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THIRTY SIX
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2024-12-21 11:16:53
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TEMPTING THE LONER THIRTY SEVEN
- CAMERON - My thumb flips over my lower lip. I’m in the cubicle, under the shower and warm water runs down my body. My decision shocks me sometimes, I had her right where I wanted yet I chose to be decent. I raise my chin up and close my eyes, letting water pour down my face. I have a lot of things on my mind. I’ve got so many questions about our dinner night and other things yet I choose to ignore finding the answers. Is this what we call fear? Is it possible I’m afraid of something that I don’t want to accept as a reality so I choose to bask in the moment rather than doing what the old me would do? I have no answer to this and it’s shocking. Who is the old me? The old me was a ruthless punk who preyed on weaker beings. Sometimes. Deep inside, there was a human who yearned to be seen and be free and now I’ve got that freedom, I guess part of me doesn’t want to ruin it by reading too deep into situations. I guess this is me trying so desperately to be normal. The ends of
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-22TEMPTING THE LONER THIRTY EIGHT
- ISOBEL -I squeal as I step into the bathroom to rinse my face. I’m sleepy but not too sleepy and since I’ll be on a bed for much longer, I know I’ll dose off but for now, I’ll do my best to stay awake as much as I can.He touched me! My heart dances in my chest.I can’t get over the fact that Cameron laid his hands on my skin. I felt his need. I felt the desire as he fondled my skin. My eyes close as the images of us together drops in my mind. I move my hand over my body, imagining his, and a smile forms on my lips. My eyes comes open and I stare at my reflection in the mirror. I turn the sink tap off, maintaining my smile.I guess some good does come from having no place to stay. Speaking of which, I need to start virtual apartment hunting, it’s urgent. I walk out of the bathroom and sit on my bed, pulling the covers open so I can lie down comfortably. Just the thought of Cameron funding my apartment gives me an unsettling feeling but I guess it’ll be alright. It has to be. Back
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-23TEMPTING THE LONER THIRTY NINE
- ISOBEL - I turn my head to the side, clenching my fists deep into the pillow like I’m trying to strangle it as a disturbing image flashes in my head. It’s one of those nights that I am aware that I’m dreaming but the event in the dream feels so real that it seems like reality is only an illusion and I’m actually trapped somewhere else foggily assuming my whole life. If this hell hole where Cain exists is the life I imagined for myself, then I want an out of this fabricated illusion. But I can’t get out. My brows furrows and a troubled grumble leaves my lips. No matter how much I try to wake up from this nightmare, I can’t. . . . Like typical dreams, nothing in this world makes sense. One minute you’re in a forest and the next, you’re drinking tea in a hut. One second you see your friend, then the friend changes into someone who looks nothing like her but you know that person represents your friend, and like that was clearly a hallucination, the friend you thought you
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-24TEMPTING THE LONER FORTY
- CAMERON- “While I am impressed by your enthusiasm to know her, I am not willing to dive into such discussions with a pregnant woman.” Hormones do act crazy at that stage. I don’t want to have someone crying on my neck. Mason, Emily’s husband, will not be happy. Just to be clear, Mason Anchester Kabello is his full name but I refer to him as Anchester most times. “Oh puh-leeze! I’m pregnant not unable to listen to interesting gossip, spill, spill.” Emily urges, sticking to my side. Her small hands tugs at the sleeve of my suit gently as she looks at me. I don’t return her gaze, I’m not inclined to. “You’re not even looking at me!” Her voice makes me lower my gaze. She sounds sad. On a normal day, I would discard it and tag it as she trying to baby voice me to do her whims but now that she’s pregnant, it could actually be her hormones acting out and escalating every single thing she feels. I hope not. Oh, this is bad, how does one respond to a pregnant woman? One who’s h
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-25TEMPTING THE LONER FORTY ONE
- ISOBEL - I brush my hair backwards, fixing my makeup and getting all dolled up in front of the full wall mirror in my hospital room. Nina got it for me. Along with good clothes which I am putting on right now. My eyes fix on the perfectly laid hospital bed that once housed my body and the folded hospital clothes on top of it through the mirror. I make a face. I won’t miss this place. I sure as hell won’t miss what it did to my mind that night when Nina alerted me of taking care of A. Should we still refer to him as that now that he’s out of the way? I can’t tell, but knowing there is no ‘family home’ to go back to and no toxic stepbrother monitoring my every move while making my life hell is the most relaxing thing to ever happen to me. I take a deep breath, rubbing lipstick on my bottom lip. A subtle curl appears at the end of my lips as I soak in how well the colour suits me. Red is definitely my colour, it depicts certain parts of me quite adequately. A deep breath leaves m
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-26TEMPTING THE LONER FORTY TWO
- CAMERON - I just spoke with Emily’s husband. It’s adviced she stays in the hospital till her due date. Of course she hates the sound of that but there’s not much of a choice to bargain on. She was lucky I was present when this happened to her. I don’t want to even think about how much worse it would’ve been if I wasn’t here. I sigh, walking out of her hospital room. Seeing her get ridden on a bed into the hospital scared me. It gave me a strange sense of Deja vu I never experienced. It made me think of my father. . . . think of his death despite not being there to witness it. For once, today in my life, I was afraid of losing someone I hold dear and trust me, worry is not something I’m accustomed to. A vibration in my pocket makes me dip my hand inside to grab my phone. I have several messages from my siblings, from The Lawyer and one from Isobel. I massage my temples with my fingers before staring at my phone screen again. The only person I want to respond to right now is t
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-27TEMPTING THE LONER FORTY THREE
- ISOBEL - I’m in a bar. The bar of a club to be precise and I’m here with Nina, she’s not by my side right now but she’s in this very club with me. A smile purses on my lips as I soak in the extravagance of the club as well as the colour changing lights. It’s quite odd that the first place I go to after my newfound freedom is a bar, but I still can’t comprehend the fact that I’m free and pulling an all nighter in a club without being reprimanded or getting threat texts from my family or anyone else and this proves a lot of things. I shove my head to the side, enjoying the beat of the music harmonising throughout my body, I’m not drunk, but tonight, I think I will be. All for the fun of it. All for the feel of it. My excitement is through the roof right now and nothing. . . And no one is going to ruin that. I bring my hand holding a glass of whiskey to my face and slurp down large portions of it down my throat when I feel the presence of someone near me. It’s a female, A
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-28TEMPTING THE LONER FORTY FOUR
- CAMERON - I get out of my car, slamming the door hastily while checking my phone to know I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. This is the right location. I dip my phone into my pocket, walking out of the car park of the club. Anastasia better hope I don’t find her. She’s in for something, that’s for sure. “Your fee, mister.” A man welcomes me at the entrance of the club, face hard and rugged as he could make it to be. He looks like a pro bouncer. Between the two of us, I know one blow is all it takes to get him on the ground but I didn’t come for violence. My reputable presence is too much of status to tarnish. I hold my credit card out, signifying that I’m ready to pay the bill when someone walks out of the club holding a drink. She has too much of a huge smile plastered on her face for what she’s done. “Cameron!” Ana beams, walking to me. “Finally, you arrived it.” She staggers onto me, hanging her arms on my shoulders to give the illusion that she’s drunk. I raise a br
Huling Na-update : 2024-12-30
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TEMPTING THE LONER EIGHTY FOUR
- CAMERON - I stand in front of my mirror, getting dressed for my evening. I have a surprise date planned tonight for the two of us. One I know she’d love. It’s been a while since I caught myself getting dressed for a lady. It’s been a while since I found myself trying to leave a remarkable impression about myself to someone and I can’t deny, while I do feel rusty in that aspect, I sure do enjoy putting in the work, if this can be considered as work. The ends of my lips curl into a smirk. I walk to my perfume drawer. I press the button at the side and the glass door display slides open. I take my favourite cologne out and spray it on both my wrists when I hear the chime of my phone. I walk to my room, holding the bottle of perfume in my hand, to get to my phone which is on my bed. The moment I stand right in front of my bed, I pick my phone up and stare at the screen. ‘Don’t wait for me, I’m not coming.’ This makes my jaw clench. I guess my night just took a turn and
TEMPTING THE LONER EIGHTY THREE
- ISOBEL - I still don’t get it. Imagine dashing away from a conversation, leaving someone alone with no word or text as to why. Especially after I opened up. It shouldn’t bug me as it does. After working today, he was the only one I could think about. What happened in the park was the only thing playing in my mind. Did I scare him off with my question? Did he only respond that way to ease my mind just to leave at the first chance he got? I huff, my eyes on my phone. I am laying flat on my bed with my hands holding my cell phone to my face. I have received no text from him. Not a single one. Now, if I had people in my who I could talk to, I’d probably be out for drinks but here I am, fantasising about a man who left me at the park. This is pathetic. I am too old for this and I certainly am too much of a catch to have one man invade my head and plague my thoughts this much. So many people would want to be with me. So many men. But are any of the men him? M
TEMPTING THE LONER EIGHTY TWO
- CAMERON - I arrive at the hospital. Richard is registered in one of the rooms here. I still cannot believe he got involved in a car accident. What on earth was he doing? His job? He needs to take it easy. He’s all I’ve got. Literally. I know he works for me but I do care about his wellbeing and that man does not seem like someone who values his own wellbeing considering he’s always here to help twenty-four seven. “Thank you.” I say to the nurse at the entrance check out who just let me know his room number. “Anytime Mister Su Li.” She responds. I dash away when I hear her call forth the name of someone. Probably the relative of a patient admitted in here. I let out a sigh while taking the elevator. My mind is a total chaos right now. Please, Richard, be okay, I say to myself in my head trying to blow off some steam. Part of me is plagued by something. Did he get this accident while trying to do my bidding? I can’t tell but I hope not. I hope he’s safe and out of da
TEMPTING THE LONER EIGHTY ONE
- CAMERON -She's hurt. I've been in a place where I forgot myself so I can easily tell when someone is going through the same thing.I don't know what Isobel's demons are or what it is that happened that makes her want constant reassurance, but I'll be here to give it to her. I'll always be here to let her know that she can lean on me and I would never judge her. Ever.I watch her make her way to the ice cream van with the kid. I squint, resting my elbows on my knees to have a good view.I'm not staring at any other part of her but her waist, hips, and my favourite part? Her ass. I feel like an asshole but I can't help myself. I avert my gaze away, trying to be decent when a call cuts me short.My brows furrow when I dip my hand in my pocket to bring my phone out. The caller ID is vague to me. I pick up, holding my phone to my ears. "Hello?"The caller murmurs something to me. This makes my heart skip a beat. I'm afraid I have to leave. It was Richard. He just got into an accident. O
TEMPTING THE LONER EIGHTY
- ISOBEL - With every step he takes closer to me, my heart races with anticipation. This is nothing extraordinary, he’s just here to keep me company yet I can’t get over the kind gesture. Maybe it’s because I’ve not had friends since I was a teen and lost touch on what it’s like to have people to hang around with, I shrug, I am not sure, but the feeling is nice. I’m as lonely as the word lonely can get, I have nothing of extra value apart from my savings, which I managed to have from mostly my dad and hard work but other than that, I’m just an ordinary lady yet this man who seems to have everything is going through this ‘ordinary’ path to be with me. I like it but I can’t help and wonder why. I certainly hope Nina didn’t put him up to it, something tells me that for him to be present in her congratulations party, they must have some sort of relationship beyond the work place and it would suck if she did because that would mean his actions are nothing but pitiful to me, but I d
TEMPTING THE LONER SEVENTY NINE
- ISOBEL -I wait a little longer. The small fingers which cling onto mine alerts me that I need to act fast. "I think that speaks for itself, you're not needed here, at all." I emphasise on the last two words on purpose.First off, it's a bad look for me as the baby sitter. I can't have men hanging around me whine doing my job. Cameron is the only man I have in my life and he's not even in my life anymore exactly and that makes it worse.No parent would want their child with a stranger who's accustomed with the nanny. Especially if that child exhibited signs of discomfort which James is giving off now.Cameron stands up. He's facing me. My brows are furrowed. "Thank you for offering and dropping by but we'll be fine on our own. I'm working." I say to him.He's rich. I'm just a babysitter. I don't complain about my line of work though but he won't feed nor pay my bills."Another time, please." I add, my tone serious. I can't come off as welcoming. Not in this case."I'm sorry for both
TEMPTING THE LONER SEVENTY EIGHT
- ISOBEL - “If I didn’t know better, I’d say you’re stalking me.” I say the moment he gets over here. Good thing I decided to change outfits today. I can’t imagine how embarrassed I’d be if he got to see me in an I don’t give a shit outfit. Cameron probably might not care but I will. In fact, he should. He’s a freaking CEO. The people who he associates with should look befitting I guess. Or I at just be overthinking? I drape my eyes up and down his body. Cameron always looks so perfectly dressed. And no, I don’t think I’m overthinking. If I haven’t spent a night at his place, I’d assume he wears corporate clothes to bed. “I don’t know, maybe.” He responds, looking at me straight in the eyes with a sinister look on his face. This suddenly makes me feel uncomfortable. For what it’s worth, between the two of us, I’m the stalker and stalkers don’t fret nor expose it! Tch. My eyes are still glued to his. His darkened gaze makes my stomach clench. Cameron diverts his attenti
TEMPTING THE LONER SEVENTY SEVEN
- CAMERON - I drink out of my coffee, sipping it while letting the hot liquid burn my tongue. I’m meeting someone here today. A very important person. I bring the coffee mug to my mouth again, breathing into it through my mouth and inhaling the steam, while staring out the glass walls of this café, my attention outside before taking a sip. To think just not long ago, this was me in this same spot almost every morning, battling with severe depression makes a half grin form on my lips. Slowly but surely, I feel the sad feeling slipping away. And it’s nice. The door bell chimes and my attention is diverted to the door. A familiar figure waltz in with someone. I’m torn with a sense of deja vu as Isobel makes her way inside with a little boy by her side. One whose face I remember a little too well. This makes my grin widen. Funny how fate has it that I have someone to meet today too. Just like the first time we met. The representative of the airline I’m about to purchase is
TEMPTING THE LONER SEVENTY SIX
- ISOBEL - “You did not!” Nina exclaims. I don’t have to look at her to know she’s stunned. I’m standing in front of a mirror in my room while zipping up the back of my shirt on my own. “I did.” I respond. My back is to her. “No you didn’t.” She pushes, sat on my bed. I laugh. “I actually did.” “No freaking way!” Nina says. I walk to the other end of my room where my bed is to get my watch from my bed table. I place it on my wrists and put it on myself. Nina can comfortably aid me with dressing up but I’d rather do it myself. I’m used to it so I find no issue doing it alone even though she’s in here. “Nina,” I take a short pause. “As I have said a thousand times already,” I emphasise on this statement, “I did.” I finally add, meeting her gaze with a smile. Even I can’t believe it to be honest. I left him that way. The look on his face as his body parted from mine was cinematic. The sight of his erection pleased me. For so long, that man has left me wanting and it’s
