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16. See beyond looks
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2020-07-21 13:21:04Synopsis
In all my years I have always held on to my late father's words, when one door closes another one opens, always stay strong and positive, but as time goes on I'm slowly breaking down, being married to a man that will never love me is so heartbreaking than death.
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Natasha's p.o.v
In all my years I have cried, I have cried because of sorrow and pain, but never of joy, I had always believed in the words my father had once told me.
"No matter how hard life is, there will always be an opening, always stay strong and positive"
Even
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