GET OUT OF MY HEAD
Once again, I turn over and pick up my cell phone to see the time 2:05 am, apparently, I won't be able to sleep. Maybe if I could relax I could sleep a few hours, I search in the app store for one of those famous relaxing apps, I download it quickly and put it to work, fluff the pillow and adjust the blanket. As the music plays, I make an effort to loosen my tense muscles, I try not to think about anything but instead let the soft melody take over my senses and lead me to a peaceful state of sleep.
I have the feeling of walking down a very long and dimly lit hallway “hello, is there anyone here?” I ask, but I don't hear an answer. In the end, there is a very nice white door, I remain static for a moment, but my curiosity wins and I advance towards it. Once I'm in front it opens by itself, I can see a silhouette extending his hand and inviting me to enter, with no hesitation I take it, the door
LET’S TRYI finish getting ready to go to the office, no matter how hard I tried to figure out an excuse to stay at home, I couldn't find it. I must not be a coward, I have to go and face Stefano, I can't be avoiding him, I just have to stick to my decision and try not to fall into his nets again. I have one last glance at myself, briefly, I am tempted to recoil, but quickly I dismiss the thought and leave the room.“Good morning darling, do you want me to prepare the usual,” asked a cheerful Gloria.“Good morning Glorita, no. Actually, I am not really hungry, a toast with jam and a glass of juice is enough.” She quickly fixes everything I requested and places it in front of me.“So, why are you so crestfallen and pale?” I let out a big sigh “judging from that sigh, this situation has a name.”“I don't know exactly how, but I slept with my business associate”-she looks
SUN, BEACH AND STEFANO? “I know I should say ‘Christie, what you did is so wrong. You shouldn't have cancelled your appointments at last minute to spend a relaxing weekend in Hawaii with your best friend’ But I won't do it, I'm sorry, I suck at playing conscience,” Alena tells me while sipping her mimosa. “Don't worry Al, I won't hold anything against you.” “You'd better not because I put a lot of effort into this trip.” “I roll my eyes at her comment” “Wow! watch out for a brain swelling,” I roll my eyes at her comment. “Sometimes you are annoying Christie Swan, but you won't dampen my mood,” she says sticking her tongue out like a petulant little girl, she continues sipping her drink and flipping through her magazine. At this very moment we are at Idon'tknowhowmany thousand feet of altitude in a flight that will last approximately eleven hours, I just decided to start our weekend getaway early, I ran away
I CAN BE WHOEVER YOU WANT ME TO BE“Good morning sunshine! Birds are singing, the sun is shining, and we are in Hawaii baby!” I hear Alena's voice booming through my room followed by the sound of curtains being opened, the brightness goes straight to my eyes, I squeeze my eyelids tightly and pull up the blanket until I'm completely covered “come on my little vampire, we have a tight schedule and the time is running out, you must have breakfast at lightspeed because we have a yoga class in thirty minutes, then a long session at the spa, by the time this relaxing morning is over you won't even remember your name.”“Al, it's too early,” I snap in irritation.“Ah, ah, missy, we have an agreement,” she says as she abruptly pulls the sheets off me.“I don't remember making any agreement with you.”“You have implicitly done so by agreeing to all this, so chop cho
UNEXPECTED INVITATION“GOOD MORNING SUN...” Alena chirps out loud as she enters my room, but her words remain incomplete when she sees me coming out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel.“Good morning my dear Alena! and shut your mouth so the flies don't get in,” I say when I see her gasping like a fish out of water.“What the hell are you doing?”“It's called patting your body dry after bathing, is what I'm doing.”“Mmm... there's something weird going on here. Come closer” I do as she says and she starts circling me.“Let's see... you woke up early on a non-working day with no need to fight you, your cheeks are flushed... mmm... you're grinning too much and... Nooo! No way!”“What is it, Alena?”“Who was it?”“Who was what? Honey, is everything all right? I think you're starting to lose it.”&l
" A WARM WELCOME"After three wonderful days, it was time to say goodbye to heavenly Hawaii. This was the first time in a little over four years that I had taken some vacation days away from New York; whenever I had been "on vacation," I never really wanted to be out because I was afraid of something profound that might happen during my absence and always ended up shortening my days off to go back to work. Sadly all good things must come to an end; that's not fair.I accepted my best friend's proposal to take a few days to relax; I needed to clear my mind of all my occupations. Who am I kidding? I did it because, like the coward I am, I wanted to run away from Stefano Graziani, and for what? To see him in every man on the island, for my mind to play tricks on me and hear his voice in every place or think of him and yell his name every time I had sex with another man."Good morning, sunshine" I enter Alena's room humming as she does; it's eleven in
"ASSUMING RISKS""Aaahh, this is life," says Alena after letting out a big sigh, "I needed this so badly; the last few days have been crazy," her exaggeration makes me roll my eyes."You are so dramatic! It's only been a few weeks since our trip, three to be exact. Yes, we've had busy days, but don't exaggerate either."How selfish you are, Christie Swan! I'm your assistant; only I know how demanding you can be, not to mention grumpy, exasperating, and neurotic.""Hey!" I exclaim, offended."I'm just justifying the reason for my stress.""Thank you; you're so kind!" I mumble. I kept silent while I continued enjoying the massage. I needed to come to this place; my back was in knots, but I would never say in front of Al that would prove she was right, and it's a NO for me."So... what did you decide?""About what?" I ask, playing dumb."Don't be ridiculous. You know very well what I'm talking about.""I'm scared, Al,"
"I ONLY ASK FOR THAT"Hearing that reply from my lips makes a huge smile spreads on his lips; he lifts me and brings his mouth to mine, we melt in a passionate kiss. My arms automatically went to his neck, and my hands got tangled in his straight hair. Seconds later, we begin to move until he gently positions me in the middle of the bed."I'm going to kiss your body until there's not a single spot left that my lips have touched," he whispers in my ear, making me shudder. Without any urgency, he begins his work, leaving a path of wet kisses on my neck, descending little by little, making my excitement increase second by second.The instant he introduces one of my perky breasts into his mouth, my back arches, and I feel like I might reach my first orgasm."p-please, Stefano," my voice sounds utterly foreign to my ears."What do you want, Cara Mia?""You... inside me.""All in good time" I can't help but groan in protest; the bastard
"LOVE IS NOT ALL"I stir under the covers, the urgent need to relieve my bladder has taken me out of my sleep, but no matter how hard I try to get up, Stefano's leg and arm weight prevent me from doing so. He's stuck to me like ivy to a wall."Move, or I'll pee," I mumble; all my attempts are in vain; this man is heavier than a bag of potatoes, "Stefano, please," I shake him harder, he wakes up a bit confused, I use the moment and get up quickly to use the bathroom."Ah!" I sigh as I feel the relief. After I finish, I go back to the room to find my clothes."What are you doing," he asks, still a little sleepy."I'm looking for my clothes, isn't it obvious?""Why? You don't need them; come back to bed," he says, patting the side where I was lying until a few moments ago."I would love to go back to bed and get lost in your body...""Why don't you?""Two days.""What?" he asks, confused."Two days, we have been her
"A BET""I see that being anxious runs in the family," I tell her, placing my hand on her knee to stop her from moving her leg."I'm sorry, I'm just extremely nervous. ""Relax! The doctor will ask you a few questions, give you a lecture, and prescribe the best contraceptive method for you.""Miss Swan, you can come in now," the nurse informs me."Come on," she gets up from her chair, and I can feel a slight tremor in her hands."Good afternoon Christie," says Dr. Ramsay, "I see you are in good company. Who is this beautiful young lady?""It's...""I am Luciana, the baby's older sister," she answers, interrupting me and leaving me in complete shock."Luciana, what a beautiful name and what a nice accent you have," she blushes and smiles at him."Yes, she is my boyfriend's daughter. She is with me today because she wants to know what is the best contraceptive method," I tell the doctor, who quickly get
"PARTNERS IN CRIME"One month, that's how long her love for her family lasted. Just as Stefano predicted, Marella quickly grew tired of playing the self-sacrificing mother who looks out for her children's welfare and wants her home back.One day she packed her bags and left without a word while her children were at school. When they returned, they found a note on the refrigerator informing them "that she had unavoidable commitments that demanded her attention and she could no longer delay her departure."To say that Stefano was relieved not to have her under his roof is an understatement. Luciana was disappointed, as she had hoped to return to Italy, but unfortunately, that was not her mother's plan."Baby girl, do you want a snack before you go to the doctor's appointment?" asked Glorita peeking out of the door of my room."Yes, thank you," I woke up today with my spirits down. I feel exhausted; I have a
"MARELLA PARISI""You didn't answer my question, Marella. What the hell are you doing here?" Stefano is so upset, his face is entirely red, and the vein in his neck looks like it's about to burst. I take his hand in an attempt to calm him down."Relax, dear! You'll give yourself a stroke. What's wrong with me coming for a friendly visit," I tell the witch in her mother tongue,"If you haven't noticed, my guest, who is my girlfriend, doesn't speak Italian.""What a pity! You've lowered your standards, my dear" what the hell? I'm about to slap her, but then I see the smirk on her daughter's face. "I'm not saying it for you, honey, don't think you're so important," this last thing she says, looking in my direction."Don't worry, ma'am; I was never interested in studying Italian. However, I did learn Spanish, French, and German. But fate is whimsical; it took me to the arms of an Italian" take this sweetheart.
"AN UNEXPECTED INVITATION""Hmm?" I answer the incoming call on my cell phone. Who the hell is disturbing my sleep? Waking up a pregnant woman should count as a crime."Oh! Sorry, Cara mia, I didn't think you'd be asleep at this hour.""Are you insinuating that I'm being lazy, Stefano Graziani?" Well, yes, it's eleven in the morning, so what? How dare he call me lazy? Automatically my sleep faded away and was replaced by growing anger.Although looking at it from a different perspective, I had never slept in until so late, unless I stayed up all night. However, it doesn't give him the right to call me so."Christie, please, understand me. If I hadn't called earlier, it was because I feared waking you up. I know that pregnant women sleep more because they get tired faster due to the excess of hormones flowing in their bodies. I should have texted instead of calling. I apologize about that" aww, can't thi
"PROBLEMS" PART 2"WHAT DID SHE SAY?" Many of the customers turn in our direction. Alena didn't miss an opportunity to yell at the top of her lungs."Shhh... keep your voice down! Don't you realize that people are turning to look at us," I whispered with irritation."It's not my fault that people who frequent this store don't miss the opportunity to get juicy gossip. But that is not important; I can't believe that goddamn brat said that to you. I mean, she treated you as if you were a tramp. Doesn't she know that you own the company?""No," I answer while shaking my head in denial, "she must think I'm some subordinate who's just messing with her father to climb the social ladder. Otherwise, she wouldn't have said such a bunch of nonsense."And, what are you going to do? Because this cannot continue, no way, no way. We have to plan the perfect revenge" Alena is so upset that if you prick her vein, it's not blood that spurts ou
"PROBLEMS" PART 1"Oh, so you've decided to be noticed," I say as I inspect the bulge in my belly; I swear it wasn't there before. Until last night I had a flat stomach and a great behind."I think you ran out of room, buddy" I gently run my hand down the length of the bulging area. I can't believe I'm already four months old. It seems like yesterday when I found out I would be a mother.I take the clothes on my bed, and I almost go into shock when I notice the bra is too small, to the point that my breasts practically come out, my pants don't close, and my blouse doesn't fit; when did all this happen? Until yesterday everything fit me perfectly.I guess I will leave the office early to shop for some clothes. I continue trying on one outfit after another until I find a summer dress that, luckily, I can wear with a blazer over it. Alena will enjoy this very much, she loves shopping, especially with other people's money.This w
"PAPA BEAR"Baby, this is what you came for Lightning strikes every time she moves.And everybody's watching herBut she's looking at you, ooh, ooh You, ooh, ooh, you, ooh, ooh…I stir under my covers, trying to ignore the music announcing an incoming call; my efforts are in vain; the damn song plays over and over again. Annoyed, I reach out for my cell phone, ready to find out who has dared to disturb my sleep."Mmm?" I answer with no desire to utter a word."Good morning, cara mia. I want to inform you that I am currently entering your building. Are you ready?" what the hell? I move the offensive device away from my ear to check the time, showing 7:00 am."Stefano, it's seven o'clock in the morning, the appointment is at ten o'clock, what the hell are you doing here so early? Suddenly the call finished. That's a sign he boarded t
"BURSTING THE LITTLE BALLON OF HAPPINESS""Christie, Christie, are you listening to me?" Dr. Miller's words snap me out of my reverie."No, I'm sorry, doctor, I wasn't paying attention.""It's understandable; you're still in shock. Your blood work shows you have low hemoglobin, nothing to be alarmed about; it will quickly return to its average level with a healthy diet and vitamins. However, we must follow up and make sure it goes up not to affect your pregnancy.""It-it's ok.""Here are the prescription and indications. Don't forget to make an appointment with your gynecologist.""Yes, don't worry. I'll have my assistant call the office.""Thank you."I leave the doctor's office still stunned by the news. How the hell am I going to drop such a bomb on Stefano? Especially now that he's got so many problems on his plate with the recent move of his kids, not to mention that one of them hates me."Hey Chris, everything ok?" a
"WHAT NOW?"After "getting myself cleaned up a bit," I peek out the door to see if the surroundings are clear, but I wouldn't go out there and not even in the state I'm in. Now, what do I do? think fast, Christie Swan! I immediately go to Stefano's desk and start looking for the stapler in the drawers."Here it is," I say once I find it, straighten my blouse and start to staple it shut."You're not going out this way, are you?""Well, I have no choice; suddenly, the caveman in you woke up and destroyed my blouse. Look, it's torn right here.""I'm sorry.""When I get to my office, I'll tell Alena to go to the nearest store and buy me another one.""At least it covers me." I walk up to the door that connects his office to the boardroom, and he grabs my hand before I can even open it."Where are you going" He turns me around and positions me in front of him."To my office.""Why? We have some unfinished business," he sli