Everything seemed pretty gloomy at that point as I was lying on the couch. Going to the bed upstairs would only remind me more of my pain and that would only make me feel worse than before. “Oh my…” I let out a sigh as I was trying my best not to get my mind on those hurtful feelings that had me paralyzed. There on that couch, I made up my mind that I was going to head right over to his office and pour out my heart to him one more time. After that, I would take my hands off. The phone buzzed with a seeming urgency to pick up. I hadn't been in the mood to answer any calls all evening, except if was Michael calling to tell me that he was going to hear me out one more time. I looked over to see the name of the caller. Disappointment gripped me from inside as I saw Tamika's name on the screen instead of Michael's which I had been expecting. I had just too few words to spare at that point, even though there were a lot of things that I had been storing up in my heart which was seeking
“There you are…” Phil said as he seemed to have been expecting me ever since. I still didn't know what exactly had made me come out there. It was simply a horrible thing for me to be able to come out there and have a talk with the man who had been the cause of everything in the first place. “I have just five minutes to spare…” I said as I was simply in a haste and I wasn't going to have any spare time for that. “And you had better make good use of them to explain what exactly you have come here for.”He paused for a couple of moments before he let out his usually annoying laugh. I almost felt like strangling him at that point, as his laughter seemed to show just how remorseless he was about what he had just done in my life. “May I come in, sweetheart…?” he said the last part of his question in a way that made me feel like strangling him at once. “You know, we can't have this conversation outside here.”“Are you high on something?” I was wishing I had come out with something to whac
She was surprised as expected, but there was also fear in her eyes, and that had me feeling much like I had done something wrong. I suspected that I had done something wrong. Tamika had said to show her just how much I loved her and was hoping that I hadn't overdone it back there, as that seemed to be the part that had blown it all for me. “Michael…” Julia seemed too shocked to say a single word to me, and I was expecting that as well. “How did you… why are you…”“Hush now, my love…” I said, as I put a finger over her lips and made sure that she wasn't going to ruin the moment with any wrong words. “We don't want to let this stranger hear how things are going between us.”I knew more than anyone that I was sounding weird at that point. There were a lot of things that made me feel like I was on the verge of losing it. But I steeled myself as I turned around to Phil to face him eye to eye. Phil had been surprised for a while, but he neutralized his facial expression. He stared at me
Seeing all those faces while walking down the aisles in my dream wasn't scaring me as much as it had scared me the first time I had the dream. There were just too many things that made me feel like I would enjoy that moment even more when it would finally be happening to me in real life. I felt like most luckiest of all women as I walked up to the altar from the aisle. All the eyes that were on me made me feel like the celebrity that I was. That moment was bound to be all over the net, as I walked gracefully to the altar being clothed in what I had deemed to have been the most flamboyant wedding gown that Dolph had forced on me.Just when I was standing face to face with Dolph for him to unveil me as his wife, I was out of the dream at once. I was feeling quite angry with the phone buzzing beside me which had shaken me out of sleep. It was all the complete opposite of what it used to be the first time when I would feel relieved to be woken from the dream. But then, my anger was p
“Oh my… Dolph could go to these extents to propose to her?” Julia let out as we had been in bed, watching that video like there was nothing else to do with our time. “That was well planned, don't you think?”“Uhm… yeah…” I had been a bit absent-minded for the past couple of moments as I was trying my best not to get too caught up in all that had happened the day before. I had promised Julia that it was all behind us at the moment, and I was going to do everything that I could to keep it that way. There were just too many things that made me feel like I would never forget that moment when she had locked lips with Phil. “Are you all right?” Julia seemed to have noticed me zoning out for a couple of moments. “Oh yeah… I'm doing great.” I said as I was trying to put up a smile to cover up my slip-ups. “I was just wondering how he could have been able to have that car flipped upside down.”“Yeah… right… how did he pull that off?” She asked, not knowing that I had been part of every sing
“Are you all right, Tamika?” I came down the stairs, fully clothed and ready to head out. But then, I wasn't liking the look on her face at that point. It had me quite disturbed and unable to leave her in that state.“Oh… no… I'm fine… just a bit moody. That's all.” She was putting up one of those faces that showed that she was hiding something from me. “I was quite worried from the unsettled things that kept popping up in my head.”“I'm sorry that you're feeling this way,” I said as I tried my best not to feel bad for her. I could only imagine how it felt, having my parents to contend with when it came to my marriage.I sat beside her on the couch and put my hand on hers as I pulled her into my embrace which I believed could make him feel much better than she was at the moment. “So… what are you planning on doing?” She asked as she took a good look at me. “I meant, where are you going? I thought today was meant to be an off day for us in here.”“Of course, it's an off day. I just ha
I just wasn't sure if I was making the right decision at that point as I was trying to get my mind off all of that could go wrong from this meeting. There were a lot of thoughts that made me feel like I was either about to get my hands on something that would make me hate Dolph or run into some bastard who was just too passionate to meet Tamika Fisher. It was either one of the above. There was nothing to fear as I had some of the guards with me and the meeting was happening in quite an open place. I just wanted to make it all quick so Dolph wouldn't return to find out that I hadn't been around. That would simply make him suspicious of it all. The part that made me feel even worse about myself was the part where I had coaxed the two guards who were with me into telling a lie about the whole thing if they were asked where I had been off to. The lie would be to tell him that I had gone to see Julia. Soon enough, the car pulled over in front of a café. I had disguised myself with a sc
“What do you mean?” Tamika’s old man asked as he stared at me with a cynical glance. He seemed like he had just heard me say an absurd phrase in a strange language. The look on his face almost had me a bit discouraged from saying what I was about to say, but I managed to still myself with the fact that I had been in many more unfriendly negotiations like that one. “Well, I'm here to strike a deal.” I was much more direct that time around as I was trying not to waste more time beating around the bush. “Let's not mess around, Mr. Fisher. I'm sure that it's no news to you that I want to marry your daughter.”I paused a little as I saw Tamika's stepmother as she drew closer to the table where we were having the discussion. I was almost fuming as I couldn't recall inviting her to the table and that had me furrowing my brows as she came to the table with such confidence. But then, I was going to pretend that she wasn't there at the table. All I had to do was keep my eyes on Mr. Fisher a
"And yeah... I'm going to pay him a surprise visit..." I decided that as I was on the phone with Julia while trying to get out of bed. "That would spice things up as we would get to make out in his office...""You are naughtier than you sound on the radio..." Julia remarked as she was laughing hard over the phone with some music playing in the background. Soon enough, I was in the car on my way to the office. I was sure that Dolph was bound to be happy if he saw me showing up there. I was happy that I was going to be putting a smile on his face at that point. The air was simply cool all around me and it felt real good, much cooler than it would feel on a normal day. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to have a great day as I was about to make it all happen right there and then. I wanted to recreate the memory of the night that we had in his office on the night of the anniversary. There were just too many things that had me feeling like that moment in hi
"Hey, Dolphy..." I said as I was soon walking towards him with a walk that I made as seductive as possible. It seemed like I was about to face one of the most unimaginable moments that I would ever be in. Dolph was looking like a helpless prey in my hands at that point, as he was reeling from the effects of the drug he used to be so hung on. That moment had me wondering what exactly I would be up against in the next couple of moments as I was soon seeing the desires that were burning up in his eyes as he seemed to be sizing me up right at that moment. "What… are you doing here?" He sounded like he was out of breath like he was being eaten up slowly by a disease for which the only antidote to it was my body. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to be eaten whole. "Are you all right, Dolph...?" I asked, knowing that he was far from all right as he was looking to get his hands on me. "You don't look all right to me... you're looking like you are about to l
"Hello, Tamika's husband…" Michael reminded me of the title my mom had given me back then as I was driving to my office. It was bad that I had been called that by my mother, but then I wasn't going to tolerate that at all from Michael. "Call me that again and you're fired…" I said jokingly as I soon had the casino in view. I didn't know what it was that made everything seem much more beautiful after I had gotten married. That was my first time stepping out of the house after I had gotten married, and it was feeling quite awesome. The look of that ring on my finger was quite exhilarating each time my eyes came to where the steering was. It was almost hard for me to understand how I had been able to get it all to work out to the point where I got married to Tamika. There had been a lot of hindrances, but somehow we were able to get out of everything. "So, what's up? How's the newer couple in town holding up?" Michael asked as he was sounding like he had just woken from a long, event
"Are you sure it's that important?" I just didn't know what it was that made me feel cynical about Dolph's decision to go along with the visit to the office. He had just gotten married two days ago and there he was, suddenly trying to head back to the office when he was meant to be in bed with his wife. "It's not like important important, but I won't take long, I promise. Just need to get some files and I will be back with you, hun…" Dolph said as he went on with dressing up. He was dressing casually to the office in a bid to convince me that he wasn't going to stay long. But I still wasn't convinced by any of it. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I couldn't make it past those few moments without him by my side. It was hard for me to understand what exactly I would be doing all alone in those few moments that I would be all alone in there. "Tamika…" he said, as he put his arms around me after turning away from the mirror that time around. "You know I'll miss
I couldn't deny how lonely it felt, having to watch everything happen from the confines of my solitude which was eating me up slowly as I was almost losing it from watching the clips of Tamika's wedding online. It was quite a hard sight to behold but it ailed me greatly as I believed that all of this was meant to have happened between me and Ava. But that bastard Dolph had taken my place by her side and it was simply the hardest thing to watch. I just couldn't stand the sight of it. The jealousy had me burning up badly like I was having a fever. At first, I wanted to act cool and pretend that I was happy for her and all of that. But the pretentious act wasn't working as I had thought she wouldn't be happy with anyone else besides me. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was being mocked and made fun of with all those pictures and videos of them floating all through the net. It felt like she was trying to show me how capable she was to find happiness in the arms of
"But they just got married… how could you possibly be thinking of doing something that would cause them to split immediately? That's simply unfair." Amelia's words sounded like mere lip service to me as she almost sounded like she was just trying to show that she still had a conscience which was alive and breathing. Like she didn't want the same thing. "Quit acting like you were so happy with seeing that my brother had you replaced with her," I said, hitting her hard in places that I knew she wouldn't recover easily from. She was quite an egotistic one and I knew it was going to take way more than talk to get her to believe that the plan would be in her best interest as well. That would take a lot from me, but I didn't mind if that would be the case as long as she would end up agreeing to my request. It was hard for me to think of what I would be able to do at that point. "I understand, but still…" she paused a bit before restarting. "Are you going to make yourself come in betwee
It had been a refreshing moment being in the shower with Dolph, up until the moment he had made mention of the way we had met. It had me feeling awkward and it ended up ruining the entire moment for me. I wondered just how long all of that would go on. It was almost beginning to look like things would never get back to normal ever again. From that moment, I decided that I would be staying away from my phone and every external connection, as that had been mainly what had caused all of that. If I would stay away from Dale and all of his lies and frame-ups then I would surely regain the sanity I once had before have took it all away from me. "Let's just be happy…" I whispered to myself as I was about to leave the mirror which I had been staring at for the past couple of moments. I was feeling my confidence as it waned with each passing moment. It was bound to be another moment of putting up fake smiles for the cameras. It was almost like I would be airing on a show where I had to
I stood there in the shower, as I was breathing heavily as I had just dodged a major bullet from all that had just happened to me at that point. A lot was going on in my head as I was trying to figure my way out of that mess. It was hard to stay put that time around as I was realising that the effects of that drug in my system were about to cost me my marriage.That moment had me feeling impatient to go and find out what I had to do from Dr. Meyers. It almost felt like I couldn't do anything from that point onwards. It almost felt like my predicament was the most hopeless of all. There just weren't any means of identifying how I could be able to stay away from misbehaving until we had a lasting solution to that. There were no words to describe just how miserable I felt at that moment. All that our union was hanging on to at that point was Tamika's trust in me. I felt the desperate need to get her to trust me all over again, as the trust she had for me seemed to be wavering with each
It felt like my world had suddenly stopped and restarted hurriedly as I stood there staring at my screen. What was that I was looking at? It was almost impossible for me to keep a straight focus at that point, as I wanted to believe that what I was looking at was some sort of strange, unreal reality.I could bet that Dale was giggling victoriously wherever he was at the moment. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I was about to lose my mind from just watching the video. I turned off the screen at once as I was looking to keep myself from falling apart right there and then. Why was everything popping up right there and then?For the next couple of moments, I forgot that Dolph was in the room and it made me feel like I was about to lose my mind from the pressure that was coming on me slowly. The words he was saying to his mother over the phone were simply breezing past me as I was simply trying to get my mind off the video I saw. That one hit differently as I had s