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Chapter Twenty
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2021-09-01 08:01:45CADEN'S POV
The realisation that I wasn't what Jade needs hit me harder than I wanted it to, more than I needed.
I know I should stay away from her like I did since my return here, well, until my book found its way into her possession, but I knew my answer to that already even before I could admit it to myself.
There's no way in hell that I can, not anymore.
I've somehow managed to cross some fucking invisible boundary that we had and now, I don't know how to uncross it, I don't even want to.
I'm no angel, I say this because I want hold on to her until it hurts too much to and even then I'm not sure I'll be ready to let go.
That's how bad I need her now, after endless denial and abstaining.
For the rest of the school hours, my mind stayed fixed on cracking this mystery of the 'little clown fucker' before the psycho really hurts her.
It scares me to imagine them doing her anymore harm.
By the end of it though, all I had w
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