CHAPTER 4: FIRST KISS

CARA’S P.O.V

 It was time for me to wake up which was ironic because I haven’t even fallen asleep, to begin with. Problems and troubles are what keeps normal people awake, however being far from normal, happiness is what kept me awake. My mind, my heart, my entire being were filled with happiness and the only reason for all of this happiness was no other than Mr. La’Vardo. Last night I was ordered to prepare dinner again for Mr. La’Vardo. Using my mother’s recipe I made him a creamy chicken pasta dish, to say that choosing to cook that meal for him was a good idea is an understatement. Following his second order and joining him for dinner, I was a witness to how he had truly enjoyed the meal which I have prepared for him. They say that a way to a man’s heart is through his stomach, I have no intention of stealing my boss’s heart but that doesn’t change the fact that mine belongs only to him! 

 XANDER’S P.O.V

My breath was once again knocked out of my lungs as a repetition of yesterday when she met me in the main room of my house, dressed in another fitting outfit which I have chosen for her. “Good morning Mr. La’Vardo,” she said in her sweet voice and her bright smile followed. “Call me Xander,” I said, returning her smile. “But you told me to address you as Mr. La’Vardo,” she said as we headed towards the exit of my manor. “Yes but now I’m asking you to call me Xander. When I asked you to call me Mr. La’Vardo, I was under the impression that of relationship would be a formal one, that of an employer and employee. I was unaware that I would find a friend in you Cara, but I’m very grateful that I did,” I explained and noticed her face brighten up.

“So are we going on the same route that we took yesterday?” she asked. “Kinda, except that for today we won’t be jogging past the beach, instead we will take a walk on the beach,” I said, excitement shone in her eyes. We walked for about half an hour until the sun began to rise. “Let’s take a break,” I said and sat down on the shore, facing the sunrise, Cara took a seat next to me. As the sun rose from the ocean, it glistened her skin, leaving her in a beautiful glow, her brown wavy hair shined and her brown eyes sparkled. The sea breeze blew and her sweet scent took over my sense of smell. “Cara,” I called, stealing her attention away from the sunrise. As soon as she turned to me, I couldn’t control myself from locking my lips with hers.  At first, I felt her hesitate and then I felt her give in, she placed her tiny hand on my chest as I supported her with my hand behind her neck and I deepened our kiss. Both of us were lost in this tranquil moment, our tongues dancing into the beat that our hearts were playing. The reality of my world was forgotten in this magical moment, all my problems, my stress, my sadness, my pain, my Eva. Eva??!!! At the thought of her, I pulled back. Cara looked at me in confusion, her lips swollen and then her confused look turned into shock and embarrassment. “I’m sorry,” she said, her cheeks turned crimson red. “Why are you apologizing? I kissed you” I said, I didn’t want her to feel embarrassed or uncomfortable. “Yes. I’m sorry” she said again, not knowing what else to say I assume. She began to walk to the mansion, not knowing what to say to her or what to do, I silently followed behind.

I didn’t apologize to her as she apologized to me. I kissed her!  So I should have been the one apologizing, not her! But I couldn’t! and I wouldn’t! Simply because I was not sorry! I was not sorry for kissing her! I was not sorry for feeling a magnificent wave of sparks while kissing her. All that I do regret is giving her (Eva) the right to haunt my mind like a ghost inside of my heart. Why can’t you let me go, Eva? Why can’t I get over you? Why can’t I let you go, Eva? Why Eva?

CARA’S P.O.V

“Breakfast?” the sudden break of silence startled me. “Sorry? Er…what would you like for breakfast” I asked, assuming that he wants me to prepare breakfast for him. “No, my world class chef will prepare breakfast. Will you join me?” his question shocked me. “J-Jo-join you for breakfast?” I asked, repeating his question in shock. I wasn’t shocked that he asked me to eat with him because I did have dinner with him last night. I was shocked that he kissed me, pulled away as if it was a mistake and remained silent during the whole walk back, making me think that he gravely regretted his mistake of kissing me, only for him to ask me to join him for breakfast now? I’m confused and it’s driving me insane. Does he find me attractive or not? Does he like me or not? What’s going on? Maybe he just wants to use me for pleasure but a part of him knows that it is wrong so he is giving and pulling back. “Cara, please,” he said, holding out his hand. “But Sir, I am your employee. In fact, I am your ma-” he cut me off. “You are my paid friend. Not that I don’t have friends. I do have a lot of friends and I don’t pay them to be my friend” he laughed. “However, Cara you are my paid friend because you need the money and I- well- I need you” his words created happiness to once again bloom within me, ‘He needs me!’ “Okay Sir, I’ll join your for breakfast” I couldn’t help myself to say just like how I couldn’t give up an opportunity to spend more time with him, with that, I followed him to the breakfast table.

“So if you have a ‘world-class chef’ why did you want to eat food prepared by me these past few days?” I asked, hoping that he doesn’t get mad. I am employed by him and I shouldn’t be questioning my boss about the orders he gives me…but I really wanted to know if he feels the same way about me, that I feel about him and I hoped that his answer will give me a clue. “Because you cook a little better than him” he whispered and we both began to laugh at his little joke. “And how else would a guy like me get a girl like you to eat with me?” he asked. Romantic! But that could still mean two things…either he admires me or he is referring to a ‘low class’ girl like me. “A girl like me?” I asked to clear my doubts in my stupid, over-thinking mind. “Yes…a beautiful, smart and impressive girl like you” he answered. BINGO!!! He has feelings too!!! I could literally fly around the room with the amount of happiness that I felt but I made the right decision to sit my bu** down and behave myself!

Xander and I were both lost in our own world, making jokes, laughing and enjoying our buffet breakfast. It was lovely, until I choked on my blueberry muffin due to Lily’s glare. Lily still remained invisible to Xander or maybe he really didn’t care about anyone that was around us as he soothed me, rubbing my back as I coughed uncontrollably. With a smirk on her face at the sight of me embarrassing myself beyond repair she left the dining hall.

“Are you okay?” he asked, laughing at me. “Yeah, I’m okay now” I said as I sipped on my orange juice. “That’s good. I can’t lose you just yet” he covered up the romantic words with his charming laughter. “Do you always say such romantic stuff?” I asked, still recovering from choking. “No. Only when I saved someone’s life” he joked and we both laughed.