“Tamika…?” I whispered to myself as I was staring at the video in awe. I could barely move as I watched the video of Tamika Fisher being…I didn't even have the words for what I was watching at that moment. It was just so… My word bank had suddenly gone bankrupt as I couldn't get myself to stop watching the video which had me even more infuriated with each passing second. The sound of her moaning over heavy breathing had me feeling horrible— jealous as I watched some unknown man who was behind the camera as he was having her to his utmost satisfaction. The way he treated her like she was some sex toy that he could twist and bend to his pl, ease. I just couldn't take it anymore as I pressed the screen of the phone against the couch. My mood had changed into something foul which I couldn't stand at all. It wasn't clear to me why that video affected me so much even though I wasn't emotionally attached to her… yet. There were just too many things unclear to me at that point, the firs
“It was all the stupid things I did with that bastard and he just wants to use it all against me right now…” I was probably regretting the fact that I had ever run into Randy, let alone date him. Dolph seemed agitated about the video. It had gotten to him, regardless of how much he had been trying to hide it from the very start. He had barely looked me in the eye since I had come downstairs.That made me feel even more ashamed of myself as I felt so cheap and demeaned. My self-worth had plummeted all the way down to the deepest depths imaginable. It made me feel unable to stand myself. I took a seat beside Dolph who was silent, like a disappointed lover. We had agreed we wouldn't let our emotions get in the way of anything but there we were.“I'm sorry this is all taking you by surprise…” I tried to break the ice that was beginning to settle between the both of us but the coldness he was showing me at that point was simply impregnable. “This is a mistake from my past which has come
“Oh…” I was shaken out of my sleep by the buzzing of my alarm clock. I wanted to get out of bed, but Michael was all over me, and I wanted to stay that way underneath him and under his influence. I turned off the alarm clock immediately and let myself enjoy Michael's company while I still could. The morning sun was yet to take its place in the sky and that made me feel a bit more comfortable about not waking up for my usual five o'clock runs.For some reason, I could tell Michael was already awake as his hand had moved to my breasts. I lay on my left side with my back turned on him, which made me feel his hardness pushing against the softness of my ass. All of those just couldn't be mere coincidences.“Michael…” I called his name teasingly as a smile curled up my lips. I flipped my lying position, just so I could see him. He looked quite adorable while sleeping— pretending to sleep rather. A mischievous smile came on his face while his eyes were still closed. His eyes opened slowly
“Where's she?” I questioned myself as I was looking around everywhere for Tamika. I was beginning to get scared that my coldness towards her had resulted in her doing something way overboard.Her room was intact. Everything was in place except Tamika in her bed. She never got up that early for anything. Had she decided to get help for herself after my show of jealousy-inspired coldness? It seemed most likely.There wasn't a single trace of her in the room. Not even a goodbye note to let me know if she was leaving for good. My heart was about to explode from the unbearable feeling of having lost her.“I’ll have to call you back, Michael. You can head over to the office and cover up for me until I'm back.” I was trying my best not to show the emotions that were boiling within me as they threatened to spill out into my voice.“Sure thing…” Michael said as he hung up instantly, leaving me all alone to face the music I had decided to compose for myself. My mind was going crazy with all so
“I’m at your front door,” I said without any show of emotion whatsoever. It was hard imagining what was about to come next, but then I had myself steadied for it. “Hurry now…I don't have all day.” “Relax. Tamika. I should be the one in charge of the timing of this meeting. I'm the one with all the leverage so I should be the one calling all the shots here…” Randy replied with a cold tone that made me hate him even more. “Are you coming down here or not?” I questioned as I was sizzling from the fact that I was waiting for him. He had taken matters too far by sending those videos to Dolph and for some reason I had seen it all coming.“You're audacious even though you know that your nudity is a few finger taps away from being shown to the whole world.” Randy was intentionally trying to reinforce his upper hand at all costs. But then, I paid him no mind even though I knew that I was at his mercy. I pushed the doorbell repeatedly as a means to transfer my frustration to him wherever he
Was it weird? Hell yeah, it was. But then, I just had to drive with Julia to Randy's place as that was the only way I could locate Tamika.The ride had been utterly quiet so far as she hadn't begun directing me to where that bastard lived. I just couldn't wait till I got my hands on him. I was going to make him pay for putting us through all that trouble. “Hello…” Julia had me feeling weird with the way she said that to me. It felt like she was trying to say, ‘I’m right here, don't just act like you don't see me.’I had zoned out into my thoughts to the point where I had almost thought myself to be all alone in the car and she had just brought me back to reality with that.“Sorry… I was just too caught up in my thoughts…” I apologized still with my eyes on the road. “You're Julia, right?” I instantly felt weird for asking such an irrelevant question in an attempt to spark a conversation. “Of course, I'm Julia. Why else would I be in the car if I wasn't.” She laughed as she said that
“Your Showtime's over…” Dolph stood there, facing off with Randy as I hid behind Dolph from the effects of the possible explosion that was about to take place there and then. “What are you doing in my house?” Randy questioned as he stood to his feet to square up to Dolph who seemed ready to go physical on Randy even though he was all suited up. “I interrupted your little shoot…” Dolph said as he stared him deep in the eye. “You think I didn't see your buddy holding the camera back there? Well, think again.”“What?” I suddenly let out as I couldn't believe that even in his moments of sincerity, Randy was also up to a lot of mischief underneath his sleeves. “You were filming all of this the whole time?” I was scared as I was slowly coming to realize what that meant. Everything had been caught on camera… even that forced kiss as well. It made me feel foolish how I had fallen for the same truck over and over again. “Tamika… it's not what you think…” Randy let out as he sounded less ag
I was silent as I entered the house. I had been expecting such a confrontation with Tamika, but I hadn't expected her to bring the fight to my doorstep that early. Now she has ruined things with Amelia and I. Amelia had seen me while I had been on my knees, and that was the most demeaning moment of it all. I was almost unable to raise my head to hers to say a single word.Tamika had brought Dolph along again to have me humiliated, and that was unforgivable. It was clear that she would never give in to the proposal I had given her. She probably wasn't considering it for a moment.“Are you going to tell me anything about what just happened?” Amelia asked as she came down the stairs, fully dressed and ready to leave. She seemed to be still shaken up by the rapid sequence of events that had just happened. At first, I felt like I didn't owe any explanation to a woman whom I had just met yesterday, even though I had suddenly become emotionally attached to her. But then, I felt like I had
"And yeah... I'm going to pay him a surprise visit..." I decided that as I was on the phone with Julia while trying to get out of bed. "That would spice things up as we would get to make out in his office...""You are naughtier than you sound on the radio..." Julia remarked as she was laughing hard over the phone with some music playing in the background. Soon enough, I was in the car on my way to the office. I was sure that Dolph was bound to be happy if he saw me showing up there. I was happy that I was going to be putting a smile on his face at that point. The air was simply cool all around me and it felt real good, much cooler than it would feel on a normal day. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to have a great day as I was about to make it all happen right there and then. I wanted to recreate the memory of the night that we had in his office on the night of the anniversary. There were just too many things that had me feeling like that moment in hi
"Hey, Dolphy..." I said as I was soon walking towards him with a walk that I made as seductive as possible. It seemed like I was about to face one of the most unimaginable moments that I would ever be in. Dolph was looking like a helpless prey in my hands at that point, as he was reeling from the effects of the drug he used to be so hung on. That moment had me wondering what exactly I would be up against in the next couple of moments as I was soon seeing the desires that were burning up in his eyes as he seemed to be sizing me up right at that moment. "What… are you doing here?" He sounded like he was out of breath like he was being eaten up slowly by a disease for which the only antidote to it was my body. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to be eaten whole. "Are you all right, Dolph...?" I asked, knowing that he was far from all right as he was looking to get his hands on me. "You don't look all right to me... you're looking like you are about to l
"Hello, Tamika's husband…" Michael reminded me of the title my mom had given me back then as I was driving to my office. It was bad that I had been called that by my mother, but then I wasn't going to tolerate that at all from Michael. "Call me that again and you're fired…" I said jokingly as I soon had the casino in view. I didn't know what it was that made everything seem much more beautiful after I had gotten married. That was my first time stepping out of the house after I had gotten married, and it was feeling quite awesome. The look of that ring on my finger was quite exhilarating each time my eyes came to where the steering was. It was almost hard for me to understand how I had been able to get it all to work out to the point where I got married to Tamika. There had been a lot of hindrances, but somehow we were able to get out of everything. "So, what's up? How's the newer couple in town holding up?" Michael asked as he was sounding like he had just woken from a long, event
"Are you sure it's that important?" I just didn't know what it was that made me feel cynical about Dolph's decision to go along with the visit to the office. He had just gotten married two days ago and there he was, suddenly trying to head back to the office when he was meant to be in bed with his wife. "It's not like important important, but I won't take long, I promise. Just need to get some files and I will be back with you, hun…" Dolph said as he went on with dressing up. He was dressing casually to the office in a bid to convince me that he wasn't going to stay long. But I still wasn't convinced by any of it. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I couldn't make it past those few moments without him by my side. It was hard for me to understand what exactly I would be doing all alone in those few moments that I would be all alone in there. "Tamika…" he said, as he put his arms around me after turning away from the mirror that time around. "You know I'll miss
I couldn't deny how lonely it felt, having to watch everything happen from the confines of my solitude which was eating me up slowly as I was almost losing it from watching the clips of Tamika's wedding online. It was quite a hard sight to behold but it ailed me greatly as I believed that all of this was meant to have happened between me and Ava. But that bastard Dolph had taken my place by her side and it was simply the hardest thing to watch. I just couldn't stand the sight of it. The jealousy had me burning up badly like I was having a fever. At first, I wanted to act cool and pretend that I was happy for her and all of that. But the pretentious act wasn't working as I had thought she wouldn't be happy with anyone else besides me. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was being mocked and made fun of with all those pictures and videos of them floating all through the net. It felt like she was trying to show me how capable she was to find happiness in the arms of
"But they just got married… how could you possibly be thinking of doing something that would cause them to split immediately? That's simply unfair." Amelia's words sounded like mere lip service to me as she almost sounded like she was just trying to show that she still had a conscience which was alive and breathing. Like she didn't want the same thing. "Quit acting like you were so happy with seeing that my brother had you replaced with her," I said, hitting her hard in places that I knew she wouldn't recover easily from. She was quite an egotistic one and I knew it was going to take way more than talk to get her to believe that the plan would be in her best interest as well. That would take a lot from me, but I didn't mind if that would be the case as long as she would end up agreeing to my request. It was hard for me to think of what I would be able to do at that point. "I understand, but still…" she paused a bit before restarting. "Are you going to make yourself come in betwee
It had been a refreshing moment being in the shower with Dolph, up until the moment he had made mention of the way we had met. It had me feeling awkward and it ended up ruining the entire moment for me. I wondered just how long all of that would go on. It was almost beginning to look like things would never get back to normal ever again. From that moment, I decided that I would be staying away from my phone and every external connection, as that had been mainly what had caused all of that. If I would stay away from Dale and all of his lies and frame-ups then I would surely regain the sanity I once had before have took it all away from me. "Let's just be happy…" I whispered to myself as I was about to leave the mirror which I had been staring at for the past couple of moments. I was feeling my confidence as it waned with each passing moment. It was bound to be another moment of putting up fake smiles for the cameras. It was almost like I would be airing on a show where I had to
I stood there in the shower, as I was breathing heavily as I had just dodged a major bullet from all that had just happened to me at that point. A lot was going on in my head as I was trying to figure my way out of that mess. It was hard to stay put that time around as I was realising that the effects of that drug in my system were about to cost me my marriage.That moment had me feeling impatient to go and find out what I had to do from Dr. Meyers. It almost felt like I couldn't do anything from that point onwards. It almost felt like my predicament was the most hopeless of all. There just weren't any means of identifying how I could be able to stay away from misbehaving until we had a lasting solution to that. There were no words to describe just how miserable I felt at that moment. All that our union was hanging on to at that point was Tamika's trust in me. I felt the desperate need to get her to trust me all over again, as the trust she had for me seemed to be wavering with each
It felt like my world had suddenly stopped and restarted hurriedly as I stood there staring at my screen. What was that I was looking at? It was almost impossible for me to keep a straight focus at that point, as I wanted to believe that what I was looking at was some sort of strange, unreal reality.I could bet that Dale was giggling victoriously wherever he was at the moment. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I was about to lose my mind from just watching the video. I turned off the screen at once as I was looking to keep myself from falling apart right there and then. Why was everything popping up right there and then?For the next couple of moments, I forgot that Dolph was in the room and it made me feel like I was about to lose my mind from the pressure that was coming on me slowly. The words he was saying to his mother over the phone were simply breezing past me as I was simply trying to get my mind off the video I saw. That one hit differently as I had s