BREA POV.I was counting the seconds and every noise I heard made the hope in my chest flare to life, that Nicolai had come to rescue me, but it was always Lucas, and each time he came into my room, I couldn't help my blood running cold even though I feigned indifference.I knew he was going to snap soon. All his words had been to disarm me but he was foolish if he thought that I believed any of it.Love. I doubt he even knew what the word meant. The way he watched me though, I knew he wanted me, and that scared me. I didn't want him to touch me. Waking up to his hand grazing my thigh had made my skin crawl so bad, I wanted to cut my freaking flesh off. He was trying to act kind, but I knew how ugly he could get, how evil he truly was.Thinking about how he'd touched me- like he had a right to- made me see red, and if I'd had a weapon, he would have been dead in the blink of an eye, and it would be because of his nasty wondering hands. Just like Nicolai, Lucas was unpredictable, and
LUCAS POV."You'll always be the one in the background, unseen and useless because you do not matter! Her words rang in my head even as I walked out of the room. She was playing with fire and she didn't even know it. She thought she had hurt me... she did hurt me, judging by the twisted way I felt. I wanted to smash something up so bad, I shook with it. She was lucky I was choosing to walk away because I knew if I stayed, I was going to do something crazy like put a bullet in her head and watch those defiant eyes of hers that swirled with different shades of bright vivid colors close forever.I had been kind and patient with her when all I'd really wanted to do was to use her until every twisted fantasy I had of her in my head was sated, yet she'd chosen to turn a blind eye to everything.Even when I told her the truth about my childhood so that she could see what sought of monster Nicolai truly was and how he didn't deserve anyone's love.He'd hurt her and yet, she was still holding
NICOLAI POVI was working around the clock, but the longer it took to get tangible Intel on where Lucas might be, the more furious I got. Brea has been with him for three days now, and even though he'd promised not to hurt her if I followed his order, I knew he was a lying bastard.And the longer I waited, the more horrible the feeling of fear and anger crept up on me... I tried not to imagine anything negative, but I couldn't. Couldn't even sleep, because how could I fucking rest when Brea was missing all because I failed to keep her safe. It was infuriating. "Where are you, Lucas? Where are you hiding?" I murmured to myself, clenching my fist. I shut my eyes, picturing Brea just as I remembered her. My attraction to her had been volatile, and with her gone, instead of that feeling burning out, it fucking raged. It made my skin prickle as if I didn't see her I was going to disintegrate into nothingness.I could give everything up for her. I will if I must. Her safety came first.I'd
BREA POVLucas walked back in to meet me eating the meal he'd brought in, and whatever dark look had clouded his face slowly disappeared."I thought you didn't want to eat," he said, staring at me as if I was some strange creature."I was starving" I confessed and he came to seat beside me."How does it taste? I made it myself" he asked staring at me, waiting impatiently.I could see it now. He just wanted to be seen, appreciated, or maybe even revered. My words from earlier must have hurt him more than he let on."It's very delicious," I said, and he tried not to smile, but I could see his lips curving a bit. "I learned online. I am very good at mastering things in one go" he bragged and I nodded, agreeing with him.And to show him I appreciated his effort, I made sure to eat every last drop.Lucas looked pleased as he watched me."Did you enjoy your meal"?"I did" I answered and his brows dipped again."Is this some sort of tactic of yours... Do you think you can trick me into lett
NICOLAI POV.There were fresh tire tracks on the damp forest floor. Did Lucas leave? Or was he still inside? The cocky bastard, he'd thought he could hide away forever. Too bad, everything was going to be freaking over before it even got started. Gabriel scoured the area, but I could already tell that we were alone. I walked towards the panel that led down to the underground house and noticed that it was open. Alarm bells flared in my head even as I tried to remain calm.Did Lucas somehow find out that I'd already discovered where he was hiding, and left? It was impossible. I was just being paranoid.I pulled out my gun as I descended the stairs, making the littlest noise possible. Gabriel followed behind me. But It was quiet, too quiet.I stepped toward the first room, while Gabriel walked to the door on my left.I gave him a signal and then simultaneously we kicked open the door, our weapon aimed and ready for any action. It was empty, but I could see it was a bedroom, and Lucas p
TWO YEARS LATER."Let go, Brea. Let go, he tapped out" The voice of my coach reached the grunting sounds of my opponent that had risen to a crescendo in my ear, and I let go reflexively, the buzzy hazy place I'd slipped into clearing away. I blinked rapidly, struggling to clear my vision and take in the extent of the damage I'd done. The man's dry heaves and cough reached my ear and from the painful sound of it, I knew I was going to get my ear full from the coach's tirade."Sorry man," I apologized and helped my sparring partner to his feet. His face was bloated, dark bruises starting to make an appearance on his pale skin from all the punches I'd thrown at him, and on his neck that I'd held in a chokehold. "I got a bit carried away".The man managed a smile, his throat working as he tried to speak. He rubbed at his throat as if to get the blood flowing back through it. "It's fine. mistakes happen" his voice sounded rough and scratchy, and I worried that I'd damaged his windpipe. He
BREA POV.My hair was getting longer, I noticed as I parked it up, and I made a mental note to cut some of it once I got back from wherever we were going for drinks.I applied a bit of gloss to my lips then I stared at my reflection. I looked really pretty but I wasn't feeling it.Glancing down at the top I wore, the name of Nicolai branded unto my skin gleamed at me, and I cussed, whipping off the cloth and changing to a longer one that covered it all the way even when I raised my arms.The cut had healed nicely, but it was always a reminder... A reminder that Nicolai owned me.Would he show up if he found out I was getting sexually attracted to someone else, would he feel it no matter how far he was... Would he know that I was planning to explore so that I could finally get rid of his touch, his brand?I should have done it a long time ago but I could still remember his words, and the look in his eyes as he threatened me, it was just as if he was whispering into my ear now."I was y
BREA POV.I splashed cold water on my face and gasped as the drunken haze I was in cleared a bit, then I stared wide-eyed at my reflection, blinking as some of the water droplets dripped into my eyes. I pressed my hand against my forehead and the side of my face and felt just how warm my body had gotten. I shouldn't have drunk so much. Now I was literally seeing Nicolai when he wasn't even there. I'd left Zeus to search for him blindly, convinced that I'd seen him before whoever it was stepped in front of my vision, blocking him from my view. The level of my desperation had me cringing but I could have sworn on my life that he'd been watching me, except I was freaking drunk, so my eyes must have been playing tricks on me. I dropped my hand on the zinc and took a deep breath. "Stop obsessing and thinking about him, Brea. He is never going to come to look for you. He already forgot about you and you need to move on and let it go" I told my reflection, then turned away sharply from the
BREA POV The hall got so quiet, you could hear a pin drop. A little hole appeared in front of Angrav's neck and I watched as red blossomed from it, and then a spray of blood hit me in the face before the man dropped to the floor. Zeus and Ryder stared shock-shelled, their jaw almost touching the floor. Then Ryder screamed, rushing towards me and brandishing a knife. Another shot swished through the air and I watched him crumble to the floor, screaming in agony as blood dripped down his thigh. "Fuck! Fuck!" He cried, then pulled out a tab and started pressing on it repeatedly. "Don't bother doing that Ryder, there is no one coming to save you. The Angrav clan is no more since your leader is dead. This house is under new management now" I smirked, taking in the horrified look on Ryder's face. I cocked my head at Zeus and watched in delight as he trembled. It wasn't from fear but rage, but there was nothing he could do about the situation. I bet he wasn't that dumb to figure out t
BREA POV.I gasped as Angrav's nails dug into my chin, and then glared into his ugly-looking face."Hmm, such a fierce look. I can see why Nicolai wants you so much" he said, turning my face from side to side before letting go.My chin itched from the pressure, but my hand was bound at the back of the chair I was sitting on, so I couldn't scratch it off. Ryder stood pressed to the wall, watching me with no expression on his face. He still looked the same, except he was missing some fingers and his hair had grown longer. I met his gaze and he frowned, murderous intent swirling in his eyes. So he wasn't sorry for what he did? I came to a decision. I was going to cut his fucking arm off when all this was over. He'd injected me with those same hands and delivered me to Lucas anyway, so it was only fair for me to return the favor.A big screen stood in front of me, and that was the only thing that occupied the space we were in. Were they planning on showing me something? I didn't know h
NICOLAI POVBrea was right, there was something fishy about the whole thing with the Angrav, hence why I was secretly making a plan B.I wasn't going to let them hurt her, but I also needed to wipe them out for good, or take over the territory because if I left them unchecked, they were only going to keep trying to obliterate me. I didn't even understand what Angrav's deal or obsession with the death of Xavier Genovese was. Had they been lovers, if they were, it would explain a lot. I would never stop seeking vengeance if anyone touched the hair on Brea's head, or put a bruise on her skin. But If I didn't put Angrav in his place, others like him will grow balls and they would try to challenge my authority, and in this fucking business, reputation was everything.I was already being disrespected anyway, and all because I chose to play nice for once. Zeus being an example... I should have just killed him earlier, but stalking my prey and instilling fear in them worked just fine to kee
BREA POVThe gym was packed, and as I took out my frustration on the punching bag I couldn't help but glance at Zeus at the opposite corner.He'd been a fucking spy, and he'd tried to seduce me... Was that all part of their plan? What would he have accomplished by getting me to fall in love with him?No wonder he'd been so cocky when I told him that Nicolai was going to kill him if he didn't leave me alone.I could still remember his words from that day. "You underestimate me Brea, but don't worry, I am going to make sure that that doesn't happen. I won't allow Nicolai to hurt you anymore" he had uttered, fire burning in the depth of his gaze. I should have seen then that he wasn't ordinary, especially since everyone revered Nicolai. Then there was Ryder who was now on my kill list. The manipulative son of a bitch was going to die at my hand, I swore it.He'd betrayed me to Lucas and now he was trying to sell me off to the Angrav's.There was only so much I could take before I snapp
NICOLAI POV"So this is all a big conspiracy" I mused, scoffing, my hand clenching the phone I held to my ear.I glanced back at Brea who still had her eyes closed with her mouth slightly parted, soft air escaping her lips as her chest rose and fell. She was so cute, it tugged painfully at my heart.The blanket half covered her and I could see the marks I'd left on her skin, gleaming as the lights from the lamp cast its glow over her. She was perfect, just like I'd known she would be.She'd told me she loved me, and it had caught me by surprise, because how could she love me after everything I did to her, but someone she did, even though she knew I was a monster?Brea had put her trust In me and even though I was a maniac, my brain always firing off and trying to deviate from the normal norms, I was going to keep her trust, I was going to protect her, and I was going to give her anything she wanted.I haven't seen her smile in a while and on a normal day, it wouldn't have mattered, ju
ZEUS POVHer rejection shouldn't have hurt, especially since it was something that I had anticipated, but it did, and I did not like the dark feeling it evoked In my chest. I wanted to fucking smash something, but the gadget in the house I stood in was freaking expensive and I didn't want to be indebted more than I already was to my piece of shit older brother. Brea was a victim in all this mess and Nicolai Fernandez was the fucking bastard who didn't deserve her. He was a psychopath anyway and Brea should know better. He was only going to hurt her in the end.I dragged my hand through my hair, sighing in exasperation. For all of my life, I never thought that I would get involved in my brother's plot for revenge, but after the death of Xavier, and the attack of Nicolai against his syndicate, he'd been voracious for it and had come to me seeking for my help. I'd refused at first since I wanted to do nothing with the syndicate, but Angrav knew some things about me that could land me in
BREA POV His words raised goosebumps on my skin and I am so disoriented by the sudden, power shift that I don't even fight back as he took my wrists and cuffed them to the bed.I swallowed hard as he yanked the bathrobe off my shoulders, almost ripping the material in half with the force he used. And then he did rip it, the tear ringing like a Canon in my ears. I gasped, shutting my eyes for a second as I burned up from the adrenaline coursing through my naked skin. I tried to wriggle away from him, but he put a stop to my movement as he straddled my thighs, holding me in place, his capable hands cupping my ass. His touch fucking scalded my skin and a harsh breath punched out of my lungs."What the hell do you think you are doing" I managed to get out, licking my lips nervously."Reminding you who you belong to" he growled, then yanked my hips back to get himself in a better position, holding me still with his dominant hands.“Relax, Brea,” he whispered, leaning forward to press a
BREA POVSomeone was watching me and I could tell who it was even though I was still asleep. I jumped from the bed, my eyes flying open and blinking rapidly in the darkened room. I hit the light switch, trying to regulate my panic-induced breathing.I was alone, but there was a gut feeling that told me I wasn't. I dragged my hand through my hair, exhaling tiredly. Last night had been draining, maybe that was why I was feeling paranoid. I'd forced myself to go out with the rest of the crew... Andre had been really excited about the win, and the proud way he'd announced me to the rest of the crew had made me feel all warm and floaty inside. It was good to win, and as we all had fun, I'd been able to forget about Nicolai and Zeus for a while. Zeus literally disappeared after our encounter in the changing room, and Melissa recalled him saying he was going home to crash.Well, that was all over now. He was going to stay away and I was going to make sure of it. Nicolai on the other hand
BREA POVMy body was wound up tight like a rubber band and I couldn't bring myself to move as I gaped at the spot that Nicolai had occupied just some seconds ago. The ghost of his finger against my throat still lingered and my lips throbbed, the feel of the harsh way he'd kissed me ingrained into my memory for good.I counted my heartbeat as it ricochet beneath my ribs. I couldn't breathe or gather my thoughts, especially not when my body fucking burned like I'd been lit afire.My head felt fuzzy as I dragged my fingers against my swollen lips, then down my throat, my eyes slipping close as I tried to relieve his touch.A door slammed outside and I jerked, my eyes flying open as my heart rate increased, almost to the point that it fucking hurt.What the hell are you doing Brea? I asked myself, dragging my hand through my hair and wincing from the dark bruises that littered my torso from the fight earlier.Nicolai was back, and contrary to what I thought, he hadn't forgotten about me