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71. GUILT UPON GUILT

Author: Red_Books
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~RUBY

As I stared at myself in the mirror, I did not like what I saw.

The guilt was too much to bear and I suddenly felt the urge to scream. I instantly closed my hand against my mouth as I released a wordless scream.

My entire body trembled with this scream as I used it to release all my pain into the world.

Why did this happen to me? What did I do to deserve this?

Why?

“Baby. Are you okay? You've been there for almost an hour,” Ethan suddenly called out.

This broke me out of the alone world I had entered and the sound of his voice made me cry even harder.

How would I even face my husband?

He was so happy, so excited about the baby while my heart was sinking into unimaginable levels of despair at the thought of the pregnancy.

I was not even sure how many times Ash had impersonated Ethan. How was I sure that even the times I thought it was truly Ethan, that it was actually Ash?

Ethan would be devastated.

I was devastated.

“Ruby. Ruby. Answer me, darlin
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