All my life I had danced with the devil and each time he took charge and stirred me to every direction he wanted me at.
You ask me where hell was and I would point to the very life we were living in, going through life as if we were in control when we were far from it. All my life even breathing had come with consequences, everything coming at a price with hell to pay after it.
You think you know pain, thinking you had hit its rock bottom with life stubborn to prove to you that you could never understand the cruelty of the world and I understood just that night that my pain, my suffering had no bounds.
That night I knew that no matter how much you try, if you are not anointed from birth then there was nothing for you. I learned when I was young that if someone hated you, nothing you could do or say would change their perspective of you. You could never make someone love you, you could never make someone care.
And I could never beg enough for the heavens to forgive me for whatever crime I had committed.
I felt as the hands gripped me. They were cold, thin and long as my naked body was placed in one’s arms, twisted and turned around, probing every part of me.
I could feel the anger, I could feel the hate even in my unconscious state.
How could someone hate you so much when they did not even know you?
I swam in and out of darkness, begging death to take me away, crying with everything I had to him but he spat me away and told me I was not his child to claim.
In and out I drifted, back and forth tossed between hands knowing what had fallen on me, what cruelty I would face again.
The wind was cold, my body bare with hands touching every part they wanted.
A little part of me drifted away with each step they took with me knowing I was bound by the God of torture.
My head was light, not sure if I wanted to be alive or not for what was to come but as we all know at this point, luck was never on my side. It was an enemy of mine, looking for ways to make me suffer more than I had. I stirred into consciousness, my eyes fluttering open to close as my head lolled back and forth seeing a bloodied t-shirt.
It took a second for me to realize that the blood was mine, that it was dripping from me, down in beads and wetting the t-shirt along with the pants the man was wearing.
Dread washed over me, my quick and smart mouth no where to help me as I tried to think but hitting a wall with each turn my thoughts took. I could see many more feet behind the man who was carrying me. It was a whole army, more than seven of them with them chatting and laughing out loud because life was peachy for them.
The tears burned hard, my nose burning as the tears slipped.
I was hung over a shoulder, my ass up with my feet bound along with my hands, bound so tight my shoulders were as if to snap away, leaving my arms on the floor.
The pain, unimaginable as I blinked over and over but it never left me.
My stomach turned over and over again with the bile rising up and burning its way all through until I gagged it out, something green with saliva coming out. The pain left me groaning, my stomach as if folding itself into a twist, gagging even more and coughing from the vomit.
My body flew in the air so fast, hitting hard with my eyes closing and taking the pain as it washed over me and left me paralyzed, my lips trembling.
Kicks came from every direction, the man shouting about his clothes. I folded myself into a ball, my brain seeming to shrink into the size of a ball as I just pushed everything out.
Little one, little one. Mommy is here, mommy is watching, mommy is loving you forever.
Little one, little one. Mommy is here, mommy is caring, mommy is loving you forever.
Little one, little one. Mommy is here, mommy is happy, mommy is loving you forever.
I don’t know why that song came into mind but I found myself singing it over and over again, chatting it with nothing else heard as my arms came over my head, just drowning everything away.
A five-year-old me had walked to the market, tired, hungry and in pain from the beating I had just received from Wendy. I had been carrying a duel coin which could barely buy an apple but I was supposed to come back home with three bath soaps and the bucket I had broke while cleaning the house. My feet were bruised from walking all through the snow barefooted and the sound had come over and over again with my head turning.
A mother, one of the women who had a vegetable stall in the market sat with her baby wrapped in so many blankets. The woman herself had been wearing just an old t-shirt that was torn here and there, seeing that she had patched it up many times before. She was as cold and as blue as I had been with my torn shirt that was acting as a dress. Yet, the smile on her face had been something else. Her happiness shone through her eyes. The love for her baby had kept her warm and happy. I had longed, had felt the tears shimmer in my eyes but I had shook my little head and walked away from that scene to never think about it until that very moment as more and more hits came with blood sipping from my mouth.
My foot was wrapped by a hand, pulling me with it. I wanted to scream but I held it in, teeth biting down my tongue as I was dragged through grass, stones and sand that tore my skin apart. I held my head even tighter, singing the song even louder in my head with no tears pouring from me.
The scene played over and over again in my head, that woman singing, her smile. Even if it was not directed to me, it warmed my heart in a way it had never been warmed. It gave me hope that everything would be over soon, that I would drift away.
My foot was let go, my body flipped.
“ We are close to the station. If you want to test how it feels with a dog, this is your chance.” One said.
“ I feel like it would taint my blood. The vampire God will punish me for dirtying myself in that way.” Another commented as my arms fell away from my face with the song let go. My eyes stared from face to face, blood thirsty vampires.
“ Don’t be stupid, I am doing it. It was our luck they sent us to get her on our own, all those they catch, they take them straight to the royal prison, I am doing it.” Another bickered with me shifting where I was. I did not have to be smart to know what they were talking about. In my head I was screaming, screaming for my body to move but I could barely move a hand. It was all numb, blue-black as my head tipped up to see.
“ Okay, I will go after.” Another said and I felt the bile rise again.
Hands gripped my shoulders, pressing me down and over my dead body would they shame me in such a way.
My body sprung out, my feet kicking, hands moving about and screaming insults they never even thought they would ever hear.
I screamed so loud, cursing them and their pathetic lives.
“ I will mess you up you incompetent idiot, keep your filthy hands off me or I will cut them all off.
I fought as much as I could, seeing that I was not winning. They laughed, staring at each other, more joining, wanting a piece.
More hands grabbed me and I screamed bloody murder but what would that help.
I had no chance, no chance of escape as I cried out inside, breaking apart with my soul chirping away.
My eyes closed, willing my wolf up. She was my last option. She was hurt , tired and near death but she could not leave me like that. Please, not this, not this.
I fought hard, fighting and screaming for my wolf just to get up. Just one last time, just this one time please.
I shook, feeling it coming as the man spread my legs and hoped I was fast enough.
One second I was lying there with my worst night mare coming to play and the next my wolf lay there, groaning and snapping teeth.
The hands gripping me let go. I heard the shouts of anger before they hit me over and over again.
My wolf tried getting on her feet but she was too weak, my legs shaking and shaping back down.
“ Shift you Dog!” They screamed, their anger felt as they hit my wolf over and over again.
The pain, blood dripping.
The anger hit the roof, taking whatever they could; stones thrown at me, large stone, telling me to shift or they would kill me but I would rather die.
No matter the hits my wolf took, she still groaned, we snapping our teeth over and over, fighting.
A part of me was fighting for them to kill us, a part of me kept biting their hands just so they could snap and kill us. We were hit until my wolf lay down, heaving and breathing as if breathing through a wound. I begged her, begged her to not let go, to hold on. She wanted to shift back, my body starting the shifting process only for me to close my eyes and fight so hard for it to stop.
“ We can’t kill her and we have taken long enough, the commander will kill us, we need to go.” One said.
“ No, let’s kill her, tell them she died.” Another pitched in.
“ We have already sent word that we found her alive.”
Silence spread as my eyes opened to close. I was not sure which I preferred, being killed like an animal out in the wild or being dragged into more hell. My head moved but not even having the strength to keep it up as it lay on the cold grass, letting everything fall on the hands of these monsters with unconsciousness taking me again.
My body shot up and slid off the chair I was in as fast as I came into consciousness. My eyes went over to the floor seeing that I was in something that was moving. My heart was at my throat instantly, my eyes falling on my person feet and I nearly dead.When had I shifted back? How long had I been out? The sunlight had me guess many many hours.My head shot back up, fearing all they had done to me while I was unconscious. My body had taken much sleep, my wounds closed up yet still bruised and battered with my skin blue-black all over.I did not even look up to see who was sitting opposite me as I threw my punch so fast they had not seen it coming. It connected with a face, pulling out a groan as arms came holding me from every direction.“ Let me go you stupid some of a bitches before I slit your throats!”I threw my elbow as it connected with a stomach, my head tipping back hard to hit a face and my foot stomping on another.I groaned, my teeth meeting a wrist. I bit so hard until b
They jumped all at once and I turned to run away.Ladies and gentlemen filled the court, all wearing fancy clothes. Even one of those dresses could feed so many families back in the villages.How could one part be so poor it was painful and one be so rich they wasted gold by building castles with it?‘Not your business Flavia!’ I screamed in my head, running fast only to hit something and fall flat on my ass. My body was quick, turning back to see them right to grab me. I stood up, running on with my face up only to gasp. My heart stopped from something so horrific staring back at me.A girl was pinned in a long pole. She was naked and branded with her skin pale. I tried looking away, tried running off but my head could not help but look back and when I saw the words I trampled on my feet and fell face first as hands gripped me, pinning me down.Was that what they were going to do to me? Were they going to pin me up naked and let all their people walk all around, staring and chatting
I had never felt something so pure. I had never felt something so warm. I had never felt such happiness fill me inside-out. I had thought I knew what happiness was but I was proved wrong once again. I felt whole, never having realized the pain I was in until right then, with a hole filled up as if being piped with nothing but cream. My body felt even weaker, everything right in place. It all felt right, so many things that were disconnected, falling into place. It was as if all my wounds were coming together, patching up as if they never existed. All the tears that had fell, all the pain I had felt suddenly felt insignificant, suddenly felt like a distant memory as this warmth washed over me.I never knew I had been that lonely, had been that disconnected until the man sank his teeth in my neck and everything was amplified. It was a pain that had been dulled down but it echoed as the teeth went deeper and deeper until it vanished just as the link was complete.Forgive me for holding o
I had never been carried by a vampire and I never ever in my life dreamt I ever would. I opened my mouth, wanting to say something because never in my life could I ever just shut up. Air blew from every direction, not only filling my mouth but also seeming to kill my brain cells one by one. My face turned away as much as I hated it, only to drown in a masculine scent that seemed to weaken all my bones and leave me in a mellow state. My face had to be buried in his large and wide chest with his cool temperature cooling down my face. How could someone ever smell that good? It frustrated me to no end as my hands held onto him, my fists grabbing his shirt, feeling the thick muscles right under. What did he eat? He was just muscle, average build but you could see he was firm and strong. His tall height made the distribution of muscle and fat amazing on him. I groaned out loudly, wanting to rip my head apart because it was spewing nonsense. Where was he even taking me? I was not going
Do I stay? Do I leave?I paced, spreading all my blood all over the floor but it was my gift for him to clean up.My hand ran through my hair.They were under attack? Who was attacking them? What if I left then got caught? His father would kill me and I would not be able to survive. The warriors that found me would probably do the worst things I did not even want to imagine, before killing me so gruesomely. I did not even know where the kingdom of my people was. Where would I begin looking for them? I might just be throwing myself into more vampires who would capture me and do whatever they wanted.I did not have the energy to go through torture again. I did not think I could survive another round of hell again. I chewed on my nails because what would staying do for me?What if the prince was lying to me? What if he also wanted to start his own business with me? Torture me even more? What if he wanted to tie me up too and let everyone have a piece of me? That was if he survived his fa
I was hungry as hell.My eyes sat on the bowl sitting opposite him with a spoon inside. There was a plate of bread next to it. My eyes moved from the bowl to him as he ate his own food slowly, not even sparing me a look.Was the bowl mine? Was the food mine?I nearly laughed at that. I never had food. I never had a bowl with food in it waiting for me. Never in my life.Wendy would always throw pieces of spoilt bread on the floor and I would pick them up to eat whenever that happened. I would go through weeks not eating anything, watching them eat and drink blood every night until I craved even the blood with how hungry I was. I used to bite myself and suck the blood that would come out of the wounds, thinking it would fill me up since all the vampires around me were also drinking blood but I had just been hurting myself for nothing. I had always been a bony child. I had always had bones stick out of my skin to the point where my skin would tear from the bones and how thin it was. When
“ I need a Queen.” The prince said after I was able to collect myself. Damn him for robbing me of my celebration moment. His words rang in my head again, already knowing my answer. If he thought I would be his queen, he could forget and smile. He would even be crazier than I thought he was.I shifted in my seat uncomfortably, the situation getting too tense for me.“ My father never made his standing with me a secret. I was never in a good standing with him and he always made it clear that he did not want his crown on my head. Unluckily for him, he could not have anymore children so he was stuck with me.” The prince said as I shifted again, frowning from all I was hearing.I could see that he was really serious about this, deep and collected which frustrated me because it had me want to be that way too when I knew I could not achieve such finesse. I was not meant for him, not meant for his life. All I knew was survival. I was better off with the wild animals than with him. My heart th
My body pulled up from the water. I wiped my face with my hand. My hand grabbed for the wash clothes and soap. I would not take a bath in a long time so I would make it count. I did not want to get to my people looking as if I came from the grave even if I did. My hair was washed which left the water brown with dirt. The shame. I did not even know what I looked like. I probably looked like a crazy person. My hair had knots, deciding to just move on. I scrubbed my skin until it burned, scrubbed until I was sure I was clean all over. No part of me was not cleaned.I stepped out of the water, drying my hair and skin with the towel. A jar sat next to the tub so I picked it up and indeed, it had excess water. I picked up a toothbrush and toothpaste. My teeth were just heavy. I always jumped at the opportunity to clean my teeth. When I was young, I used to use mint leaves then bite the ends of small tree branches until they were soft so I could clean my teeth. I brushed until my gums ached
FIVE YEARS LATER“Kia, come on my love, what the hell are you packing?” Flavia asked, running up the stairs until she was in the crown prince’s room. It had been five years since she brought her three beautiful children into the world. Sadly, Kyde and Kaide had already outgrown the house but Dante and Flavia had already made a large warehouse for them just behind the castle where they would sleep.Kia, being obsessed with his siblings, ran every single night to sleep with his older brother and sister. It was a beautiful sight to see. The two dragons would fold themselves and Kia would step in between their cocoon where he would fall dead asleep. It had always been like that and it did not seem as if it would change anytime soon.“Kia, come on.” Flavia called as she pushed the door open into the little boy’s room. He had said he was old enough to pack for himself and as Flavia walked in, she could not help but sigh. Her arms crossed on her chest, a smirk on her face. Her son had turned
23 MONTHS LATER“Don’t touch me!” Queen Flavia; the devious, cruel yet loving vampire queen screamed out to heave right after. Sweat dripped down her whole body, pain searing through her as she groaned out.“Where the hell are you taking your hand?! Don’t you want to hold me anymore? After pumping this baby in me now you don’t want to hold me?”King Dante was left opening his mouth to close it.“But my quee…” His voice trailed away as the doctor peaked up to shake his head and for once, the vampire king took the doctor’s advise and shut his trap.“Aahh! Stupid idiotic man!” Queen Flavia screamed out with another contraction hitting her shaking body hard.“What are you doing there? Just taring at my vagina, get this baby out!” She screamed out, her body collapsing down on the bed.She had been at this for seven hours and she could not do it anymore. The baby should be out, heaving and crying while fuming at everything in the whole wild world. She was strong, she would fight but her con
“ VLAD!” I had never seen the king that angry, he had totally turned a switch when we passed the kingdom barrier. All the vampires from all the villages were at the royal court, summoned through the mind link to report at court or he will hunt each of them down and skin them alive. The threat was loud and clear, carrying so much anger when we got there the vampires were pale and shaking in their boots. I did not interfere, biting my lower lip and swallowing because I had never seen the king that hot. I had got a good pounding all through the day, sore in every way yet he made me burn for him all over again. His hand was so hot, burning hot as he held mine tightly. If I did not have his blood flowing through me, my hand would be fried. His anger was radiating in waves, you could feel it miles away. As we hit the royal court, seeing everyone, I nearly gasped because Dante’s eyes burned with such deep fire in them. I thought he would combust, my heart drumming in my throat so vigorou
“ I am sorry I have failed to protect you over and over again.” Dante said with me nestled in his arms in a way I never had before. I was too lazy to even stare up. My fingers drew on his chest, drawing circles and patterns while trying to imagine how they would look like if I actually used ink. My body was spent and it was one of the greatest days ever. We just lay there after making love in such an explosive way. My heart was beating in rhythm to his, having finally synced together and it felt as if we were living on one life force.“ This was a very rough time for you and I believe I came just in time, the perfect time. As much as you are not my true mate, I believe this was destiny.” I said, my head pulling up to stare at him, wanting to see what his reaction would be. He did not stare my way, having me lower back down with his arm taking it’s place again. He was also drawing his own pattern on my skin and it was the best sensation ever. I did not want him to stop.“ I believe so
My body ached, every inch of it crying out loud as I sighed in my state of slipping from sleep. I was cold, something pouring on me now and again, having me wet where I was. The ground was cold and slippery. I groaned out, a loud sound just attacking my ears over and over. Nothing but confusion clouded me. I tried prying through but all that met me was more confusion, My eyes peeled open, seeing rocks all around, them wet and green from the ever-green moss. I pushed up, my arms coming around my waist, and realizing that I was naked besides for the shirt that had been lain over my body. My head pounded hard, just confused of where I was and what was happening.I realized I was in a cave after much scalping. It was cold and just having me tremble. A waterfall curtain hid me away from what stood beyond yet as I listened, I heard the movement of water. I stared down at the shirt covering me and the pair of pants, shoes and socks folded a few feet away.My body pushed up. I lowered the
“ I am going to rest in my room. It has been long months, I think we all just need rest.” Vlad said with him moving to clasp Dante’s side in a brotherly manner.“ We will, go rest Vlad, and thank you for everything. I appreciate you my friend.” Dante said back.“ Any time brother.” Vlad said out, walking from the king to nod his head as he passed me still nursing the glass of alcohol I just could not finish. The thing tasted awful. I had drank halfway through and that was how far I was going to go. My feet moved, carrying the glass back to the liquor station to place it down. I suddenly felt nervous and I did not know why. I heard the movement behind me and I could not help but get more nervous where I stood. Yet, at the same time, my body sparked with excitement of being near the king.Arms circled around my waist as my body was pulled closer to his. My eyes closed, my head angling to the side slowly as I melted into him. I missed his touch, taking a whiff of his scent deep from the
I was not going to wait any minute longer in that ash field with the wind howling as the weather changed little by little. The sky turned gray just as fast, the wind picking up and having the ash assault our senses. I was not going to let Dante continue standing there, staring at the last piece of his previous life.It was time to heal and let go. They never deserved him and I was going to treasure him like they never did. My hand ran to his which still had blood drip from it. I clenched his fist, letting him know that I was there, that I would always be there.“ Let’s go home my love.” I whispered out.Ten minutes had passed with his uncle dead, his body dry and gray with his heart not anyway different. I was satisfied he was dead, never to come back and haunt us, not even from hell where he was going. My lips lay on the king’s exposed arm. Too much had happened and I just wanted to hold him for the rest of the night while whispering that we would be okay over and over again.His hea
“ When we are done with this, what do you want, anything?” He asked having me to chuckle as a smile spread little by little over my face.“ Me and you alone for a week in our room, only going out to swim naked in the lake or stroll in the gardens.” I said out with a chuckle pulled from the king as a smile slowly crept over his face.“ I like that.” He said back with me liking the sound of that too. His head dipped down again, claiming my lips. We held each other as if we would not get another chance. We kissed each other as if we would not get another chance again. It felt like years later when he pulled back, my toes curled. He smiled at me with such sweetness it had my whole body as if to curl into this beautiful flower. His thumb brushed on my cheek and I loved it so much.“ I love you my queen.”“ And I love you my king.” I said back happily and sheepishly. He brought up my crown then pulled it over my head.“ I think I will shift.” I said out to him as he placed the crown on my h
We reached the second section which dealt with animal care and rearing. The livestock would be brought in the next week but the facilities were all ready to go. It was all magnificent, having me nearly emotional because I could not believe we had done it. I could not believe we had brought the dream to life even better than we had thought it ever would.The king suddenly stopped and his hand squeezed mine. My head turned to him with my eyes taking him in because I knew something was up. His eyes locked with mine in communication that indeed, something had just happened.He cleared his throat.“ Maximus, it seems you will have to excuse the queen and I for a few minutes, but you can proceed with the tour.” The king said out with a dreadful feeling just wash over my whole body. What could it be? For crying out loud, couldn’t we catch a break? Not when I was that tired. I was so tired even my soul was tired.“ Yes your majesty.” Maximus said back, him bowing for us as we turned around. V