In the heat of my desperation and mixed feelings, I was still taking yet another look at the video that tensed my heart.“I'm back, Tamika…” Dolph came right through the door with a slight look of excitement which usually meant that he was actually, overly excited at that point. “What did I miss?”“Well, nothing really,” I said as I put my phone away quickly. I had been watching the videos all over again, even after having promised myself that the last time would be the last time I would watch it. But there I was, watching it like it was some sort of movie clip that one would just watch over and over until they couldn't get enough of it.“So… what's the celebration face all about?” I asked as I put up a fake smile so that he wouldn't know that there was a cause for alarm. I concealed it perfectly, as he came walking towards me with his arms sprawled out for a hug. I just wanted to drown myself in his embrace without thinking about anything I had seen in the video. But that was impos
There was absolute silence in the room as I returned from the bathroom. I had washed up pretty well and I was able to regain composure after a few moments. But then, the way Dolph was staring at me had me feeling like I was some sort of specimen that had been placed in a glass for all to see. I didn't like it at all, but then I just endured it as I stepped toward him. The look in his eyes made it look like he desperately wanted to say something but was reserving his comments for peace's sake. “You're pregnant, aren't you?” He didn't sound shocked, nor did he sound excited about it. He seemed to be having mixed feelings about the most probable possibility. “I don't think so… I've just been feeling sick ever since…” I had indeed been feeling sick since that morning and I just didn't want to agree that it could have been a possible pregnancy from my end. I didn't know why I didn't want a pregnancy, but then, I didn't think I was ready in any way to have his baby. “Are you sure abou
“That's great news… what's with the sad tone that's making it look like you suddenly received some sort of death sentence…?” Julia said, using the exact words that Dolph had said to me. I was almost freaking out with each moment of that phone call where Julia seemed to be congratulating me on conceiving. It wasn't a bad thing entirely but I just had the feeling that it just happened at the wrong time. I just felt I just want ready for any of that. “Are you listening to the way you sound, Tamika? You need to cheer up. This is Dolph Martin's baby you're carrying here. You don't know just how many people wished they had the opportunity that you just got right now. So… just cheer up and accept all of the benefits that come with you being the mother of his child.” Julia made me feel like she was the therapist and I was now the patient.“Alright…” I sighed, as it was hard to cheer up at that point. I didn't know why it felt like I had just married my celebrity status. People knew the unm
“What was that?” Dolph's eyes narrowed as though he seemed like he could recognize that sound from somewhere. He could have probably still had memories of his ordeals with his victims and they were all playing back in his head. I had never felt so stupid and so irresponsible in my entire life. Why in the world had I forgotten to turn the volume down? The pregnancy suddenly made me unable to think well. There were just too many things that were about to go wrong in such a wonderful moment as that, and it was all going to be my fault. “It's nothing…” I muttered with a tone that almost made it clear that I wasn't telling the truth at all. I just put a little composure into it to make it a bit more believable, even though the time in-between the question and the reply had been too long for a genuine reply. I had messed it all up big time. “I was just watching something online and then I happened to stumble into some sort of weird online that made a lot of funny sounds…”At that point, I
What the heck had I done to myself? I wondered as I was all alone in the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror with a sudden surprise that I just couldn't understand. It was quite like a dream that I had tried to go savage on Tamika. Why had that part of me suddenly been awakened at such a time as that? It was all looking like a seeming setup as I was trying to figure out what exactly had triggered that side of me. What could it have been?As I washed over my face with the water, I was soon playing it all back in my head and it was looking like it had all begun when I stepped into the room and heard the sounds of something that sounded like my past. I could almost link that memory with a smell that had come with the moment. There were a lot of things that made me feel like the man that I used to be back then. The particular clips that had played from Tamika's phone resonated in my mind with a startling kind of familiarity. “Get it together, Dolph…” I was trying to put it all b
There were no words to explain the excitement that came with the whole concept of finally having to plan my wedding. I wished I could share that moment with my mother. I was ailed by the fact that the only authentic person that I could share that moment with was Julia and no other person. My mother would be proud of me for being able to get into such a beautiful union with a handsome man which was going to change my entire life forever. The excitement in her voice when I had told her of my marriage still resonated in my head right there in the dressing room where I had been trying on the dress. That made me want to do a video call with her while I was trying the dress. I wanted her to share in every second of the thrills of my preparations for my big day. “Any problem ma'am?” the attendant asked as I suddenly stopped while trying on the dress. It was quite embarrassing that I was doing all of that right when I was supposed to try my dress on. “Oh no… I just wanted to take my phone
“Oh my…” the day was finally there and I just couldn't stay quiet about it. I had been amazed from the very moment I had woken from my sleep. There were just too many things that felt like I was about to explode from the explosion. I had hurried through all of my morning routines as I just couldn't keep the childlike excitement from expressing itself. I had skipped past some of them as I just couldn't concentrate on doing all of them. My meditation routine was almost impossible in the heat of the excitement. Julia had called me up by midnight to remind me of it, just in case I would sleep through it. There were just too many things that made it all look like it was going to be a bigger thrill than the one I had seen in those fuzzy dreams I used to have of getting married to Dolph. “Are you going to ever get off that mirror today?” Dolph asked suddenly from behind as he scared me out of my fantasies of how wonderful the day would be for the both of us. “There were a lot of things th
“Hair… check…” Michael said with a tone that felt like he was mocking me. He seemed like he was my customer as he was paying rapt attention to everything to every single detail of my appearance. His attention to detail had me wondering if he was trying to get married through me. “You know, no matter how you try to make me look like the picture of an ideal man that you have in your head, I'm still the one who's about to get married today…” I had to remind him of that as his perfectionism was beginning to get out of hand. “But then, you're doing quite a commendable job with what you're doing with me and what I look like.”“Yeah… you can always count on me if you want to ever do this again…” Michael was elated to be right there and even more elated to be able to take up the role of helping me get dressed up for everything that was about to happen. But then, he was just too energized to the point where he was saying a lot of things that weren't adding up to me. “Wait… just what do you m
"And yeah... I'm going to pay him a surprise visit..." I decided that as I was on the phone with Julia while trying to get out of bed. "That would spice things up as we would get to make out in his office...""You are naughtier than you sound on the radio..." Julia remarked as she was laughing hard over the phone with some music playing in the background. Soon enough, I was in the car on my way to the office. I was sure that Dolph was bound to be happy if he saw me showing up there. I was happy that I was going to be putting a smile on his face at that point. The air was simply cool all around me and it felt real good, much cooler than it would feel on a normal day. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to have a great day as I was about to make it all happen right there and then. I wanted to recreate the memory of the night that we had in his office on the night of the anniversary. There were just too many things that had me feeling like that moment in hi
"Hey, Dolphy..." I said as I was soon walking towards him with a walk that I made as seductive as possible. It seemed like I was about to face one of the most unimaginable moments that I would ever be in. Dolph was looking like a helpless prey in my hands at that point, as he was reeling from the effects of the drug he used to be so hung on. That moment had me wondering what exactly I would be up against in the next couple of moments as I was soon seeing the desires that were burning up in his eyes as he seemed to be sizing me up right at that moment. "What… are you doing here?" He sounded like he was out of breath like he was being eaten up slowly by a disease for which the only antidote to it was my body. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to be eaten whole. "Are you all right, Dolph...?" I asked, knowing that he was far from all right as he was looking to get his hands on me. "You don't look all right to me... you're looking like you are about to l
"Hello, Tamika's husband…" Michael reminded me of the title my mom had given me back then as I was driving to my office. It was bad that I had been called that by my mother, but then I wasn't going to tolerate that at all from Michael. "Call me that again and you're fired…" I said jokingly as I soon had the casino in view. I didn't know what it was that made everything seem much more beautiful after I had gotten married. That was my first time stepping out of the house after I had gotten married, and it was feeling quite awesome. The look of that ring on my finger was quite exhilarating each time my eyes came to where the steering was. It was almost hard for me to understand how I had been able to get it all to work out to the point where I got married to Tamika. There had been a lot of hindrances, but somehow we were able to get out of everything. "So, what's up? How's the newer couple in town holding up?" Michael asked as he was sounding like he had just woken from a long, event
"Are you sure it's that important?" I just didn't know what it was that made me feel cynical about Dolph's decision to go along with the visit to the office. He had just gotten married two days ago and there he was, suddenly trying to head back to the office when he was meant to be in bed with his wife. "It's not like important important, but I won't take long, I promise. Just need to get some files and I will be back with you, hun…" Dolph said as he went on with dressing up. He was dressing casually to the office in a bid to convince me that he wasn't going to stay long. But I still wasn't convinced by any of it. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I couldn't make it past those few moments without him by my side. It was hard for me to understand what exactly I would be doing all alone in those few moments that I would be all alone in there. "Tamika…" he said, as he put his arms around me after turning away from the mirror that time around. "You know I'll miss
I couldn't deny how lonely it felt, having to watch everything happen from the confines of my solitude which was eating me up slowly as I was almost losing it from watching the clips of Tamika's wedding online. It was quite a hard sight to behold but it ailed me greatly as I believed that all of this was meant to have happened between me and Ava. But that bastard Dolph had taken my place by her side and it was simply the hardest thing to watch. I just couldn't stand the sight of it. The jealousy had me burning up badly like I was having a fever. At first, I wanted to act cool and pretend that I was happy for her and all of that. But the pretentious act wasn't working as I had thought she wouldn't be happy with anyone else besides me. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was being mocked and made fun of with all those pictures and videos of them floating all through the net. It felt like she was trying to show me how capable she was to find happiness in the arms of
"But they just got married… how could you possibly be thinking of doing something that would cause them to split immediately? That's simply unfair." Amelia's words sounded like mere lip service to me as she almost sounded like she was just trying to show that she still had a conscience which was alive and breathing. Like she didn't want the same thing. "Quit acting like you were so happy with seeing that my brother had you replaced with her," I said, hitting her hard in places that I knew she wouldn't recover easily from. She was quite an egotistic one and I knew it was going to take way more than talk to get her to believe that the plan would be in her best interest as well. That would take a lot from me, but I didn't mind if that would be the case as long as she would end up agreeing to my request. It was hard for me to think of what I would be able to do at that point. "I understand, but still…" she paused a bit before restarting. "Are you going to make yourself come in betwee
It had been a refreshing moment being in the shower with Dolph, up until the moment he had made mention of the way we had met. It had me feeling awkward and it ended up ruining the entire moment for me. I wondered just how long all of that would go on. It was almost beginning to look like things would never get back to normal ever again. From that moment, I decided that I would be staying away from my phone and every external connection, as that had been mainly what had caused all of that. If I would stay away from Dale and all of his lies and frame-ups then I would surely regain the sanity I once had before have took it all away from me. "Let's just be happy…" I whispered to myself as I was about to leave the mirror which I had been staring at for the past couple of moments. I was feeling my confidence as it waned with each passing moment. It was bound to be another moment of putting up fake smiles for the cameras. It was almost like I would be airing on a show where I had to
I stood there in the shower, as I was breathing heavily as I had just dodged a major bullet from all that had just happened to me at that point. A lot was going on in my head as I was trying to figure my way out of that mess. It was hard to stay put that time around as I was realising that the effects of that drug in my system were about to cost me my marriage.That moment had me feeling impatient to go and find out what I had to do from Dr. Meyers. It almost felt like I couldn't do anything from that point onwards. It almost felt like my predicament was the most hopeless of all. There just weren't any means of identifying how I could be able to stay away from misbehaving until we had a lasting solution to that. There were no words to describe just how miserable I felt at that moment. All that our union was hanging on to at that point was Tamika's trust in me. I felt the desperate need to get her to trust me all over again, as the trust she had for me seemed to be wavering with each
It felt like my world had suddenly stopped and restarted hurriedly as I stood there staring at my screen. What was that I was looking at? It was almost impossible for me to keep a straight focus at that point, as I wanted to believe that what I was looking at was some sort of strange, unreal reality.I could bet that Dale was giggling victoriously wherever he was at the moment. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I was about to lose my mind from just watching the video. I turned off the screen at once as I was looking to keep myself from falling apart right there and then. Why was everything popping up right there and then?For the next couple of moments, I forgot that Dolph was in the room and it made me feel like I was about to lose my mind from the pressure that was coming on me slowly. The words he was saying to his mother over the phone were simply breezing past me as I was simply trying to get my mind off the video I saw. That one hit differently as I had s