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NATHAN“I am not about to involve you in my life, Camilla”I watched her eyes flash with anger at my words.“I am going to help you take down those people and I do not want to hear another argument about it” She iterated“I am no longer on the floor, Camilla… you seem to be forgetting that I am still the boss.”She blushed at this, her eyes lowering.She blushes beautifully, I thought to myself. It surprised me how much I wanted to see the red stain her cheeks.I cleared my throat, reminding myself this wasn’t anything more than pity for me. She felt sorry and just like rich debutantes she wanted to take me on as a charity case.I mean after the sad rundown of my life that I had just given her, I would expect no less.“I do not want you involved in my life. I am only clearing up your doubts that I am fine and I can handle myself” I declared in the sternest voice I could muster.Her expression moved from shy to hurt.She had the most expressive face I had ever seen.“Then why did you c
CAMILLANathan walked in the next morning, stopping when he saw I was already seated.I rose to my feet, stepping out from my desk“Good morning, Mr Clark… is there anything I can do for you this morning” I declared in a singsong voice.He cleared his throat.“Nothing at the moment, Camilla but I will let you know when if anything comes up” He answered.I avoided looking into his eyes and so I focused on something on his shirt, a button maybe which I glared at.“Noted” I answered. “I have your appointments and meetings for the day ready and already forwarded to your mail”“Thank you”I nodded once, glancing upwards.Our eyes met for that second before I glanced away from him, hurrying back to my seat.“Camilla” He began“If there is nothing else, sir”He sighed once but he hesitated before walking away and into his office.The door closed with a dull thud and I let out the breath I had been holding in my lungs.I was furious at him but there was no way I was going to allow that come i
CAMILLAIt wasn’t long after the unforgettable scene of me crashing into my boss’ office that its door opened up again and the weird man came out.He stopped at my desk and I was forced to look at him.“I know we have only just known each other but I would love to have your number”My face stretched in a fake smile“Apologies, I cannot release that” I said“I can get it you know but it wouldn’t be as sweet as getting it out of you in the long run, Camilla” he winked.“I am sure it won’t” I responded dryly.“We should totally fuck… you are my type of girl. Icy and fire all in one” He straightened, not waiting for a response as he walked outChristian who was with him appeared mortified at his behavior and nodded an apology in my direction.But I was more concerned that Nathan did not call me inIt was a full ten minutes after and he hadn’t sent for me or rung me.I tapped my feet furiously before I rose, took a deep breath and burst into his office without knowing.“You cannot possibl
NATHANI wasn’t sure why I was furious.Was it because of what he had said about winning Camilla back?I did not think I should have been bothered seeing that she is not even mine but I was itching to smack him in his smug face.“I am here to invest” He said.“To invest?” I echoed, casting Camilla a glance.If she knew what exactly he was talking about then she had to say something.“I was forwarded a mail about you needing investors and I…” The man stopped speaking when he figured I did not know what the fuck he was talking about.“I had to do something” Camilla muttered.Of course, she had sent those mails against my express permission.I took a deep breath, leaning forward.She and I were going to talk about just how much she could interfere but for now I did not think I was going to be accepting any investment from this obvious over pampered snob.“Mr Reed, I am sorry to have wasted your time but Camilla sent whatever mails she sent of her own accord and against my instructions.”
CAMILLAI could feel the stares on my back as Nathan and I walked out of the office.He stopped at the reception for a bit while I walked ahead, my breath shaky. It was bad enough that they thought I had come in here through my family means now they would no doubt be talking about Nathan and wondering what the fuck he was doing with a competitor’s daughter.“Shall we?” I heard from behind me.The reporters had all gone, no doubt to find something more juicy than trailing after Nathan and I.“Are you not scared?” I asked him.“Of what exactly?”“That the people that work for you are most probably saying terrible things about you at the moment. I know I have caught glances in my direction more often than not”“Are you bothered?” He asked.We climbed into the car after he said something to the driver.“I have been talked about all my life” I chuckled. “Why would I be bothered? I am concerned for you”I realized my meaning after the sentence had left my mouth.”You are my boss and of cour
CAMILLA“This is the moment you tell me you are kidding” I muttered.“But I am not” He said.He did not have his usual smirk or the usual amusement in his eyes. He was actually serious about killing her husband.“How?” I asked“I have not always been on your side of the tracks, Camilla. Once, I used to be on this side and I did terrible things” He said.“What terrible things?” I asked“I worked for a drug dealer… an Italian drug dealer who used myself and boys like me to do his dirty work.”It would be the first time I was hearing anything about this. It was only possible because the media obviously did not know everything about him like they claimed.“And this man asked you to kill her husband? How old were you?” I asked“I started working for him at 15” He answered.“You were barely a teenager”“But I knew enough to know I was doing terrible things but I did not care about it. Sarah’s husband owed the man I worked for and he sent me to take care of it. It was a way for me to be prop
NATHANShe wasn’t saying anything which was unlike her.I expected that she would bombard me with questions immediately Sarah left but she was quiet… too quiet.“Well?” I prompted“Do you want to talk about it?” She asked.I had never wanted to talk about how sour my marriage had gone with Eleanor until today.“I do not want your pity, Camilla. Nobody forced me into the marriage, I was in love and we both fell out of love”“I do not pity you” Her eyes flashed.“Eleanor and I met when I was fifteen years old. My Italian boss allowed me attend an event with him and her father was host; that was the first time we met each other. She was intrigued by me and wanted to know more about whom I worked for and what I did.”“I see” She muttered.“We did not meet again until eight years later. She came to look for me and she said she wanted me to do something for her. The first year of our marriage was a fucking sham but I was in love with her and I want to believe she loved me too” I took a deep
CAMILLA“I am fucking joking… what kind of man do you think I am?” He chuckled as I let out the pent up breath in my lungs.“Do not scare me like that” I whispered furiously.“Leila is only pissed at me because we used to date before I left to marry Eleanor. She had asked us to further our relationship as it will benefit me and make me heir to her father’s entire domain but I refused” He explained.“Where is her father now?”“Last I heard, he was dead and she is not running the show”My eyes widened and I leaned forward.“She is now the head of the mafia? A woman? They are going to allow her do that?”“Leila is one thing and that is determined. She would no sooner put a bullet in anyone’s head that dares to oppose her so you have nothing to worry about and in the world where I come from, a woman can be anything if she is determined”I nodded at this information.I could almost see the world with new eyes and it marveled me how much I did not know about it.Nathan rose to his feet“Eno
CAMILLAIt was useless feeling sorry for myself, I thought.The lighting in the club was low as I stepped in with my friend, Bella.“Not bad” I murmured.“Told you” She responded triumphantly. “This is what you need to get over him. Nathan Clark is an asshole and should dump him in the dust where he belongs”I wanted to correct her that he wasn’t an asshole, he was merely disturbed but I did not.I was not here to sympathize with him or even think about him. I was here to have fun and that is what I am going to do.I was putting on a red dress and it complimented my eyes way more than I thought it would.“Come on, we should get a drink” Bella pulled me to the bar.The bartender winked at both of us and then asked what we would likeIt was at the tip of my tongue to say nothing but I was at a club, wasn’t I?“Sex on the beach” I announced.Bella turned to me, surprise in her eyes. I was pretty sure she thought she would have to force me to drink.“I would have the same” She told the ma
NATHANThere was nothing to say as I dropped Camilla off at her home.I waited until I was sure she had gotten in before I headed in the direction of my mother in law’s house.I pushed in Christian’s number, my teeth gritting as it rang.I was furious.I did not want to admit I was more furious at myself than anything.“How did your date go?” Christian’s asked as soon as the phone line clicked.“Send me the name of the witness” I grunted.“What is wrong?”“Send the name, dammit”“You need to calm down, Nathan. Where are you going?”“To settle this once and for all” I told him. “Now send the damned number to me”I hung up before he had the chance to say anything or convince me to back away because I would not.I drove way above the speed limit, stopping only when I had gotten to the mansion’s gate.It brought back memories of family dinners where I had to defend Eleanor over and over again. Where snide remarks about the reason I was with her reached my ears and she said nothing about
CAMILLA“I did not think I was ever going to see you again, Camilla” Sarah smiled as soon as I entered the restaurant.She wagged a finger in Nathan’s direction, shaking her head at him.“With the kind of food you sell? I will be coming in here for a very long time” I smiled back.Nathan and I took our seats and waited.She had a queue as usual and I could not help the smile as I glanced around.“You would have watched your father kill me” Nathan commented.“I admit that would have made me feel better for a bit” I told him.He appeared shocked but I could tell from the way his eyes twinkled with delight that he thought it hilarious.I had not expected he would go over to my parent’s house especially seeing as I wasn’t there in the first place.My father however had called me when he arrived with a gun to his head and asked if I wanted to see him. I had hesitated just for the fun of it“I deserved that”“Yes you did” I agreed.“Thank you for coming here with me”I nodded once.Sarah dr
NATHANI was pacing like a fucking clown.I was expecting Camilla at the office today to discuss the project that we were involved in together and I could not help the restlessness coursing through my body.I wasn’t one to be this nervous about anything.“Deep breaths” I told myself, trying to go along with my instructions but to no avail.So much so that when my receptionist announced her presence, I had worked myself into a frenzy.My breath caught in my throat as she walked in, her eyes taking the room before settling on me with stark clarity.What had I been thinking? I thought.Starved of attention?Who was the blithering idiot now?“You look well” She commented, taking the seat in front of me.“You look beautiful” I murmured.She paused, her eyes meeting mine.Sparks flew, that was for sure.“How do you feel?” She asked instead.“Much better. Thank you for attending to me yesterday. For even accepting the phone call from me”“Of course, I am not a demon even though I do hate you
CAMILLAI stared at my ringing phone with Nathan displayed boldly as the callers ID.What the fuck did he want?I however put it to my ear, my heart jumping at the sound of his voice“Camilla, I know you can hear me” He rasped“What do you want?” I asked.“To talk” He answered.His voice appeared tortured… like there was something wrong with him and for a minute I was concerned before my head overrode my stupidity.“Concerning the project-” I began“Not concerning the-” He sighed, his voice trailing off.“I need you” He muttered softly that if I had not been paying attention, I would have missed that simple statement.“Mr Clark” I stopped when I heard his labored breathing.“Is something wrong with you?”“No, its nothing… I just need to speak with you”“Nathan, what is the matter? You sound distressed”He chuckled and then I heard him cough in the background“You are not concerned about me now, are you?”“This is not a joke, what is wrong with you?” I asked again, feeling panicky.He
CAMILLAMy father drove us straight to the house and I did not argue nor say anything when we arrived and my mother enveloped me in a hug.“Oh baby” She crooned.“I am okay” I reassured her“Come on in”I inhaled the familiar scent of home, my muscles relaxing.“I am going to bed” I announced.Their words fell over themselves as they agreed immediately to my request.My eyes closed as soon as I fell on the bed. I did not want to think of anything, I did not want to begin to analyze the anger in my heart directed at one person in particular.When I finally opened my eyes, it was noon.I made my way downstairs and was met with the searching eyes of both my parents.“Are you okay, baby?” My mother asked.I took a seat beside them.“I am not some fragile child you have to be worried about always, mother” I said.“You are my child and I have every reason to be worried about you” she countered.“I am going to be fine” I told her.My father said nothing but I turned to him anyways.“I have d
NATHANI felt like an absolutely horrible beast or maybe that was what I wasStarved of attention?If there was anything, I would admit that I have been the one acting like a starved and crazed person anytime she was near.I had only said that to infuriate Rodrigues, her father more than he already was.I did not stop to think that she might be listening in or it was the worst thing to say about a girl I have come to like.I winced, rolling my tongue in my mouth as the pain from being punched in the face kicked in.Williams walked into the open room with surprise on his face.”What happened?” He asked immediately.“It is over” I told him, my voice unbelievably calm.“What have you done, Clark”I whirled at him with anger in my eyes“What makes you think I am the one at fault? You are the reason everything has gone to fucking shit” I barraged him. “What did you think was going to happen when you decided to invite Rodrigues and I?”I took a deep breath envisioning Camilla’s disapproving
CAMILLA“We really need to talk” I heard Nathan whisper from behind me.“I have nothing to speak to you about. Are you ready?” I asked him.“I am but-”“Then we should leave to the bar”I turned to look him over, angry at the flutter in my chest and the way my whole being appreciated his looks.He had jeans on and I never thought anyone would look absolutely stunning in them and there was the shirt he was wearing which was rolled up to his elbows, giving free view of his tattoos.I stilled my panicked heart, turning back around and taking a step before he stopped me with a hand on my arm.“I want to apologize for the things I did earlier. It was mean of me to try to take away the seriousness of your feelings and I am sorry. I should be a better person than that” He had a contrite look on his face as he said this.“I am not mad at you, Nathan” I lowered my voice. “I just feel I am more invested in this business than you are and I need you to be professional and take it seriously”He no
CAMILLAWhat had I been expecting?A profession of love?I knew the sort of person Nathan was… a hard man and I had thought maybe I would be able to get through to him and why?Because I found him intriguing? Because I loved his view on life or is it because I wanted to do all I could to get out of my father’s shadow.No, that is wrong.Nathan Clark might have been my ticket out but I had come to understand and admire him as an individual.He was a fighter that much was obvious but he was also an asshole.I locked the adjoining door as soon as he left, leaning against it with the tears stinging the corner of my eyes.Another knock“Camilla” My father’s voice came through.“Give me a minute” I called out.I stared at myself in the mirror, running my fingers through my hair.When I opened the door, my father knew immediately that something was wrong.“Are you okay?” He asked“I am fine” I responded. “I was just sleeping” I added so he did not ask any more questions.“I know we should ta