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HEAVY SNOW AND FEELINGS
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2025-03-11 11:00:21ARI
It's safe to say winter is my favourite time of the year.
“I hate when we do this every year.” Mimi is shaking next to me, bundled up in so many layers I can't help the chuckle that slips out.
“Are you that cold?”
“I can feel it in my bones. I don't understand why you are wearing that.” by that she means a hoodie and that’s it.
I could be naked and in the snow for days and not feel a thing.
Yes, we are very warm by nature, but only to some degree. Some wolves prefer warmer weather, and others are much at home deep in the snow.
I was born in the white Alps, where it’s snowing all year round. This place reminds me a little bit of home.
We are on a school trip- a trip that will last for a week. So deep in the mountain, where snow is so thick, if you don’t shake it off after two minutes, you will be layered in it.
I was expecting some sort of ca
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