Explain your statement, Drake before I will think what I should do with you. Why ha
BEATRICE:I shook my head. The chapter of me and Drake’s lives were already closed. I should not let my emotions get over me."I will eat if I get hungry. But not now."He shrugged off his shoulders. "If that's what you wish. Will you wash yourself or will we go now?"Sniffing my clothes, there was no smell on it. Which means I could still use this until we arrived home."We will start going home," I answered. “I will go upstairs and get our bags.”“There is no need for that. I already put them on the car while you were sleeping.”He did that without being told? Who would have thought that Drake had some sense of volunteerism? He was not like this in the past. He never cared if I was still alive or not. “Why did you do that?”He looked at me with a confused expression on his face. “Oh. I did not know that you would be angry about it. My apologies, Beatrice. I should have asked you about it.”It was not like that.But who cares if he misinterpreted my words?“Where is Heather, by the
BEATRICE:My chest felt like there were a ton of rocks inside it. What a freaking bastard. How could he hide that very important thing to me? What if I allowed him to kiss that night? That would make me a mistress! I did not have any plans to compete with any woman at all!What if Christina was not here to tell me about that? What if I was blindly believing all my ex-husband words? "How could you, Drake?" My voice shook at the end due to his betrayal. "Beatrice. Let me explain. I will try to make you understand. That woman…I will tell you the whole story. Please allow me to talk to you."I did not know if I had the heart to listen to him after holding that important information from me. I did not know I was the only one who was left in the dark. When I was suffering, he was in the arms of the woman whom he truly loved. Christina scoffed while my chest felt like it was being ripped into a million pieces. When I was slowly trying to open myself to him, then I had to discover his be
73BEATRICE:I stared at the ceiling, while sleep had been elusive. No matter how many times I tossed in bed, I just could not find the right position to be sleeping now.My body was tired, but it refused to sleep.Until now, I was thinking of Drake's secret.How could he hide it from me? Was it because he was scared that if I found out, I would hide Grayson away from him? After what he did, how could I not do it? If he keeps on lying to me like that, how could I trust him?You don't have to trust him. Make him totally disappear from your life, the evil part of my mind said. That man always causes you pain and headaches. Isn't it the right time for you to remove him from your life? Well, that could be true...But how? No matter how much I think about it, Drake was not the type who would easily let go especially Grayson was at stake. My phone had been ringing nonstop and even if I did not check who it was, I had an idea that it was Drake. Maybe he wanted to explain himself on how the
BEATRICE:Am I turning him down? If that was what it looked it was, maybe I was doing it. I did not know anymore. My heart was tired from everything. If I give Josh a chance, what was my assurance that he will not betray me like what my ex-husband did? "I...I'm sorry if that's what it looked like, Josh. I...don't have the time to entertain men as of the moment. I want to focus on my son, first. I hope you will understand me, Josh." He was a good man, but I did not think I would be able to be fair to him. I was not fully healed on the scars my ex-husband had inflicted. "Is this about your ex-husband?" he whispered. "Perhaps, do you have feelings for him?" My knuckles turned white as I stared at my son's sleeping form. "I never said anything about that, if you're only listening to me." I would be a fool if I continue to cling on those fucking feelings. That man was not worth it at all. "Little One, I don't have to hear those words from you. Your actions said everything. I know a
BEATRICE:I was about to tell Drake, but stopped myself from saying out loud. There was already too much that was running on his mind and I could not afford to add more problems to him. “It was nothing, babe,” I replied and leaned on his shoulders, as he continued to drive the long road. Grayson was in the backseat already knocked out. “Nothing that you should be concerned about.”“Are you sure because you seem bothered after talking to your Mom. How did your conversation go? You know what? I made sure that you and your Mom will have some time to talk.”“Really? That's the reason why you left us at the table?”How considerate of him. How could I not fall for him over again? He was worth it. He was worth everything. “Yeah. Your Mom won't talk if there's some audience around us.”And she was able to say everything she wanted when we were alone. “Tell me the company's situation.”He was silent for a moment, before saying, “No need to worry about it. Let me handle it, doll. I will make
BEATRICE:Something about the board losing their trust on you? I wanted to ask, but no words would come out of my mouth.Why was it so difficult to ask him?“Hey. Are you okay?”Are you okay? Why can’t you tell me the truth? Why do you suffer in silence, Drake? Don’t you believe that I could help you, too? We are all in this together, right? Why don’t you let me join your suffering? I want to help you with it. So please…at least let me join you.“I am. How about you?”He chuckled. “I am fine. How about you?”“You’re acting weird, Beatrice. But to answer your question. Yes. I am fine. I am always fine whenever you are with me. I forgot all my problems because there is you, doll.”“Tell me how much the company meant to you.”“It’s my life,” he answered. “I worked hard for it. That was the result of working too much because of our absence, doll. I promised myself that I would make it successful so that when you returned, I could offer it to you.”"You did well, babe. I am so proud of you
BEATRICE:Seeing my reaction, Mom clicked her tongue together. "Based on your reaction, I assume that your ex-husband did not say anything to you about it.""He...He did not, Mom.""The board of directors agreed that if he did not do something to save the company, they will pull off the remaining of these stocks and what do you think will happen?""Worse case scenario, the company will continue to have losses and would eventually file for bankruptcy.""What about his people? Do you think he is fine with that? He will blame himself for what happened and he's the only one who knows what will happen."I clenched my fist. "Why are you telling me these things, Mom?" She shrugged off her shoulders. "I was surprised that you were able to have a child.""When Drake divorced me, I didn't know that I was already carrying a child during that time.""I won't question that child. He took a lot after you which is fine with me.""What do you want, Mom?""You? What can you do to save your ex-husband
BEATRICE:Mom and Dad. I wanted to rush to their side and hugged them until they found it difficult to breathe, hoping that a tight embrace would fulfill the countless years of not seeing each other. Back then, I was still debating on whether I would see them face to face, but now... I was glad that Drake had pushed me to meet them. My heart felt like it weighed a ton. Dad's eyes simmered with tears, while Mom... I did not know what she was thinking. She wore a poker face. Mom was always like that. Unreadable. My other siblings called her Ice Queen Mother, for showing rare affection towards us. I always scolded them for calling Mom that, but they would only say that it was Mom's fault for being smart like that.I was the one who fulfilled the emotions my siblings craved. I thought it was enough, but it was not. Despite Mom's personality, they still wanted to feel her affection. "Mommy. Who are they?""Your grandparents," I whispered.They finally reached our table."Beatrice,"
BEATRICE:Guilt washed over my chest, knowing the tragedy that fell on Zereka's life. Poor child. I should have known that she had suffered. If I did, I should have been patient with her."Oh, my goodness, Drake. Are you telling the truth?""I'm the only one who knows about it, and I hope you will not tell a single soul, doll. She will kill me for sure. The tough exterior was only a facade, because she did not want others to treat her weakly. Deep inside, she was still thirteen years old I saw crying for her Mom's name. Please be patient with her, doll. I know it's unfair to you...""It's fine." Now that I know that child's background, how could I be a bitch? "I called her a bitch. She might be hating me for that.""You also cannot be blamed.""I want to meet Zereka again and who knows? Maybe we will be friends in the end. How about children? Does she want children? Do you think she will like Grayson?""I saw her staking your social media account and stare at Grayson. So, maybe she li
BEATRICE:“I told him I was going,” I explained. "He invited me at first, saying he will have a better chance than him being alone.""Oh, great. Does Everette know about that?"I shook my head. "He did not know anything. If you tell him right now, that's the only time he will know about the plan.""There's only a slim chance that they will invest in his company and do you know the percentage? Only one percent, Beatrice. After what he did to you, for divorcing you, do you think they will forgive you easily? You two became the talk among your relatives. They keep on asking questions about you and your ex-husband. However, when your Mom snarled and scolded them, they became silent. However, the rumors of your separation did not stop, angering Clara even more. Everette and I were witnesses to that. When you disappear from the family, the rumors become even worse.""More than five years had passed, Maybe she had forgiven what happened?" I hoped she did. And if she did not? I no longer
BEATRICE:“Beatrice? Are you still there?”What a bastard.He knows that Christina had her miscarriage, yet he called her?“Yes, I am here. What is it again?”“Is there no chance that the two will reconcile?”Exhaling, I inquired, “Did you call because he asked you?”“I was about to call you even if he did not call. But he got the right timing. He called me first before I was able to call you.”“Christina, the next time he calls you, don’t answer it.”“Why?" she asked, her voice full of curiosity. "Did something happen between you two that I was not aware of?"I bit the inside of my cheeks, debating if I should tell her or not.She's still not fully recovered, Beatrice. what if she will be sent to the hospital again, because of stress?There was a point, there. "N-No. Nothing happened.""So why are you evading him as if he is bringing the plague?""I-It's because of Drake. I have decided that I will give him a chance."I heard her mutter a few curses in the background. With a faint v
BEATRICE:Relax. Don’t fret. Control yourself, Beatrice. You will not lose your control because of that woman.“Did you hear me? She pulled my hair!”“Why would Beatrice do that, Zereka? She’s not the type to—”She sniffed. “You never listened to me, Drakey. You always believed that I was making a scene. That I am lying to you. How could I do that? I love you so much that I will never ever lie to you,” she declared, cutting off his words before he could even finish it. Rude. Every time she said that she loved her brother, the hair on my arms would always stand. It always felt like it had a double meaning. “Do you know what she called me? A bitch, Drake. I’m only eighteen years old and someone already called me a bitch!”“Beatrice. Is that true?”“What do you want to hear, Drake?” I asked. “Tell me so that I will tell you right away. Don’t waste my time anymore.”“Doll… I’m not saying anything wrong. All I wanted is you to tell me your side. I don't want to take sides as much as pos
BEATRICE:If Drake was here, I would never know why Zereka was here. If Drake was here, she would keep on pretending to be the sweet little sister of his. She could fool anyone with that sweet face of hers. "I'm sorry, but you don't have a say on that, too. We have chosen ourselves to love each other and even if a million people would be against our path, our love will remain strong. That includes you, by the way."It was a cheesy statement. I never thought the time would come when I would say those words, but here it was.She threw back her head and laughed. "Love? Are you freaking kidding me? Don't tell me that kind of bullshit. Love does not exist. Only lust." I was taken aback at her curse. My forehead knotted seeing how she bawled her palms into a fist. "Are you perhaps..." Did she perhaps not experience how to be in love? That she did not know how it felt? That she believed it was all lies? Right. I remembered. This woman was Drake's half-sister. And Drake's family had n